Chapter 15:
"For Better Or Worse"
"Wanna be my fiancée?" Alex asked seriously.
"What is that like 'marry me' for pussies?" Piper replied in a familiar fashion.
"Mmm pussies. I mean mmmm your pussy." Alex joked.
"Have you hit your head?"
"No, no I don't think so I've always love pussies, especially yours" Alex chuckled and Piper poked her.
"C'mon I'm serious Alex."
"Look, I was an asshole. I love you and I couldn't be gladder that you are going out of this place. I will be by your side the whole time and afterwards if you still want me too." Alex told her seriously.
"Alex… you jumped on an electric fence and now you are asking me to marry you and you never wanted to get married... I'm really confused," Piper said and shook her head. She was really worried by Alex behavior.
"I know… I was stupid to do so and as for me not wanting to get married… well things changed. I'm not saying I want a huge princess wedding, nor a wedding in prison like Nicky and Lorna, no offense to them… but I do want to be able to call you my wife for the rest of our life. We'll just sign the paper and have a celebration once I'm out. I want to show you how committed I am to this relationship," Alex admitted with a sincerity that surprised both Piper and herself.
Piper didn't doubt her love for a second but she worried that Alex only did this out of fear. "You know that you are not gonna lose me even if we don't get married. And we still don't know for sure if my lawyer's plan to get me out is gonna work… I'm not sure I trust him yet, though I'm gonna be honest, I really want to."
"I know all that and it doesn't change the fact that I love you and I want you to be my side forever," Alex said with absolute clarity.
Piper eyes lit up. She felt the exact same way. "Okay then." She thought for a moment and said, "I want to hear you say those two words."
"Really? Okay. Well if I'm gonna do it I'm gonna do it all the way," Alex grinned and got down on one knee. "Piper Chapman, will you marry me?
Piper laughed. "Yes, yes come back up here silly." She helped Alex get up and looked at her with unhidden passion and love. "I'll marry you Alex Vause." Piper tiptoed so that she could press the most overwhelming kiss on her now fiancée's lips.
Alex had her hands on Piper's lower body and if Piper weren't so busy kissing Alex endlessly she would have notice that her feet weren't touching the ground because Alex was holding her against her body. Tongues explored the sweetest spots until the need to breathe became inevitable. Alex put the blonde down, her forehead delicately pressing on Piper's. Both kept their eyes closed.
"I. Need. You. Naked," Piper breathed against Alex's lips. "Right now."
Alex chuckled and proceeded to remove all of her clothes. "Not fair if I'm the only one naked," she grinned and helped Piper strip off of her clothes as well. She sat down against the altar and Piper straddled her. There was no time to waste in the chapel; someone could walk in any moment, guard or inmate. The fact that they could get caught only added to the thrill, to the exhilaration to see their lover orgasms in a record time because of the situation. Hands were swift, hitting all the right nerve ending that allowed the naked forms to convulse in pleasure and collapse in each other's arms. The couple took a few seconds to gain back their senses and enjoy each other's presence before getting dressed again.
"I promise that our honeymoon we will have sex for more than 5 minutes Piper. Prison sucks and I'm sorry I can't give you all the time you deserve," Alex pledged as she put on her last article of clothing. Piper smiled. She liked the new, smoother Alex but she sensed something was off with her. She hoped to be wrong.
"So do you have a meeting with your lawyer this week? How is he by the way? Can't be worse than Larry's father I assume." Alex asked her fiancée as they walked to the cafeteria together.
Piper considered for a second telling Alex that he was flirting with her, but she quickly dismissed the idea when she remembered how easily jealous Alex could be. "He is… fine I think, I don't know. I'm still trying to figure out if I can trust him or not. He is a little bit presumptuous and that gets on my nerve." Piper told her instead.
"I thought that's what you liked best about me," Alex teased.
Piper grimaced. "It's different with you. You… damn you are just plain sexy when you are like that." She squeezed her ass as they kept on walking, feeling recent arousal build up again. Alex giggled in her hair and pressed a kiss there.
They broke their embrace once they entered the cafeteria.
"My next meeting with my lawyer is tomorrow," Piper mentioned while they waited in the food line. "Hopefully he won't be such a douche this time."
"Do I have to go cut some guy's balls so that he acts decent around my lady?" Alex said jokingly. Only it wouldn't be a joke if she knew how flirtatious he was around Piper.
Piper chuckled nervously and the inmate put food in her tray. "It's okay honey, I can handle it, but thank you."
Visitation hour was today and Piper was a little nervous about seeing her lawyer again. Alex walked her there- having no one to see today- and she watched her newly fiancée from the window. Piper sat in front of Nicolas and greeted before turning around to see if Alex was still there. The dark-haired woman smiled supportively and winked at her.
