Sorry I took so long to update but here's a new chapter. Review please :)
"Here let me go talk to her you wait here." Roman said putting the car in park and shutting it off.
"What? Roman this is my house, I'm not waiting here." Maya said getting out of the car before Roman even replied.
"What are you doing here?" Maya asked walking up to Jessie.
"I'm here to talk to my fiancee"
"I'm not your fiancee Jess. We broke up." Roman said slightly stepping in between the two just in case one of them tried to do something to the other.
"Whatever, we need to talk. Without Maya here."
"Then why did you come to my house?" Maya asked giving Jess a dumb look.
"I'm not talking to you, I'm talking to him, mmk?"
"Do not catch an attitude with me, when you're standing on my property mmmk?" Maya replied, mocking Jessie's tone.
"This doesn't need to happen. Jess you need to leave." Roman said sternly.
"Um I don't think so. I need to talk to you."
"There is nothing for us to talk about, please just leave." Roman pleaded knowing how pissed off Maya was.
"Fine. I'll just talk to you the 6 days I'll see you. Every week." Jess said flashing a smile to Maya before storming off.
Roman looked at Maya who just shook her head and walked to the front door.
"Are you okay?" Roman asked following closely behind her.
"You should probably go."
"What? Why?"
"I'm just not in the mood for company. Besides you gotta go get ready to go back on the road and see her for the next 6 days." Maya walked into her house and tried to shut the door but Roman put his foot in the way and followed her inside.
"Look Maya, I promised you I wouldn't talk to her anymore and that's the best I can do okay? I can't control that we work at the same job and I will see her a lot. That doesn't mean she's going to be in my life."
"Right. I'm sureeee she won't."Maya rolled her eyes, sitting on the couch.
"You gotta trust me."
Maya stayed silent looking down at her hands. Roman sighed and sat down on the table in front of her grabbing her chin, forcing her to look at him.
"I know all these issues are my fault but I promise you she will not be in my life okay? I'm trying but I need you to try to. Just try to trust me."
"I can't. I did before, and I got screwed. I don't trust you at all anymore, Roman."
"You said we could give this a try right? Start off as friends? I want that and I'm not going to do anything to screw it up again. Just don't shut yourself off to me completely, please? I'll fight for your trust and for a second chance but you gotta be willing to let it happen. "
"You're going to be around her all the time."
"It doesn't matter. Her and I are done. I cut her out of my life for you."
"She's going to try to be friends with you, or more."
"Maya. I want you. If she tries to talk to me, I'll walk away. I promise you, I want this, I want you and I'll do whatever it takes to get that second chance."
Maya just nodded her head and wouldn't look Roman in the eyes. She knew she didn't trust him, that was obvious she just didn't realize how big of a problem it would be until Jess pointed out she'd be around Roman way more than Maya would be. And Roman lied to her before and she couldn't tell so what's to stop him from doing it again.
"Are you okay?" Roman asked interuppting her thoughts.
"Ummm yeah I'm just tired. I'm going to go to sleep. Have a safe flight tomorrow." Maya faked a smile.
Roman sighed and ran his hand down his face, "Okay sleep well. I'll call you later."
Maya nodded and gave Roman a one arm hug before walking him to the door.
Later that night Maya kept tossing and turning in bed. No matter how hard she tried she just couldn't fall asleep, she kept thinking of Roman being around Jessie and having flashbacks to how everything went down.
"You're just going to sit there not saying anything?" Maya asked Roman who was sitting on their couch staring at the TV.
"What would you like me to say?"
"Oh I don't know, how about asking how my day was, or how the last three weeks were for me while you were off in Europe!" Maya yelled losing her temper.
"I was working! It's not like I took a vacation without you! Besides you didn't ask me how my trip was." Roman stated turning off the TV.
"Because I know how it was! It's always so amazing, so magical you can't believe this is your life. You tell me that EVERY week when you come home! Traveling is so amazing! Wrestling is so amazing! Being away from me is so amazing!"
"I never said that!" Roman exclaimed finally yelling back. "I'm sorry, I'm living my dream, I'm sorry I have all these experiences you don't have!"
