And here it is chapter two! Enjoy it everyone and this isn't even the end! Yes there will be a 3rd chapter, umm sometime after in January probably.
So as you know it's short chapters all week and this is the shortest, lots and lots to do today and preparing for tomorrow. This one might be short but remember there will be a 3rd chapter.
Ch. 2 See the Bright Pearls Sink in a Sky of Ebony
"Well that was a lot of fun," Bianca smiles.
"Yes," I grin as Drew nuzzles his nose against my neck, "yes it was."
And that's all we say about it, for about fifteen minutes we just lie on the bed, me between the two of them. As fun as it was, as sexy and as thrilling I'm beginning to feel just a bit guilty. I have no idea what's going through Drew's head or Bianca's but no one says a word until Drew's stomach grumbles.
"I'm hungry you guys want anything?" Drew asks.
"I should probably get going," Bianca says getting up and grabbing her clothes.
"No," I shake my head.
Drew gets up pulling on boxers and jeans then he goes out to the kitchen. Bianca gets her clothes on grabbing a pen from my nightstand and tearing out a page from the notebook on it.
"I'm in town through Monday if you guys want to get together again. Or we could have a girls night if you can get Drew to watch the kids. Here's all my contact info," Bianca says handing me the paper.
She goes out to the living room to get dressed and I get up and shower. I'm feeling rather conflicted over what just happened. It was fun and thrilling, sexy and tender. While we were all making love I felt so well taken care of, so pampered in a way and relaxed too. I wasn't worried about just getting off or getting Drew off, as I have been the couple of times Drew and I did make love since I was able to after Salacia. I felt sexier than I have in a long time, it's hard to feel sexy as a new mom with two small children. But with two people caressing me and making love to me and wanting to be touched by me I felt very sexy. Now that it's over though I feel guilty, a little ashamed, confused and worried, very very very worried.
"Bianca just left are you okay?" Drew asks opening the washroom door.
"Yeah just thought I should shower and get ready, we're due at your parent's house in a couple of hours," I reply.
Okay so I'm really not okay but we don't have time to talk about it now. Besides I'm not even entirely sure how I feel and I'm not ready to talk about it.
"You sure you don't want anything to eat? That was quite a workout," Drew comments.
"I'm sure, I'm not hungry and we'll be eating at your parent's house shortly. It's the first time Adam's been home in ages and he's bringing his new girlfriend I'm sure your mom made a feast."
Drew stays in the washroom for a few seconds before closing the door. I stay in the shower a very long time, only turning off the water when it becomes so cold I start to shiver. I get out wrapping myself in a towel and then delay going out to the bedroom to face Drew by blow drying my hair, then brush my teeth and put on my makeup. Drew is in the living room watching TV, we have to leave in half an hour to get to his parents on time but I spend the next fifteen minutes in the closet deciding what to wear. It really doesn't matter what I wear, Adam's my best friend, Audra and Omar have seen me at my best and worst, they were with us at the hospital when both kids were born. Drew tells me I look beautiful in everything and I'm really not worried about impressing Adam's new girlfriend based on how I'm dressed. That's not the point, the point is that if I'm fretting over what to wear I'm not fretting over what we just did.
I finally settle on a navy blue wrap dress with half sleeves and a V-neck. I wear black flats with it and the locket Drew gave me for our first anniversary. Silver earrings complete the outfit and I grab my coat. Drew wears jeans and a dark shirt, his favorite coat and then we leave. It's a 20 minute drive to his parent's house and I don't want to talk about what happened but apparently neither does Drew.
"I'm sure my parents will keep the kids if we want to go out with Adam and his girlfriend tomorrow. I'd say tonight but they're probably tired from travel," Drew comments.
"Yeah that would be good, we can talk to them at dinner. I really should do more homework tonight anyway."
"Yeah I have some homework too," Drew nods before turning up the radio and singing every song that plays so we don't talk again until reaching his parent's house.
We get out and walk to the door together only instead of holding hands or linking arms like we normally would we walk about a foot apart. Drew rings the bell and it's opened a second later by Adam. We smile upon seeing him, hugging him tightly and saying hello. Omar is on the sofa feeding Salacia and Xavion is in the kitchen "helping" Audra.
