Fearless

Skylar curled up onto her side on her bed in defeat. She was unable to find Serana... She had hit the point where she could not walk around anymore, her poor leg just could not seem to handle the stress yet. The other werewolves said they would try and find her. Skylar didn't say why it was so important... They just thought that their little pup was worried.

The truth was Skylar didn't want them to find her... She knew what they would do to her if they knew of her cravings. Skylar wanted... Needed to be the one to find her. She didn't know what she would do when she did but she knew it had to be her.

Skylar hugged the pillow Serana seemed to have claimed against her chest like she had done almost the entire week.

"They will find her." Dash said from where he sat on top of a dresser. Skylar was silent for a moment. "Dash..." She finally managed.

"Yes?" Dash answered her.

Skylar wanted to tell him about Serana, she wanted advice, she desperately wanted an answer... But instead... "I... I.. Can I be alone... Just for tonight..." Skylar said in a quiet voice.

Dash had watched over her since Serana left... Dash was silent for a moment before he answered. "Of course." He finally said as he hopped off of his spot. By the looks of things... Skylar looked like she was going to cry and didn't want anyone to see. He respected her wish and left.

After a few moments of looking up at the moon from the open window Skylar buried her face into Serana's pillow as her body curled into it even more. She breathed in her sent. Tea... And flowers. She could also smell the outside as well. The trees, grass, earth. She wondered if it was because of all their adventuring.

Skylar managed to fall into a restless sleep. She tossed and turned as images of her past caught up with her. Bandits and their cruel punishments lash out at her causing her scars to scream with pain. She felt it when the bandits boot collided into her stomach after she lost a match in the ring. She had fallen onto her side in exhaustion only to be kicked while she was down, and dragged off to face the next punishment. That time it had been lashes.

Right before the whip made contact she woke with a start.

She kept her eyes closed tight for a few more seconds until she was certain it was only a dream and she was free. Sometimes she feared that her freedom was the dream and that she was still trapped in that horrible place.

After a few more seconds she realized that someone was running their hand through her hair. Her eyes slowly opened and she turned over. Her heart skipped a beat when she saw a familiar face.

Serana smiled sadly down at her. "Hi." She said as she pulled her hand away when Skylar sat up. She had been there watching Skylar trapped in her own mind, she wanted to wake her so badly, hold her and tell her it was only a dream. But ah had decided against it... She didn't know how Skylar would react after her episode earlier that day.

"Skylar..." Serana began. "I..." She said but Skylar placed her hand on top of hers stopping her from continuing.

"I know, and you don't have to apologize." Skylar murmured quickly.

But Serana shook her head and pulled her hand away gently. "I almost killed you." Serana said quietly.

"You know what...? I don't believe you." Skylar snapped firmly yet gently.

"What?" Serana shook her head and looked at her.

"I think you would have stopped before it got too far." Skylar said with a small smile.

But Serana only looked away, "I had no control."

Skylar sighed and thought for a moment. "Why didn't you tell me?" She asked gently.

Serana shrugged, "I thought... I thought I could control it by drinking animal blood." She said slowly. "I mean I helps, before I came here I hunted and I have more control now." Serana said with a small smile as she looked up at Skylar.

"But the craving is still there...?" Skylar asked her, and Serana nodded. Serana was waiting for Skylar to tell her to leave, to get away from her because she was nothing more than a leach.

"So you have more control now though right?" Skylar asked her. Again she nodded. "But you can douse the craving with human blood and it would go away."

Serana nodded, "I would be able to last up to two maybe three months off of a pint of human blood." Serana said slowly. "But I'm fighting it... I don't want to hurt anyone." She said firmly.

Skylar was silent for a moment before she nodded at an idea that popped into her head. "Then feed off of me." She said as she took hold of Serana's hands.

"Skylar!?" Serana's eyes went wide as she felt the craving begin to surface at the idea, she nearly scrambled away from the little wolf. "No, I would never do that! I could kill you!" She said as she pulled her hands away.

"You have more control now with the animal blood in your system, I believe you will not take enough to kill me, only enough to keep the craving at bay..." Skylar paused as she watched as so many emotions played across Serana's face. "I trust you. " Skylar said quietly.

