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"...what?"
"You. I want you, Maya."
"Roman, what are you talking about?" Maya asked completely confused.
"We never should have broke up. I messed up and I lied to try to convince myself it was the right decision but, it wasn't. We both know that. I want you."
Maya walked out of her house, shut the door and sat down on the stairs.
"You do realize you're engaged right?"
"To the wrong girl." Roman said sitting down next to Maya and looking at her intently.
"Roman, why now? Why are you suddenly saying this?"
"Because when I stayed the night here, it was the most at peace I felt. Waking up and you being the first person I saw made me so happy."
"You left me. You broke my heart. Then you lied to me about nothing happening. You proposed to someone else. You said she was the love of your life now, but I'm supposed to believe you want to be with me?"
"I lied. I didn't want to own up to the fact that I messed up the best thing I ever had and made an even bigger mistake asking someone to marry me so I lied. I just can't anymore."
"Why? I just don't understand."
"Honestly? I talked to Dean." Maya shot her head at Roman and looked at him surprised. "Yeah, I was surprised too. He opened my eyes though Maya. I'm so sick of pretending I'm happy and in love with the girl I'm with. I'm not."
"I just...I don't trust you anymore."
"So let me earn it back. Maya, I'm not saying jump into a relationship with me as if the past few months never happened. I'm saying give me another chance, give us another chance. I think we're worth it. We were amazing together."
"What about Jessie?"
"I'll end things with her and we'll work things out."
"Wait..you didn't end things with her yet?!"
"No. But Maya, not for a back up or anything I swear. I just wanted to come tell you first. You were the only thing in my mind. As soon as I leave here I'm going to her and telling her we're over."
"I don't know Roman. You hurt me more than anyone and that's asking a lot."
"I know, and trust me if I could take it all back I would. I am so mad at myself for what I did to you. I'll do whatever to show you. Please Maya?"
"Are you going to stay friends with Jessie?"
"Not if that's not okay with you. My only concern is you."
Maya sighed and looked at the sky while thinking over everything Roman just said to her.
"I don't know if I can do a realtionship with you again." Roman looked down at his hands and Maya grabbed his chin, forcing him to look at her, "but we can do friends again and see where that leads. But I need you to be 100% honest with me. And I need you to not have Jessie in your life. I sound crazy jealous but, I can't do it."
"She won't be in my life, I promise."
"Your promises dont' mean much to me Roman."
"I know but I'll make it up okay? We can do this." Roman smiled hugging Maya.
"Please don't make me regret this." Maya said hugging Roman back.
"So what's going on?" Meg asked as soon as Maya walked in the house.
"Umm Roman's ending his engagement. He just showed up saying he wanted me."
Meg nodded and started pouring herself a cup of coffee.
"That's it?"
"What were you expecting?"
"I don't know. A little shock?"
"The only one shocked by this is you."
"Excuse me?"
"Really girl? He still looks at you like he used to. He left his fiancee at home to take care of you. Jessie stormed out of here, and he didn't go after her. Besides Dean told me how he is without you." Meg shrugged.
"Well thanks for telling me."
"I did. You didn't listen. You weren't going to listen until it came from him."
Meg and Maya sat in silence with Meg checking her phone before Maya spoke up.
"I'm scared."
"Of what?" Meg said setting her phone down giving Maya her full attention.
"Roman. Getting hurt. Getting played. What if this is just a joke?"
"He wouldn't do that."
"What if Roman got dumped and doesn't want to be single so he came to me."
"You really think Jessie is dumping Roman? Come on now."
"Okay..but still he could have changed. What if he's still with her and just using me to cheat? What if we get back together and then he leaves me again?"
"That could definitely happen again."
"Thanks." Maya replied putting her face in her hands.
