Chapter 32:
The next day came sooner than they had expected. Lexa's eyes fluttered open to find blond hair obscuring her view. She felt Clarke's naked body against her, she could feel her hands wrapped tight and hanging on as though Lexa was going to disappear. Lexa smiled as she gently moved Clarke's hair out of her view. She looked down and found Clarke's angelic face on her chest and facing her. Lexa stroked the blonde locks softly soaking in the moment. She never in a million years thought she would be so lucky. She never thought she would find this connection with someone again. She never expected to find herself feeling happy every again. She looked at Clarke fondly, silently thanking the girl for letting Lexa love her. Lexa needed it. Clarke had brought Lexa back to life.
She heard a soft groan come from Clarke as she watched the gorgeous bombshell shift her head to block the light from her eyes. Lexa wanted nothing more than to just soak the moment in. She remained quiet trying not to disturb the blond. She felt Clarke's body stretch and stiffen slightly before relaxing into Lexa again. Lexa felt Clarke's arms press into her a little tighter, hugging her closer. Lexa closed her eyes and took a few deep breathes trying to soak it all in.
She must have dozed off again in her contentment because the next thing she knew she was being poked in the ribs gently. She giggled as she woke up because the movement tickled her. She opened her eyes to find Clarke's blue ones locked to her.
Clarke smiled wide, "Well that was adorable miss big bad commander," she stated.
Lexa tried to hide her embarrassed smile and tried to change the subject, "I thought last night was a dream." She ran her hand along Clarke's shoulder and down her back. Trailing lines down her spine. She felt Clarke move in response to the movement and Lexa knew she was enjoying it. Lexa continued her movements smiling fondly at Clarke.
"I've never had that good of a dream before," Clarke said coyly.
Lexa laughed lightly, "Nor have I." She meant it. Last night was incredible. A stroke of luck Lexa never thought she'd have. A stroke of fate had brought the two together and now Lexa never wanted to be without her. She had spent 3 months agonizing over what she had done to Clarke, telling herself she'd never get forgiveness because she didn't deserve it, 3 months resigning herself to the fact that she'd never see her again. Now that she had her, now that she had found solace with Clarke she wasn't going to ever give it up without a fight. She would do everything in her power to keep the girl she loved safe. This time, fate will work in her favour. It'd have to.
Lexa and Costia had fooled around but they had never explored the areas that Clarke and Lexa shared last night. Lexa found herself worshipping Clarke's body more than once, just yearning to make her as euphoric as Lexa felt being with her. She had taken the cues from Clarke, she wasn't entirely surprised that the girl seemed more fluent than Lexa in this new form of physical expression. Last night Lexa had lost her virginity to Clarke and they both knew it. Clarke had coached Lexa through some moments but never made her feel embarrassed or that she was doing something wrong. In fact, Clarke seemed to thoroughly enjoy what Lexa had been doing all night.
Lexa had never experienced the realms of pleasure Clarke introduced her to. The whole night was so unexpected. She felt herself falling more in love with her every second and she embraced it. It didn't scare her. Her feelings for the girl were making her feel stronger in every moment they spent together.
They looked into each others eyes revelling in the moment and the silence surrounding them, before Lexa decided she couldn't wait any longer, "I love you Clarke." She had to tell her, she felt like she had to yell it from the tower's balcony. She had to let Clarke know again and again how she felt. Clarke smiled at her words; she blinked slowly before she returned the sentiment. The words and Clarke's beautiful face making Lexa move and bring her lips to Clarke's again, pulling her close into an embrace.
A knock came at the door that broke the girls apart. Clarke groaned at the interruption and Lexa smiled, their lips just slightly apart. LExa stole another kiss before removing herself from under Clarke and finding a robe. Clarke rolled over and pulled the covers up over her head before she ripped them down and sat up staring at Lexa with wide eyes.
"Shit, I can't be here!" she hissed.
Lexa only smile at the girls reaction, "You can, you are and you're not leaving until you wish."
Clarke groaned again as she grabbed the furs and wrapped them around her naked body as she got out of the bed. She began walking towards Lexa with a funny grin on her face, as she was walking past she put out her hand and trailed her fingers along Lexa's robe covered shoulders, the movement with her arm allowing the fur to drop to the floor as Clarke walked past. Lexa's jaw dropped as she watched the girl continue on and head into the bathroom, her naked ass skipping in before the door closed softly.
Lexa made a stupid gesture with her hand to physically close her mouth as she shook her head to snap out of it. She cleared her throat and headed towards the door. She opened it to find Octavia beaming at her.
"Hi! Do you know where Clarke is?"
Lexa bit her lip and shot a quick glance to the bathroom door. She looked back to Octavia to find the girls smile had changed to grin as she rolled her eyes.
"If you happen to run into her, will you let her know I heard from Raven."
Before Lexa could say anything Clarke was at her side in a robe as well. She popped her head out so Octavia could see it, ignoring Octavia's knowing glances between the two of them Lexa felt her cheeks grow hot as she then turned and headed to the bathroom herself. Clarke would fill her in after and she really did not want to be present for the remaining awkward looks and unsaid truths.