A/N: Dude, I'm really bad at author's notes. Like, I forget about them and stuff. Sorry about the wait, I was out of state for a while. Excuses, excuses.

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the songs, artists, characters, movies, or products that I happen to mention. I totally suck at these too. BUT! I do own the poem in this chapter.

Chapter 5: Negative Creep-

Magnus looked at the retreating figure of Alexander Lightwood. He walked slowly with his head hung, like he hoped no one would notice him. As if it was possible not to notice such a stunning creature. He swung, higher and higher, smiling to himself. He hadn't expected the boy to talk to him, much less spend the day getting to know one another. Alexander reminded him so much of his mother- the shy smile, his sweet temperament. He even was a vegetarian, just as his mother was. She would always tell Magnus that all things, big or small, deserved the gift of life. Magnus's heart stuttered and he winced in pain; now was not a time to think of such things.

He jumped out of the swings, landing lightly on his toes with his arms spread wide like a child from a fairy-tale. He bent down to retrieve his glittery hand bag when he noticed a battered black notebook sitting next to an even rattier grey bag. Alexander must have left them behind in his hurry to find his siblings. He was such a sweet and dutiful brother; Magnus didn't think that his siblings even deserved Alexander's attention. He picked up the notebook and looked at its worn cover. He found himself opening the scratched cardboard cover of the notebook curiously. The inside cover indeed had 'Alec Lightwood' written in a thin, spindly font. Magnus found himself smiling while looking at the first page, recognizing several song lyrics.

"She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak, I've been locked inside this heart-shaped box for weeks."

"I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?"

"After Jesus and rock and roll couldn't save my moral soul, well I've got nothing left to lose."

"If home is where the heart is then we're all just fucked."

"I never thought I'd die alone, another six months and I'll be unknown."

Magnus turned the page, his eyebrow furrowed. His eyes scanned the page and the smile on his face dropped.

Out-landed-

Your punches to my body

will never hurt as much

as the blows to my heart

Your words fill me with venom

but never enough to completely fill my veins

or make my heart stop

because you like to watch me writhe in pain

If you'd peel back my layers

like I was made of paper mache

you'd see that the cigarette ash on my tongue

doesn't take enough of my breath away

But I still have to try

Because sleeping pills stopped working

and razors become dull

and no matter how many times

I beg the muscle inside of my chest

to just stop pumping life into me

it just won't

Because it's inside of a cage

just like me

Can't you see that behind all the broken ribs

and bruised eyes

that I'm drowning in my own life force

And my thighs are littered with lines

that aren't on a road map

And my hair hides my eyes

because on the inside I'm screaming

And the food that I eat

always comes back up

because I just want to waste away

until I'm gone

And my dreams are filled with broken sighs

And demons that still possess me when I'm awake

So I have these rings under my eyes

And I wish I was Saturn

But instead I'm a human

with nothing but nothing but nothing

but skin

and teeth

and scabs

and hair

Magnus's eyes welled with tears as he read the boy's words. Magnus felt the familiar caress of anxiety setting in as he realized what the words meant; Alexander had something seriously wrong with him. With a shaking hand, he turned the next page and began to read more of Alexander's beautiful words. While they were melancholy and explained beautifully terrible things, they were indeed mesmerizing. They had a soothing and rhythmic flow to them, making you feel as if the words were alive. Magnus found himself awestruck at the boy's ability as his words sank into Magnus's skin.

After reading all of the pages that were filled, Magnus looked around to see that many people were leaving Ragnor's. His eyebrows shot up when he realized he had stayed at the park for the duration of the party. Hopefully Ragnor wouldn't be too insulted. With a sigh, he heaved Alexander's heavy book bag over his shoulder. He supposed he could just give Alexander back his notebook and not say anything about reading it. He didn't want to scare the boy away by Magnus jumping him with questions.