"Maya, it could happen, you two might not be meant to be and might split, it might not work. You might get your heart broken, he might get his broken. Or, it just might work out. You just might beat the odds. You can sit here all day, everyday thinking of what could happen or you can decide he's worth the risk and try with him. You need to stop keeping yourself so guarded. I know he hurt you really bad, but you never let go of him. He never let go of you. You'll never know, if you never try. Maybe you needed time apart to grow and fully be ready for each other. Either way, try it with him, or don't. Don't be in limbo. It's not fair to either of you okay? Now I need to get ready for work. I love you. Stop over thinking." Meg replied getting up and kissing Maya's head.
Maya sat at the table a little while longer thinking of what Meg told her and her own feelings. Beneath all the hurt, she was still in love with Roman. He was, at one time, her best friend, her rock and her love. Maya was so undecided about what to do, she wanted to try but she wanted to run and protect her heart. After debating for a minute or two she picked up her phone and sent a text.
Can we meet for lunch? 1 at BWWs?
"Hey, did you forget you said 1?" Dean asked standing up hugging Maya.
"I'm only 5 minutes late Dean!"
"Uh huh still late, I'm a very busy man, Maya." Dean said smiling at Maya.
"Oh I'm so sorry superstar" Maya replied and Dean let out a chuckle.
"So, how are you?" Dean asked
"Confused."
"You're always confused. It's like a permanent state, what else is new?"
"Ha ha. Very funny, Ambrose."
"What are you confused about?" Dean asked taking a drink of the beer the waitress put down in front of him.
"Roman."
"God, you two are getting ridiculous."
"Geez sorry, never mind." Maya said picking up the menu and covering her face with it. Dean grabbed it from her hands and put it on the table.
"I didn't mean it how it apparently sounded. What's up?"
"He told me he wanted me."
"About damn time."
"Dean!"
"What? He was being mopey ever since y'all split. It's about time he finally admits he still wants you."
"So he's not playing me?"
"Are you kidding me, Maya? Roman was an asshole for awhile to you, he lied and got with her but he would never purposely play you. If he said he wants you, he wants you."
"So him and Jessie are over?"
"I know he's on his way to have lunch with her. So probably will be soon."
"What if he doesnt?"
"Okay you know I love you, just as i love Roman but you two have got to stop acting like we're still in high school okay? You're both so damn scared to tell each other how you feel but so badly want to know. You both need to grow up and talk to each other not to all of us around. I know you love him, i know he loves you. Now you two, sit in a room and talk about all this shit okay?!"
"Okay..you're right."
"Okay, so text him inviting him to dinner." Dean said taking another gulp of his beer.
"What if he says no?"
"Maya! Do it before I do it for you."
"Okay.." Maya said quietly taking out her phone texting Roman. "So tell me what's been going on with you." Maya said turning her attention back to Dean.
"Roman, I am so happy you called!" Jessie said standing up from the table to hug Roman.
Roman hugged her back quickly and sat down not really looking at Jessie.
"Are you okay?" She asked.
"Yeah."
"Hey," Jessie said touching Roman's hand, which he pulled back "what's going on Roman?"
"We need to talk about us."
"Okay. What about us?"
"I think we should break up."
"What?! Why?"
"We just shouldn't be together."
"Is this about Maya?"
"It's about us Jessie. We just aren't meant to be okay? We rushed into this and I'm sorry I just don't have the same feelings. I wish there was an easier way to do this. Just know I never wanted to hurt you and I'm sorry I have to. I just can't be with you."
"This has nothing to do with Maya?"
"I'm breaking up with you because it's best for me."
"Stop dancing around the question Roman!"
"Jessie, I'm sorry."
"Are you getting back with her?" Jessie sniffiled
Roman didn't say anything just looked around avoiding her eye contact.
"Tell me."
"I'm going to try, yes."
"Wow Roman."
"Please know I'm sorry. We just never should have gotten together as fast as we did. I jumped into another relationship right after hers and mine ended to try to distract me and I never got rid of those feelings for her."
"Wowww so not only do you dump me, you tell me you regret me?"
