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Ryuzaki POV
This was all just so… strange. He shouldn't be allowing this to happen. Ryuzaki had made a promise to himself years ago, long before he had been introduced to the police force or even moved to Japan, that he would never again form a personal attachment to anyone. It was just too risky to care for anyone, no matter how nice, how attractive, how familiar they were to him. Caring for another human being only ever hurt Ryuzaki, so it was just easier to keep his distance from everyone. He had been doing fairly well at this too, he was always appeared distant to his colleagues would deliberately avoid conversations that did not concern his work, sometimes he would deliberately do something to offend them. That way he didn't feel sad when they died, and they wouldn't care for him to much to want to stay. Ryuzaki could never allow that to happen. Everyone who got too close to him ended up dead. Always. Even his relationship with Watari was kept to strictly little more than friends. Or at least that's what Ryuzaki had convinced himself over the years. And this was the man who had raised him, helped him to get to where he was today. But even Watari couldn't be allowed to care for L too much… L was forced to do this with every single person he met, that way, when someone dies, (not if, when) he wouldn't let it affect him. He wouldn't regret, he wouldn't diverge from the task, he felt next to nothing for them if they were killed. That didn't mean he let them die, oh no, he tried to make sure they were kept safe... But sometimes, people were destined to die... And destiny wasn't a thing you could simply change. No matter how cruel it was. Ryuzaki knew this all too well… once your numbers run out, death is your only option… and no amount of fighting can alter this fact…
This way of thinking had served Ryuzaki well for years. In that time he had watched 67 men and women exactly, die for his cause. It was hard at times, to forget the many names and faces of the dead was near impossible with a photographic memory like Ryuzaki's, but at the same time it was easy to ignore...or so he told himself...
His whole life had always been dedicated to his work. No remorse, no recourse, solve cases, bring about justice at great expense... Simple. Oh so simple. Find something that perked his interest, find all the clues, catch the culprit, then move onto the next thing. All very very simple to Ryuzaki… Or at least it was until he met Light.
Many beauties are in the eye of the beholder. Others are beautiful in the eyes of all who surround them. And a few very select people are both. Light was one of those people. He had seen it in Misa's eyes many a time. Admiration, desire, lust, love, happiness, all directed towards that one human being. Once or twice, Ryuzaki had even caught this look in his own eyes. Being himself, Ryuzaki just buried those unwanted emotions away into the depths of his mind. But they would always dig themselves back out again. It was only now, as the end drew near, he had allowed himself these emotions. He was actually surprised by the strength of them too once they were out of that tightly knitted ball of emotions in his heart. It had been overpowering…terrifyingly so…That's why he had kissed him. All those feelings….all those long lost emotions…they'd been too much. And knowing his time was running out…He had to do it…
Ryuzaki had led Light down the stairs and into his corridor. Ryuzaki's mind was whirring as he walked beside the eighteen year old. He really hadn't been expecting this reaction at all. All his scenarios he had devised had never ended like this, except the one he had dreamt about in his fantasies... They had all ended in some form of rejection. Things like being pushed away, being yelled at, being punched, which he was really thankful hadn't happened. A punch in the face was the last thing he needed before he had to go. Only one of his scenarios allowed him to suggest the Light would allow the kiss but even that didn't lead to what was happening. Uncertainty filled him as he reached his room. Ryuzaki had no idea what to do in situations like this. He had never had any sexual experiences before in his life...
"Well...this is my room..." Ryuzaki scratched his ankle with his other foot anxiously. Light shot him a look he couldn't quite decipher then tried the door. He twisted the knob. Ryuzaki opened his mouth to warn Light but was too late. Light was sharply zapped with a small charge of electricity, not enough to seriously hurt him, but it would still be rather painful. Light swore and leapt away from the door. It probably didn't help that they were both still wet, so it probably hurt him more than it should have.
"The door has fingerprint recognition, only I or Watari can open it" Ryuzaki said blankly.
"You could have told me that sooner... I didn't even know doors could do that..." Light grumbled, rubbing his hand angrily.
"They can if you live with an inventor" Ryuzaki told him as he placed his fingers lightly on the door handle. It gave a little blip and unlocked effortlessly. He opened the door himself and stepped through. Ryuzaki smiled slightly at the look on Lights face as he passed him, rubbing his wrists pointedly. Ryuzaki firmly shut and locked the door behind them and watched the lanky teen take in L's room. Ryuzaki's room was massive, and a mess he knew, but he didn't think it deserved the reaction it was getting from Light…
Light was staring open mouthed at the room. The whole left side of the room was dominated by books, hundreds and hundreds of them all placed neatly on the shelves in no particular order, just lazily thrown in. Watari often tried to organize them a bit better for him, but Ryuzaki didn't really care how they were displayed, he was the only person who used them after all. And he knew exactly where they all were anyway, he didn't need it in order. About half way through the shelves a monitor was cut into the wall. The far end of the room was Ryuzaki's bed, which he had never made in his life. Didn't need to either, Ryuzaki barely slept anyway, there was no point. The right side of the room had his red velvet arm chair beside a desk covered in bowls of lollies and a crumb covered plate that once held an entire cake on it but was long since gone. Ryuzaki's laptop sat in the middle of the floor, humming softly to itself sitting beside the timer on the creamy white carpet. Light stepped into the room and stared at Ryuzaki's dessert covered desk. Ryuzaki's thumb had made its way back into his mouth as he watched Light. He couldn't help it. Whenever he got nervous or thought too hard he did it. He didn't care of course, but he knew others found it odd and childlike.