As he walked towards his shiny purple motorcycle, he felt determination building in the pit of his stomach. Alexander was obviously dealing with something huge that pushed him into a state of depression that was written all over his very being. Magnus was intrigued by the shy teenager, who obviously wasn't happy with himself. Magnus was going to find out what was wrong with him, and Alexander was going to let him inside of his walls. He would save the beautiful boy.

Alec opened the door quietly, smiling to himself. He didn't even mind that he had to help Izzy and Jace inside, both of them being to inebriated to walk. He laid them into their respective beds and tucked them in, leaving a glass of water on their nightstands. After checking on Max, he walked into his bedroom. He flopped onto his bed, pulling out his iPod and shoving in his earphones. He smiled, thinking about the evening he spent with Magnus; the beautiful, exotic boy was so much more enticing than Alec believed in the beginning. He never thought Magnus would even take a second glance at him, but Magnus proved him wrong many times tonight. Everything about Magnus was an enigma, making Alec want to uncover his secrets. He wanted to know everything about the fascinating person named Magnus Bane.

He was yanked out of the perfect daydream by a large hand being wrapped around his upper arm, ripping him out of his bed and roughly shoving him down to the ground. Alec looked up at the towering figure of his father and pulled out his headphones. Robert was looking down at his first born with malice and anger. He took a handful of Alec's hair and pulled, making Alec look up at a greater angle. "Would you care to explain why, on the night of my business meeting, you were out? You're lucky that my clients couldn't visit the home today. Did you even think about how it would look if my own children weren't home?" Robert let go of Alec's hair, making his head drop slightly. He attempted to get up, only to fall to his knees clutching his side when Robert brought his foot down on Alec's ribs. Alec's breath caught and he inhaled roughly, searching for air that wouldn't come. Robert's foot continued to slam into Alec's side and Alec heaved for breath, his vision going blurry. Just let me die. Black spots entered his sight and enveloped him completely, finally letting him forget about the pain.

He woke with a start and gasped in pain. He was lying on the floor in his crumpled clothes from the previous night. He forced himself to get up and assess the damage. He limped in front of the bathroom mirror and took off his shirt, revealing his blackened torso. He gently touched his rib-cage, wincing when a sharp bolt of pain stabbed through his chest, making his breath come out labored. He went to his medicine cabinet and took double the amount of pain medication that was recommended. He threw on his most comfortable and worn out sweater and, after letting the medicine kick in, he went to wake up his siblings and make them breakfast.

After the usual hectic morning routine, they arrived to the school where a very scandalously dressed Magnus was waiting for him by his locker with Alec's bag in his hand. His leg was hiked up against the locker door and he had his arms crossed. His entire face broke out into a smile when he saw Alec. Alec blushed, smiling back at him. "Hello, Sayang," Magnus said, handing it to him. Alec's eyebrows knitted together. "What does that mean?" Magnus just laughed. "Something good, don't worry."

Alec spent the first few hours of school trying to hide his discomfort, hoping that if he ignored the pain, it would go away.

He came to the soccer field earlier than the other boys to avoid the awkwardness that was a closeted gay boy in the boy's locker room. After changing and grabbing a ball, he went to the field and began running drills. The smallest movement sent pain jabbing into his chest and he quickly found himself running out of breath. A movement out of the corner of his eye made Alec turn to find Magnus on the edge of the field, looking at Alec with concern. "Are you okay?," Magnus yelled at him from across the green grass. Alec tried nodding but it came out as a sort of wobble. Magnus started walking towards him, and Alec started to run so he could meet him halfway until a huge jolt of pain hit him. He stopped, grabbing his side and heaving in heavy breaths through his mouth. Everything was quickly becoming blurry and he dropped to his knees. Magnus rushed over to his side, holding his face gently between his hands. The last thing he saw was a pair of green eyes looking into his until unconsciousness took him.

Yeah, I know, I suck. Cliffhanger. Yadda yadda. I'm evil :) I hope you enjoy or whatever I'm supposed to say to sound nice. Revieewwwwsss make the worrrlllldddd go rooouunnnnd.