Recap:
"I..." Started but he cut me off.
"This isn't gonna work" He said his hand moving back and forth between us.
I felt my heart shatter.
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"What?" I managed to get out, his words periced me like a knife. I couldn't help but wonder if this was what Tim had felt like with his knife wound.
"We're to different, I'll hurt you, change you, then leave you" Dally said pulling a fag from behind his ear and lighting it. The only thing I could think was Darry doesn't let anyone smoke in the house.
I just sat there in silence, staring at him, not understanding what was happening. My brian just wouldn't process the words, leaving me frozen until finally I uttered
"You're hurting me now"
As soon as I spoke those words it was like a flood gate opening. The pain of his words washed over me causing the tears to start, until I was full blown sobbing. I couldn't even move to curl myself into a ball. I just sat there staring at him threw my tears.
"Rachel..."He started but was drowned out by my sobs.
I couldn't believe whatever was between us was over so quickly.
I could see his lips moving but I just couldn't focus on what he was saying all I could focus on was this pain in my chest, that none of the fairy tales my grandmother used to read to me had ever included.
I don't know how he moved so fast but one second I'm sitting crying in my bed, the next Dally's yanking me up from my bed my nightdress fluttering awkwardly around me.
My tears had ceased momentarily, I stared up at him in confusion.
"I..." Started to attempt to talk but was stopped by his lips crashing down on me.
I felt as though his emotions were drowning me, every kiss with Dally was different from the last, it was going to take me forever to figure what each meant out.
Though somehow I doubted that this was a goodbye kiss, as his tounge entered my mouth and his hands slide to my hips pulling my tightly against his hard body.
I was in heaven.
We broke the kiss for air, I attempted to speak again only for it to come out a moan, as his lips kissed a spot under my ear making me shiver.
The faint sound of a door slamming broke us apart.
Dally rested his forehead against mine and stared me deep in the eyes.
"I don't wanna hurt you, ever" He said quietly, so quietly I had to strain to hear him, though I was right in front of him still fully pressed against him.
I nodded not sure how to respond, his eye keeping me hypnotized with there intensity.
"I don't want to change you, I want you to stay you" He all but whispered to me.
I nodded again at a loss, knowone had ever said anything remotely like that before. Everyone always had some opinion on how I should fix myself, even if they never voiced it I could see it when they looked at me.
It felt amazing not to have to worry about myself lacking for Dally, it was like a weight removed itself from my shoulders.
I sagged slightly against him, my head tucked in his neck, breathing in his scent. The coolness of his leather jacket washing over my face.
I stood up on my tip toes and kissed his neck, like he'd done to me.
He growled pulling me against him, I melted at the sound.
I kissed his neck again sucking slightly, he growled even longer before grabbing my hair and pull my head back away from his neck and crashing his lips onto mine. Moaning I wrapped my arms around his neck, sighing contently.
Abrutly he pulled away kissing my forehead lightly before sitting me on the bed and standing back.
"We need to slow down" was all he said before walking to my window and opening it before climbing out and leaving.
Snapping out of my stupor I ran to the window
"Wait" he stopped turning to look at me.
"Will you come by tomorrow?" I asked losing my courage and feeling my usual shyness filling me, I could feel my cheeks heat up.
"Yea babe I'll come by tomorrow" He said with a smirk and a wink that made me weak at the knees.
I shut my window locking it into place and floated back to my bed a huge grin on my face. Suprisingly I didn't focus on him trying to end us before we began instead I thought about his words and kisses.
I drifted off happy with the world.
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Darry's POV
I jumped up after Soda as he made to follow Dally to Rachel's room. I didn't like the idea of them anymore than he did but we all needed to calm down and think about this before we go in bashing heads and scareing Rachel.
I grabbed Soda's arm right before he made contact with doorknob.
"Darry wha" He started but I just dragged him back to the living room I didn't want to have this conversation outside her room.
"Soda you need to calm down" I said trying to stay calm and not give into my eurge to go head to head with Dally. I was the adult here I had to keep everyone from getting hurt, and everything falling apart.