Ryuzaki used his foot to close the computers lid. Don't want Light seeing what on there now do we? He also pressed the big button on top of the timer, resetting it to 23d: 23h: 59m: 59s. Ryuzaki watched the count down with a little pain in his heart. How long would it take for him to see this hit zero? Then again...he wouldn't be around to see it hit zero anyway...
Ryuzaki turned away and watched Light looking around the room. He couldn't help but study Light. It was just something that always happened to him, he had to watch and observe. Not by choice, it was a...convenient side effect of his condition. He always documented the littlest of details no matter what they were, like that one hair that was sticking up the wrong way on Light's usually pristinely kept head or the fact he had a strange little flit in his eyes... Light was still wet from their conversation outside, his white shirt turned see-through, clinging to his every contour like tissue paper. He could tell Light felt uncomfortable being wet, but it had never bothered Ryuzaki in the least. It made Ryuzaki nearly shudder as he subconsciously raked his eyes over Light's basically see through top. Oh the things he wanted to do to this boy...
Ryuzaki knew what he wanted to do now, he was just unsure of how to do it…
"Do you always eat like this Ryuzaki?" Light laughed, nodding to the big bowl of lollipops. They were all different colors, like a bouquet of rainbow bubbles...
"Well, yes, I find it very difficult to function without something sweet to give my brain the edge, but...does that really matter?" Ryuzaki had decided how he was going to do this, but was just trying to pluck up the courage to do so.
"I suppose not, I was just..." Light froze as Ryuzaki crossed the room to him. Ryuzaki stood on the balls of his feet nervously in front of him. Was this what he was supposed to do? Uhg….the feeling's back again…too late to back out now. Before Light could react, Ryuzaki grabbed him and pressed his mouth against Light's. Light gave a surprise grunt as Ryuzaki forced their mouths together, moving his lips softly against the teen's… But after a few seconds, he felt Light allow himself to go limp in Ryuzaki's arms and kissed him back. Ryuzaki ran his hand along Light's waist, feeling Light shudder under his touch. Wow...This was actually happening...He was actually going to do this.
Light suddenly pulled away from Ryuzaki.
"Ryuzaki... I-I don't think I can do this" Light turned away.
"Why not?" Ryuzaki blinked. He knew it was too good to be true...
"I-I'm with Misa. She's my girlfriend and I... I... I'm not even gay!" Light's face had turned red as he scrambled to find words. Ryuzaki noted the slight difference in his voice, a trait he had picked up on quite a few weeks ago now and had been studying.
"You don't have to be. I'm not" Ryuzaki watched Light's face grow steadily redder at these words.
"Then...what the hell is all this if you're not!" Light's face was twisting in confusion and something else Ryuzaki couldn't quite recognize.
"Light I thought you were supposed to be intelligent, were I in your shoes I would have figured it out by now. I like both male and female partners; I believe the word is bisexual...but then again, I don't really care about genders…would that make me Pansexual? Or maybe that makes me monosexual, seeing as you're the only person I've ever had these types of feelings and desires towards… And besides, it's not like it's gonna be bad, as a matter of fact I'd say you'll find the experience quite... enjoyable" Ryuzaki began to suck the nail on his thumb anxiously again.
Light was concentrating hard on something, Ryuzaki tried to determine what exactly. Was he conflicted simply because of Misa as he claims, or was it something more? Did he think he's made a mistake by coming here with me? It can't be because he doesn't want to, that much was made clear by the way he kissed back, but what is this indecisiveness I'm sensing...? L, because this was L thinking now, wondered whether he was conflicted because he really was Kira, and Kira would not allow this sort of interaction with his enemy. Then again, if he really was Kira he wouldn't have allowed L to make a move on him in the first place...or would he? Could just accepting that kiss be part of his plan? To trick L into thinking that Light was not Kira by simply allowing this to happen? L was completely lost in his thoughts, so he didn't hear Light give in.
"Screw it…ok. I'll try it"
Light, still unnoticed by L, looked down on the man and grabbed him roughly. Caught off his guard Ryuzaki gave a little startled squeak as Light pushed him back onto the messy bed and recaptured his mouth. Ryuzaki was snapped out of his thinking as he felt Light grind his lips against his own with a fiery heat, making his cheeks go bright red. Light's fingertips trailed slowly along the soft skin of Ryuzaki's neck, leaving behind a line of fire where he had touched. But Ryuzaki forced himself to break away from the intoxicating power of Light's lips to speak.
"Nng, Light- I've gotta- I mean I, um…I've got to go take care of something in the bathroom if we are going to continue this the way I presume we are…" Ryuzaki stammered nervously. Light cocked his eyebrow in surprise.
"You? You want to do that? I thought that…well…since you're older…" Light trailed away.
"Light, I have never done anything like this before, and I know for a fact you have, so it only makes sense I let the person with the most experience take control…" Ryuzaki spoke softly.
"…Okay then, just be quick. I don't like waiting around when I'm starting to get….uh…get excited…" Light finished awkwardly.
