Traded Mistakes

Chapter Three: Confusing.

Everyone on the team had been giving me these worried glances lately ever since the day after I had lunch with Nati and I found out that I would be a father in a matter of months. I had been trying to hide the fact that I was still freaking over this fact by trying to appear as normal as I could when in the office or around anyone that would be tipped off.

I had no idea how to go about talking about this with any of them. I'm sure Hotch may have understand at least or JJ. I just was still overwhelmed about everything and the fact that I started reading more books on parenting and pregnancy probably was going to help much when I saw Nati later on today.

I had a feeling she had been trying to keep me at bay but I didn't understand why. She had seemed fine before we left each other after our walk. It was all still very confusing. As I began to pack up my things Morgan approached me.

"You alright, kid?" I had gotten used to him referring to me as that a long time ago.

"Perfectly fine." I nodded as I slipped my messenger bag over my shoulder.

"You sure? You can talk to me, you know?" He pushed as he leaned against my desk.

"Yeah, I know. I gotta get going. I have to meet someone." I said as I began to walk away. I was hoping he got the hint that I really didn't have the time to talk. He seemed not too because he was soon jogging up at my side as I headed towards the elevators.

"Is it a girl?" He laughed.

"Just a friend. We're discussing things from one of the books that I read a few nights ago, you wouldn't be too interested in that Morgan." I gave him a half smile knowing that he would drop it if I said something like that. I was correct as he quickly backed away as the elevator doors opened.

I had gotten Garcia to look up Nati's address earlier before we all started doing out paperwork from our latest case. She had tried to pry and asked me about Nati but I had wormed my way out of it by lying. I didn't like to lie, I just needed to get more control of the situation before I could spill about the things that were going on in my personal life. I'd much rather keep it private but I knew that they had already started talking about my behavior.

I would have to tell them eventually.

The first thing I heard once I was invited into Nati's home after telling her friend Meredith who I was was Nati talked animatedly with someone on the phone.

"Gah, for the last time I didn't want you to worry. Yes, I will talk to him about it." She let out a groan as she looked up and saw me standing near the doorway to the kitchen where she was. She had a plate in front of her but the food had barely been touched. She smiled a little before quickly telling whoever it was on the phone bye.

"I'm still mad at you Meredith, you didn't have to tell her yet. I was going to do it eventually." She called over my shoulder where I knew her friend had been standing.

"Woman, you wouldn't have called your mother until the last possible moment. Besides she needs some uplifting during this time in her life. So, you should be thanking me really." Meredith muttered as she passed me and headed down a corridor to her room I presumed.

"Are you and your mom on bad terms or something?" I asked as I slowly walked into the kitchen some more. She had began eating her food slowly.

"Not exactly, it's just complicated. I'll tell you about some other time. Regardless she wants to meet you...soon." She trailed off as she looked at me.

I really didn't know what to say to that. I had never had to meet a girl's parent before unless it was for a case and those terms were never good. I just nodded as I leaned against the refridgerator. "How are you feeling today?"

I scoffed at that question. I know he was just being concerned because I was carrying his child but today hadn't been my favorite day. It had to be one of the worst. "Could be better, I suppose." I shrugged as I turned sideways so he wasn't staring at me hunched over eating some of the enchiladas I had picked up earlier.

His hands were twitching as if he wanted to touch me. It amused me that he was so nervous around me, right now. I didn't say anything though. He was an interesting person to watch. I knew most men would probably just grab a girl and hold her but he was being more cautious. I think he had to do with the fact that I was carrying more than just me now.

I sighed after a few minutes of silence. I think he had been observing me too. "You can touch me you know, I won't hit you." I wasn't sure if that's what he was afraid of but it was the only thing I could think of to say.

"It's not that exactly. I'm just not used to things like this." He explained with a motion of his hand towards me. I know he probably didn't mean it but I sorta took that as an insult. I wasn't sure if he meant the baby situation or just me in general.

"And you think that I am?" I asked quietly as I looked up at him. I think he caught my tone and began to tense up.

"No. I-just I don't know what we're doing here. It's confusing, I don't know what we're supposed to do or what we aren't supposed to do. Are we supposed to be all coupley like or we just supposed to see each other for the appointments? Am I supposed to feel worried about you everyday or is that something reserved for someone else?" As he continued to ramble off question after question I tried to get him to stop.

He was really worked up over all of this. Granted we hadn't exactly talked about any of this but I had a feeling he was going to explode if I didn't get him to stop one way or another. I sighed as I called his name again only for him to continue rattling off another scenario that had somehow come from his mind.