Serana had a look of horror on her face as the images of herself killing Skylar flashed in her mind. "No." Serana said firmly. "I won't do it." She said as she stood, turned away and crossed her arms over her chest.

"Serana..." Skylar said as she stood behind her.

"No." Serana said again, this time it was quieter.

"So what then? You leave? And stay away hoping that one day feeding on animal blood would be enough?" Skylar said with her brows furrowed. "Some plan." Skylar said with a chuckle. The room was silent for a few seconds that actually felt like a year.

"Just try." Skylar finally said as she turned Serana around so that she was looking at her.

"You don't know what you are asking me to do, Skylar..." Serana said as she dropped her arms to her sides.

"I said I trust you, and i mean it. I know you will not do anything to hurt me." Skylar said slowly.

Serana went silent for a few seconds as she thought. "Alright..." She said with a sigh. "But if anything goes wrong, Anything, if you can't get me off of you, scream. I'm sure your wolf friends will be enough to pull me off of you." She said in defeat knowing that her hunger would eventually break free again, but next time she didn't know if she would be so lucky.

"Ok." Skylar said with a small smile before she looked around the room. "How do we...?" She began.

Serana laughed slightly as she watched the girl. "Lay down on the bed... I don't want to have you collapsing." Skylar nodded before she laid bed. Serana watched her as she made herself comfortable. She could see that Skylar was almost as nervous as she was herself.

Serana sat on the edge of the bed beside Skylar before she reached forward and moved Skylar's hair away from the side of her neck. "Are you sure about this..." Serana asked as she ran her thumb over Skylar's pulse point. Skylar nodded. "Are you positive? I want you to be absolutely certain." Serana said again before she bit her bottom lip.

"Serana..." Skylar chuckled. "I am sure." She said as she watched Serana nod slowly.

"Ok... If you want me to stop... Just tell me, ok?" Serana said as she looked down at her. Skylar nodded.

Serana reached over and placed her hand on the opposite side of Skylar to help her with balance. She then leaned forward and was about to go straight for her neck but she paused half way there, causing Skylar to look up at her confused.

At first Skylar thought that Serana was about to back out and retreat, but those thoughts were put to rest when Serana pressed her lips against her own.

Skylar relaxed into the kiss after a few seconds. She felt Serana's hand brush over her pulse point again as she deepened the kiss. Skylar went to wrap her arms around Serana's neck only to have Serana chuckle and take hold of her hands.

At first she expected Serana to hold her down like she had done in the back alley and she was slightly scared. But then she felt Serana entwine her fingers with her own and press her hands against the mattress much more gently than she had done in the alley.

Skylar opened her eyes and looked up at the dark haired vampire to see that Serana was staring down at her... There was something in her eyes. Skylar could see her red eyes and the hunger that was in them also... Along with many more emotions, but one more that stood out the most.. Was lust.

Just then something went off in Skylar's brain, causing her to remember a certain conversation they had... She remembered Serana telling her what biting another person had meant to a vampire. Not only was it a means to feed, but also... It was very intimate.

She felt something deep within her catch fire. She swallowed nervously as Serana kissed the side of her mouth, her cheek, her jawline until she reached her neck.

Skylar's breath caught in the back of her throat when she felt Serana's lips press against her pulse point.

Serana pulled back slightly and squeezed Skylar's hands softly. "Don't hold your breath." She whispered knowing that there was a good chance she would pass out by lack of oxygen alone. From the corner of her eye Serana watched as Skylar's chest rose and fell a few times before she kissed her neck again.

She opened her mouth and nipped at Skylar's flesh gently, as if she was trying to make a target to where her fangs would sink into. Serana promised her she would be a gentle as possible. Honestly she was terrified. She didn't know if she would have control after she tasted her blood.

But to her surprise... The moment she sunk her teeth into her neck she could already feel herself gaining control of her hunger, even before she took her first sip. The rich red liquid poured into her mouth, but she paced herself, she didn't care about how much control that she thought she had, she still was going to be so very careful with Skylar.

