"I'm not in the mood anymore." She admitted in a bit of a scared tone.
"Fine." I said with obvious annoyance.
"I'm sorry." She apologized.
"Don't be," I quickly snapped.
"But I am, it's always the same issue with me and I know you're getting irritated with me" she said getting red in the face. I could tell her embarrassment and shame were quickly setting in.
"Look… let's just go to sleep sweetie." I said as I rubbed her messy hair.
Haley's POV (The next morning)
When I woke up, I felt like a complete idiot. Last night was a complete disaster. Luckily, Nathan was out on his morning run so I didn't have to go through the embarrassment of waking up to his questions or comments about last night.
I know it must be frustrating for Nathan, but it's frustrating for me as well. I wish it was as easy as just fucking him and getting it over with, but it meant so much more to me than a simple downtime. Nathan is the love of my life, I want him to know that I truly appreciate him. But, along the way I managed to give him grief and stress, what a wife I am; right?
Nathan's POV
During my run I couldn't help but think about my non-existent sex life with Haley. Every time we mention it, one of us gets irritated, it's amazing that we already managed to create two human beings for this world. I had to visit Lucas so we could talk about everything, even if it meant Haley getting upset for me telling him.
"I know anything I say out loud will just make it seem like I'm dogging on Haley or making her feel guilty about her experience, but it's nothing like that! I love Haley. Sex or no sex, I will always choose Haley. It doesn't matter. Sometimes I wish I were a virgin when we got together so it didn't put so much pressure on her. I hate having to deal with this back and forth because of all this unnecessary pressure." I ranted.
"Look Nate, you know how Hales is, she likes to take things nice and slow, she needs to see a thousand steps ahead of everyone. Maybe her hesitance is just a reaction, if she could turn it off I'm sure she would." Lucas stated.
"Luke, you don't think I know that? But that's what irritates me most. I've known Haley my whole life, I never thought we would be like this. It's frustrating as hell!"
"You need to think of this from Haley's perspective. Just imagine how she feels when she sees you irritated or annoyed from her involuntary reactions. You're not being open-minded about the situation."
"Hey, that is not true. If I wasn't open-minded would I really be coming to you for advice?"
"You're just desperate for an answer, I know you Nathan." Lucas joked.
"I'm just bothered by everything. I don't know, I'm an idiot."
"Help me understand, I just don't know how your relationship is exactly." Lucas posed.
"Now, I'm going to start sounding like a hypocrite, but I lived in this fantasy that Haley would be some sort of sex fiend. Knowing someone your whole life, you start imagining things, especially when our wedding approached, I just thought we'd be crazy like bunny rabbits. But even though that never happened, I never imagined this. Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad or angry, I'm just confused…GOD, I lucked out, marrying my best friend and all, but I didn't think our lives would be like this. Sometimes I wish we could just start over, but life doesn't work that way. I know I'm just beginning to sound like a clusterfuck of emotions and I'm just rambling now. Sorry Luke"
"No, no, no, it's all cool man. Any sane person would be so jealous of you. But I get it. You had all these expectations from when we were all growing up together, and… none of them came true."
After Lucas said that to me, I really began to think. His statement really resonated with me and I couldn't help but dig deeper into my emotions.
"You're right Luke… I just never thought of it that way. I mean, Haley is a dream come true. Sexually, I'm disappointed. I just don't know what to do without making it feel like im grilling her about it. I really don't want that. I want her to want it, as badly as I do."
"From the story of last night, it seems like she does bud."
Haley's POV
It was 11AM and I was still lying in bed. I didn't feel like getting up and my parents had the kiddos for a couple more hours. As I mindlessly breezed through Instagram and Twitter I realized it was getting late for Nathan's morning run, he usually came back by 9AM.
I decided to call Nathan, no answer. I quickly began running to conclusions in my head. He was definitely cheating, I know it. He was more irritable with me last night than usual. Maybe he was sleeping with Peyton again! All these thoughts were jumbling in my head, and they were suddenly disturbed by the man hugging me from behind.
"I missed you." He said as he kissed my shoulder.
"Where have you been?" I said as I tried to nonchalantly smell him for any foreign aromas.
"Just on my usual run."
"Well that took you a long time…" I retorted as I unlatched from his grasp.
"What are you trying to say?" he said growing angry with me.
"Nothing." I quickly backed down the moment his voice began to raise.
"No. Tell me, I saw you trying to sniff me out."
My eyes grew when he said that.
"Well say something!" he said yelled.
My automatic reaction was to slap him, I immediately felt guilty but I couldn't take it back.
"That's just great." He said as he felt his cheek.
"Don't pretend like you're all innocent." I answered back.
"God, what is wrong with you?! I come home telling you I miss you, and I get this jealous bullshit. Look, just because you're the insecure one doesn't make it ok to accuse me of things I obviously didn't do." He was teeming. I swear, he could burn me alive with his stare if he could.
