Chapter XX | Anastasia's POV

So many people started coming to the party, I was feeling a little bit too claustrophobic.

Christian was now currently holding my hand trying to lead out of the party, his hand felt like home, I never want to let go.

We finally get to his front door and he puts on a leather jacket that makes him look a bad-boyish kind of sexy, which is kind of funny because he's been nothing but a complete sweetheart to me, and I have yet to see this bad by side of him.

''Are you ready?'' He asks me.

''Of course.'' I say, smiling.

He smiles back and grabs my hand again. I walk out of his house with him and I feel like I can finally breathe now. Was it really crowded with that much people? Felt like it.

He opens the car door for me and bows like a gentlemen.

I giggle, ''thank you, kind sir.''

He gets in and the rest of the ride is filled with a comfortable silence.

''So what should we order?'' I ask while fishing out the keys for the front door.

''I don't know, anything?'' He says.

I roll my eyes, ''How about we just make something, save ourselves the hassle.''

He nods.

Opening the door, I allow him to go in first and he immediately goes into my kitchen and raids my fridge.

''You have pizza rolls'' He says, ''Dinosaur nuggets and taquitos?'' He raises his eyebrow in question.

''Yes. I love pizza rolls, dinosaur nuggets and taquitos, so what!'' I challenge him while crossing my arms in front of my chest, he looks at my body for a second before looking back at my face with a twinkle in his eyes.

''Alright, fine.'' He holds his hands up in surrender, ''Which should we make.''

''Whichever you want'' I walk over to where he's standing and he holds up the taquitos, ''I never tasted them before.''

I widen my eyes and he laughs, ''what? Dude really? They're like tacos but folded''

He shrugs.

Rolling my eyes, I tell him to set the oven to 400 degrees and like a good boy he does.

We wait for a few minutes before putting them in the oven, then we wait again...

While we wait, he stands in front of me with both of his hands on each side of the counter, trapping me. A serious yet seductive expression plastered on his face.

I'm forever hypnotized by his gray eyes.

''Why are you staring at me like that?'' I say, looking anywhere but at him, but of course he makes me look.

''Because you're beautiful, why don't you like it when I stare at you?''

''I just don't.''

''Well, deal with it because I can't go 2 minutes without looking at you.''

I sigh and he surprises me by kissing me. I pull back quickly.

''I can't go 2 minutes without kissing you either'' He sighs while leaning his forehead on mine. I can feel him smiling.

We wait 20 more minutes until the timer goes off and makes the both of us jump in surprise.

He takes it out, and I take out a cherry cola for myself and a sprite for him.

We walk up to my room and set the food down and he shrugs his jacket off. He holds his hand out for me to hold on while I take off my wedges.

He jumps and lands on my bed and I giggle, he's so carefree right now, so comfortable, could I possibly finally have a friend?

I let a smile play on my face..

''What are you smiling at?'' He says bringing me from my thoughts.

''Oh, uh nothing, stay here, I'll go change into something comfortable.''

He nods, and I look through my dresser drawers and pick out PJ's.

''Can you unzip me?'' I ask and he looks taken aback but he clears his throat and nods.

He gets behind me and pushes my hair over my shoulder and slowly unzips me.

I turn around and his eyes have darkened again, ''t-thanks..'' I stutter out.

I go to the bathroom and I take my dress and socks off. I get a little rag and I wet it, and scrub the concealer off my thighs, after I'm done I rub lotion on my legs and thighs.

I put my colorful boxers on and a black tank top.

I brush my hair and put it in a messy bun, I clean the make up off my face with make up remover wipes, I dry my face with a small towel and I stare at myself in the mirror.

I'm stuck looking at myself.

1 second passes... 2 seconds pass... 3 seconds pass...

Then I see it.

I look closer, my eyes are turning black.

I gasp and throw myself back quickly, hitting my back against the wall behind me.

''I'm a monster.'' I whisper.

I take quick breaths before opening the door and walking back into my room.

''These are actually pretty damn goo—'' He stops smiling and talking once he looks up at me.

He slowly looks at my arms, then my thighs... I'm exposed.

His eyes turn sympathetic.

Great, that's exactly what I need... Pity...

His eyes find mine. I'm trying to speak with my eyes.

Can you see the monster now?

As if he's reading me, he shakes his head and gets up. ''If I asked to kiss your scars, would you let me?''

I don't answer.

He inhales loudly before taking his shirt off.

''I wanna make love to you, know all of your secrets, kiss the pain of your scars away, make you laugh and smile, memorize your favorite things...''

