Hey guys! I finally finished the next chapter. I hope you like it! I'm thinking that there will be one more chapter before the wedding after this one. And then I can't decide if I will go past the wedding or not...but we will see. Next week is kind of crazy for me but I will try and update as soon as possible. Thanks!
Three days later, Lorelai was sitting in the Diner waiting for Rory to meet here there for dinner. So far the only other person besides Luke and Lorelai who knew about the baby was Sookie. Lorelai felt guilty that Rory wasn't the first person to know but she really wanted this to be something she told her daughter in person. So that Thursday night, Rory was coming to have dinner with Lorelai and Luke and the Diner where they would tell her the good news together.
Lorelai was sitting anxiously, tapping her fingers on the counter. Luke was wiping down the counter beside her and couldn't help but laugh at her nervousness.
"Would you realx? Its not like you are telling her you are dying…she's going to be happy." He said with a chuckle.
Lorelai bit her lip nervously, "I know…but its still a big deal. I just want her to know how much I love her and that even with a new baby she's still my little girl. I don't want her to feel like she's being replaced…"
Luke sighed and put the rag down before leaning over the counter to take her hand in his. "Lorelai we have already talked about this. Rory knows how much we both love her. She can't be replaced and neither can April…they won't feel like that. Our family is just growing…that's all."
Lorelai smiled weakly, "I know…but they are both going so far away. I just want to make sure they never feel like they don't belong."
Luke shook his head, "That will never happen. We won't let it. "
Taking a deep breath, Lorelai lifted her chin and beamed up at him. "I'm really glad I have you to go through all of this with. It's so much nicer to have a partner by my side this time around."
Luke nodded, "I'm glad. And anytime you need to remind you about how crazy your thoughts are…you know where to find me."
Lorelai rolled her eyes at him, "Nice…"
He chuckled and leaned further over to kiss her forehead, "I'm always here for you babe."
Lorelai smiled as he pulled away and went back to work, she continued to tap on the counter still anxious to see Rory. The day before, Luke had accompanied her to the Doctors office where the pregnancy had been confirmed. He said she was about 4 weeks along and the baby would be due around mid march. He had assured Lorelai and Luke that both she and the baby looked healthy and he had little concern about her age.
Lorelai smiled as she thought about how focused Luke had been on everything that the Doctor had been saying. He asked so many questions Lorelai practically had to drag him out of the office. What kind of foods were good for her and the baby? How much sleep should she have? Should she be off her feet as much as possible? Was it safe for her to work so much? Was it safe for her to drive? Should he avoid hugging her so he wouldn't squish the baby? And could he please explain to Lorelai that caffeine was bad for the baby and her?
Luke noticed the small smile on her face and he slid over towards her again, "What are you smiling about?"
Lorelai laughed softly, "I'm just thinking about how adorable you were yesterday at my appointment. Dr. Thompson looked like her head was going to explode with all the questions you asked her."
Luke blushed, "Well this is my first time dealing with this kind of stuff. I just want to make sure I am doing everything I can to make sure you are both healthy and safe."
Lorelai smiled and reached up to caress his face, "I know. And I love you for that."
"Good. So if you love me so much you're going to stop drinking coffee." He said leaning his face down to glare at her.
She huffed and put her arms on the counter, resting her head in her hands she pouted. "Fine…"
He smiled and leaned across the counter again, "Thank you."
"But I hope you know that when I push this baby of yours out I'm going to expect you to pump coffee in through the IV at the hospital!" She said lifting her head quickly.
Luke chuckled, "I wouldn't expect anything less from you."
Lorelai smiled and then jumped when she felt and heard her stomach grumble. "Your baby is very hungry…I wish Rory would hurry up."
Luke looked past her and smiled, "Here she comes…"
Lorelai's face lit up and she turned on the stool and ran towards the door to meet her daughter. "There she is! My beautiful, perfect, adorable daughter!" She exclaimed as she threw her arms around her.
Rory hugged her back and stared at Luke in confusion, "Is she back on the sauce again? I thought I told you to limit her to one bottle a day?"
Luke laughed, "She hasn't had a drop of alcohol. This is just her normal insanity, you must be so busy packing that you've forgotten how crazy your mother is."
Rory smiled, "That must be it!"
"Well then I'm going to have to send you videos every day when you are in New York. Because we will be apart for more than three days at a time so you will need to be reminded often." Lorelai said smoothing her daughters hair back.
