Chapter3 : The worst week of my life
5 months passed since Sasuke left. I don't know why, but somehow I felt that waiting until finally comes back is useless.
On the other hand I felt with my whole heart that he definitely will come back. He promised me. I know that what he has made a promise - he will keep it.
Day after day I felt lonelier and my loneliness got bigger and bigger. In the end I fell into depressions. So my friends Kiba and Shikamaru tried to cheer me up.
One day I came home from the mission. Kiba called me out for a drink and I agreed. I knew that I don't need to drink much alcohol to get drunk, but somehow drinking alcohol was the only way how to forget just for a while about my loneliness and pain in my heart. The atmosphere was very good. I didn't really know how much I drank, but in the end I didn't really remember what happened after I got drunk.
Next morning when I opened my eyes, my headache was horrible. Then I noticed that I was not at home. I sat up in the bed and looked around. When I turned my head to the right I saw Kiba was lying next to me and he was naked!
What?! I was shocked. (What the hell is going on here?) After a while I figured out that I was naked too. I was horrified. When I tried to remember what happened my head started to hurt even more than before. (Why am I here? What happened? I can't remember a thing!)
After a while Kiba woke up.
"What the hell happened here Kiba?" I shouted at him. I was so angry and full of disgust.
"Calm down Naruto. You don't remember? Yesterday you were really enjoying doing it with me." I widely opened my eyes. I couldn't believe what he said.
"It´s not true. Tell me that you are lying!" I started to scream on him.
"Sorry Naruto, but this is not a lie. Look at us. If it were a lie, we both wouldn't be naked." He was smiling and so calm like nothing special happened.
I just sat there, I was speechless. I sat there like a stone, but I couldn't stop my tears. Kiba came closer to me, but I pulled away from him.
"Don't come near to me!" I looked at him with tears in my eyes. I was afraid of him.
"Naruto I am very sorry, but I must tell you the truth. Now it ´s too late to regret what happened between us. I know that you hate me now, so I have nothing to lose, but somehow I am sad that you fell in love with an arrogant bastard who left you here alone..."
"You are right I hate you now for that what have you done to me. But how do you know that I am in love with Sasuke?" I was surprised from where does he know that I am in love with him.
"Yesterday you called out his name so many times while we were doing it that it was simple to find out that you are in love with him. But now I just want to say that I always liked you and fell in love with you, but I knew that you are in love with him (Sasuke). On the other hand I wanted you so badly, that I decided to make you mine ... "
"STOP!" I screamed I didn't want to know anything more about his feelings. I was disgusted and disappointed with him. I have never imaged that he will do something so dirty to his best friend.
"Forgive me Naruto." he begged me to forgive him, but I couldn't forgive him so easily.
"Never, You think, if you tell me why you did it I will so easily forgive you? Who do you think I am? Do you think that you can betray me and then beg me for forgiveness? Then you don't really know me. The only one who I really love with all my heart is Sasuke and only one whom I want to do it is he. "I started to cry.(Why it had to happen ? Why?) Kiba tried to reach out his hand to touch me, but I pulled myself away from him.
"Don't touch me! Don't come near me again! I am going home now!"
I got out of his bed and dressed up. When I opened the door I turned back to Kiba and looked in his eyes.
"Don't call me anymore and don't come to my house, because if you do that, I can't guarantee your safety. This is the last time you see me here. I trusted you and thought of you as my best friend, every time when I needed help you were always by my side, but know I don't know what to say. I am disappointed, disgust and betrayed... "With these words I came out from his room and closed the door. I started to cry even more then before and run away from his house.
When I came home I closed the door and fell down on my knees. I couldn't control my emotions. I just let them to come out. My tears were falling down on my face like a waterfall. I couldn't understand why Kiba did it with me. I have always considered him as a friend. I couldn't and I will not be able to return his feelings, because I am in love with someone else. I have always loved him and I will love him until my last breathe.
"Sasuke I miss you so much I hope that you will come back soon."
But I am afraid that, he will leave me, if he learns about this. I don't want to be hated by him. I would rather die than be hated by him. STOP! I can't think about his now. Tomorrow we a have a mission I must be prepared for it. I stood up, dried my tears and went to take a shower. After the shower I went directly into the bed. I didn't really care about the time. I just wanted to sleep and not try to forget about what happened yesterday. I laid down on my bed, but I couldn't fall asleep. My mind and thoughts were full of yesterday and today´s events and with Sasuke of course. After two hours I finally fell asleep. Like always I have dreamed about Sasuke. I am hopeless in love with him. When I woke up I realized that I got hard just by a dream about him. So before I went to eat some ramen I had to solve this "little" problem.
Next morning we had a mission. Kakashi was late like always. But this time I knew why. After one hour he finally came. The he explained us what will be this mission about.