"No! I'm not saying that. I do care for you, it's just different. I am so sorry, I never wanted you to get hurt, especially by me."
"So what now? We just go to work and carpool like nothing ever happened between us?"
"Um actually..here's the thing, for Maya to trust me I can't really have you in my life anymore.."
Jessie looked at Roman completely shocked and hurt.
"I was there for you when she wasn't. When no one was. How could you do this to me?!"
"I'm sorry! I don't have a choice okay? I messed up and this just has to happen for me to try to fix my screw up."
"Losing my finacee and best friend in the same day. That's awesome." Jessie said standing up and throwing her ring at Roman, before storming out of the resturant.
Later that night
Roman showed up to Maya's house around 7 to take her out to dinner. He brought her flowers, her favorite. Red and white roses. He walked up to the door, took a deep breath and knocked on the door.
"Hey Roman, come in." Maya opened the door and smiled.
"I got these for you." Roman handed the roses to Maya when she turned around after shutting the door.
"Wow, that's really sweet of you Roman. I'll go put these in water and then we can go."
"So I thought I could take you to my brothers resturant. The food is really amazing if that's okay with you?" Roman said when Maya came back in the room.
"Oh yeah. I've been meaning to go there but never got around to it, that's fine with me."
"I broke up with Jessie." Roman said after a few minutes into their dinner.
"How did she take it?"
"Horribly. More so when I told her she wouldn't be in my life at all anymore."
"I figured she would... look Roman, are you sure this is what you want to do?"
"Yes, Maya. Look, it sucks that her and I can't remain friends and I wish it could be different and maybe one day it can but right now I want to focus on you and on us. I want to fix this and make us work and if that means that for right now she can't be my friend, then she won't be okay?"
"What if I'm never okay with the thought of you two being friends? I mean, I hate the thought of you two even being co workers."
"Then she just won't ever be my friend. I don't blame you for how you feel about her, or her in my life. I messed up, and this is the punishment."
"Punishment?" Maya said feeling offended.
"Okay punishment is the wrong word. Consquence. I'm not going to lie to you Maya, Jessie is important to me and in an ideal world I wouldn't have to cut her out completely. But in an ideal world you and I never would have broken up and her and I never would have gotten engaged."
"You do understand why I can't handle that right?"
"Of course," Roman said reaching across the table and putting his hand on Maya's, "if the roles were reversed, I would be damned if the guy stayed in your life."
"I'm scared Roman." Maya whispered.
"Of me?"
Maya nodded her head and looked down.
"I won't hurt you, Maya."
"You've said that before. How is this time going to be different? How are we going to work? How are we not going to grow apart? Why won't we break up? What if-" Maya rushed out in one breath.
"Whoa! Maya breathe! I'm not going to just tuck tail and run this time. I'm going to make time for you, every single day. I'm going to include you in all parts of my life and I want you to do the same. I want to know who your boss is, who the coworker you can't stand is. I want to know everything and I'll tell you everything. Last time I let wrestling completely take over and put you last and I know I was wrong and I won't do it this time. You have no reason to believe me but I'm going to fight to make this work."
"Okay."
"That's it?" Roman questioned.
"I just don't know what to say right now. It's hard to open up to you now. I just need to know you're not going to freak out on me or get mad when I randomly question you, that you'll answer everything I ask."
"Deal Maya. Anything to make this work. I'll answer anything, anytime. I swear.:
Maya nodded again.
"Let's enjoy this meal okay?" Roman smiled trying to make the situation lighter.
The rest of the evening was surprisingly easy for Maya. She thought it was going to be awkard but it wasn't. It was full of reminscing, laughing and stories. She had forgotten just how easy it was with Roman and she started feeling more at ease about this decision.
It was around 10:30 when Roman finally drove to Maya's house to drop her off.
"Oh, fuck." Roman said under his breath.
"What?" Maya said following his gaze to her front door where she saw Jessie sitting there waiting for them.