"How can you say that Dar, Dally's in there with RACHEL doing who knows what but I'm pretty sure we all have an idea" Soda said getting angry I hadn't seen him angry like this in so long.
"Soda yes Dally is in there with RACHEL but it's still RACHEL do you really think for a second anything beyond kissing is going to go on" I asked my common sense silently praying to appeal to his.
My words seemed to deflate his anger as suddenly as it had appeared.
"Aw hell Dar it's Rachel in there" He stated turning his head towards the hallway.
"I know Soda I know" I said in what I hoped was a comforting voice.
"It's Rachel" He said again quietly
"I know and believe me I'm with you on wanting Dally far away from her. But we need to take breath and figure out how to deal with this" I said my hand scratching the back of my neck feeling wary.
"What do you mean?" Ponyboy asked and for a second I was startled I had forrgotten that they were still here, I'd been so focused on keeping Soda calm, I thought at I looked around there room Two-bit was picking half heartedly at a plate of chocolate cake, Steve was sitting silently on the couch watching Soda and I carefully and Pony was stand in the corner arms folded across his chest.
"I mean that if we go charging in there attacking Dally were going to be the bad guys. This is all new to Rachel she's actually embracing her new life and we don't want to do anything to set her back" I said silently wondering to myself where these words of wisdom were coming from.
Silence decended over the room and I could see everyone really taking in what I had said.
"Jeez Dar I know your right, but did it have to be Dally?" Soda asked his voice full of regret.
"As much as I wish it wasn't, I'm glad it it" I said and I could feel the looks everyone was giving me, as if I was crazy.
"What" Soda asked his voice serious
"Think about it, it's Dally, know one goes against him unless there stupid and he fixes them if they are. As much as I hate to admit it Dally's the only one I don't worry about Rachel being with. Because I know that if anyone tried anything Dally would take care of it. He'd keep her safe, and thats what she needs right now" I answered
"Yea but who's gonna keep her safe from him" Pony questioned his voice low.
"We are" I answered immedeantly
"How" Steve asked
I didn't reply for a second because I wasn't sure what to say.
"Were not going to make a big deal about this" I said finally
"What" Soda questioned incrediously
"If we fight Rachel about this it's going to make her feel alone, like she can't come to us, which will drive her away and thats the last thing we want" I said slowly taking in everyones thoughts.
They all slowly nodded.
"So what are we gonna do" Two Bit questioned speaking for the first time in a while, I knew he had a soft spot for Rachel, she was like his kid sister.
"I'm not sure I've never been in this situation so I guess were going to just take it slow" I said feeling useless at not having the answers for everyone.
They nodded in understanding.
"But whatever we do were going to be watching them carefully. I don't think that Dally would push Rachel, but I want to be in the know about them, because I know Dally won't be talking about what's going on between them, and I for one don't wanna talk to Rachel about this" I said my face forming in discomfort at the thought of talking to Rachel about what her and Dally are doing.
"Yea that's like talking to your parents about it" Two bit said quickly with a sour look easing some of the tension from the room.
I glanced at Soda and saw his face was still heavily set, I waited silently for him to come to a decision.
"You're right, but that doesn't make it easier, I need air" Was his reply before turning and heading out the front door closing it with a slam.
"I'll go talk to him" Steve said jumping up and heading out into the night leaving the rest of us in silence. I sat down in my chair sighing heavily, I felt like I'd aged twenty years today.
"I'm gonna go visit Johnny" Pony said suddenly startling me out of my thoughts. I was going to object it was to late to be walking alone, but before I could voice the words Two bit jumped in.
"I'll go with him Darry don't worry" Two bit said and a look of understanding passed between us.
I nodded and Pony jumped up and headed out the door Two bit following leaving me in silence.
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Soda's POV
I left the house I couldn't stand to be there knowing I couldn't protect Rachel by getting Dally the hell away from her. Rachel's always been the sister I never had, so innocent it was hard enough when her grandmother died and she had to enter our world, but knowing Dally was speeding the process along made me mad.