"Whatever makes you happy Mom." Rory said as they walked over to the counter, "Did you order yet?" She asked as they sat down at the counter.
Lorelai shook her head, "No. I was waiting for you."
Rory nodded, "Okay. Well…can I have a double cheesburger with extra fries please Luke?" She said with a smile.
Luke sighed, "One heart attack on a plate coming up." He turned to Lorelai, "And for you? You want the same thing I assume…"
Lorelai wrinkled her nose, "Hm…no. I think I want something different today."
"Oh boy…" Rory said with a chuckle, "Are you going to make him make you another Santa Burger?"
"You told her about that?" Luke said as his face reddened.
Lorelai smiled innocently at him, "I tell her everything Luke! And that was the most adorably disgusting thing anyone has ever done for me. Of course I told her!"
Luke groaned, "Well its August so don't even ask me for one."
Lorelai laughed, "I wouldn't dream of it. But to be honest I want something totally different than what I would normally get. Can I see a menu?"
Luke rolled his eyes, "Since when do you need to look at a menu? You've been coming here every damn day for over a decade."
Lorelai scoffed at him, "You know in just a few short weeks this Diner is as good as mine as it is yours mister…I suggest you lose the attitude before I make you paint it hot pink!"
He smirked at her, "As good as yours huh? Says who?"
She smirked back, "You are the one that told me that when we are married what's yours is mine…therefore the Diner is half mine. You already technically are invested in the Inn but once we are married you too will be part owner of the Dragonfly as well. So if you still want to marry me…then you better get used to people addressing me as Mrs. Diner lady or Mrs. Backwards Baseball cap cuz you're stuck with me once we say 'I do'."
Luke pretended to groan, "What have I gotten myself into?"
Rory laughed but Lorelai gasped and smacked his arm, "Take that back Luke Danes! You would be totally and utterly lost without me and you know it!"
Luke smiled at her and pulled a menu out for her to look at, "Do I need to create a new dish called the Lorelai special if you own half the Diner?"
Lorelai's face beamed, "Oh. My. GOD! That would be AWESOME!"
Rory rolled her eyes, "You never should have even suggested it Luke…you really are a sucker when it comes to her."
"Think of the possibilities!" Lorelai said putting a hand on her cheek, "It could be my usual breakfast combo of scrambled eggs, three chocolate chip banana pancakes, a Belgian waffle with whipped cream and strawberries and all the bacon you can eat. Or…it could be my TRIPLE burger with extra crispy fries and a side of onion rings. OR I could come up with something even better!"
Luke looked at her in disgust, "I will never understand where you put all that junk…"
"Well you better enjoy my body now babe because we both know in about ten tears all that junk is gonna catch up to me." She said smiling coyly at him.
Luke grimaced, "Great…does that mean I can let my body go too?"
Lorelai shook her head, "Oh no…you have to always have your six back or else."
Rory laughed as Luke raised an eyebrow at her, "Or else what?"
"Or else I divorce you." She said with a flat tone that suggested that was a given, "I think that should be part of our vows…you'll say "I promise to love you even when you weigh 500 pounds and I promise to always keep my six pack so you can brag to all your friends about how hot your husband is."
"You're insane, you know that right?" He asked as Rory continued to laugh beside her.
Lorelai leaned towards him and pursed her lips, "But you still love me right?"
Luke smiled. "Yep."
"And you really would be totally and utterly lost without me, right?" She asked leaning even futher over the counter.
Luke nodded once, "Yep."
"Kiss please." She said smiling over at him.
Luke smiled and met her half way to give her a quick peck on the lips, "Now that that is settled, what do you want to eat? I can hear your stomach growling from over here."
Lorelai sighed and sat back and opened the menu, "Lets see…"
Rory groaned, "This could take awhile…"
"You hush." Lorelai said pointing a finger at her daughter but never taking her eyes off of the menu, she read a few more things and then placed the menu down on the counter. "I'll have a house salad with grilled chicken on top and no onions. Dressing on the side please."
Rory and Luke were silent for a minute before they both started laughing, "Wow. That was a good one Mom! I almost believed you for a second."
Luke chuckled, "Seriously Lorelai…what do you want?"
Lorelai frowned, "I really want a house salad with grilled chicken, no onions and dressing on the side."
Rory stopped laughing and her face quickly fell, "Mom?" She reached over and put a hand on her forehead, "Mom are you feeling okay?"
Lorelai swatted her hand away, "I feel fine other than being hungry."