I groaned before deciding to just shut him up the only way I could think of. I wrapped his tie in my hand and pulled him down towards me. He definitely had shut up then but I didn't really think it would be easy for me to just let him go before doing something else that was bold. I kissed him.

As I pulled away from him I averted my eyes to the side to see Meredith standing there with her mouth gaped wide open. I had to fight the blush that was already creeping up on me. She just held her hands up in surrender after a second and quickly scurried back to her room.

I turned back to Spencer and saw that his face was quite red. I chuckled as I let his tie go and just touched his cheeks. "Stop asking so many questions, Reid. If anyone should I be, I should. I am the one carrying our child after all. And you stop worrying so much about every little thing. So what if we don't know what to do as far as how we're supposed to act. I've never been a normal person when it comes to those couple things, so don't worry about it. I had a bad day, and you worrying about things that aren't under your control right now isn't helping me much."

He reached for my hand and slowly pulled them away. "What happened today?" He asked which never breaking eye contact.

It was weird because when we first met he would try to look anywhere but where I was standing, talking to him. I didn't really know how to answer his question. I mean I could go with the truth that I was out of a job because my boss was an egotistical asshole or I could just make up a lie. He could probably figure out that I was lying considering he was a profiler and everything.

But I decided to go with the truth knowing that we were already in so much mess, I didn't want to drag us any deeper. "I lost my job today."I sighed.

"W-what? How?" He asked as he rubbed his thumbs against my hands which he was still holding.

"Well my boss didn't exactly agree with the fact that I am now pregnant and wanted me to either get rid of it or leave until it was over...i.e. I had the baby. Plus he was being a complete ass about it so I told him off and then left. Eh, I'll find another job." I shrugged.

"You don't have to." I heard him say.

"What do you mean?" He had to be crazy if he didn't think I needed to get a job. I did need to keep up with my half of the rent. Plus I had to keep providing for myself as far as the necessities went.

"You could stay with me, if you wanted to?" He made it sound like a question. I didn't know if he intended for it to be. I couldn't leave Meredith with this place expecting her to pick up my slack of both halves of the rent.

"I can't do that. I can't leave Meredith here to pay for $350 a month for rent by herself." I said, frowning.

"Yes you can, I've been thinking about this a lot and I figured I could downsize since you were likely to move out eventually to live with Spencer and a baby when he or she comes." Meredith muttered from inside the fridge.

I nearly jumped because I hadn't even noticed that she was in the kitchen again. "Could you stop jumping out of nowhere?" I asked her as I looked at her.

"Nope. It's fun to see you react. I hope I didn't scare you too much, Dr. Reid." Meredith smirked as I looked up at him to see him with his eyes widen and from how close we were still standing I could feel his heart beating miles a minute. I chuckled at him.

"No...you didn't." He tried to play it off as if it wasn't but I could tell.

Meredith just rolled her eyes at him as she smiled. "But yeah, I don't mind take her away lover boy. But I better get some visitation rights." I couldn't help but laugh. Spencer just stood there.

I was beginning to wonder what was funny to him and what wasn't. "That was a joke, Spence." I told him as he looked down at me. For a moment he looked sad but he just nodded after a moment. I felt like I said something wrong to him.

It was going to bug me. But I brushed it off as Meredith left us once again. I had a feeling she just was trying to check up on me to make sure that Spencer was treating me right. She was always so overprotective of me.

"So we can start moving you in when I come back next week. I'll most likely be leaving for another case tomorrow." He sighed and for the first time as I looked at him I could see how tired he was.

Was working so long wearing him out or was it something else? I knew that the news of becoming a parent could have caused this too but I wasn't too sure. "You look tired, you should rest some time soon." I said quietly.

"I'm fine." He said quickly.

I didn't say anything else on the subject and he didn't try to bring anything else. He told me he would call me when he could while working on the case just to see how I was doing before kissing my forehead quickly and nearly sprinting out of the door. It had barely felt like he had even touched me at all before he disappeared from my sights.

He confused me way too much.

I chuckled before deciding to go into my room for a much need nap. I had handled way too much drama for one day.

I deserved some rest.

A/N: Not my best Spencer POV but I'll try to do better the next time I do his POV. It won't be soon. I like staying in Nati's...it's much more normal for me I guess.

Anyway. I hope you like it.

I don't really know if anyone does considering I don't get comments on this story haha.

But that's okay.

I'll update again sometime next week.

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~daisherz365