In the middle of the way Kakashi was talking with Sakura I felt somehow strange. I had a feeling that someone was following us. We made a little break near the river. I was happy because my legs started to protest. I sat down next to a rock and looked at the river. My mind wasn't really here. It was somewhere else. It´s almost half a year since Sasuke left and I hoped and believed that he is okay and he will come back to me. While I was daydreaming I felt a very painful blow on my head. I fainted.
My head still hurt because of the blow. I slowly opened my eyes. My hands were tied up so tight that I couldn't move them. I looked around. I was sitting on the bed. That room was familiar for me. It was Kiba´s room. I was shocked. (What the hell I am doing here? What will he do with me?) My mind was full of questions. Then he opened the door.
"Long time no see ... Naruto." That voice belonged to one else than Kiba. I was surprised and left dumbfounded.
"Kiba... you..."
"Yes, it is me Naruto."
"What do you want from me? Let me go."
"That is impossible Naruto. Now that you are here I won't let you go so easily." The expression on his face scared me. He came closer to me.
"Naruto don't be afraid. You will enjoy this like I will."
"Let me go you bastard!" I screamed, but it was useless, he continued with his talk.
"Bastard? Don't be so rude to me Naruto. I always thought that I am our best friend. But the last time I told you that I am in love with you and I wanted to make you mine..." He wanted to touch my face, but I turned away from him.
"Kiba I thought of you just like a friend because when we first met I was already in love with Sasuke. Can't you understand that I will not be able to love you? "
"It seems that I must tell you the truth. I admit that I was always jealous of Sasuke. I don't know why he is better than me. I have never left you alone like he did now. Everybody knows that he is an arrogant, haughty, heartless bastard." He said it with so much hate and despise in his voice, I couldn't believe that this bastard was one of my best friends. Now I hated and despised him.
"You know what? Yeah. You are right. He was an arrogant bastard, but I discovered that he has another side too. I fell in love with him on first sight. I must admit that he is so handsome, sexy ..." I couldn't finish my sentence, because Kiba lost his mind hearing these words and slapped my face.
"Stop talking about stupid things..." He got very angry.
"Now let the games begin. I will make you forget about Sasuke. I will make you mine, whether you like it or not. "He started to smile, but that smile was a smile of a maniac. I was afraid of him. He grabbed me and started to touch me. I wanted to pull him somehow, but he pushed me down on the bed. It was so uncomfortable and my hands started to hurt.
"Don't touch me. Let me go!" I cried out again. But he didn't listen and started to take off my clothes. I was ashamed. I didn't know how to get rid of him.
When he took off my T-shirt he started to kiss my neck. Chest... (OMG) that was disgusting, with him wasn't as good as with Sasuke.
"Don't. Stop. Please..." I begged of him, but it didn't work on and continued.
He took off my pants and my shorts. It was a disgraceful act without any emotions. Then he took my penis in his mouth and started to move up and down with his mouth.
"Is it good Naruto?"
"NO! It is horrible. It is disgusting. I don't want it. Stop it. NOW! A shouted on him, but he didn't really care about it.
"Naruto I know in the end you will enjoy this. I am sure about it."
"Shut up you bastard!"
Then he moved faster and faster until I came. I felt so miserable, disgusted and ashamed.
When he licked his fingers he stood up and took off his pants and shorts.
My eyes were widened. When he laid on me he started to whisper in my ears.
"Don't be scared Naruto. I am sure you will like it. So please relax."
"Don't do that. Please. I don't want it. Not in this way." I tried to somehow thwart his plan to enter me, but in the end he reached his goal.
"Ah... Please... Don't... it hurts..." Tears appeared and felt down on m face. But he didn't really care about me, about my feelings, if it hurts or not. When he was completely inside of me he started to thrust me.
"Sasuke... Help me please" I cried out his name in a hope that maybe he will save me, but it was just my imagination. Kiba started to laugh about it.
"Naruto, you are so naive and you really hope and believe that he will come to save you? Don't be stupid. Sasuke will not save you. It is already late and he doesn't know where are you so it is useless to call out his name." With a maniac smile on his face he continued to thrust in me faster and deeper. I turned my face away from him and let the tears to fell down on the pillow. I didn't feel anything. It was just a violent sexual act without any emotions so it was RAPE. When he finally came out from me, he whispered in my ears.
"You better not think that now I will let you go. Do you understand me?"
I was so scared and ashamed. I started to hate myself even more for my weakness. Sasuke will definitely leave me if he gets informed about this.
In the end he raped me three more times. When he was ready and got dressed someone has kicked out the door.
I couldn't believe my eyes. The person who was standing in the door was nobody else than SASUKE...
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TO BE CONTINUED :D