Rory glanced over at Luke, "What have you done to her?"
Luke threw his hands up quickly, "I didn't do anything. She ordered that all on her own. Don't blame me…"
"Mom…" Rory said quickly looking back over at her, "If Luke is forcing you to order this and you feel like you have no way out…blink once."
Lorelai rolled her eyes, "Would you stop being so dramatic? I just want a salad. What's so crazy about that?"
"You hate salads! You literally pick off lettuce on your burgers when Luke forgets to leave it off." Rory said in shock, "Why would you willingly order a whole bowl of lettuce topped with a million other gross vegetables and GRILLED chicken when you can have a burger and fries? Are you afraid you won't fit into your wedding dress or something?"
Lorelai shook her head, "No. I'm just really craving a nice healthy salad right now." She said with a shrug.
Luke's eyes widened as Lorelai's words echoed through the room. He watched Rory for a second, waiting for her to register what her Mother had just said. Luke and Lorelai had planned on telling Rory about the baby after dinner once all the rest of the customers were gone. But he had a feeling Lorelai's choice of words would trigger Rory into figuring it all out now.
"Craving?" Rory said looking between her Mother and Luke, "Your body doesn't crave healthy food Mom. It just doesn't." She paused and then sat up straighter, "Unless…"
Lorelai's face reddened, "Rory…"
"Oh my GOD." Rory exclaimed as she put a hand over her mouth. "OH MY GOD!"
"Rory…" Lorelai said reaching for her, "Shhh..."
Rory looked around at the other Diner customers and she quickly leaned and whispered, "Are you…?"
Luke cleared his throat and walked around the counter, "Lets talk about this upstairs…" He put a hand on both of their backs and started to lead them towards the curtain before calling out, "Be back in a minute Ceasar."
"Okay!" Ceaser called from the kitchen.
The three of them quickly walked up the stairs and into Luke's apartments. There were boxes everywhere full of Luke's things as he was finishing up packing so they could move into the new house as soon as it was ready. Rory started to pace among the boxes as Lorelai and Luke stood side be side near the door.
"You would never order something healthy on your own." Rory said shaking her head, "Not unless something was making you…or maybe someone." She paused and turned back to her Mom and soon to be step-father. "Someone like Luke's baby who would have weird tastes in food that would make you crave gross salads!"
Lorelai smiled weakly, "Surprise…you're going to be a big sister!"
Rory stared at them for a moment, unable to speak. Her eyes looked like they were filling up with tears which made Lorelai nervously glance over at Luke feeling like her fears were coming true. Luke looked at his fiancé and then back at her daughter and stepped towards her.
"Rory before you get upset you have to know that your Mom and I are always going to be here for you. It doesn't matter if we have another kid, we still love you and-" He started to ramble but was cut off when he felt the young girls arms wrap around his neck.
"I'm so happy for you guys!" Rory said holding him tightly. "I can't believe this!"
Luke held her back and let out a sigh of relief, "So you're okay with it?"
"You aren't mad?" Lorelai asked from behind her daughter and fiancé.
Rory sniffled and pulled away from Luke, "God, of course I'm not mad! This is amazing!" She stepped away from Luke and quickly wrapped her arms around her Mom. "This is so great!"
Lorelai felt her own tears begin to fall from her eyes and she quickly wrapped her arms around her daughter. "Oh sweetie…"
"I know how much you wanted to have a baby with Luke." Rory said giving her another squeeze before pulling back and smiling at them both. "I think this is awesome. And I totally want another sister or brother. I don't get to see GiGi much and didn't know April as a baby. Now I'll get a tiny little baby to spoil when I come home on visits!"
Lorelai beamed at her daughter, "It will be the best dressed kid in Connecticut."
Rory nodded, "You better believe it." She smiled and leaned up to wipe her tears away, "I can't believe you thought I'd be upset…"
Lorelai sniffled, "I just don't want you to feel left out…"
Rory shook her head, "That's not possible Mom. I know how much you love me…" She turned back to Luke and her face reddened, "How much you both love me…"
Luke smiled shyly at her, "I'm glad you know I love you too Rory. I always have…you are always going to be a part of this family. A huge part. Nothing will ever change that."
Rory swallowed the lump in her throat, "Thank you…" She whispered.
Lorelai felt so overwhelmed with love her few tears quickly turned into a waterfall. "Oh God…"
Rory quickly turned back towards her Mom, "Mom? Mom, what's wrong?"