"OH hoh. Classic turning of the tables. You're the one who's out who knows where. What could you have possibly be doing for two extra hours, I don't think you were seeing the matinee sweetie!"
"I'm just going to walk away before I do or say something I regret." He said with his teeth clenched.
"No, say it, I can take it." I foolishly said to him.
"Don't push me Haley." He warned.
"Haley I swear to god."
"What? If you have nothing to hide why are you getting so upset?" I adamantly said, he was hiding something, I just knew it.
He closed his eyes as if trying to shut me out of his world. I knew I was pushing his buttons, and believe me, I've seen Nathan practically turn into the Hulk, but he would never physically hurt me.
"Just stop this ok, we both know that I'm faithful to you." He said trying to calm himself down.
"Yeah because you've never tried to cheat on me before with Peyton."
"God, you're incorrigible, you're seriously bringing that up?"
"What? Is it not true? You know, we both know, that deep down, you're still that guy when you were with Peyton." I knew my words hurt but I couldn't help myself, I was just as mad as him, and when im mad I know I'm brutal.
"Wow, you have got to be kidding me right now. Just think about what you said ok. I'm going to leave before you make any more ridiculous accusations." He said as he headed for the door.
"Nathan, wait!" I said as he was halfway out the door.
"Not right now Haley!" he said as he slammed the door.
I was being such a bitch.
Nathan's POV
"It took all of my energy to not punch a hole through the wall. God, mentally I was strangling Haley. I couldn't believe everything she was saying to me!" I vented to Lucas.
"What the hell? That doesn't sound like Haley." Lucas responded.
"I know. It was so freaking irritating. I just walked in and she shot all these accusations at me. I could barely respond because I was so flabbergasted. Just knowing that she thinks that, makes me wonder if we should really be together."
"Hey, look, don't be irrational about this. She's just as frustrated as you are about everything."
"I didn't go accusing her of cheating on me! If she really thinks that of me, I don't know her as well as I thought I did."
"Don't get mad, but to be fair, you did technically kiss Peyton while you two were dating."
"I know that! But she made it seem like I was fucking Peyton behind her back for months. It was one kiss! I paid my reparations for that."
"She knows that, she's just upset. And probably embarrassed. This is just her defense mechanism. Just give her time."
Haley's POV
I spent the whole afternoon thinking about how I'd apologize to Nathan. I was being irrational, I didn't want him thinking I actually thought those things about him. Yeah, for a split second I thought he was being adulterous but I know it was just my paranoia. These were emotions based off my sexually frustrated state of mind.
I asked my parents if they could watch the twins longer because Nathan and I got into a bad argument. I didn't give them details but they could tell from my voice that I couldn't handle anything.
Hours passed and Nathan still wasn't home. It was a few minutes before midnight and I was seriously getting worried. I might've gotten him so angry he didn't want to go back home. But a few minutes later he sauntered through the front door.
"Can we talk?" I quickly asked as he first entered.
"I would prefer if we didn't tonight." He stated as he made no eye contact and headed towards the bathroom.
"Nathan, I know I was being irrational earlier, just let me explain." I begged as I stood in the hallway.
"I don't want to talk to you right now." He exclaimed as he shut the bathroom door right in my face.
After his shower I planned to bombard him.
"Can we talk now?" I desperately asked as he made his way to our bedroom.
"No." he answered.
"Please. I was wrong. Just let me tell you where my head was at."
"I don't need your explanations. You just blindly accused me of cheating on you." He said so angrily.
"I know, and I was messed up for doing that when I knew it wasn't true." I tried desperately to make my words seem genuine.
Suddenly, Nathan grabbed me by the arms and practically tackled me to the wall. I flinched hard when he got close to my face.
"You think I'd hurt you?" he said as put his hand on my cheek.
I shook my head no. knowing that he was warming up to me again.
"You're right, I would never hurt you, so why are you trying to hurt me?"
His question stung as I felt all my guilt stream in at once.
"My mind went to crazy places when you didn't get home at your usual time…. I was being a bitch just to prove a point to myself. I know it's childish but that's the truth."
"I don't understand you. One second you're hot, the next, you're stone cold. What do you want me to tell you? That all is forgiven, because it's not."
"Nathan, I love you and I trust you… I don't exactly get why I exploded like that earlier in the day, but I know that I shouldn't have said all the shit to you. It's unfair and untrue."
Nathan kissed me roughly. The kiss was filled with so much tension and pain and love and lust. It was the hottest kiss I've gotten in a while.
"I'm not stopping no matter what you tell me." He said in between breaths.
"I'm not going to stop you big boy." I smiled seductively.
A/N: This chapter was fun to write! I love a jealous Haley. I have been thinking about writing another story soon once this one ends. I'm thinking a five-part story filled with fluff, angst, and of course sex. I have a few ideas simmering in my head. So, let me know if you guys think that's a good idea.