But Darry's right if I make a big deal about this to her it would push her away and that was the last thing I wanted.
Steve followed after me as I left the house, we walked for a while, neither of us talking both just lost in thought. I'm not sure how long we walked but when we eventually did make it back to the house all was qiuet and peaceful, unlike what I felt. I didn't want to go inside right away so I opted to stay out on the pourch Steve again followed my leave and sat with me.
Still neither of us spoke, but it was a comfortable silence.
Suddenly my attention was drawn from my thoughts as I saw a person walking from the side of the house. I knew instantly that it was Dally.
"Dally" I called out before the smart part of my brian could stop me.
He stopped walking and turned I could see he was on the defensive as soon as he saw it was me. I stood up and headed towards him, Steve on my heels making sure I didn't do anything stupid.
I just stood there looking at him, trying to surpress the anger I felt.
"You hurt her and I'll kill you" I said finally after a long silence my voice deadly serious. I realized I'd never said something I meant more than that before in my life.
Dally didn't reply he just looked at me, assessing me silently, which normally would have made me nervous because it's Dally the toughest hood I've ever met. I could feel Steve waiting for the explosion to errupt from him, Dally was known for his temper, and confronting him head on with threats wasn't smart on anyones part.
"I hurt her and I just might let you" He said quietly before turning swiftly and disappearing into the darkness that filled the night, leaving me dumbfounded my jaw practically on the ground.
I glanced at Steve to see his reaction and saw it was the same.
This just got alot more complicated it seemed that Dally had true honest to god feels for Rachel.
Aw shit I couldn't help but think and I turned swiftly to head back into the house I need sleep, so much had happened today that I felt like I was on over load.
Know matter how hard I tried I couldn't think of anything else and one thought just kept replaying in my mind over and over like a broken record.
Dally has true honest to god feelings for Rachel.
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Pony's POV
The walk to Johnny's was quiet at first not even Two bit could believe all of the drama that had gone down I think.
"Wow" Was all he'd said the whole time we'd been walking.
"I wanna tell Johnny about Rachel and Dally" I said breaking the silence.
"You sure that's a good idea Pony" Two bit asked seriously
"Yea he don't talk about it when you guys are there but he does with me. He knows Dally took what happened to him hard. I know he obsesses about it more than he tells me I just think he'd be happy to know that Dally's getting better" I said giving more details than I had planned to.
"Getting better?" Two bit questioned
"Don't tell me you haven't noticed, ever since you guys ran into Shepards gang and Curly grabbed her and Dally told everyone she's his girl, he's been better. He stopped picking fights with random hood and Soc's he stopped drinking as much and going threw girls" I said thankfully relieved that it had played out this way. I didn't think Johnny could take the death of Dally, which was what I had been silently fearing would play out until recently.
"Yea I guess I wasn't paying to much attention to him lately" Two bit said lightly
"That's because normally you're with him when he's drinking and fighting" I said with a smirk
"True" Two bit answered with a grin
"I'm thinking about asking Rachel to talk to Dally about Johnny, see if maybe she can get him to come visit Johnny for a little I know it would make his week" Pony said after a comfortable silence.
"I don't know Pony" He said to me quietly
"Why not" I asked stopping quickly and turing to face him
"I'm just not sure if I would put her in the middle like that" He answered rubbing his neck like Darry did when he was stressed.
"How so" I questioned
"If you ask her to talk to him about it, she probably won't give up until he goes which would cause strain between them which will cause Dally to go out and o something stupid which will all but kill Rachel" he answered and I was shocked by his insightfulness
"wow that's really good" I said in awe
"I have my moments" was all he said as we continued on to Johnny's house.
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Well for my first real chapter being back without my beta looking at it I hope I did okay! Let me know, I can take any flames, as long as there gentle lol. Thank you all so much for your reviews!!! Please keep them up!! If you do I'll post another chapter by wed!!! SO EVERYONE REVIEW!!! lol thanks again