Lorelai laughed and waved her off as the tears continued to fall freely, "Nothing. Nothing I'm just crazy. Ignore me."
Luke laughed and walked over to Lorelai, "It's the hormones. Last night she cried for an hour watching an old episode of The Brady Bunch when Marsha got hit with the football."
"They broke her nose!" Lorelai screamed, "Marsha was so pretty and they just broke her damn nose!"
Rory couldn't help but laugh, "Mom…"
"And then one of those commercials came on with the Dogs and that Sarah Mchlachlan song…I had to go to the store to buy more tissues. She held poor Paul Anka so tightly I thought she was going to crack one of his ribs." Luke said as he rubbed Lorelai's back soothingly.
"It's the freaking song! It gets me every time! And then at the end the little kitten reaches its paw out to you and you just want to save all the cats! I don't even like cats!" Lorelai said as she continued to wail into her hands.
Luke rubbed her back, "Shh…it's okay."
"Wow…" Rory whispered, "Were you this bad when you were pregnant with me?"
Lorelai sniffled and wiped at her eyes, "No. I don't know what's wrong with me. Luke's kid is making me into a mutant who cries and likes to eat leaves. I have to call Anna and ask her if she was this bad with April…"
Luke grimaced, "Please don't call her to compare pregnancy notes…that's weird."
"Well I need to know what to expect Luke! If I start drinking protein shakes in the morning I'm going to be really concerned." Lorelai said glaring up at him.
"If you start drinking protein shakes in the morning I'll know you finally cracked." Luke said with a chuckle, "Come here and sit down for a minute…"
Luke led her over to the couch where Rory followed and sat down in the recliner and watched them intently. Luke reached for a box of tissues and handed them to Lorelai who quickly tried to dry her eyes despite the fact that more tears were brimming in her eyes.
"God I really don't know what is wrong with me…" She sniffled as she looked back at her daughter, "I can't help myself…everything is making me cry!"
"Well you have had a hell of a few months Mom…I'm sure it's really overwhelming. And now that you are pregnant your body is going through all of these changes that's messing up your whole system." She leaned forward and reached for her hands, "You okay?"
Lorelai smiled weakly at her and gave her hand a squeeze, "Yeah…its just a lot all at once. A lot of good things...my heads just trying to catch up to it all."
"Understandable." Rory said with a nod, "But you really don't have to worry about me feeling left out. I think this is great that you are having another baby."
"You do?" Lorelai asked with a nervous smile as her eyes filled with tears again.
Rory smiled, "Yeah. I do. I mean…I know that you and Luke love each other and you should start a family together. Luke helped raise me so we know he will be good at it…"
Lorelai glanced over at Luke and smiled, she lifted her hand to stroke his cheek gently. "That's what I told him…but he doesn't seem to believe me."
Luke blushed, "I've never done the baby thing…"
Rory shrugged, "You'll learn. I mean…if Mom could do it on her own at sixteen I'm sure you can figure it out easily." She swallowed hard and looked back at her Mom, "I think its good to because since I'm leaving…you'll be distracted so you won't miss me so much."
Lorelai sighed and shook her head "Oh hon…I think it will make me miss you more."
Rory smiled, "Maybe…"
Lorelai stared at her daughter for another moment and then threw her head back, "Oh come on…" Rory laughed as she saw the tears falling down her cheeks again. "I'm going to cry a freaking lake before this kid is born if this keeps up…"
Luke reached for another tissue and handed it to her, "Well then the baby will have its very own lake swim in."
Lorelai laughed, "Shut up…"
Rory squeezed her mothers hand again, "As long as they are happy tears there is nothing to be worried about…"
Lorelai lifted her head and nodded, "They are happy tears…"
Rory smiled, "Good."
"You know…only you and Sookie know about this right now. And it's still very early in the pregnancy…" Lorelai whispered as she pulled at the tissue in her hand. "So…Luke and I want to wait awhile before we tell everyone else…"
Rory nodded, "Okay…but everything is going to be fine. You know that right?"
Lorelai smiled weakly, "Just to be safe…I am older now so I want to make sure the baby is healthy before I start blabbing about it."
"I understand." Rory whispered, "Has Luke made you give up coffee yet?"
Luke smirked, "She hasn't had a cup since yesterday."
Rory gasped, "Wow…how are you feeling?"