When Skylar felt the sharp fangs puncture her neck she thought it would be painful. She had seen when vampires attacked and fed on her fellow Dawnguard soldiers how they would scream in pain and continue to cry out as the vampire drained them of life.

This was nothing like that, instead, sure, there had been a little pinch and she would be lying if she had said that there was no pain at all, but it was nothing that she could not handle. She could tell that Serana was being so very gentle, as if she was the most breakable piece of treasure in the world. She felt Serana's hands tighten slightly against her own.

Skylar took a slow breath before she closed her eyes, she relaxed into her as she fed. It was not an unpleasant pain. It was something else, like a special kiss, where she felt as if she was giving Serana some of her life force so that she didn't have to suffer. A transfer or a borrowing of power, but even then she felt as if there was something more to it, so much more than even words could describe.

A few minutes went by before Serana built up enough will power to pull her fangs out of her neck. Once again to her surprise she did not have to fight against the craving at all, there was no fight, no struggle.

Before Serana pulled away completely she let go of one of Skylar's hands to reach over to the table that was beside the bed. She didn't have to look to find a red bottle that contained the health potion. She Pulled away from Skylar's neck long enough to bite the cork off the top and pour some of the bitter liquid into her mouth before she leaned back down and covered where she had bit Skylar with her mouth again.

With her mouth full of the liquid she swiped her tongue over the two bit marks that would soon be two faint scars. She felt the liquid leak out of the corners of her mouth but enough had made contact with the wounds to close them. She swiped her tongue over the marks again and was satisfied when she felt Skylar's smooth skin. She swallowed the rest of the bitter liquid and pulled away slightly to see, again she was met by her smooth skin, but there were two faint scars. Serana had marked her.

She took the time and ran her tongue over a part of her neck that had a little blood still on it before she pulled away completely.

Her stomach did a back flip when she saw that Skylar's eyes were closed. "Skylar." She said quickly as she cupped her face with her hands. "Open your eyes." Serana demanded gently.

Skylar did as she was told.

"Are you ok? How do you feel? Did I take too much?" Serana rambled on.

But Skylar shook her head. "Serana." She said with a chuckle. "I feel fine." She said with a smile.

Serana breathed out in relief before she buried her face into Skylar's chest. "How do you feel?" Skylar asked. "Did it work?" She pressed gently.

Serana nodded. "The hunger is gone." She answered as she pressed her forehead against Skylar's. "Something that had been clawing its way at my mind... For... I don't know how long… Is gone." She said with a laugh.

"Good." Skylar said with a smile.

Serana looked into her eyes for a few seconds before she reached forward and captured Skylar's lips with her own.

Skylar wrapped her arms around Serana's neck, as she did so she was almost surprised when she did not feel Serana's hands grab her own, instead she allowed Skylar this gesture.

Skylar could taste her own blood within Serana's mouth, it had a metallic taste to it. It made her wonder if that was the same taste Serana tasted or if it was different since she was a vampire.

She gasped when she felt Serana's hands against her stomach, she had moved the hem of her shirt up, exposing her skin.

Serana giggled after she pulled away and saw how red Skylar's face was. She ran her thumb over her stomach one last time before she pulled the hem back down and settled down beside Skylar.

"Someone is a little shy." Serana laughed.

Skylar hit her arm gently before she turned away from her embarrassed. Serana laughed again before she wrapped her arms around Skylar's mid-section and pulled her against her front so that the two of them were spooning.

"Sleep." Serana said with a smile as she buried her face into the back of her neck. Serana thought that she was about to protest but she spoke up before Skylar had the chance to. "I don't care if you say you feel fine, you still need rest." She said as she hugged her tighter. Skylar sighed in defeat and did as she was told.

Hours later Serana ran her hand up and down Skylar's arm with her brow furrowed. With all that had happened she couldn't believe that she had almost missed it.

When she had lifted the bottom of Skylar's shirt her eyes had caught something. There were scars but one in particular had irked her interest, in a more concerned kind of way. There was one Scar that was just below her belly button... It looked as if she was maimed in a way to be sure that she would never be able to have children, how? And why? Her arms subconsciously tightened around the smaller girl as she felt her concern begin to build even more.