"I'll be brief" Ryuzaki assured him, ignoring the blush rising in his cheeks, and slipped out from under the younger man and heading towards the bathroom.
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Ryuzaki re-entered the room, scratching his neck nervously. This is what he wanted, oh god yes this is what he wanted… but he was scared. He didn't know how to do this, what if he disappointed Light? The young teen was sitting on the end of his bed, an odd look in his eyes… almost as if he were arguing with himself… Ryuzaki paused to study this for a brief moment, before Light's eyes flooded back into their much more appealing chocolaty brown and spotted him.
"Oh, there you are Ryuzaki… I was beginning to think you'd changed your mind" Light sounded somewhat relived. Ryuzaki blinked his dark eyes at the boy.
"As nervous as I am about this, I wouldn't change my mind. I've been wanting this for far too long to back out now because of a few feelings of anxiety…" Ryuzaki said, still standing awkwardly to one side.
"You don't have to be scared Ryuzaki, I'm not going to hurt you…I think…come back over here and I'll make you feel a little better" Light motioned for him to join him on the bed. Ryuzaki blinked shyly for a moment, then obeyed. He tried to sit in his usual crouch beside Light, but the teen pushed him backwards so he hit the bed back first.
"Now…let me kiss you again" Light demanded silkily. A big part of Ryuzaki resented the younger man ordering him around like this…but god it was arousing… Ryuzaki nodded very slightly, giving the younger boy permission. Light grinned wickedly and slammed his lips against Ryuzaki's. Ryuzaki suppressed another little noise of surprise at the ferocity the teen took to his lips. It confused him slightly, there was no reason the younger man should be so eager to do this as far as Ryuzaki was concerned… because it couldn't mean what he wanted it to mean… Light would never think like that, even if he wasn't Kira. But…Ryuzaki could dream…
The detective was torn from his conflicted thoughts by Light's warm lips parting slightly, silently asking Ryuzaki to do the same. After a moment's hesitation of not being entirely sure what to do, he relaxed and let the younger boy lead his mouth into the correct movements. He felt sparks erupting under his skin as the mahogany haired boy taught him how to move his lips against the other's, his intoxicating scent filling Ryuzaki's head and making him dizzy. Ryuzaki had never thought jut simple kissing another human being would feel so….so….wonderful. God, if he'd known that Light could cause this sensory overload of ecstasy within him earlier, he never would have waiting so long to tell him! Light's mouth moved in powerful strokes against his own, making his heart race. Ryuzaki's fingers pressed into Light's firm strong back, pulling him as close as he dared into his body, needing more contact from the boy. And it seemed the other male was more than happy to comply.
Ryuzaki found himself against the solid headboard of his bed with Light hovering over him, slowly caressing his body with his lithe fingers. Goosebumps sprung up along his skin as Lights hands traced his collar bone with his thumb, rubbing it gently, watching as Ryuzaki began to breathe rather heavily. Ryuzaki had never been touched like this before…. No, scratch that. Ryuzaki had never even been touched by another human being before without the intent to harm him or force him to do something he didn't want to do, other than Watari of course. Watari could never hurt Ryuzaki, even if he wanted to. Which he defiantly wouldn't. But to feel such a soft caress, even a tiny one such as this…it made Ryuzaki's body go haywire.
Ryuzaki's brain was going into overdrive. This was all too much for him. Feeling Light's lips trailing across his throat, along the hollow of his neck, his fingers tugging at his jumper heatedly, it was impossible to hold onto his reasoning abilities he had always prided himself on.
"Oh my...god!" Ryuzaki hissed as Light's roaming fingers brushed one of his nipples. A little stab of pleasure had shot through his veins the likes of which Ryuzaki had barely felt, even with himself.
"Geez you're really sensitive aren't you?" Light teased Ryuzaki by running his finger in a little circle, flicking his sensitive bud once more. Ryuzaki let out a little whimper at this before answering.
"I...can't...think straight anymore" He moaned as Light did it once more.
"Then stop thinking" Light said bluntly. That's easy for him to say! From what little Ryuzaki had seen of Light he could easily change his emotions to suit him, turning himself off completely was as easy as shutting off a tap to him. Ryuzaki couldn't do that, his mind would always be whirring, even as he slept...if he could sleep. He couldn't help it, it was just the way his brain was programed, but it did make things difficult at times…
"I highly doubt that's possible Light" Ryuzaki felt himself beginning to turn red as he stared at the lust filled eyes of the younger male.
"...We'll see about that" And with that, Light's hand cupped the growing bulge in Ryuzaki's loose trousers and ground his palm against it. Ryuzaki groaned as a wave of pleasure washed over him.
"Oh my...AHH!" Ryuzaki moaned. Light just smirked and continued to rub Ryuzaki's rapidly stiffening length through his pants. Never before had Ryuzaki felt anything like this in his life. And he had certainly never imagined anything could feel this good! He'd hoped it would, but dreaming and thoughts couldn't shed a single drop of light on the growing pleasure rocketing through his body.