Lorelai sighed, "Maybe that's why I'm crying so much…is that a withdrawal symptom? My body is in complete shock without the caffeine fix so its totally throwing everything off in my body."
Luke rolled his eyes, "Yeah…I'm sure that's what it is."
Lorelai laughed, "Luke did promise to pump my IV with coffee right after the baby's is born though."
"Well aside from the whole holding your baby thing…that's definitely something to look forward too." Rory said with a chuckle.
"I know right?" Lorelai said with an excited smile.
Luke shook his head, "Unbelievable…"
"Just think babe…in a few short months there is a very good possibility that there will be another little Lorelai in your life! A tiny baby who will have you wrapped around your finger and begging for coffee in their bottle." Lorelai said with a chuckle.
"Oh good God…" He said bowing his head nervously. "Should have thought about this more…"
Rory laughed, "It will probably come out with a flannel shirt on and a coffee mug in its hand."
"That might hurt coming out…" Lorelai said with a frown. "But you're probably right…"
Luke groaned, "Aw geez…I'm going back to work."
Lorelai and Rory continued to laugh as they watched him stand up and walk towards the door. "Wait, Luke!" Rory said with tears in her eyes as she continued to laugh.
He sighed and turned back towards them, "I'm probably going to regret this but…what is it now?"
Rory took a deep breath and smiled sincerely at him, "Thanks for making Mom so happy…"
Luke's face softened and he smiled, "You got it kid…" He nodded his head once and then cast a smile towards Lorelai before exiting the apartment leaving the Mother and daughter alone.
Lorelai wiped at her tears again, "So…you're really okay with this?"
Rory smiled at her, "Of course I am! I mean…it's not like I expected to be an only child forever. Its not a total shock to me Mom. Besides, I think this is great. I know how much you love Luke and I think you guys will make one hell of a cute baby."
"I know right?" Lorelai asked excitedly, "Sookie and I went onto this site where you can take a picture of the Mom and Dad and blend it together to see what your baby looks like. Ours looked a bit like an alien but a damn cute alien…"
Rory laughed and shook her head, "You really are crazy…"
Lorelai smiled, "Well aren't you lucky that I'm your Mom then?"
Rory nodded slowly, "The luckiest…"
Lorelai took a shaky breath and nodded, reaching out she took her daughters hand. "You will always be my first love Rory…you changed my life kid. I'd be lost without you. And no matter how far you move away or who else comes into our lives…I am ALWAYS going to be here for you. Don't think for one second that you can't call me because I'm to busy with the new baby…I can multi task better than anyone I know."
Rory's eyes brimmed up with tears; "It will be strange…but a good strange. I still haven't figured out when the hell I grew up but I am excited to chase a new baby around."
Leaning forward, Lorelai brushed a tear away from her daughter's eyes. "You and I will always have a special bond…something no one else will ever understand."
"I know…" Rory said as she continued to get choked up, "I really love you Mom…"
Lorelai smiled, "Well I really love you too kid…"
Rory swallowed hard and stood up before sitting down on the couch next to her Mom. Lorelai put her arm around and Rory curled up beside her, resting her head in the crook of her Mothers neck. They sat in silence for a few minutes as Lorelai began to play with Rory's hair like she had done when she was a little girl.
"Hey…think it will be twins? You know like in your dream?" Rory asked nudging her Mother gently.
Lorelai giggled, "That would be crazy wouldn't it? After all these years of trying to tell you that I have psychic powers I would finally have proof that I'm gifted!"
"You're not gifted Mom…special yes but not gifted." Rory said teasingly.
"I'm going to pretend I don't know what you meant by that." Lorelai said playfully pulling at a lock of her hair, "But that would be pretty cool."
Rory nodded in agreement, "I really do think Luke will be a great Dad…he already is. To me and April."
"I know…" Lorelai said with a happy sigh, "I think he will look so adorable with a baby in his arms."
"The baby will totally break his hard exterior once and for all. He'll turn into a puddle of mush when he holds it for the first time." Rory said with a laugh.
"Yes he will…" Lorelai said as she started running her hands through Rory's hair again, "Just like I was when I held you for the first time…"
Rory smiled and glanced up at her Mom, "Not that I don't love this little love fest we have going on here…but I really am hungry. Think we can go down and eat now?"
Lorelai laughed, "Sure."
They stood up together and Rory called out towards her, "You know if you don't want people to know about the baby…you might want to rethink your salad order. People will get suspicious…think your body can handle a burger and fries?"
