Chapter 6: A Dangerous Reward and A Silent Mistrust

'Trust is a fragile thing. Easy to break, Easy to lose, and One of the Hardest things to ever get back.'-Unknown

Dear Alec,

I know that you'll never and will ever be able to read this letter because the time I am writing this right now, you are already dead. I decided to write back to you just this first and last time because I wanted to express my emotions and realisations. I fear that if I never tell you my true feelings; I will forever live in guilt.

After our breakup in the subway, I thought that I will still be able to live without you. I knew that I would still mourn over our tragic ending for months or perhaps decades but in the back of my mind I told myself that I could still be happy and live without you because I had many lovers and some were not memorable and some were very special…and yet I could still live and find happiness again.

But you seem to be a very different situation, I never felt the same level of happiness ,we had with each other, with anyone else. I always felt a empty void inside of me ever since you disappeared from my life. I couldn't find myself completely fall in love with anyone else , the same way I felt about you.

No one had been able to make me feel happy again and trust me when I say this that no one had ever done this to me. I couldn't move on from you no matter how hard I try. You were very special to me. Too special.

Perhaps the love I felt for you was too much. Perhaps that's what real true love is. All I wanted to say to you Alexander is that you were very special to me, maybe even my one true love. I loved you and I will still continue to even if it's not my choice. Goodbye then Alexander, I will never write back to you again because you're dead I was too late and I need to move on with life but I still wish you were alive so we can have another chance.

Love, Magnus Bane

Like garbage, the letter in the female warlock's hand crumpled into a small ball. Her fist shook in uncontrollable vibrations as her mouth gave small sobs and whimpers. Suddenly, her knees felt weak. she fell on her side leaning on the wall for support.

It was like poison had entered her system. Her skin felt burned and her bones felt weak. She gave more whimpers and sobs as the pain grew worse when dark thoughts entered her mind.

'Am I just a replacement?' She thought, dropping the letter.'Does he really love me?'

Her knees hit the cold ground, making her skin shiver. She picked up the crumpled letter from the ground and stared at it for a couple of seconds. The small paper had brown edges and visible creases, obviously the letter was very old.

'Who exactly is this Alec boy?' Rose told herself again and again.

She came up with a conclusion and grabbed her phone from the inside of her nightgown. She usually keeps a phone with her just in case of an emergency. She dialled the only person, she knew she could trust at this situation.

The phone was at her ear when a familiar voice said. "Rose *yawn* why are you calling at this late hour?"

"Catarina, I needed to talk you." Rose answered in a worried voice. "….It's about Magnus."

"What is it now?" Catarina sighed in an annoyed voice.

"Who exactly is Alec?" Rose asked.

Only silence was received.

Warmth should've been the feeling on Magnus' chest when Alec had saved him from death. It reminded him of the many times Alec would save him and he would be reminded that this boy truly loved him. But now, in the cold night where Alec gave a grin as he ripped that creature repeatedly with the cane; he realised that Alec didn't save him because he cared for Magnus, it was because he just wanted to destroy and kill.

And that thought gave Magnus a cold feeling in his chest like an arrow of ice hit his heart.

"They sure get excited by the smell of blood.." Alec's voice snapped the warlock out of his thoughts, as the creature's hungry howls grew louder.

Magnus immediately unhooked his gaze away from the boy and glanced at the hungry beasts charging at them. They looked hungry and vicious, no longer hesitant because of the smell of blood lingering in the air.

'The blood of their own kin.' Magnus thought disgusted, staring at the monsters' eyes, they looked very beast-like like it didn't care that the meat before them was their own relative.

One of them lunged towards Alec with it's claws drawn out. Magnus heard his heart give a beat of panic. Alec didn't move at all from his spot instead he only had an amused smirk on his face. With the cane brought up, he sliced the creature's goblin-like head with the blunt side of the cane. The creature's body was kicked back into its relatives and soon was devoured by its own family's mouths.

