She couldn't figure out after all they've been through why he still loved her.. why he continues to love her even after all the pain and tears.

Haymitch was right she could live a hundred lifetimes and still never deserve Peeta. Why was she fighting his love?

She pushes him away and he doesn't leave he just keeps staying with her because Peeta knows the old Katniss is still in there somewhere.

Peeta's POV:

"Do you think it's easy for me Katniss? to see you like this to see what Snow has done to you?

It was so damn hard because she still doesn't know the effect she has.

"You know.. sometimes I think that this whole thing would be easier if I was dead Peeta. Snow wants me dead you want me dead and I was supposed to die in the arena, it's the rule remember? One victor from each district... stop fighting for me and just kill me already okay?"

"It's so hard Katniss... for me for everyone why doesn't your mother come see you? she can't after what he did to you not your mom not Gale not Prim not me not my family no one is at fault except for Snow."

"Leave Prim and them out of this Peeta. They'd be better off anyway, Snow wouldn't have reason to kill them if I was dead."

"Katniss-"

"Peeta I need you to stop and listen for once I need you to let go. I don't deserve you Haymitch even said that himself and he's right I don't deserve you or the way you love me I know it's hard but I need you to okay? I don't want to be like Annie and Finnick. I don't want to be helpless like that don't you get it? It's not what I'm used to and I'd rather die then let Snow see me like this. I need you kill me or get Gale and tell him to bring his bow."

I saw tears welled up in her eyes.

"I love you. Real. But did you ever think that it was me that didn't deserve you Katniss?"

after that for the first time in a long time Katniss wrapped her arms around my waist as I did the same to her and it was the tightest hug she's ever given I think it was the tightest she was capable of giving me

"You love me Peeta.. Real or not real?"

"Real.. Very real. you love me? real or not real?"

It took her a minute but what she said while hugging me was enough to make my heart beam with hope.

"Real"

End POV

There was no way Peeta was going to allow Katniss to commit suicide.. she didn't see that if she died Snow would win. The old Katniss would never go for that so he made their families vow to keep a watchful eye on her.

It was mid-afternoon and Peeta was having a conversation with Rye, Haymitch and Finnick.

"So how's the girl on fire?"

Haymitch was drunk as usual.

"Not good Haymitch,she wants to commit"

"Marriage? thought you two were married already."

"NO HAYMITCH she wants to commit suicide. She thinks if she does Snow will leave us and he family alone."

"Bull."

Rye is just as frustrated, Haymitch managed to fall asleep in two seconds and Finnick is practicing his knots that he showed Katniss a few days ago.

"I have an idea boy..."

That drunk takes a long swig out of his glass before continuing.

"You're already married right? Get an apartment and move in together"

"How does that help in any way possible?"

"It gives you two time to bond together again and the girl will feel less needy and naggy of everyone."

"Brilliant"

Everyone Agrees even though no one knows how it will work.
it's night when our conversation ends.
Tomorrow we go apartment hunting.

End of another chapter :) Hopefully you'll like it. Haymitch and Finnick make an apperance in this one and Annie is briefly mentioned.. also Rye and the others will pop in and out of the story if you couldn't tell by now hahaha don't forget to leave any comments you might have