Lorelai laughed, "Maybe I'll get a turkey burger and no one will know the difference."
Rory shook her head in disbelief, "Man…Luke's baby has weird tastes."
"I know right?" She said laughing as she wrapped an arm around her.
They walked down into the Diner again where Luke was waiting for them. They put in their new orders and whispered quietly together about all the things they were excited for when the new baby came…
The next night, Luke, Lorelai and Rory all went to Friday night dinner together. It was hard to keep the secret of her pregnancy from her parents but Lorelai wanted to make sure everything was okay before she told anyone else. She tried to refuse drinks when her Mother offered but in the end had to settle for holding them in her hand and forcing Rory or Luke to take sips when Emily had her back to them. By the end of the night, both Luke and Rory were feeling a little woozey.
Lorelai drove them all back to Stars Hollow and helped her tipsy daughter to bed. Then she wandered upstairs where Luke was sprawled out on her bed still in his clothes and staring up at the ceiling.
"Has the ceiling always been so big?" Luke asked curiously.
Lorelai laughed as she reached for a box near the bed, "Uh…I think so. Yes."
Luke huffed, "Man…its really big. I just…I don't remember it ever looking so big."
"Now I know why you aren't a vodka man…" She said rifling through the box.
"Yeah its been awhile…" Luke mumbled, "Your Mom was giving me funny looks before we left."
"She always gives you funny looks…she secretly wants you as her lover." Lorelai teased him.
Luke glared at her, "Not funny."
"It wasn't a joke…" Lorelai said with a smirk.
Luke rolled his eyes and rolled over onto his stomach to look at the box in front of her, "More packing? I thought you were pretty much done."
Lorelai nodded, "I am. But I found this box in the attic today…"
"I thought I told you not to go up there. It's not safe for you to be climbing up anything." He said with a stern frown.
She shrugged, "Rory was with me…we were safe. I promise."
"Well please try and stay away from it from now on. And when we really start moving you aren't allowed to do any heavy lifting." Luke said, then frowned, "In fact, if I didn't know any better I would think you planned this so you wouldn't have to help with the actual move."
Lorelai laughed, "Shockingly that never occurred to me but it is quite brilliant."
Luke laughed, "So…what's in this box anyway?"
Lorelai smiled and sat down on the edge of bed, she reached into the box and pulled out a tiny pink outfit. "Rory's baby box…"
Luke smiled and reached his hand out to touch the soft material, "Its hard to believe she ever fit into something this small…"
"She was the most itty bitty baby I'd ever seen. I honestly thought I would break her when they handed her to me in the hospital. She was such a little peanut." Lorelai said smiling at the memory.
"Did your Mom buy you this stuff?" He asked staring down at a few more outfits in the box.
Lorelai shook her head, "No. I made them all."
Luke looked up at her in surprise, "Seriously?"
"I think my parents were in denial about the whole pregnancy thing so they didn't buy anything. And then once I had her I realized I didn't have any clothes for her…but I also didn't have any money." She sighed, "So when I went home to pack up some things I grabbed blankets and old clothes from my room and brought them with me. And then I sewed some outfits together to at least get me through the first month or two…"
Luke laughed when he pulled out a tiny shirt that had Bono's face on the front. "This had to be one of yours."
Lorelai smirked, "That was my first ever concert T-shirt. I hated to cut it up but it wasn't going to fit me after I had her so I figured it would look better on her. I felt guilty for cutting everyone but Bono though…"
"Its pretty amazing that you did all of this for her." He said glancing up at her.
Lorelai bit her lip nervously, "I didn't have much of a choice…"
Luke watched her for a moment and then sat up, he scooted closer to her. "For what its worth you did a hell of a job with her…"
Lorelai smiled weakly, "It was the scariest thing I had ever done…I mean I could barely take care of my self and suddenly I had this tiny person I was responsible for. Absolutely terrifying…"
Luke smiled, "When I found out about April and I got over the initial shock…I was terrified. I kept thinking how the hell could I possibly be responsible enough to keep her safe?"
"She's changed a lot in the last year since you've been in her life…" Lorelai whispered, "She's grown so much…she's a lot like you."
Luke smiled, "I hope so…" He looked down in the box and pulled out a little converse sneaker, "You would buy these for Rory…"
Lorelai laughed, "Mia bought those actually…she said Rory should match her Mom."
Luke laughed, "Well she does. It's actually scary how alike you two are."
