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The silence in the room was deafening. I was shocked my eyes were locked on to his as I tried as hard as I could to say something, anything. "Juice" I mumbled trying to make sense of the situation I was currently in. We had only been together for a few weeks, how did we get here so fast. I knew I loved him but we hadn't even lived together. I didn't know every little thing about him and he didn't know everything about me. Everything between us still felt so new.

"Holly say something" he said his face now growing worried.

"This isn't how this is supposed to happen Juice. I love you but I don't want you to propose to me because your afraid I'm going to take off with someone else" I finally blurted out telling him the exact thought that continued to run through my mind since he had asked me to be his wife.

Before I had time to react he pulled himself from the bed and began pulling on the black cargo pants he had just slipped off. I jumped up from the bed following him and reached for his arm for the second time that night.

"Juice please don't leave" I once again begged him to stay, not being able to stand the idea of being left alone in his bed. I felt his arms wrap around my naked waist as I gripped his arms.

"I love you Holly. I want to be your husband but clearly you've got different ideas. I want to be your husband that is why I proposed." he said, his face now stoned face when moments before it had been so loving.

"That's not true Juice. You caught me off guard. You can not be pissed off at me for not expecting a proposal tonight after all the shit we have been through lately"

"You mean Opie. Are you seriously saying I shouldn't have proposed because of Opie" he yelled now his body still close to mine.

"Opie Winston has nothing to do with this why can you not get that?"

"Really Holly he has nothing to do with this, we were fine before he got back on your good side. We were happy before Donna died. Now your lying to me and spending your day doing god knows what with him. I am trying here Hol, I want you. I want to be your husband and I want to have a life together. I know it hasn't been that long but I don't give a fuck. I don't need to time to know that I want you so I am done with competing with him. You need to choose once and for all it's either him or me" he said as he pushed away from me.

My mind was a mess. I knew Juice was right I couldn't keep going living like this I had to choice, I could go back to Opie and we could have a good life together. We still loved each other and I would be more then happy to step into the role of step mother and daughter in law. I knew everything about Opie Winston I loved his courage, his humour and his smart ass comments. I accepted his flaws and loved him all the more for them. I could spend my days laying in bed with him running my hands through his beard, I could be a good wife to him. I could have a good happy life with him, but a life with Opie was a life without Juice which was something I could not face.

I grabbed his arm again and pulled him back to me. When I really thought about it, the choice was hard but an easy one to make.

"It's you Juice, it's always been you" I said running my free hand along the skull tattoo on his tight chest.

"I did love Opie and I have been caught up in his grief for the last few days and I am so sorry for that. Seeing him like that brought me right back to that eighteen year old who's whole life was Opie but I am done with that. I promise you that I am done with Opie. I want you" I said now pleading, hoping he would realize I was being sincere.

"How do I know that Holly?" he asked with a raised brow. His arms once again wrapped around me holding me to him, my skin felt smooth against his bare chest.

"Ask me again" I begged him.

"Holly, we don't have to do this"

"Ask me again" I repeated my words.

He gripped my waist and pulled me closer so are bodies were tight against each other. He was quick to pull me into a deep kiss before slowly trailing the kisses down my jawline and across to my ear lobe.

"Will you marry me?" he whispered in my ear sending a shiver down my spine.

"Yes" I blurted out placing one hand along each side of his face as I pulled him in for a kiss. Before I knew what was happening I felt him pick me and force my legs around him as he laid me back on the bed we had been on moments before.

He reached behind me and undid the hook on my bra. As he moved his hands my body, his thumbs hooking on my panties I pulled the bra off and tossed it aside. I moaned as he kissed down my stomach and slipped the panties off leaving me laying in front of him naked. I felt his hands move up my body as he gripped my hips, I used my feet to push at his boxers until he was able to kick them off. I ran my hands along his chest and up around his neck, holding on to him as I felt him quickly push himself into me.

My nails scratched at his back as I felt myself arch towards him. "Juice" I moaned as he slowly began thrusting. His movements slowly increased with each moan but each time I found myself being drawn closer to the edge he would slow his body. "Please Juice" I began to beg him, hoping my pleas would urge him on but all it did was cause that gorgeous grin to cross his face before he would kiss me. He was clearly enjoying the fact he could tease me.

I tightened my legs around his waist and dug my foot into his thigh urging him deeper. I smiled hearing him groan as he movements began to increase in speed. I clung to him, feeling his back arch as he moved. "Oh god, Juice" I cried out as I began feeling myself losing control. This time he did not slow his movements he increased his speed as my breathing grew heavy. "Yes, yes, yes" I squealed as I felt myself losing control. I gripped his back, positive he would have scratch marks as I felt the orgasm rush over my body in waves. Just as my breathing was beginning to slow I heard him groan deeply and collapse over me as he gave in. We laid there for awhile, our breathing slowing down before we feel asleep wrapped in each others arms.

"Holly" I heard him say my name as I opened my eyes to see him kneeling next to the bed beside me.

"Hey" I whispered as I leaned in and kissed him quickly, flooded with the happy memories from the night before.

"Baby, I am so sorry but I got run out. There's some club business and Clay said they need me. I will give you a call when I know how long I'm going to be and then we can go out tonight and celebrate" he said flashing that gorgeous grin at me.