"So Piper how are you, tell me they treat you well in here," Nicolas begun but Piper just couldn't stop gazing amorously at Alex. "Piper?" He repeated.
"Uh yeah absolutely I'm good it's great." Piper finally answered and focused back her attention to him.
"Okay, I'm glad to hear that. So I wanted to meet with you today to give you a heads up on your case. I contacted the ABA and reported the judge and they accepted to look into it and review your case. The thing is, these guys usually never do something like that, but you know me baby I can be really convincing," Nicolas finished with a wink.
Piper blushed and felt her heart race. She probably should have felt happy about what he said more now she was uncomfortable more than anything. Then she remember Alex, could she see from the window that Nicolas was flirting with her. She turned her head quickly to the window, only to see that Alex was gone. Had she left because of this?
The truth is that Alex had left a few minutes after Piper started discussing with her lawyer. She didn't even last three minutes. She wanted to be strong for Piper, to be there for her and support her and be the fiancée she deserved, but it was much harder than she expected. She had a new found hatred in her heart toward the situation, as if Piper's sooner departure was a betrayal. She didn't hate Piper though; she hated herself more than anything. A monster, that was what she felt like. The old Alex would have never thought that of herself. Her twenty-five year old self was careless and selfish, but Piper and her intoxicating everything had changed her to the point she couldn't recognize herself. Her mind was lost in an endless void, in the immensity of her love for Piper that gave her no way to comprehend her own emotions or actions.
She found herself wandering around the prison, lost in the dizzying turmoil in her head, and ended up in the empty bathroom. Standing in front the mirror, she looked at her reflection and felt sick to her stomach. The khaki clothes, the cheap eyeliner and the broken glasses, who was that?
Suddenly she saw it shine from a few inches away from her. That serrated edge she thought would give her some sort of release she badly needed. Alex stepped in front of the paper towel distributer and in a few swifts moves she slit her left wrist on the cutting edge originally made to separate the paper in sheets. It was like all her troubles had flowed through the river of blood on her arm that dripped on the floor, only to welcome so many more to come.
"Hey Alex!" Piper shouted when she saw Alex exiting the bathroom. Alex stopped walking and waited for the blonde to come to her.
"Hi love," Alex said softly.
"I got worried when I saw that you left. I hope you didn't think that I—"
"Yeah sorry about that Nicky needed some help with something so I had to leave," Alex interrupted her. Piper could finally breathe; she was convinced Alex had left because of Nicolas.
Piper sighed in relief. "I missed you Alex," she told her and locked her arm around her waist. The warmth of the embrace immediately comforted her.
"I missed you too kid," Alex breathed in her hair. They stayed like this a few minutes until Piper gently took her hands to create space between their bodies so that she could talk to her.
Never letting go of her hands, Piper began, "So things are looking good with my lawyer, I think I really have a shot at-" Piper stopped abruptly when she saw a red spot on the white shirt Alex was wearing. Her heart raced quickly; she had noticed a few minutes before that Alex was pale and her embrace weak.
Alex saw her girlfriend frown and followed her gaze on her arm. Shit, she thought. The bleeding had stopped earlier, but now she was bleeding out again. She withdrew her hand from Piper's hold and covered her arm with her other hand. "Oh that's nothing I just got hurt on the ladder when I helped Nicky fixing the lights in a dorm. I didn't notice I was bleeding, but I'm fine. It's okay. I'll be right back okay I'm gonna go fix that. See you later Pipes."
"Wait I'm gonna come help y—"
"No it's fine I got it I'll see you a lunch," Alex stopped her and went back to the bathroom quickly, praying that Piper wouldn't follow her.
Piper decided to leave her alone despite the fact that she badly wanted to go make sure she was okay. Last thing she wanted was Alex to feel like she couldn't have some space after what recently happened. She walked to the cafeteria, hoping Alex would join her soon.
She sat down next to Nicky and Lorna and asked immediately, "Hey Nicky how did Alex's cut happen?"
"What are you talking about Chapman?" Nicky asked completely clueless.
"Alex's cut on her arm. She told me she got hurt while helping you earlier this day, how did it happen?"
"I was with Lorna all day Piper, what the hell are you talking about?" Nicky explained and shared a look with her wife.
Piper fell her stomach drop and she became lightheaded. Why had Alex lied to her?
A/N: I'm so deeply, deeply sorry it took so long for me to update. Life is crazy and sometimes I think I can do everything, but there's only so much time in a day. I read all your review and appreciate every single one of them, so please keep them coming. Thank you!