Lorelai smirked and then reached into the box and took out a photo album, she flipped a few pages and then stopped and laughed. "This was the first time she had chocolate cake…"
Luke laughed, "I recognize that face…it's the same face you make every time you eat cake too."
"And that was when she walked for the first time…she did it right in the lobby of the Independence Inn." She said resting her chin on his shoulder as she pointed to another picture. "I was getting ready to finish up for the night and was filling out some paper work…and I looked down and she had stood up and just started walking towards the front door. I was so shocked that she was walking that she was almost out the front door by the time I ran after her."
"They grow up fast…" Luke whispered.
Sighing, she ran her hand over one of the pictures of the one year old Rory. "Yeah…that seems like yesterday and now she's moving all the way to New York City all on her own…"
Luke nodded, "Yep…and we're having another baby. We'll have a whole new photo album to fill up with memories of this new kid."
Lorelai lifted her head to look at him, "Can I ask you something?"
"Sure." He said reaching up to push her hair out of her face.
"Do you remember when I got that offer from the Durham group?" She asked.
Luke nodded slowly, "Yeah. What about it?"
She smiled at him, "You came to the Inn to fix something and then we started talking about me taking the job and you freaked. You kept going on and on about the kids…and when I asked you what you meant you ran off."
Luke smiled nervously. "Uh huh…"
"You knew then that you wanted to have kids with me, didn't you?" She asked quietly.
Luke laughed, "Uh Lorelai…I've known for a hell of a lot longer than that that I wanted to have kids with you."
"Like how long?" She asked curiously.
He sighed, "I mean I can't give you an exact date…but probably right around the time of the dance marathon. You know when Sookie and Jackson got into the fight about the four in four thing. You and I talked about kids…"
"You wanted to make sure I knew that you didn't hate kids…" Lorelai whispered.
Luke nodded, "Yeah. I didn't want to ruin what little chance I thought I had at being with you because you thought I didn't want a family."
She nodded slowly, "So you wanted it then?"
"I think I wanted it a lot sooner than that but that was when I finally admitted it to myself I think." He said with a shrug, "I mean that night you came to the Diner when we weren't talking and you were talking about how you wanted the whole package I kind of figured out that I wanted to be the guy to give it to you."
Lorelai looked deep into his eyes and smiled, "Want to know a secret?"
He cocked his head to the side and smiled, "Sure."
She leaned forward and kissed him gently, "After that night I kind of knew I wanted that too…"
He smiled, "Was that before or after the dream you had about us having twins?"
Lorelai laughed, "After. So I guess in a way my subconscious was trying to tell me that you were the one all along…"
"Maybe…" He whispered as he rubbed her leg softly.
"Sometimes I feel sad that we wasted so much time…" She whispered in a pained voice.
Luke nodded slowly and began to trace patterns on her leg, "Me too…" He took a deep breath and shrugged, "But maybe we had to go through all that crap to get to where we are now. We just weren't ready before…"
She nodded, "Yeah maybe…"
He leaned forward and kissed her forehead gently and whispered against her skin, "Hey…" She lifted her head to look at him with tears in her eyes, "You know I love you right?"
She smiled; "I do…"
He smiled back and kissed her nose, "And you love me?"
She closed her eyes and rested her forehead against his, "More than you could possibly ever know…"
"Then lets not think about what could have been and just enjoy what is…" He whispered against her. "In two weeks we are getting married, our house will be finished shortly after that. And then in about eight months…we will have a baby to take care of. April and Rory are both happy and healthy, and even though they are going to be far away we will still see them as much as we can and talk to them everyday. And no matter what…we'll be together."
She swallowed hard and pulled away slowly, "Okay." She paused again, "Can I tell you one last thing though? You know about the past?"
He nodded, "Sure."
She licked her lips and looked back towards the corner of her room. "That night…" She shuddered slowly, "That night that Christopher…" She sighed and turned to him again, "I was so scared Luke…I didn't know what to do. I couldn't move…and then I heard your voice…"
He closed his eyes, trying to ignore the image of her face poking out from around the door to look at her. He still remembered how frightened she looked, how raw and new the bruises looked against her pale flesh. He remembered how his stomach had dropped and he felt like someone had ripped his heart out of his chest.
"Lorelai…" He whispered reaching for her gently, he squeezed her arm affectionately.
"When I thought it was just Rory I couldn't face it. And then when I heard your voice I just wanted to run to you and have you hold me. I wanted to just stay in your arms forever and just hide…" She sniffled and nuzzled his arm.