"Told you I could fix it, didn't I?" Light teased. Stuck up little... someone needs to teach him a lesson... Ryuzaki couldn't take it anymore. Grabbing Light's shirt hard, Ryuzaki began to unbuttoned the white top with a quick precision that even left him impressed. Light seemed surprised by this, but did nothing to prevent the detective's actions as he paused in his playful rubs. He let Ryuzaki slip the still damp material off over his muscular arms and cast it to one side, not caring where it landed.
"May I remove your pants Light?" Ryuzaki said, an odd sort of huskiness in his tone he'd never heard in his voice before. He figured he should probably ask this time, seeing as he'd just ripped off the boy's shirt without thinking.
"Defiantly. Just hurry up a little, you have no idea how horny I am right now…" Light half laughed, half groaned. Ryuzaki raised an eyebrow at him, noticing just how flushed Light looked. He had half a mind to deliberately go slow just to annoy him…but he wanted to see Light's body so badly… Ryuzaki's slender fingers lightly pinched the button free from its loop of fabric and slid the little zipper downwards as far as it would go. Ryuzaki noticed Light's suppressed shiver quake through him as he attempted to deny it… he smirked and pushed the tan coloured pants down and slipped them over Light's bare feet. Ryuzaki eyed the firm lump in Light's skin hugging dark blue underwear with barely controlled desire. With a little smirk, he hooked his long fingers around the elastic and tugged them off, leaving Light's naked body for Ryuzaki to enjoy. Now he could finally get a real look at him…
Light's body was so...so...perfect. Each limb rippled with muscle, showing off the raw power beneath his skin that could easily turn from gentle to assaultive in a split second. Ryuzaki knew Light was an excellent athlete so that was no surprise, that and he'd experienced firsthand what that strength was capable of... But all the same, the way his body curved just right, and the his skin seemed to glisten with what could only be described as pure….gah, what's the word…Light was messing with his head so much he couldn't find the right words to describe the absolute beauty of the sexual energy radiating from his pours. Even his eyes were amazingly attractive, chocolaty brown with flecks of something else that Ryuzaki knew all too well lay beneath his pretty face, but rarely showed itself... but currently his pupils were so dilated that they were almost black, and it was hard to tell if those intricate flecks were even laying behind the chocolaty ring around the obsidian pupils. Light's silky brown hair hung limply around him, framing his perfect face as he watched Ryuzaki curiously, maybe even slightly concerned for some reason, as he traced the plains of Light's smooth stomach with hungry eyes. Then, Ryuzaki's eyes lowered. Oh my... Light's hardened member was much larger than he thought it was going to be. It was roughly the same length as his own, give or take a few millimeters, but still… No wonder he had so many girls chase after him. But he's all mine now, just like I wanted. Shame it had to be under these circumstances, but I think this will still be the most perfect moment for the rest of my life, Ryuzaki thought to himself privately.
"See something you like there Ryuzaki" Light smirked.
"I suppose you could use those terms... sorry to stare, it's just...well...I've never actually seen another man's...genitalia before...I've hardly even seen my own to be truthful" Ryuzaki turned away, face red hot with embarrassment.
"Wow...not even when you, you know, touch yourself?" Light continued to smirk at Ryuzaki. He felt his face turn an even deeper shade of red, which was quite easy considering how pale he was.
"Well...I haven't actually... done that since, well, probably since I was about your age. I've never really had the time what with all the work I've been doing... it's just a distraction..." Ryuzaki trailed away.
"Another thing we can change" Light growled seductively in his ear, making Ryuzaki shiver. He bit his bottom lips to stop from moaning like a school girl as he felt the younger man's hands snake under his loose white jumper, fingers brushing across his sensitive skin. He watched through hooded dark eyes as Light's hands pushed his shirt right up and bent over, running his tongue along his throat as he signaled for Ryuzaki to lift his arms up. With a barely audible whimper, Ryuzaki allowed the teen to pull the jumper over his head and cast it to one side. Light gazed lustfully at Ryuzaki's now bare chest, letting his fingers brush over Ryuzaki's erect nipples as he drew his talented hand towards his loose fitting trousers. Ryuzaki let out a little whimper as he felt Light's hand ghosting over his hardening crouch to hook a finger in the elastic. At a painfully slow pace Light pulled his pants down, along with his last bit of clothing, freeing his erection from the clingy fabric. He cast the pants, along with the red underwear away, and gazed in wonder at Ryuzaki's hard member.
"Damn. You don't look to bad yourself Ryuzaki" Light ran a finger along Ryuzaki's shaft, bringing forth another whimper from him.
"Well I told you I'd give you an enjoyable experience, so..." Ryuzaki trailed away once more, not exactly sure how he was supposed to do this.
"So?" Light asked. Ryuzaki hesitated a second more before he set forth a course of action...he hoped he did this right. Ryuzaki put a hand on Light's bare chest and pushed him back. Light let himself get pushed back onto his elbows with a small, smug grin. Ryuzaki blinked as he planned what exactly would be the best way to go about this… Light made a little grunt of surprise and arousal as Ryuzaki's slender fingers stroked his hard length lightly, biting hid lips hard. Ryuzaki blinked at the reaction, secretly liking how easily he'd made the young man moan, and let his fingers press Light's throbbing member harder.