"I was living my dream, i was having amazing experiences until you asked me to throw it all away to follow you to Florida so you could live yours!"
"I never asked you to quit chasing your dreams, Maya!"
"You just asked me to quit and put yours first."
"So what you regret coming with me?" Roman replied, his voice lowering a bit.
"I never said that. I love you. It's just...too different now."
"What is?"
"Us, Roman. You used to text me every morning and call me every night. You used to ask about how my day was, you used to have me fly to different cities to come see you. You used to care about me."
"I still do care about you."
"What's my bosses name?"
"What?" Roman asked confused.
"What's my work schedule? What's going on with my sister's divorce?"
"Your sister's getting a divorce?"
"Exactly Roman. You don't even know about my life anymore, or about who's in my life."
"I do know about you! Your boss is that one man, the bald headed man."
"That was my boss. Two jobs ago." Maya said looking down. "I used to feel like you were my best friend Roman. That no matter what went on everything was going to be okay because I had you but I don't even know you anymore. You show no interest in me anymore and the only time you talk to me is to tell me how amazing this week was, then you go to your couch watch TV and don't talk to me until it's time for you to leave again. How does this not bug you?"
"I'm sorry...I.. I guess I just didn't notice."
"Right. Because I'm no longer a priority to you. It's all wrestling, Dean and Jessie."
"Nothing is going on with Jessie! She's just a friend." Roman replied. When Maya stayed silent he continued "You are my priority. What I'm doing now is going to give us an amazing life."
"Yeah Roman, amazing. We'll have tons of money, big house, fancy cars and I'll be living with someone who feels like a stranger that's just so amazing."
"Look when I come back next week we'll go out and we'll reconnect okay? You're still a priority to me baby."
"Ask for the week off." Maya said hopeful.
"What?"
"Just this week, we can have a mini vacation and fix us."
"I can't do that."
"Yes you can."
"No I can't."
"You don't want to, there's a difference."
"Babe, I'm living my dream, and creating a bright future for us I can't just ditch that for a week."
"And while you're out there living your dream what am I? Your housekeeper? Your roommate? Because that's how it feels."
"I am not doing this on my one day off." Roman scoffed getting up to walk up the stairs.
"Great so we'll just keep sweeping it under the rug! Thanks for the attention, it really means so much!" Maya said in a sarcastic tone.
"What do you want from me?!" Roman turned and yelled.
"I want my old boyfriend back! The one who gave a damn about me!"
"And I want my girlfriend who wasn't so selfish back but oh well right?!"
"I'm not being selfish! I moved away from everything for you!"
"Stop throwing that in my face! You're a grown ass woman, you made the choice, stop acting like you did me this godly favor. I was going to do this with or without you!"
"And I guess you prefer without me!"
"Maybe I do!" Roman yelled. Roman's reponse caught Maya off guard and she got quiet, looking at the ground so Roman wouldn't see the tears filling her eyes.
"We're at two different places in our lives, Maya. I want you here, but you don't want to be here and I am not going to let your decision make or break me." Maya stayed quiet with tears now falling down her face. "So you dont' have anything to say now?"
"What do you want me to say? You don't want me around."
"I didn't say that."
"Yes you did."
"This is too hard. Maybe...maybe we need a break."
"What?"
"Relationships shouldn't be this hard. Maybe we need to take a break from each other and see how we are without each other."
"You've already seen how you are without me, and apparently it's better." Maya said finally looking up and Roman letting him see her cry. "We're not teenagers Roman. You're with me or you're not with me. I'm not doing this break thing."
"Maya please."
"No Roman. Make a decision."
"I..I can't do this Maya. We just shouldn't be together anymore." Maya felt her heartbreak but refused to break down in front of Roman.
"I'll get my stuff tomorrow, have fun with Jessie." Maya said running out of their shared house.
Maya felt tears burning her eyes at the memory. She could still feel the exact way she felt that day and she was starting to question if it would ever go away, if it would ever not sting so bad. If she was truly going to try to be Roman's friend she needed to talk to him about everything, including how much he really hurt her. She picked up her phone texting Roman telling him to come over.