"Guys this is my girlfriend Terri," Adam introduces us.
"It's really nice to meet you Adam talks about you both all the time and how his brother fell in love with and married his best friend. Your children are just beautiful and I love their names," Terri smiles hugging us both. She seems to be nervously excited but that's understandable.
"It's nice to meet you as well, Adam talks about you every time we hear from him. He said you went to DeGrassi for a little while," I comment while Drew and I take off our coats. Xavion waves to us but he's absorbed in decorating cookies.
"Yeah for a couple of years before transferring to a private school. It's a long story but Adam said your sister dated Spinner, I had a huge crush on him for a long time. That was before he began dating one of my closest friends Paige Michulchuk."
Salacia sees me now and starts crying for me so Omar hands her over. Now that she's been fed I take her downstairs to burp and change her. When I bring her back upstairs dinner is ready and I put Salacia in the baby swing they keep her so she can watch us eat. Most of the dinner conversation is Adam catching us up on his life and us getting to know Terri.
"We thought if Mom and Dad didn't mind taking the kids for a few hours tomorrow night the four of us could go out," Drew comments while we're helping clean up.
"Yeah that would be great," Adam smiles.
"Of course we don't mind, Xavion can help me with preparations for Thanksgiving dinner," Audra says.
"Tan we have tookies now?" Xavion requests.
"Just one cookie Xavion it's close to your bed time," I tell him.
The rest of us have cookies and coffee, of course I have decaf as I'm still breastfeeding. After dessert Drew and I gather up the kids and all their things, say goodbye and drive home. Salacia is asleep when we get home so we leave her in the carrier and get Xavion to bed.
"I'll feed her and get her to bed," I tell Drew when Xavion is in bed.
"Okay I'm going to take a shower," Drew says.
I get Salacia fed and totally ready for bed setting her in her crib and go into the bedroom. Drew is still in the shower when I'm done and I just sort of stare at the bed. I feel a desperate need to change the sheets now so I start ripping the bedding off the bed. I'm just taking the mattress cover off when Drew comes out of the washroom wearing pajama bottoms already.
"Clare?"
"The sheets need to be changed," I reply.
"No I think we need to talk about what happened," Drew says taking my arms and pulling the mattress protector from my hands.
"It was exciting and exhilarating in the moment, I felt so many wonderful things as it was happening," I tell him sinking down onto the bed.
"But now you regret it?" Drew asks.
"No not regret necessarily but I feel guilty, it was cheating."
"Okay but we both cheated with cheated with Bianca it's not as though you went out and had an affair. Besides which you initiated it by asking to kiss Bianca."
"I know and I wanted to and what it led to was exciting and wonderful but when it was over I felt…I don't know guilty and worried and I didn't want to think about it because it was cheating a…"
"Consensual cheating, we both did it and we could have stopped it at any time. I don't feel like it was cheating because we both knew about it. It wasn't cheating it was something else," Drew says.
"Then what was it because I keep thinking about it and I just feel guilty and feel like I cheated on you even though you were there."
"I was there and I cheated too but I still don't think I was cheating, at least not in that you went out and had an affair or that I had an affair. If anything we had an affair together and I'm telling you know to stop feeling guilty about it. I don't want you to feel guilty about it, you shouldn't feel guilty about it I don't feel guilty about it. Can you let go of that guilt? Can you just breathe and let it go? I don't think it's something to feel guilty about I think it was something we needed," Drew remarks and I bite my lip and look down. "What's wrong?"
"Was it something that we needed? Is that what we need to have a good sex life, to be have someone else? I know I initiated it but I feel like we need someone else because we're not attracted to each other anymore," I tell him.
"Are you no longer attracted to me?" Drew asks and he looks horrified at this thought. "Because I'm still incredibly attracted to you, I still find you incredibly beautiful and sexy."
"But it doesn't feel like it, we have two very small children, we're both in school full time, we're busy all the time and even our Saturdays are often spent doing chores and errands. We barely have time for a passing kiss and I don't feel sexy. Not only do I not feel sexy I feel like you don't find me sexy anymore," I confess.