Ryuzaki took Light's length in his grip and began slowly rubbing it. Light's groan sent shivers down Ryuzaki's spine. He watched with his dark eyes as the mahogany haired boy beneath him arched his back into the touch, head lolling back as if he didn't know how to keep it upright anymore. It felt slightly strange to have another man's member in his hands, but the sounds that came from deep inside Light told him he was doing the right thing. And Ryuzaki had to admit, it felt…natural. Like he'd been meant to do this. And Light didn't seem to be hating it either. In fact, Ryuzaki was almost certain it was the opposite.
"Ahhh fuck...YES!" He moaned as Ryuzaki pumped harder. Ryuzaki smirked as the younger man's body trembled under his touch. He liked how easy it was to break Light Yagami's superior composure for once. The idea of the boy so helpless…so completely under his control… god it made Ryuzaki's body tremble. He wanted to make Light make more of these noises… An idea had formed in his head, but Ryuzaki was once again unsure how to execute it. Should he tell him what he was about to do? No… He decided not. Let him have a nice surprise.
Ryuzaki bent down over Light and ran his tongue lightly over the other man's slit, causing Light to gasp with a mixture of surprise and desire. Ryuzaki looked up at Light through his obsidian bangs and watched the younger man's face contort with pleasure, trying not to cry out once again as Ryuzaki's tongue licked his hard length. That just wasn't good enough. He wanted Light to moan again. He place his lips over Light's tip and took it into his mouth, giving it a timid suck. Light gave a gasp of pure ecstasy as it went into Ryuzaki' hot wet mouth. Ryuzaki felt his own body quiver at the sounds of pleasure coming from the other man's lips and had to have more. He slowly started taking in more of Light's stiff member, letting his tongue stroked the begging erection as it passed his lips. Ryuzaki felt Light's hand on his head, fingers entwining in his silky black hair, trying to force him to go deeper. That was a good sign right? He wasn't sure he was doing it right but it still seemed to be working, whatever he was doing. He lightly ran his tongue along the side of his member before he began to bob his head along his shaft. Light moaned loudly. His elbow nearly slipped as his back arched in pleasure, causing his member to go even further into Ryuzaki's mouth. It's a good thing Ryuzaki didn't have a gag reflex or he might have choked when Light's shaft hit the back of his throat.
Light was panting heavily as Ryuzaki continued to suck. Ryuzaki ran his tongue around Light's head feeling Light moan in response. Just hearing the noises Light was making made Ryuzaki's own member harden in anticipation. A strange taste seeped into Ryuzaki's mouth; he assumed it was pre cum. The strange thing was it wasn't a bad taste... even if it wasn't sugary.
Ryuzaki would have happily continued until Light came on him, or in him as the case may find itself to be, but Light suddenly pulled back. Ryuzaki looked up at him confused. Light sat up and smirked again.
"I'm not gonna let this night be over that quickly" Light panted heavily, as if he were having a hard time breathing properly. He pushed Ryuzaki off him and straddled him. Ryuzaki could feel Light's erection against his own. The heat coming off it and even that lightest touch was enough to make him moan. A tiny part of Ryuzaki's mind wondered what Light was doing, but that was drowned out by the voice that screamed in his head 'Who the hell cares!', and Ryuzaki didn't even like to swear. In fact, he had never swore before now except that long period of time when he was 17... he had really been into some weird stuff back then.
Ryuzaki gasped in surprise as Light's hips thrusted forward, causing their stiff members to rub against each other. The sudden rush of blood though out his body was mind blowing. Light smirked, face red and sweat beginning to bead on his beautiful brow, and did it again. Ryuzaki cried out as another stab of pleasure pulsed through him.
"Ah…mmf…you're…you're so sensitive, aren't you?" Light half groaned, half taunted.
"It's been, nng, years since I even touched myself… give me a break…" Ryuzaki panted, trying not to break off into a groan mid-sentence. Which was hard considering what was happening to his body right now. Light had begun to grind himself onto Ryuzaki, rubbing their erections together hard, making Ryuzaki groan in pleasure at the feeling of the other man's stiff penis against his own. Ryuzaki's eyes squeezed shut as Light's hand began to touch him, pumping both their members hard. Ryuzaki couldn't hold back his groaning anymore. He couldn't help it; his whole body was out of his control now and placed into the glorious hands of Light. And he was more than happy that it had.
"Hey Ryuzaki?" Light panted.
"Ahh, yes?" He was only just able to answer him. Light's hands were stealing his ability to form coherent sentences
"You said you wanted to have...fun right?" Light's flushed face smirked down at him.
"S…something to that extent yes" Ryuzaki still somehow managed to sound like himself even as Light toyed with his hardened length
"Then... suck" Light's fingers trailed along Ryuzaki's lips sensually, leaving a trail of sensitive little prickles along his soft skin. It took a second for Ryuzaki to figure out what he meant. He want me to…Oh! Ryuzaki was a little bit nervous about the prospect of it, but hesitantly opened his mouth and accepted Light's waiting fingers. Light's salty skin slipped inside his mouth, stroking his tongue with his fingertips, gathering up his soft spittle. He let his saliva drown his fingers, make them slick and warm. Anticipation made Ryuzaki squirm under Light's gorgeous body. His heart pounded in his chest at the mere idea of what was about to happen next. Ryuzaki felt Light move him so he rested with his shoulder blades against the wooden head board and his legs spread wide. Light was on his knees before him, exposing himself to Ryuzaki. He had never felt so aroused in his life, but also terrified at the same time. Ryuzaki was almost begging to be touched, for some sort of friction, anything that would bring about that released he so desperately craved. But he was also nervous as hell. He'd never done this before, or anything even close… he'd done a bit of research sure, but still… what if it really hurt?
