A/N: I do not own The Vampire Diaries.
Just a little FYI: I don't PLAN on redoing every single episode of every single season because I don't think all of them are as important. I'm probably going to try and focus on the big ones. Or at least I don't plan to; I might combine some of just cut some entirely. I'm really just doing this as I go so if you're reading I hope you enjoy it.

The Night of the Comet

It's really quite amusing to have Stefan chasing around after me trying to clean up my 'messes'. Trying being the operative word there, baby brother is all but useless on his diet. Perhaps tonight is the night I can change that...again. It's not like I care terribly for the ripper; who would? But it's more natural than this thing that he's trying to turn himself into. We're fucking vampires; learn to revel in it you idiot.

"Stefan?" Nope. Wrong brother pretty girl. Always the wrong brother. But this could be interesting. She turns and I'm right behind her. Fear. I love it.

"The door was...open" and now it's not. That trick's all me. She tells me that Stefan hasn't mentioned me "well Stefan's not one to brag" I tell her. And I want to scare her. I want to play the game but when I touch her shoulder gently to lead her into the lounge there's a spark of fire that ignites my entire body and I'm too lost in it to think about the game.

"I see why my brother's so smitten" I tell her and god if it isn't the truth. She looks at me with those big brown eyes, all light and shade and fire and puritythat I've never seen and fuck this.

I need to get my head back in the game so I do it the only way I know how. Katherine. I stare at this mirror image of the woman I've loved for 150 years who is nothing at all like her and I push all thoughts of Elena out of my head.

I plant the seeds of doubt in her mind; I can see it flash through her eyes she is so easy to read. "Well I'm sure it will come up now" Katherine. Yep. Well done Damon. The games are afoot.

"I'm a fatalist" and...fabulous. Brother's back. Perfect timing as usual. Shame really, I'd have loved more time with her. For what I'm not quite sure. Man Stefan is rude. "It was nice to meet you, Damon" she says. I kiss her hand in the true Southernly gentleman fashion I was raised in and give her a smile and wow. Again with the fire, when my lips touched her hand. That fire. I felt it everywhere. I wonder if she feels it. What is it?

The little smile she gives me has me reconsidering my plans for all two seconds and I'm not even really concentrating on what's happening but then she's gone and she takes all the goodness that was in the room for a few brief moments with her.

I'm left with a brooding, ticked off Stefan. Now this I know how to play with. Not that I don't know how to play with Elena.

"How long was Elena here?" he demands to know.

"You worried Stefan? Scared we may be doomed to repeat the past..."

"The timing was wrong anyway" (Elena) "When is it ever right?" Bonnie.

I came down to the town square intent on finding the blonde from last night and instead I find myself listening to Elena's conversation with her friend. They are talking about my brother. "The timing was wrong anyway" Elena says, "when is it ever right?" her friend replies.

All of a sudden I'm overwhelmed by the sickest feeling. The thought of my brother with Elena makes me feel physically sick and I see Barbie walking towards me now but I can't deal with her after this. I need to go...eat someone...or drink something. Right fucking now.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm not supposed to feel jack shit. My switch is firmly flipped to OFF so what the fuck is this shit? I make my choice. Drink something.

I'm sitting drinking, contemplating what's going on in my life, my head, my...heart? When the girl I attacked walks in "I know you" she says. That's unfortunate...for Stefan. Just like that the game is back on...I can make this fun...it's almost too easy. Maybe I can eat something too.

God I hate him so much right now. He is SO weak. Demanding to know why I'm doing this...again with the questions. "No I want you to remember who you are" I tell him. A fucking vampire. Own it. "Why...so I'll remember what it's like to be brothers again?" Maybe. Partly.

"Let them drive a stake through my heart...because at least I'll be free of you" Really? Wow. I have no words. Just...wow. I don't know what to say to that so I bend down and remove my compulsion from the girl replacing it with 'animal attack', 'remember nothing', 'too many pills'.

I still can't speak to Stefan and my mind is racing over his last words. Does he mean that? Would he really rather be dead-dead than live with me as his shadow? If that's the case then he's sure changed his tune in the last...century. I'm his BROTHER.

Finally I find words and my brain kicks into gear long enough to get back in the game because fuck this shit there's still a game going on. I know things he doesn't and I don't want him to know. And if he really does feel that way then there's not really any need for me to play nice...is there?

"That's for me to know and you to dot dot dot"

I'm disgusted by him right now and I throw him a look that I hope conveys that, adding something about Elena which just brings back that sickening feeling and man I am so done with this. I need to be gone. Now.

I take some time to calm myself down after that debacle and because I have a point to prove, more to myself than anyone else I seek out the little blonde. Fear. I love it.

2 seconds and she's all mine. As I knew she would be. No compulsion necessary for now.

Dear Diary,
Where to start? I suppose the beginning is as good a place as any. I told Bonnie and Caroline about my night with Stefan "you and Stefan TALKED all night long...and that's it?" Caroline asked me with her voice laced in disbelief. I love Caroline but we don't all just fall into bed with boys the day we meet them! Ooops. I didn't mean that to sound bitchy. Anyway she continued with this profound piece of Caroline logic; "Boy likes girl. Girl likes boy. Sex" yep, Caroline logic at its finest hour.

I sat there and considered what she'd said and then I realised that she was right. Not about the sex, but if I had sat there long enough I would have talked myself out of it and I didn't want to. I LIKE this boy, he's made me feel better in the few short days that I've known him so why SHOULDN'T I just go for it, so finding my determination I decided to do just that and made my way to the Salvatore mansion, honestly that place is like a castle.

The door was open when I got there so like a crazy person I just walked on in and then the crow. That crow...it was there in the house and it flew right past me and what is with that fucking crow?

I turned around and there was someone standing right behind me, I nearly jumped out of my skin. He is Stefan's brother; Stefan didn't tell me he had a brother. Damon. I have never seen someone so beautiful in my life diary. When I saw him and looked into his eyes I got the strangest sense of déjà-vu. Those eyes...I'm sure I've seen them before...but where? How? I didn't even know that he existed until today.

Damon told me a little bit about Stefan and his ex-girlfriend Katherine, indicating that I might be a rebound girl. Am I a rebound girl? I do NOT want to be that girl...then Stefan came home and he was very rude. He barely even spoke to me; Damon kissed by hand when he said goodbye and when he touched me...it felt electric. I don't even know how to explain it. It's probably just because he's so. damn. beautiful. And again with the déjà-vu. I feel so sure I've thought those words before. So strange.

So I spent some time with aunt Jenna, told her a bit about Stefan, "he's on the rebound and has raging family issues" and then we had another discussion about being scared which made me remember why I went to the Salvatore's in the first place.

Running into Damon there made me sort of forget what my mission was and I don't want to be the scared little girl forever, I am scared but I have to move on, I like Stefan and I want to spend more time with him.

So I decided once again to suck it up and I went back to his house. I told him the truth about being scared and feeling like the world is going to come crashing down around me if I let myself be happy for one second and he kissed me.

It was so...lovely. Sweet and tender and SO lovely, I'm still scared but things are definitely looking up.
Elena