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Chapter 17: Thoughts

As Deeks awoke from his vivid dream, his vision was filled with locks of brunette hair. There was a significant weight on his chest that Deeks identified as Kensi's head and arm. Her arm wound around his waist keeping him close while her head used his muscled chest as a pillow.

After being debriefed and changing, Deeks had driven Kensi home and showered with her before they both collapsed in bed half dressed. Deeks was finally at ease and Kensi felt at peace and safe in his embrace. Having her pressed to him was enough to keep him calm and sane.

Lying there he began to stroke her exposed back and thought back on his dream he'd just awoken from. The only thought that repeatedly ran through his mind was, 'It's too soon. There's no way. I'll scare her away.'

His dream had felt almost like a flash forward into his future life. He'd proposed in the bullpen, she'd said yes, they got married by Hetty, went on honeymoon to the Caribbean, Kensi got pregnant, they had a girl, they continued to work, Kensi got pregnant again, they had a son, they took their kids in to work.

The image of his dream, son and daughter's faces however were what plagued his mind. He wanted that. He wanted them, with Kensi. He wanted little Marty's running to and fro giving him and Kensi grief. It was the life he now wanted. Sure he didn't want it immediately, but being married to Kensi...that he wanted now, in the moment.

"Vegas isn't that far away." He mused then chuckled. Kensi would never agree to a wedding like that. Besides, they'd only been dating a couple weeks. That was hardly enough time to even begin thinking about popping the question, right? But here he was already planning his life in his dreams. Maybe he really was crazy. Besides, Kensi had been engaged once before and gotten hurt. She would definitely have reservations about being engaged again, and she had a right to be. Of course he would never do that to her. She meant too much, and frankly, he valued his life. Trouble in paradise meant trouble at work which meant even more personal trouble because he'd then have big brothers Sam and Callen on him.

As he continued to lay in bed, gently stroking Kensi's back, he continued to ponder just how he would propose to her. He wanted to do it similar to how his subconscious had done it before. After all, subconscious Marty had been very successful asking dream Kensi to marry him, and that only made Deeks grin. In due time he'd propose when the moment was right and his life would be nearly complete.

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Kensi stirred from her slumber silently to the feel of her back being touched by the gentlest of fingers. It felt very nice. Deciding against making her conscious state aware, she instead decided to just enjoy the moment and immerse herself in her thoughts.

All train of thought was directed to the man whose ministrations felt simply divine. She'd meant every word she'd said to him not twelve hours ago. He really did make her life better, in every way possible that she could think of. He made her feel invincible and even more empowered. He offered the simplest form of comfort that always happened to be exactly what she needed. He didn't always say the right things but he did the right things and gave looks that spoke volumes. She loved Marty Deeks with every part of her soul and a random thought crossed her mind. Marriage.

'I can't marry Deeks!' She immediately exclaimed internally. 'We've been dating for two weeks! No sane person would ever think about marriage this early in a relationship. Most don't even last a year.'

But then her subconscious also argued that they'd been partners longer than some people had been married.

'That doesn't count.' She scowled. 'Thats working together, not sleeping together.' She criticized her inner romantic. 'Besides, look what happened last time you thought you found the one.' She argued.

'Marty is different. He wouldn't ever do that to you, he loves you.' A part of her argued.

'Yeah, so didn't Jack and look how that turned out.' She countered.

Kensi hated how the two sides of her were at war. She hated how a part of her thought Marty would just be a repeat of Jack. He was nothing like Jack. He'd stuck around longer than Jack had without side benefits. She sighed and played it off as a deep inhale before breathing normally again, feigning sleep. She was too ashamed of herself to be able to look at Marty.

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It's short, I know, but there's only so much I can do to give you guys a chapter every day. It really is difficult, especially with my current re-appearance of vision problems. My eyes naturally jump all over the page and it takes me 90% energy just to read while everyone else only takes 10%. So the fact I like doing this and reading has baffled every doctor I've been to as most people prefer to avoid what hurts them while I indulge in it every day. So it's been difficult to look at a screen lately without getting headaches. It's the same way for note taking. It sucks and I'm really trying. I'm sorry guys. I dO Want to give you alot and give it every day. The fact I have 212 people following this discourages my wanting to take breaks and not update as well as numerous reviews. Wow, I'm sorry this was long, if it was about RDJ however it could be ten times longer. I'll stop now . Review please!