Light removed his fingers from Ryuzaki's mouth, a string of saliva connecting the two. Light bent down and using his tongue broke the chain and attacked Ryuzaki's mouth once more. The feel of Light's tongue exploring his mouth made Ryuzaki melt in his grasp. It felt like Ryuzaki had died and gone to heaven, no mortal could possible make this kind of emotion or pleasure could they? It felt like a million sparks of ecstasy going off inside him all at once. Surely only a god could create something like this… Ryuzaki felt his bottom lip get taken between Light's teeth and playfully tugged. Ryuzaki moaned softly. He loved the feeling of the other man's teeth grazing his skin… it felt so…so…
Without giving so much as a warning, Light had slipped one of his saliva drenched fingers into Ryuzaki's rear. Ryuzaki gave a surprised squeak at the sudden intrusion as Light began to move it back and forth inside him. He'd been warned it would feel weird…but still… Ryuzaki couldn't quite tell if he enjoyed it or not yet. Light's mouth wouldn't allow Ryuzaki to make a legible sound; he just swallowed up any little noise Ryuzaki made with his powerful mouth. But when the second digit was added to Ryuzaki's virgin hole, he couldn't help but pull away with a gasp.
"Hrg ahh!" Ryuzaki gasped as Light's fingers began to stretch him. It felt so weird, it felt painful yet at the same time it felt…oddly pleasant. Light didn't stop, but he did look smugly amused as he watched Ryuzaki squirm under the strange touch. Then there was another finger. Ryuzaki bit down hard on his own lip to stop from crying out again. This time, it defiantly hurt. Not as badly as he originally thought it would, but still… this was only fingers, what would happen when Light actually put in his… After a few seconds it felt a little, it was just the initial shock that got Ryuzaki each time.
"D' you think you're ready? I don't want to hurt you too badly, if you want me to stop I will" Light asked softly with concern, finally noticing the discomfort on Ryuzaki's face.
"Eh…mmf…I…I think I will be ok…it's just strange… the pain isn't too bad now" Ryuzaki told the teen.
"That's good…I think…So you alright if I put myself inside you?" Light asked again. Ryuzaki wasn't sure how to answer that... Light's fingers had disappeared. Ryuzaki felt Light's head resting at his entrance and raised an eyebrow questioningly. Ryuzaki nodded shakily, feet clenched in anticipation.
Light's length slowly pushed its way into Ryuzaki stretching him even further that Ryuzaki had physically thought possible. He gasped in painful pleasure as Light's stiff member, as gently as Light could, slid inside his tight walls, trying his hardest not to tense up his body, remembering a thing he'd read saying that this would only succeed in hurting him more. Light came to rest, his member three quarters of the way inside him, panting heavily.
"Mmmf…Ryu…Ryuzaki, try to relax yourself a little more. Trust me, it'll get better" Light tried to sound encouraging, but Ryuzaki could hear the lust in his voice, the pleasure seeping through his usual stuck up demeanor… and god did it sound heavenly.
"O-ok…" Ryuzaki mumbled. He tried to relax his body, un-tensing the muscles he hadn't realized had been clenched. And he was right, it did make it a little easier. But it still felt weird… Thankfully Light waited for Ryuzaki to adjust. It was beginning to actually feel…pretty good. Now that it wasn't as painful, he could fully appreciate the feeling of the hotness filling him, pressing against things Ryuzaki didn't even know he had… he want
"You right now?" His voice sounded rough and husky. This turned Ryuzaki on even more so for some reason.
"…Do it, please" Ryuzaki moaned. Light smiled gleefully as he was finally given permission. Ryuzaki made an odd noise in the back of his throat as Light pushed the rest of his length inside him, then pulled out, leaving only his tip still inside. Ryuzaki wanted to cry out when Light slammed himself back in, but was determined not to make a fool of himself in front of the other man. He didn't want to sound like some sort of lusty… moaning… -Light thrusted hard into Ryuzaki, hitting that special spot he didn't even know existed.
"Oh my, GAHH!" Ryuzaki couldn't help but scream as complete and utter pleasure rocked his body like a gun shot. Light made a little smug groaning noise and deliberately hit that spot again, causing Ryuzaki to writhe with pleasure beneath him. This felt ten times better than Ryuzaki had ever imagined! He felt Light's fingers digging into his soft flesh with enough force that Ryuzaki was almost certain his hips would be marked the next morning as he slammed himself into Ryuzaki's body hard. Ryuzaki wasn't wrong about how strong he thought Light was, he could feel the strength of the other man rippling through his body as he held Ryuzaki's fragile frame. The force of each blow, the strength he held Ryuzaki's hips with, it was all enough to break him. But the weird thing was though… Ryuzaki wanted to be broken. He wanted to be...well umm... he wanted Light to have sex with him so hard he won't be able to move tomorrow. And at the rate this was going, Light may actually succeed in this… Maybe Ryuzaki was just a masochist, but it just felt so good…
"You're so fucking tight Ryuzaki" Light growled in Ryuzaki's ear. All Ryuzaki could do in response was moan as Light hit his prostate again.
