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"Why'd you say you wish it was me?"

Roman immeditely looked down, he half wished he never said it, it would only complicate things more but he promised Maya he would answer her questions.

"I said I wish it was you because.." Roman trailed off thinking hard about how to word his answer as his hand fell from the door knob. "Because part of me will always wish it was you." he said trying to give an easy answer.

"Why? I want a real reason Roman. I deserve a real reason Roman." Maya said sternly but quietly.

Roman let out a deep sigh before talking again. "Because you were the one I planned a life with before wrestling happened for me. You're the one who was there for me supporting me as my dream came true. We had so many good memories and you used to be the love of my life and it's just hard to get over that. I love Jessie, I do. It's just hard to not miss you and wonder how it would be if it was you with me instead of her."

"Used to be...so she took my place as the love of your life huh?" Maya said quietly looking down.

"Maya, you have got to stop feeling like she took your place. Yes I'm with her now, but that doesn't mean she is a replacement for you. You're irreplaceable. The love I had for you was so real, but so is the love I have for her. Things and feelings change and I'm sorry you got hurt, it was never my intention. I wish I could fix it and make it right, just tell me how to do that."

"You can start by leaving." Maya said feeling the tears in her eyes.

"You called me over here for a reason! Let's talk and figure out how this can work, how we can stay in each others lives!"

"I don't want you in my life Roman!" Maya yelled looking up at him as tears flowed down her cheeks.

"That's not fair." Roman said extremely quietly, feeling his heart break.

"Yes it is! You have your dream job, and your dream girl, you're engaged and I have nothing so I think it's up to me if I want you around and I don't!"

Roman wanted to argue and tell her how they should stay friends, how it'd be better but he knew her and knew there was no changing her mind.

"Fine, I'll go. Just know you will always matter to me and I will always have love for you okay? I'm here if you ever need." Roman said before opening the door to leave.

"I wish I never met you." was the last thing he heard Maya say to him as he shut the door and walked to his car. Those words broke his heart like never before. He never imagined he would lose Maya or that she would regret him so much. He felt his eyes stinging but was trying to so hard to hold it together. He knew he should start driving but he would be driving to Jessie and at this moment in time he wasn't sure if that's what he wanted.

"Hey girl! How was the talk with Roman?" Meg said after coming home from her hang out.

"I hate him." Maya answered shortly not looking up from her computer.

"What happened?" Meg said walking up and sitting next to Maya at the desk in her room.

"He told me I was replaced. I was nice to have around but now Jessie is here and she's better so bye Maya." Maya said finally shutting her laptop.

"He said that?!" Meg asked in disbelif.

"Well...not in so many words but that's basically what he said."

"Maybe you should-"

"Maybe you should mind your business and leave me alone." Maya interuppted climbing into her bed and turning her back to Meg.

"I know you're hurt, but don't take it out on the people actually here for you. Good night." Meg said before she slightly slammed Maya's door shut.

"Hey baby!" Jessie smiled walking up and kissing Roman when he finally got home. "I ordered some pizza and wings. I figured it'd be easier to order than make something since we're back on the road tomorrow."

"Oh um yeah that works thanks." Roman said walking past her into the kitchen.

"What's wrong?" Jessie asked looking at him concerned.

"Nothing."

"Let's try again but this time you tell me the truth." Jessie said grabbing his hand and forcing him to turn and look at her.

"I went to talk to Maya."

Jessie visibly stiffened. "Why?"

"She wanted closure."

"Did she get any?"

"No. She just got to tell me she regretted me. I asked her to stay friends and she wished she never met me."

"Why would you need to stay friends with her baby? Exes don't stay friends."

"Because she was important to me Jess, you know that."

"I know you were heartbroken after her. I know you were miserable. Why want someone like that in your life?"

Roman just stayed quiet he knew if he defended Maya that it would just start an argument. Just like it did anytime he mentioned Maya.

"Look Roman, I know you cared about her but that's the past right? You're with me, I'm your future and I wouldn't feel comfortable having her in your life or around and my feelings are a little more important in this okay?"

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"I mean, you have past memories and you want to hold onto that, fine I can deal with that but, as your fiancee I think my feelings about not wanting her in your life matter more than you wanting her in it. Our relationship is number one now and your ex should stay in your past. You don't need her you have me now okay?"

Roman just nodded his head and Jessie smiled walking past him to make him a plate for dinner.

Later than night Jessie was in the shower as Roman packed their bags. Since he was alone he pulled out his cellphone unlocking it and going to his gallery. He kept looking at pictures of Maya and him, going to his messages and reading locked text messages from her.

"Don't let the old ball and chain see that." he heard from behind him turning and seeing Dean there.

"I was just um-"

"Reminscing about your ex? Yeah I can see that." Dean said sitting down on the bed.

"I saw her today, man."

"And?"

"And we talked, fought she said she wishes she never met me."

"I can see it." Dean shrugged.

"What?"

"What? That's just how she is. YOu know that. Besides what's the big deal? You moved on anyway so who cares?" Dean said.

"Who cares about what?" Jessie asked walking into the room drying her hair.

"About what we were talking about." Dean said shortly.

"Which was?"

"None of your business. There's a reason you weren't in the room while we were talking about it." Dean said rolling his eyes.

Dean and Jessie didn't get along. Not because of Maya, Dean didn't find that to be any of his business. He just didn't trust her. He thought she was manipulating Roman and it didn't sit right with him.

"Nice to see you're still an ass Dean."

"Won't ever change that with you sweetheart." Dean smiled. "I'll see you later big dog." he said before getting up and leaving.

"What was that all about?" Jessie asked Roman when Dean was gone.

"We were talking about travel arrangments."

"And hows that none of my business?" Jessie questioned.

"You know Dean just likes to bug you. That's really all it was about hun." Roman said faking a smile at her.

"Good. For a second I thought it was about Maya." she chuckled before sitting down next to him to help him finish packing.

"Yeah...definitely wasnt about her." Roman lied.