The reason they decide to adopt isn't only because they just want to give love and a family to someone who doesn't have one. They tried to stick to their plan and use Kurt's sperm for their second child but there were too many complications. The first time it didn't take, which they were warned many times that it might not. Then the second time they tried there was a miscarriage, which totally broke them. They already told everyone. They far enough in that they started getting clothes and began to redo the nursery.
Kurt took the news so hard that Blaine was sure he wouldn't want to have another kid. At first Kurt was only mad at himself, keeping all his depression and anger inside. Then when Blaine addressed it further he turned his anger to Blaine out of what Sam and Burt said was jealousy. It was the "alpha gay" fight all over again.
It was two years later when Blaine had just settled into bed and turned out the light, snuggling in for a good nights sleep that Kurt announced he wanted to adopt a baby. The first thing Blaine did was turn on the light to make sure Kurt was awake. Then he got out of bed, grabbed his robe and started a pot of coffee knowing they were going to have a long night.
The process to adopt was long and tiring. The only thing that got them through was that they knew it would be worth it. Kurt was so afraid they would be turned down; afraid he would be the reason they turned them down. Blaine constantly reminded Kurt they wouldn't be turned down because they deserve a baby and there is a baby out there who belongs to them, they just needed to find them so they could that love baby and never let them go. Blaine didn't know what they would do if they weren't approved, he wasn't sure if Kurt could move on if that happened. The process caused a lot a stress and some fights between them, nothing they never worked through right away.
Kurt only started his OCD rituals and cleaning after they were told an agent would be coming to their home to interview them. Blaine did his best to calm Kurt's nerves, but sometimes he knew Kurt needed to work through the ritual himself to feel in control. Blaine would much rather Kurt involve him with the ritual than hide them from Blaine because he tried to stop them.
Sophie didn't always understand why her Daddies acted differently. Blaine did his best to explain why her Papa acted funny and weird sometimes. Sophie said she didn't understand how doing things fourteen times or organizing her stuff animals by size would help them get a baby, but if it made her Papa feel better then she would try to be on her best behavior. She also offered to email Santa and ask him if he could bring them a baby, because he brought her that baby doll when she asked nicely for it.
Blaine and Kurt both agreed that waiting for the call that told them that someone picked them was the worst part. They did everything they could to continue with their everyday lives and tried to pick up the phone casually. If one of them picked up the phone the other usually held their breath until they knew who was on the other side of the call.
It was months before they got a phone call that someone was considering them.
It was a scared young girl in high school who liked their file. Kurt was extremely nervous when they met with her at the agency to answer any of her questions she had. She asked questions about their jobs, their marriage, how they decided to adopt, and why she could pick them over someone who doesn't have any children yet. Blaine explained that their family, including Sophie and her grandparents, had so much more love to share and give. He shared that he had always dreamed of having two to four kids and he knew how difficult it would be because he was gay.
Kurt asked if she had any siblings and after she said no. He told her how lucky he was to know what being an only child and having a sibling both feel like. He explained how alone he felt without a sibling but he didn't know anything else and then how his father remarried and then he had Finn. When he was too scared or uncomfortable to go to his dad about something he went to Finn. He explained what he experience when he was alone and how he had no one before Finn and Blaine.
Blaine was a little shocked that Kurt brought Finn up. Even though they moved forward the pain was still there. Kurt didn't bring Finn up a lot. Mostly if Sophie had any questions about him or if someone else brought him up first. It was the same way with Kurt' mother. Only Burt ever really brought her up.
She asked if she could meet their daughter before making her final decision. They didn't even hesitate to say yes, because Sophie was as involved in this as they were. After meeting Sophie, and asking her questions about her Dads and what it's like to have two dads, she told them she knew that they were the right choice.
Blaine and Kurt took the best care of her and the baby. Kurt was very nervous she would change her mind and keep the baby like Quinn had wanted to do in the past. She offered to throw them a party but Kurt declined. She still gave them a small gift for the baby. Kurt properly thanked her and then when she was gone he tucked it away out of sight. When they got closer to the due date Blaine just began buying stuff and storing it at Sam's place because if Kurt never let go of that fear they wouldn't be prepared to take the baby home from the hospital.
It honestly worried Blaine how Kurt detached himself from the baby before it was born. When he was alone with the young girl he explained desperately that Kurt wasn't have cold feet or didn't want this. She understood and said she could still see the love in his eyes even if he tried not to get too excited. The week before the baby was born they fought about Kurt's behavior during the whole process.
When their baby boy was born it had only been 33 weeks of pregnancy. The doctor reassured them it was normal with how young the mother was. Blaine almost sobbed out loud when they didn't let them hold their baby boy right away. He stayed strong the whole time for Kurt but all his strength crumbled when there was no cry from a baby, only doctors and nurses shouting and pushing them out of the room. Blaine was in shock when Kurt didn't cry with him, but Kurt usually refused to cry until it was the appropriate time. When they waited for more news Kurt did have an OCD attack and tried multiple times to rearrange the waiting room until a nurse threatened to remove him. It's called apnea, someone explained. He basically was forgetting to breath. He wasn't as severely underweight as they first worried. His temperature was lower than it should be. They promised to take good care of him. With Sophie being in Ohio with her grandparents neither Kurt nor Blaine really left his side in the hospital.
After several weeks of care they were allowed to take him home.