"Oh you like that huh" Light grunted. Ryuzaki couldn't respond. How did Light even expect a response from him? Any noise that left Ryuzaki's mouth now would only be groans or obscenities. Words didn't seem very likely to come out of his mouth. But Light wasn't accepting a nonverbal response.
"Say it!" He panted.
"Ahhh fuuh…NNG, yessss!" Ryuzaki moaned. Seemingly satisfied by this, Light rewarded Ryuzaki by thrusting into him faster, deliberately hitting the tight bunch of nerves inside Ryuzaki that set his body alight with pleasure. But Ryuzaki needed more, so much more than this. He was holding out on his need to orgasm, but only because he wanted Light to go harder… treat him rougher… ok, maybe Ryuzaki really was masochistic…
"Uhggg, fu…L-Light! Could you…ahhhhh…ple…plea…nnnnnggg harder please!" Ryuzaki managed to say through the pleasure wracking his body, barely able to form coherent sentences.
"MMmmf, s-sure thing Ryuzaki" Light half groaned, half chuckled smugly. Ryuzaki cried out as Light slammed into him forcefully, gripping the wooden headboard hard. He could feel his slack mouth trickling a small bead of saliva down his chin, but didn't have enough control over his body to wipe it away. He shamelessly screamed with pleasure, unable to stop himself, and prayed to whatever god was listening Watari had been right over exactly how sound proof these wall were…
He could feel himself getting close. He was gonna cum any second now… the combination of Light's hard shaft drilling into him and the stimulation of that tight bunch of nerves was just too much to resist. He could feel the heat building I his core, begging for release. Ryuzaki's hand began to pump his own member hard and fast. He needed his release, now. Light was also close. He was groaning harder than ever as he watched Ryuzaki touch himself. He felt Light's hips slam into him vigorously as he neared the verge of his impending orgasm. The feeling of his hardness being pumped, even if it was by his own hand, and his body being slammed into, his sensitive nerves being hit, was all too much for the fragile detective.
"Ah…ahhh, hell- GAHHH!" Screaming and swearing as he did so, Ryuzaki came hard, expelling sticky white fluid from his slit. The most extreme feeling of pleasure overcame Ryuzaki as he spilled his cum over both his and Light's chests. He watched as his own member spurted the fluid, body jerking and bucking as it shot from his body. White splatters covered Light's tanned skin as it hit him, sticky and warm slowly dripping down his abdomen. Ryuzaki twitched and gasped as he slowly came down from his orgasm, feeling the sticky liquid against both their bodies. Light didn't even seem to notice. That of he just didn't care, which is far more likely. Still feeling the aftershocks of his orgasm, he heard Light groan loudly in his ear before he threw his head back and cry out in pleasure, swearing hard. Hot cum shot up into Ryuzaki's insides, forcing one last moan from him even as he came down from his high. Light gasped and shook as he came, eyes squeezed tightly shut as he did so. His body jerked as he shakily thrusted hard one last time into Ryuzaki's body, then he paused, panting heavily. Ryuzaki smiled shakily as he noticed Light's utter exhaustion.
After a few long seconds Light pulled out of Ryuzaki and collapsed beside him in a heap. Sweat dripped down their bodies and onto the sheets, their hearts beating wildly. And to think they had only just dried from their outing…
"…Wow..." Light panted heavily.
"…Wow indeed Light" Ryuzaki flicked the hair out of his eyes.
"I…I didn't think doing it with a guy would be so...full on...you know what I mean?" Light looked at him.
"Can't really say I do. I have nothing to compare this experience with" Ryuzaki panted.
"You mean you... I was you're first? Ever?" Light looked over at him through chocolaty eyes, amazed. Ryuzaki shrugged.
"Not everyone is the amazing ladies man like yourself... or the amazing man's man as the case may be" Ryuzaki felt a small grin cross his face.
"Besides, I thought you said you and Misa Amane were waiting until after the Kira case to do that anyway" Ryuzaki asked with a smirk.
"I am holding out with her… I just didn't want to do it with her yet… not to say I haven't had sex with other people" Light said, voice still a little shaky.
"Am I allowed to know who?" Ryuzaki asked cheekily. "Was it with that Takada girl who used to follow you around in school?"
"I'm not discussing who I have and haven't had sex with you Ryuzaki!" Light laughed breathlessly. Ryuzaki pretended to pout.
"…Hey…you just kinda swore didn't you?! I have never heard you say hell like that before!" Light noticed with a little laugh.
"Oh…I did too…I haven't said it in that context in years… sorry about that" Ryuzaki apologized.
"Just come here you idiot" Light opened his arm out for him. He's…he's letting me hug him?
Normally, Ryuzaki hated to be touched. He didn't like the feeling of other people's skin on his own, even though clothing. The only person it had ever felt ok with was Light. And Light had punched him in the face. Twice. To a normal person, this should be reason enough to not want to try anything on him…But Ryuzaki didn't even hesitate. He climbed into Light's protective arms and placed his head on his chest. Light wrapped his arms around him and sighed. Ryuzaki stared blankly ahead, trying to figure out why the heck had Light even allowed this… hell, why had Light even agreed to have sex with him even? He thought Light hated him…
"…This… may sound a little bit weird but... is it just me or does this feel at all…sort of natural to you?" Light asked. Ryuzaki looked up into Light's brown eyes in surprise. Does he mean having sex, or just holding him? Because to Ryuzaki, they felt strangely natural, as if he'd always been meant to do this… but…why would Light notice this too?