"Then I've been failing to remind you how sexy you are. You are incredibly, drop dead gorgeous sexy, every time I look at you I think how lucky I am and that you don't know that hurts me. Is that why you're worried after what happened? You think I find Bianca more attractive than you? Or that I'd leave you for Bianca after everything we've been through?"
"Well Bianca is not just some girl you and she dated for a long time, you two were engaged. I guess after everything and even knowing that you love me I became subconsciously afraid that you would run off with Bianca," I confess timidly.
"Bianca and I do have a history and I was in love with her at one time. I will always love her in a way the same way you'll always love Eli. But I am extremely, incredibly and forever in love with you Clare. Xavion and Salacia are exhausting most of the time but I love them so much, I am a proud dad and I could never ever leave you and the kids. Do you really think I could do that?" Drew asks in a hurt tone and with tears in his eyes.
"In my heart I know you wouldn't but after today and with how tired and busy we've been then Bianca comes into town and we sleep with her. And I know you wouldn't but I can see the attraction of running off with a sexy girl. Knowing you wouldn't doesn't keep me from being afraid. It's not just that but I wasn't in the mood at all and then Bianca was here and I really wanted to kiss her. I didn't think about it at the time it was happening but since then I keep analyzing why I wanted to kiss Bianca and wonder why it turned me on so much and why I was so excited by it."
"So you aren't attracted to me then?" Drew asks in a disheartened tone.
"No that's not it at all I am deeply attracted to you Drew. I am so deeply in love with you and you are a terrific husband and father and that is very sexy. I do find you attractive but I was still very titillated by the kiss with Bianca and everything that we did after that."
"Okay so I find you very sexy and you find me very sexy right?" Drew asks.
"Yes sensationally sexy," I nod dragging a finger over my husband's chest.
"And you know I won't leave you and the kids and I know you would never leave us."
"Not ever and not for anyone," I nod.
"So if we are both very attracted to each other and we both are in love and would never leave the other than there's nothing to worry about right?" Drew asks and I nod. "Okay and we were both here this afternoon and we both made love to Bianca, both Bianca and I made love to you and you both made love to me. We all wanted it and we all enjoyed it and we all consented to it so there's nothing to feel guilty about right?"
"Okay I shouldn't feel guilty but I liked it Drew, I really liked it and was excited and elated by it and loved making love to the both of you. It was like a breath of new life after a long sleep. We're so busy and so tired and being with Bianca was thrilling and new. I also felt sexy and pampered and I feel guilty about that. I feel guilty about that, like you weren't enough, but you are. You are enough, I love you more than anything and you do turn me on."
"You shouldn't though; it's perfectly natural to want to spice things up sometimes. Especially with our hectic lives Clare. I think you're exactly right, having Bianca with us was new and exciting gave us both a jolt that we needed. You know I love you but we get so wrapped up in the little day to day things and our roles as parents and husband and wife and students that seeing each other through someone else's eyes was refreshing. Besides which it was nice to have someone else to help fulfill your needs, and mine."
"Yes that was nice, there was so many sensations. I thought it was relaxing in a way. Relaxing but thrilling, and now that we've talked about it I don't feel so guilty," I comment as Drew's phone rings. It's Adam and they talk a moment but Drew smiles when he gets off the phone.
"Adam and Terri want to take the kids to the zoo tomorrow," Drew tells me.
"That's good, would you think it was awful if I wanted to call Bianca and ask her over tomorrow? I would like to do it again, if you want to?"
"I think that's a great idea," Drew smiles kissing me gently.
"But after Adam and Terri pick up the kids and before Bianca comes over I think you and I need to have some intimate time alone."
"An even better idea, I think we should start now. Why don't you text Bianca and see if she can come over tomorrow and I'll start the fireplace and light some candles."
As I said this will be a 3 shot because quite frankly I didn't have time to get everything into this chapter obviously there need to be more smut. Plus more of the threesome relationship developing.
Please remember there will be no story tomorrow night because I'll be at a party all day long.