"I felt sick to my stomach when I saw you…knowing what he did to you I just wanted to go and kill him. I will never understand how he could lay his hands on you…how he could hurt you that way. I have been angry and hurt before but I could never do that…" He whispered running his hands through her hair.
"To be honest…" She pulled away and looked up at him, "If you hadn't come here that night Luke…I don't know if I would have pressed charges. I don't know if I could have found the strength to leave him. I didn't love him…but I was so scared."
"You are stronger than you think Lorelai. You made all the decisions yourself…" He told her.
"But having you here helped me. You made me feel stronger." Lorelai whispered, "When I saw you standing outside my door that night…I knew no mater what happened I would be okay. I couldn't understand why you were there…how you could have come here after everything that happened but God I was so happy to see you…"
He shook his head, "I will always be here for you. No matter what happens."
She squeezed his arm and pulled him closer, "Well you better be. I'm never letting you go again Luke. I need you."
He smiled softly, "I need you too…"
She took another deep breath, "I guess what I'm trying to say is that…you saved me that night Luke. You saved me from myself…and I don't know how I will ever be able to thank you for that."
He smiled at her, "You already are…you're marrying me and having my baby. What better way to say thank you and I love you?"
"I do love you…" She whispered, "So much…"
Leaning forward, he placed a gentle kiss on her lips. "Come on…its been a busy few days. You must be exhausted…"
Lorelai smiled and put the box on the floor as Luke got up to start to change. She watched him pull his t-shirt off and before he could throw it in the hamper she grabbed it and slipped it over her naked body. He laughed and slipped into his boxers before they both brushed their teeth and got into bed.
Luke pulled her up against him as she traced patterns against his chest, "Only two more weeks…" She whispered.
"Yep. I'm finally going to make an honest woman out of you." He said with a chuckle.
"Even with a ring on my finger no one will believe I'm very innocent." She said with a smirk, "And once they find out we got pregnant first…my reputation will be fully tarnished."
He rolled his eyes, "It doesn't really matter does it? Whether we were married or not when he or she was conceived, this baby is going to be incredibly loved."
She lifted her head to stare down at him, "I hope we have a little boy that looks just like you…"
Luke smirked, "I do too."
She laughed, "Wow…vain much?"
"Lorelai if we have a little girl that looks like you and Rory I really will turn into mush…" He said with a chuckle.
She smiled, "That's true…"
"And if it's a girl I'll never be able to let her go on a date. I'll have to start carrying a shot gun to ward off all the boys and I'll probably have a heart attack the day she gets married." He said with a groan.
"And if it's a boy you'll be rooting him on to score all the hottest chicks in Stars Hollow right?" She said raising her eyebrow at him.
Luke smirked, "He'll follow in his fathers footsteps."
She laughed, "Butch J.R.!"
Luke groaned and pushed her away, "Forget it…I'll take a girl."
Lorelai laughed and grabbed for him again, pulling him onto his side to face her. "Whatever it is…I can't wait to meet it."
"Do you want to find out if it's a boy or a girl when we can?" He asked curiously as he traced her cheek with his finger.
Lorelai shrugged, "I don't know. Being surprised might be kind of nice but we both know that the waiting will literally kill me…"
Luke chuckled, "Yes it will."
"So maybe we should find out so I don't drive you completely insane." She said with a smile.
He smirked, "I think you already have."
She laughed and began to play with the hairs on his chest, "Hey Luke?"
He watched her for a moment before answering, "Yeah?"
"I know you said that marrying you and having your baby was a good enough thank you for saving me." She paused and lifted her eyes to look at him, "But do you think I can show you some more how appreciative I am?"
Luke smiled and nodded slowly, "I think I could be okay with that…"
She smiled and leaned forward to kiss him, "I love you Luke Danes…"
"And I love you Mrs. Soon to be Lorelai Danes…" He said with a laugh against her lips.
She squealed with delight and rolled him over so she could straddle his hips, "I can't wait to be your wife…"
He smiled up at her and pulled her face down again to kiss her passionately. "Come here crazy lady…"
She couldn't stop smiling as he pulled her even closer and she reveled in the feeling of his body against hers. In that moment she finally pushed away all the regrets she had of the past and made sure to focus only on the future. Their future. She didn't want to miss a thing…
Hopefully this wasn't to sappy or boring. Let me know what you thought. I'll try and update soon! Send in those reviews!