A roar of attack was heard in Magnus' ears. The warlock quickly looked at his side, ready with blue fire at his hands. Concentrating on the creature's direction, he shot a ball of fire, hitting it's face perfectly. Magnus gave a sigh of relief at his perfect shot but his breath was soon taken back when the creatures ignored his flames like it was just an insect. The creature continued to charge at the warlock's direction with it's teeth ready to devour the warlock.

Till a dead corpse was thrown, falling perfectly on the creature's front.

"Magic doesn't affect them, warlock. They are also the devil's creatures." Alec's voice informed him.

The monster stopped it's running and bowed it's head down on the dead body, eating the dead flesh and drinking the blood. Magnus felt a cringe in his spine when he realised the creature was enjoying its own kin's flesh. Turning around, he saw Alec throwing the dead creature's bodies to the ones that are still alive, keeping them distracted.

Blood and bones were surrounding Alec's feet, like a pile of corpses he stood on proudly. Alec gave an amused laugh as he threw the last corpse making all the creatures run back into the forest, chasing their flying meal.

"Funny how hunger can get to them.." Alec laughed. "They're so desperate that they even eat their own kind. How funny is that?!"

Magnus didn't answer back, he only looked in horror at the now empty scene, no longer filled with roaring hungry monsters but with bones licked clean from it's own kind. It was so barbaric, so cruel, so horrifying, and Alec would only laugh at their desperation. He could imagine his Alec, who was an innocent angel, would cry in guilt and stare in horror.

"This was fun, wasn't it?" Alec giggled facing Magnus, his hair still covering his other eye. The sleeves of his sweater seemed to be too long for his arms making it seem like an innocent child's jacket but Magnus knew it was very ironic. "and your reaction was the best…All guilty and sentimental." Alec emphasised his last word with humour.

"Why are you here?" Magnus finally asked, ignoring the anger building up inside him. He tightened his fist while turning around to face the amused laughing boy.

Alec gave a smile, too crooked that the edges of his mouth reach his upper cheek. "To see, of course." He answered in a high pitched voice, sounding like a child. "I wanted to the see the goblins starve."

Magnus figured that the 'goblin' were the names of the creatures they fought. "Your answer is not very clear."

"So is the situation…" Alec said. "Why don't you solve my puzzle of words? You're a smart man. I'm sure you can solve it."

Magnus closed his eyes and took a deep breath. His mind analysed Alexander's words slowly. From the the tone of his voice to the weirdness of the situation. Alec's tone seemed playful and teasing but also there was a hint of….calculation? It didn't make sense. His words were even more confusing. 'To see, of course' like he wanted to see something right here and it obviously wasn't Magnus because he said he wanted to see the goblins. But why would Alec want to see some monster unless….

"You made those goblins starve didn't you?!" Magnus gave his conclusion.

Alec gave a satisfied nod. "Good, what else?"

"…and you wanted to see the outcome of their starvation." Magnus continued. "But that still doesn't explain why they have the same eyes as you. I have seen goblins before , Alexander and they don't have pentagrams for eyes. Also they are usually peaceful."

Clapping, Alec titled his head to the side. "Congratulations, you aren't as dumb as I thought." He titled his head to the side even more. "Though still dumb because of your emotions." Magnus cringed when he heard bones breaking from the former shadowhunter's neck. "It's true I starved those goblins but it wasn't me who made them….." Alec tapped his chin trying to find the right word. "….devilish.."

"Who did? and why would you starve them?" Magnus tightened his fists. "What exactly is your purpose?"

"I just wanted to see them in that state. So hungry….so desperate…..so broken…..so hopeless…that they'll even eat their own kin." Alec said in an 'innocent' voice. "It's my favourite kind of pain…" Alec turned towards Magnus. "The person who made them like me is the person who made me like this."

Magnus scoffed ignoring the painful shivers in his spine from Alec's earlier sentence. "It was very obvious, Alexander. You obviously didn't grow a pentagram in your eye overnight."

"I should give you a reward for your amusing not boring answers." Alec presented a blue lily in front of Magnus.