"That sounds perfect. Be safe" I kissed him quickly and then he was gone, out the door just like I had grown to expect from getting into another relationship with a member of SAMCRO. I was shocked with myself. I had left Charming to avoid the group after having my heart broken by the man who I had considered the love of my life. It had only taken me one day back in town to meet another member and now after a quick romance I had agreed to marry him. I had agreed to start a life with him in Charming, I agreed to become his "old lady" a term I told myself would never be used to describe me. I had thrown away all my rules about SAMCRO and their lifestyle for Juice. It was a decision I wasn't completely sure was right just yet. All I knew was that I loved that man and was not ready to walk away from him. I did want to be his wife, I did want to have kids with him one day and I wanted to grow old with him. I wanted all of that but agreeing to that with Juice meant a lifetime with SAMCRO.

I forced myself out of the bed and into the shower. My mind was racing with thoughts of Juice and our future together when he came back into my mind. I loved Opie Winston, I always would but I needed to let him go to give me and Juice the best chance of working out. If I let him go on thinking there was a chance for us it would always be a source of conflict for Juice and I.

When I stepped out of the shower and dried off I searched for any clothes I had left at Juices. Since I had only been there a few times before I didn't have many options. I managed to find a pair of jeans and one of Juice's clean wife beaters to slid into. The top hung loose on me but it would have to do until I could get the chance to get to some of my clothes. I slipped on my flips flops and grabbed my purse before rushing out the door. I needed to make it to Opie before he heard the news from someone else. I knew Juice was happy about the engagement and he would want to tell his brothers. That wasn't something I wanted to take from him but I couldn't bare the idea of Opie hearing it from one of them.

I rushed down the street hoping to spot a taxi but before I could I heard someone call my voice. "Holly" I turned around to see Gemma Morrow.

"I hear congratulations are in order" She grinned pulling me into a tight motherly hug.

"Wow you heard already. Thank you" I muttered half embarrassed to know I was right that Juice would be quick to tell his family about the news and half terrified that Opie already knew,

"It will be good to have you back in the family Holly. It's been to long since you've been over for family dinner and it's been a long time since the sons have a had a wedding to celebrate. Don't you worry about all those details you know I can help with all that"

"Thanks, honestly I haven't really thought about that much Gemma. It all happened kinda quickly" I said watching her happy face grow to worried.

"Holly. You know we all love you and we're all glad you finally came back home where you belong. I just hope your not sticking around for Opie, that boy is in a lot of pain right now and he does not need to be thinking about what could have been with you around. He never really got over what happened between the two of you and we would all hate to see him in more pain then he already is" she said almost like she knew that Opie Winston was on my mind.

"I was going to go talk to him, Gemma"

"Are you sure that's a good idea?"

"I don't want him to hear it from someone else. I wanted to let him down. Ever since Donna died he's been talking about us getting back together. I cant let him hear it from some one else" I said happy I finally got my feelings off my chest but sad to hear Gemma disagree with my idea.

"Holly, honey he already knows"

I took a deep breath at her words. I felt sick, I hated the idea of him expecting something to happen with us eventually and then hearing it from someone else that I had agreed to marry Juice.

"How?"

"Your future husband came in this morning grinning like a fool. You know those guys they are not exactly quiet about things. They all had a few drinks and are planning a party for tonight. I didn't get a chance to talk to Opie but I saw him leave. From what I heard he told Jax he needed to head outta town for a bit. He needs a break after everything that's happened Holly, just let him be" she said.

"I hate this Gemma I didn't come back to town looking for any of this. I just wanted to see my sister. I didn't want anything to do with Opie and I sure as hell did not expect to meet Juice" I said my voice cracking as I bit my lip trying not to cry.

"Holly forget about Opie for now. He is out doing his thing. Think about Juice. He is a good boy who loves you. We were positive that boy would never settle down but that all changed when you came into the picture. Honestly Holly I love you, you know that I do but if you cant be with him without thinking of Opie then you should leave now. Don't hurt him more by sticking around if you cant fully be here" she said before giving me a quick kiss on the cheek and then spinning around leaving her words hanging in the air.

I felt like I was ready to crumble. I hated knowing I had hurt Opie, adding to his enormous pain. I hated that she was right about my relationship with Juice. I loved him but I did still have thoughts of Opie Winston. It wasn't fair for my thoughts not to be fully focused on Juice. I leaned against the nearby wall of a local store and closed my eyes. I needed to figure this all out some how.

Before I could think anymore my thoughts were interrupted once again by a deep voice. I spun around to see Opie walking towards me.

"Opie" I spit out my voice catching as he caught up to me.

"Congratulations" he said putting on a fake smile, one I had usually seen him reserve for visits with his mother or probation officer.

"I am so sorry Opie, I didn't want to you find out like that. I wanted to tell you"

"Holly, don't" he said putting his hand up to signal me to stop talking before he pulled me into a deep hug. As soon as I felt the coolness of his leather against my cheek I felt the tears began streaming down my face. He kissed the top of my head softly and held me there for a few moments us both locked in silence before he pulled back and looked down at me.

"I'm sorry Holly. I have felt like shit since I lost Donna, I feel like I've lost part of myself. For some reason I thought when you came back into my life that it was some sign. I figured if we got back together all this pain that I'm feeling would magically go away and I know now thats bullshit. I am so sorry for making you think you needed to choice when really you choice a long time ago Holly. We are not meant to be, if we were we would never have separated in the first place. You belong with Juice. He is a good guy, he will treat you better then I ever have. When he came in today and told everyone, I have never seen him so happy. He really loves you Hol. You deserve him, you deserve to be happy" he said kissing my forehead again before he pulled away from our embrace. I'm going to leave town for a bit but I will be back eventually so please don't worry about me" he said pushing the hair out of my face and tucking it behind my ear before he kissed the top of my head one last time.

"Be safe" I managed to mumble as he wipe the tears from my cheeks and then turned and walked away.