"…I don't think its weird question Light. It's a perfectly rational question as a matter of fact. And I agree with you...this feels right" He started to smile to himself. Light laughed.
"What?" Ryuzaki asked as he felt Light's chest vibrate with laughter.
"I love how even seconds after just having sex, you can immediately sound like yourself again" He chuckled. Ryuzaki blushed at the word "sex"
"Well, it's probably due to the fact I have more blood to think with now" Ryuzaki replied... It took a second to realize what he actually said. Ryuzaki turned bright red as Light redoubled with laughter.
"You're so shy Ryuzaki, it's cute." Light smiled at him. Ryuzaki sensed it was a compliment and let himself give a coy smile.
"Uhg god I'm tired now..." Light sighed. "I feel like I could just sleep for days"
"Hmhm, I sometimes forget how young you are…" Ryuzaki hummed with amusement.
"Hey! Are you telling me you aren't tired?" Light said in defense, sounding more and more like the Light he had come accustom to
"I'm just saying, you are seven years younger than me…but yes, I am rather exhausted as well" Ryuzaki looked down, realized it was true. He was exhausted. And he hadn't even done anything other than lie on his back...
"Huh? You're only six years older than me aren't you? You're only twenty four" Light blinked in confusion.
"No, I'm twenty five now" Ryuzaki told him.
"What?! Since when?" Light said in surprise.
"Since the thirty first…so five days ago" Ryuzaki shrugged.
"Why didn't you tell us!" Light exclaimed.
"Because I don't see the point in making a big deal over something as insignificant as the anniversary of my birth…" Ryuzaki looked away again.
"What makes you say that?" Light asked.
"…Well, it's true. There are people out there who deserve to have their birth celebrated a lot more than I do…" Ryuzaki sighed, thinking of another person who's birthday should have been celebrated much more so than his own…
"Ryuzaki…you deserve a lot of things, a birthday especially! I don't know why you're saying these things, and you don't have to tell me if you don't want to…but you're special. You've got to remember that sometimes, Ryuzaki. You're very special…"
Ryuzaki looked up at Light in surprise, never having expected hearing these words, or anything similar coming from the teen under any circumstance. Light himself even looked surprised by what he had said, blinking wide eyed as the words sunk in.
"Light I…if you say so" Ryuzaki said at last.
"…I do say so… but maybe we should get some sleep, I feel like I'm about to pass out if I don't" Light smiled warmly. Ryuzaki nodded, not sure how else to respond.
"…You make a good little uke" Light smirked.
"Uke?" Ryuzaki had never heard the terminology before.
"Never mind, I'll explain later" Light smiled. If there is a later for him. Ryuzaki looked up into the tired face of Light. It was impossible to tell what he was thinking. Light had always been a closed book, even now. Show me the world that's inside your head...Then maybe I could understand you a little better for once… one moment, you hate me, then next you're like this? Are you really just a normal boy, or are you… Ryuzaki suppressed a sigh. I know what you are…but even so…
"…Please prove me wrong..." Ryuzaki spoke more to himself that to Light.
"Huh?" Light grunted. Ryuzaki knew he had heard him, so he didn't bother repeating himself. Besides, he was already beginning to slip away into the waiting arms of sleep for the first time in two days… he didn't have enough energy to repeat himself.
"…I hope for your sake, not my own... Even the best liar cannot deceive himself" By the end of the sentence his words were little more than a murmur, a mumble of words trying to leave his head before he fell under sleeps embrace. Ryuzaki could feel his unusually dark eyes beginning to droop, and there was no fighting them this time. Light was still. It was as if Ryuzaki's word had had some sort of profound effect on him. Ryuzaki hoped it was the right effect, the one he had intended. After a long moment, Light sighed quietly. Ryuzaki stiffened as he felt a gentle caress stroke his raven coloured hair. Light's hand brushed his silken locks slowly, as if making sure Ryuzaki didn't flinch or pull away. And usually, he would have…but… Light's fingers ran through Ryuzaki's hair soothingly, sending warm sparks through his skin. Usually, he hated people touching his hair, but Light's fingers felt so calming...so relaxing...
"…I'll understand if you leave Light…I wasn't expecting you to be here when I wake…" Ryuzaki muttered softly. Light paused.
"…I…I don't want to leave. I'll still be here" Light said slowly, as if surprised by his own words just as much as Ryuzaki was. Did he… did he really mean it? He hoped he did… Ryuzaki didn't want to be alone any more… Light's fingers continued their calming movements, slowly parting the silky strands of Ryuzaki's obsidian hair and letting them fall back down in a little swish, making his skin prickle in a wonderful way…Ryuzaki was asleep before he was even aware of it.
Although, before he did fall into sleeps embrace, he did have a small moment to realize one thing. The bells had gone silent. Their persistent ringing that had been haunting him all day with B's promise silenced, leaving his head to himself once again.
Looks like B had been wrong about this one...