I look at his chest, and I see the cigarette burns, I let out a sob and he holds me in his embrace.

''Lets eat and then talk.'' He says softly before kissing the top of my head. I nod and look up at him, and he wipes my tears away with his thumbs, then leaves a soft kiss on my cheek.

We eat and share a few sympathetic glances.

Laying side by side, we stare at the colorful ceiling, he grabs my hand and I start.

''I was eleven when it happened...''

''Ana what did you get?'' My best friend Jose asks me while we ride the bus home.

''I got an A+, my mommy and daddy will be so happy, they might even buy me a puppy'' I stick my tongue out at him and he makes a mad face and crosses his arms.

I laugh and start tickling him, but he moves away from my hand quickly and tickles me.

''St-stop Jose, that tickles!'' I say between laughs.

''Hey Zoey, tickle Ana with me'' He tells our friend Zoey, and she joins, I can't take it anymore.

''Okay! Okay I'm sorry, I'll share my puppy with the both of you, stop or I will pee myself!'' They stop and giggle at me, while I try to catch my breath.

I sit up and pout at the both of them, then the bus stops at a bus stop. My bus stop.

''Bye Jose, bye Zoey.'' I say, while getting up from my seat, ''Bye Ana, we'll be waiting for our puppy'' they say, which makes me giggle.

Sam the bus driver holds his hand out for me, and I give him a high 5 and he smiles, ''alright little lady, I'll see you tomorrow.''

''Bye Sam!'' I yell before walking down the steps and running home, all I can think about are...

Happy mommy, happy daddy, happy new puppy, happy me.

''I ran home, ready to tell them my good grade, ready for my dad to pick me up and spin me around and tell me that he's so proud of his baby girl, ready for my mom to kiss me on my forehead and tell me, that she's proud of me, waiting for a puppy, but what I got instead was... different..''

I run and I see Logan's car. I squeal and run faster, I open the front door and run in screaming, ''mommy, daddy, Logan! Look at what I got!''

I see Logan sitting on the sofa, drinking a bottle of something that I seen at a corner store before.

''Logan! Logan!'' I climb up on his lap and bounce up and down, happy. ''Look at my grade! Mommy and daddy are gonna get me a puppy!''

''That's my girl..'' He kisses my cheek.

''Where is mommy?'' I look around. ''Where's daddy?''

''They went grocery shopping..'' He kisses my cheek again.

He's kissing me, my prince.

I sigh and lay my head on his chest.

''We should celebrate.'' He says rubbing his hands up and down my back.

I lift my head up and smile, clapping, squealing.

''Can we go to Chuck E. Cheese's!''

He shakes his head weirdly and says, ''no.. no.. we can do something better..''

''Like what?''

He's about to answer me when his friend Brad shows up. I never did like Brad. He was too mean.

Brad gives me a smile that makes me scared, but I'm with Logan, he will never let anyone hurt me. He's my prince.

''Let's go to the basement... We could set up a little party down there'' Logan says.

''A party?'' I squeal again.

''Yes.. yes.''

I get up off of his lap and he holds my hand, Brad walks through the hallway, but looks back at me with a little smirk.

But then Logan bends down to my level and blocks out Brad's face, ''Do you love me Ana?'' He asks.

I look down and nod, ''you are my prince.''

I look up at him and I see he has a smile on his face, but this smile is different. It's not right. I bet it's nothing.

''And you are my little princess.''

I smile and nod.

He walks to the basement door with me, and lets me walk in first, before he walks in last and slams the door behind him.

I can't finish. I just can't.

I'm sobbing uncontrollably hard, and Christian holds me, sobbing with me too.

''It hurt so bad'' I clutch onto him, crying hard. ''He hurt me, they both hurt me.''

''I'm so sorry Ana..'' He whimpers. ''So fucking sorry.''

''They kept calling me a whore... Saying that I'm no good... That I'll only be good for fucking, I was only eleven, a little fucking girl, a stupid naive little girl..'' I start to shake.

He kisses my face, all over. ''No Ana, it wasn't your fault, fuck I wish I could kill the both of them. I promise I won't let anyone hurt you again, ever.'' He buries his face in my neck while we both cry.

''Everything changed after that Christian... I was never the same... I was never happy...'' I whimper.

It's as if he feels my pain, radiating off of me.

''I'm gonna try my hardest to change that..'' He whispers.

And he holds me, for what feels like eternity, before our crying subsides and he starts to tell me his past...

A/N: It was pretty hard writing this chapter, I won't promise that they will be all rainbows and sunshine after they let all their secrets out, but I am definitely leaning towards a HEA.