The warlock looked at the flower hesitantly. He knew anyone who received the flower would be killed but then a weird thought came in his mind. How come when that bartender-John- was murdered, there was no blue lily in the crime scene? The blue lily didn't symbolise a brutal murder, it symbolised something else.

Confused, Magnus said. "What happens if I accept this flower? I know that I won't just get murdered, Alexander."

A satisfied smile came on the killer's face showing off his sharp teeth. "Well you certainly are clever, Magnus. The blue lily means a chance."

A scoff once again came in Magnus' answer. The irony in Alec's words were starting to make him feel humorous. "A chance?! Seriously?!"

"It means either I kill you right now, which would be pretty boring, or you accept my generous reward and live." Alec explained with a dark glint in his eyes.

"What makes you think you can kill me? I am a thousand year old warlock." Magnus growled.

"You saw those creatures, Magnus. I am like them which means magic can not affect me."

Magnus furrowed his brows, troubled. "What if I do accept your 'generous reward'?" He air quoted his last two words.

"Oh you'll have a greater downfall than a simple murder Magnus. I get to have more fun and you get a chance to live if you play the right cards." Alec explained. "You have proven to me that you can have this reward and play the 'game'."

"What game?" Magnus asked confused with Alec's words.

"Let's just say one of us will get a the reward and win in pride, while the other falls and dies." Alec said simply. "I have no time to explain, after all it is more than two hours, your wife will get worried. Now do you accept my reward or not?"

"I hardly think a game is a reward." Magnus commented. "I don't trust you."

"But you love me enough, to play this dangerous game." Alec said with no emotion as Magnus felt a painful hit in his chest. "Besides a game will be boring if we play fairly. Now what do you say?"

Magnus stared at the flower presented to him. It was hard decision. He wasn't sure if he could trust Alexander. Plus he was afraid of this 'downfall' Alec kept telling him about. But he could still live if he won but could he won? He looked at Alec's only visible eye. It was the color of sapphires, the color his Alexander had. He still loved Alec and maybe he could find his old Alec again.

'What about Rose? Catarina? Everyone you care about? Your reputation? They could be affected instead of a simple murder.' A voice in Magnus' mind reminded him.

Alec seemed more important right now even if it seemed impossible and hopeless.

The flower was soon in the warlock's hands as the killer gave a wider smile.

"You really do miss and love 'me'."Alec's tone sounded quite unfamiliar at his last word like he wasn't talking about his own self.

A kiss on the cheek was given to the warlock. Magnus gave a surprise look at the boy's sudden affection but the kiss didn't feel the same. It just felt cold and no emotion. It seemed more like a tease than an actual affectionate action.

The killer soon disappeared in the darkness leaving a warlock who was too late to reach for his love.

When Magnus came back home, he left the blue lily on a random desk and went straight to his bedroom. He found his wife with slightly puffed eyes who was quiet and frozen. She still looked awake with her wide eyes but she didn't speak or touch him.

Magnus chose to ignore his wife and lay down beside her without changing his clothes or giving any greeting to her. The bed seemed so cold for the both of them even if they were both on it.

They both knew that what was once a perfect marriage was a horrible one in disguise all this time because of it's secrets and lies.

Soon the trust they gave one another disappeared without any words and voices.

It was just so silent.

Disclaimer: I do not own Mortal Instruments

Author's Note: Hey guys. Thanks for reading so I decided to answer questions from the reviews.

Guest: Sooo… will this end up being Malec-y? I'm curious to see how this will end.

Well, you could say this whole fic was twisted version of Malec, with Alec insane and Magnus still loving him. It's sort of a sad slightly one-sided love story. The Malec romance here isn't hugs and kisses like usual, it's more of a dark one. But if you mean that they'll get a happy ending, well in depends if Magnus does the 'right' thing ;)

Anyway guys please give me some questions and I'll try to answer it as none spoilery as possible. Thanks for reading, sorry for a long wait and please give me a constructive criticism but I'll still love your comments.