"Fucking traffic!" I yell, abandoning the car in a drop off bay and running into the airport. I glance at the time. 8.55. Great. I run through to the departures and check the board for the gate. "Dammit!" I yell, running through the airport. "Help me" I pant breathlessly to the woman at the gate. "9am flight to Cincinnati." She looks at me apologetically and points out the window at a plane being pushed back. "No" I whisper. She pats my arm as I watch the plane taxi down the runway and take off into the morning sky. I watch until I can't see it anymore before heading slowly back through the airport and out to the car.
Randy is sat on the sofa with Dessie watching tv when I get back. The bags are all packed and ready to go. "Where is he?" he asks as I close the door. I shake my head. "I was too late" I say quietly. "The plane took off as I watched. He's gone. Jon's gone." Straight away his arms are around me, but I refuse to cry. I shake my head. "It's my own fault" I say pushing him away. "Can we just go home now?" He nods and straps Destiny into her car seat. "Ready?" he asks. I nod and take Dessie from him while he grabs the bags. We head out to the car. I strap Dessie's seat in while he loads the bags. "Torrie" a voice says quietly. I look up and see Seth. "Don't" I warn. He nods. "He tried to call you last night" he says. I nod. "He text me" I say. "Told me to say the words and he'd stay. I put the phone on silent and ignored it. I couldn't do that to him Colby. This is what he wants." "Oh wake the fuck up would you Torrie!" Seth yells. "You are what he wants. For six weeks you are all that man has thought about, dreamt about. He knows he was stupid, don't you think he's been punished enough? You know what? I can't deal with you right now." He turns around and walks off, leaving me leaning against the car in shock. "While I don't agree with how he said it" Randy says appearing out of nowhere. "I agree with what he said. Come on. Let's go." I nod and get in the car.
Four hours later we pull up outside the apartment. I stay in the car as Randy gets the bags out. Destiny stirs and snaps me out of the funk I'm in. I grab the car seat and follow Randy into the apartment. I put the laundry in as Randy sorts her bottle and starts to feed her. "Um Randy" I say quietly. "Could you, uh, watch her for a while? I just need to get some air." He nods, looking at me. "Be careful Tor" he says. I nod and pick up my phone and keys before heading out. I walk and walk, and before I know it I'm sat on the beach being left alone by everyone. When I check the time, I've been gone for over an hour. I stand up and brush the sand from my shorts before walking slowly back to the apartment. Randy looks up as I walk in. "Hey Tor" he says quietly. "Hey" I say, putting my keys in the bowl and walking to him. "Did I wake you?" He shakes his head. "I was just dozing" he says. "Keeping an ear out for Dessie. She's in your room asleep." I nod and kiss his head. "Go to bed Randy" I say helping him up. "I know these last few nights haven't been easy on you either. Go sleep. I'll lock up and go in with Dessie." He nods and watches as I lock the front door. "After you" he says ushering me towards my room. He kisses my head as I open the door. I look at him and smile. "Sleep well ass hat" I say kissing him. He smiles. "You too" he says, pausing in the doorway. I smile. "I'll try" I say, walking in to my room. He starts to close the door and I look at the bed. "What the..." I start. I look back at Randy, then back at the bed. "Jon?" I whisper. He smiles. "I couldn't go doll" he says looking at me. "I couldn't do it. I couldn't leave my girls." I look at Randy. "You're welcome" he whispers before kissing me and heading to his room.
"You're not really here" I whisper, sinking to my knees. "I watched your plane take off, I watched you go." He stands up and walks over to me, shaking his head. He holds out his hand and I take it, letting him pull me up. "This real enough for you doll?" he asks, kissing me softly. We pull apart and I look at him. "Damn" I whisper, pulling him back to me. He kisses me softly, moaning as my hands find their way into his hair again. "Lie with me?" he whispers. I nod and pull my trainers off as I walk to the bed. He gets on the bed and holds his arms out. I smile and crawl up to him, resting my head on his chest. "That feels so good" he moans. "I love you Tor, so fucking much." I nod. "I love you too Jon" I say looking up at him. "I'm just sorry it took you leaving for me to realise how much." He shakes his head. "We just needed a push in the right direction" he says kissing my head. "We got there eventually." "Did we?" I ask. He looks at me. "Don't you think so?" he asks. I bite my lip before answering. "I think there's a hell of a lot of talking to be done" I say. He nods. "Yeah" he whispers. "But enough talking. Kiss me." I smile, and do as he says.