They arrive at the apartment and as Peeta opens the door he sees that Katniss is in tears.
"What's wrong?"
"You're trying so hard to make me happy Peeta... from the beginning when I didn't remember who you really were when I thought you were going to hurt me but you didn't and you didn't leave me or kill me like I wanted you to. You stayed."
"Remember what I said on the train? you couldn't sleep you woke up screaming and I ran in asking what was wrong and it was a nightmare so I was going back to my room and you asked me if I would stay and I did."
"Yes"
"Remember what I said after that? after you asked me.."
"You said you would stay forever and you did."
They both smiled and Katniss dried her tears once more before looking around the apartment with Peeta. It had a nice kitchen, two bedrooms each with their own bathroom,and a nice sized living room.
Agreeing that it was perfect to live in the two moved in the next day. Peeta hung some paintings in the living room,it was agreed that their family would speak to them only if it was an emergency as Katniss wanted privacy.
The first night of being on their own Peeta made cheese buns and lamb stew for dinner.. Katniss's favorite things
" Peeta?"
"Yeah Katniss?"
" Why do you keep trying? why don't you just give up? you're never going to win this war it's my war Peeta not yours and I can't understand why you would risk everything just to keep me in your life."
"Katniss if you're going to tell me to k-"
"YES Peeta freaking kill me already or give me something to do it if you're going to be such an ass and not help me Peeta because if you really loved me and cared and wanted to help me you would've done what I asked you to already but you try and keep giving me these reasons not to or distracting me from the truth and I can't keep thinking about it I mean it's not like this is the first time I've brought it up."
Katniss was right, after all she seemed to want this more then anything but right now she wasn't thinking normally. Right now she was fighting some sort of capitol power explained it once but to be truthful no one was exactly paying much attention to him.
"You're not thinking right Katni-"
"DAMN STRAIGHT PEETA I'M NOT HELL I'M TRUSTING YOU.. A MUTT A CAPITOL MUTT I'M TRUSTING A CAPITOL MUTT."
Her eyes went from that beautiful grey to a darker more sinister color, Peeta watched as the real Katniss tried to force her words rather then the harsh ones coming out in place of them.
In a way he knew that she was hurting too and he knows she doesn't mean this but the words the capitol programmed into her. Those fake words cut deeper into his feelings then he allows, maybe she was right there was no getting her back, what was next? would she be deemed unstable by the doctors and eventually have a life in a padded cell?
From now on he would need to help her control her "triggers" for fear if someone saw these violent screaming fits they would be back to square one, Katniss being the one pumped full of tranquilizers and medication.
That night he had set up pillows and blankets on the couch for himself to sleep since he still needed to move his bed in his own room,once he was settled he put the T.v on but on a low volume to keep from waking Katniss up, getting up for water he noticed a small shadow in one of the bedrooms.
"Can't sleep?"
startling the shadow that was staring out the window.
"Oh...no no I'm good just not sleepy"
"You know that's the same thing right?"
"Very funny Peeta Bread"
"Nice name Kat."
"Why don't they visit me?"
"Who?"
"Everybody,Prim Gale Effie Haymitch my mother why don't they visit me? do they think I'm not capable of having people to talk to? I know I told them I needed privacy but they usually ignore that so do they think I went crazy like Annie?"
"I can't answer that Katniss.. I'm sorry"
She stays quiet for a few minutes, looking at the stars in the sky.
"Well Katniss I'm gonna head to bed, goodnight."
"Wait Peeta.. I'm sorry for being like that earlier."
"It's okay I know it must be hard so don't worry about it."
There's silence again and I see tears in her eyes, not the sinister blackened color but that beautiful grey that's always been there.
"Would you.. would you stay with me so I can sleep?"
This makes Peeta's heart beat a million times faster.
"I I'll stay as long as you need me even if it's forever.. I love you Katniss."
There he goes again dumping his heart out.. as he lays with his arms around her keeping her warm and safe from any and everything he hears a little whisper..
"I love you too Peeta."
Finally A new chapter! sorry I haven't been getting around to writing because I have been playing this story out on the Sims 3 and I promised a longer chapter so here it is.. hopefully I'll update sooner from now on