/= "Servant of Evil –classic- Instrumental" =/
Feliciano had to stay on the deck. It was too hard. The others were in charge of telling the changed Ludwig everything, and Li Xiao dismissed him away because he knew just how much this is going to hurt him. And he was right. Just thinking about all this was hurting him. What if Ludwig never remembered him? What if he believes that Lovino was the man he loved? How would Antonio react…?
T-then again…he remembered me when he was Holy Rome. He thought. He'll…he'll remember me…d-don't worry about it, Feli…
"Who's there?"
He jumped in shock and turned around, seeing the man he was just thinking about walking up onto the deck and staring back at him with a face that was filled with confusion. He was definitely trying to sort out what he had been told. Then again, if he was told that the world he was living in was a lie, he'd be confused too.
"O-oh…Ludwig." Feliciano smiled. "Are you all right?"
"I've been told that everything I've been living in my entire life had been a lie." He answered. "How am I supposed to react?"
"…that's true." He turned to Ludwig. "Do you…remember anything about your past?"
"I only know the past that I have lived through. What your friends have been saying did not ring any type of bell to me."
"…oh. Well then…" Feliciano tilted his head. "What is your past?"
"Hm? Why are you so curious?"
"I'm just wondering, that's all. If you believe what you believe so much, then perhaps you can tell me."
"…all right. It might not appeal to you if you're associated with what you believe."
"Yeah…but I just want to know."
"I-if you say so. I was born in the Katherzig line, destined to be leader of the Green Soldiers. While I was in training, my father sent me to the Blue Kingdom so that the King can knight me. While there, I met this young girl-"
Feliciano froze.
"I fell in love with her at first sight. She loved me back, but then I was separated from her once my training was over. Many years I trained so that I could take my place and be with her again…and when I was able to come back, I realized that that girl was…actually a man."
He couldn't help but giggle. Maybe he remembers…?
"It was strange…how could the young girl that I loved turn out to be the heir of the kingdom? Hell, when we first met he didn't like the sight of me…but after a while…he remembered me…he knew who I was…and as such he wants me to be the next king of the land…"
He froze again.
"I will always love Lovino. There is no way around it, it's like…destiny, for us to be together again. I thank you and your friends deeply for saving my life…and perhaps now I can help him save more people from being hurt from the evil queen's reign-"
"No…no, this is all wrong! This wasn't supposed to happen like this!"
Ludwig paused as he saw Feliciano turn away and sob quietly to himself, confused on what's going on. He took a deep breath.
"I told you of my past…now tell me yours." His voice was stern. "It's only fair for me to know."
"…*hic*…you already said it out loud."
"Hm?"
"I…my friends and I…we come from another world, like what you've been told…" Feliciano didn't dare turn around to look at him. "In that world, your past was the same. You were a boy who fell in love with a girl but had to go away because the world wanted him to…but the girl was different…"
"The girl was…"
"I-it was me!" Feliciano shivered. "I was the girl! I was the one you fell in love with!"
There was silence.
"You had to go to war…to protect me…and you told me that you were going to come back but you never did. And I waited…I waited for so long until I gave up…and then you told me that you were there all along…"
"…are you sure that you haven't just been mad with grief?"
"…Lud…?"
"You told me that the man you were waiting for never returned, didn't you? Doesn't that mean that he's dead?"
W-why…?
"If that's true, then that means that all you have to do is accept that he's dead and move on. Don't try to hang onto the belief that he's alive and think that he's me."
Why does he sound like Big Brother France did when he told me…?
"The man you fell in love with died in a war. War is covered with death. How come you have this belief that this man is me? Because I look just like him?"
Because…because you ARE him…
"You're not a man. You're just a dog, clinging onto the corpse of its dead master like his life depended on it!"
I can't…I can't be mad at him…
"I will always love Lovino. He is the only one that can have me."
H-he's loyal to the one he loves dearly…
"And nothing is going to break that. Not even your broken words of sympathy."
No matter how sad they are, he'll always be there for them…
"You don't have to cry for me. Cry for yourself, for you can't even call yourself a man in the pathetic state that you're in."
Fighting the enemy away with words as cold as daggers…
"Stand up and heal those wounds, why don't you? Most people think it's cute, but I just think it's repulsive."
While healing the wounds they've inflicted with words only angels can say…
"Only then will you be able to talk to me again. Now if you excuse me, I'm going to go downstairs and try to get some sense out of your psycho friends. Don't bother to find me."
That's what I love about him…
Ludwig could only scoff as he headed downstairs, leaving the Italian crying about the love he lost forever and watch as the ship finally pulled into the harbor.
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Hey, to all you Germano fangirls out there. I hope you're happy. You made Feliciano cry. YOU MADE FELI-CHAN CRY. Here I was trying to make you girls happy and ended up stabbing the hearts of half the fanbase. I HOPE YOU'RE PROUD OF YOURSELVES.
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You are, aren't you?