A few minutes later Roman pulled up to Maya's house. He knocked on the door but no one came to it. He went to look in the window when he noticed the light in the backyard on and decided to check back there.
"Hey." Roman said seeing Maya sitting on her back porch staring at the stars.
"Hi." she replied quietly.
"You okay?" Roman asked studying her face carefully.
"Remember that day you broke up with me?" Maya asked looking over at Roman who nodded his head.
"I went to the park and sat at a bench crying for hours. I literally sat there til the sun came up and I knew you left. I remember telling myself 'if he's gone it's really over, but if he cared about you he'll still be here to fight for you' and I got to the house and not only were you gone, but you took down any picture that had to do with me. It's like, you were ready for us to break up for a long time."
"I know it doesn't seem like it, but my heart was broken too. I took down the pictures right away because I couldn't handle seeing you in them with me, or anyone else smiling after you ran out crying."
"Do you know how I found out about you and Jessie?" Maya said after a moment of silence
"Maya, do we really need to-"
"From twitter." Maya interuppted. "I kept watching wrestling for you, I would keep tabs on you on social media. I thought maybe it really was just a break but no matter what I wanted to support you. I was scrolling through my timeline after you retained your championship and I saw a picture saying Roman celebrates his win with his fiancee and I clicked on it and saw two pictures. One you were hugging and smiling and the other you were kissing. When I saw it was Jessie, it felt like my heart got broken all over again. Not only did you get with the girl you told me not to worry about, you were engaged. I just remember thinking why wasn't I good enough, you know? We were together for years with no engagement but after a few months you were engaged to her. I even started thinking it wasn't a few months, that maybe you were with her for a longer time and just didn't want to tell me you cheated on me." Maya said looking up at the sky.
"I never cheated on you Maya. I didn't tell you about us because I knew you didn't like her and we hadn't talked since that night. I thought it would be cruel to call you up and just say hey I'm engaged. Looking back I should have known whichever way you found out would be way worse than finding out from me I just didn't want to talk to you."
"It's just so hard for me to get over the fact that you wanted to spend your life with someone else."
"I didn't. I went back to work and she asked what was wrong and I told her we broke up and she was there for me. I tried to hook up with different girls to forget about you but she kept telling me I would regret it so I started traveling with just her and she would keep me in line and listen to me. After a while I got feelings for her and asked her to be with me. She told me after a few months she needed a bigger commitment so I proposed. It wasn't this fairytale I'm so in love with this girl I need to propose situation it was a, she wanted a ring so i gave her one to get off my back type of thing."
"But you did love her or you wouldn't have been with her."
"I did love her. I wasn't in love with her, I was in love with not being alone. I'm not going to act like she was this horrible person because to me she wasn't. She got me through a very hard time in my life but, I kept all your messages and your pictures even though I was with someone else. And when it came down to it, I couldn't even delete your memory. For weeks I was thinking about how differently I would have done that night, that's when I realized I didn't want her I still wanted you. Then i saw you that day and I couldn't hide it anymore."
"What would you have done differently that night?"
"I would have told you to come with me that week. I would have opened up that part of my life to you and get you involved and get us out of the routine we were in. I would have asked for a week off, in a month or so, so we could have that time. I wouldn't have taken the easy way out. I know I hurt you, I know I broke your heart. I just can't live without letting you know how I feel and trying to fight for us."
"I'm so terrified of it being like last time. Of you walking out the door and not hearing from you again until you come back."
"I won't do that this time. Don't take my word for it let me show it to you." Roman said reaching over and grabbing Maya's hand.
Maya nodded her head and stood up from her chair causing Roman to do the same. She slowly walked up to Roman wrapping her arms around his midsection and resting her head on his chest. Roman wrapped his arms tightly around Maya, resting his chin on the top of her head.
"What time do you leave tomorrow?"
"8."
"You need to get some sleep Roman, it's late."
"I'll be fine."
Maya thought for a moment before she found her self saying "Sleep here tonight."
Roman nodded with a big smile on his face and followed Maya into the house.