Super sorry for this taking so long! I really have been working on this but been super busy and made sure I finished it all today! I sorta rushed at the end, so sorry ^^" But I hope you all like this one too~! :3 Chapter 3~!

Lithuania sat in a warm tub of water, the water a light tint of red due to his new cuts bleeding into the water. Though it was painful and stung, it actually felt good which scared him. The thoughts of enjoying the pain from Russia scared him deeply, but it would make sense since pain is the only love he receives from Russia.

He could have stayed home, he could have enjoyed his independence while occasionally visiting America and the other Baltics, he could be pain free, but when Russia… He should have known better. Russia told him that he has changed and would love him and treat him how he deserved be treated and Lithuania believed him. Though he had fallen out of love with Russia and swore he was in love with Belarus, his story told a different story and no matter how many painful memories he has of Russia, his heart wouldn't let him forget the good.

And now, he hated his heart. Russia didn't change, if not gotten worse. Due to his government laws on homosexuality, whenever people come over he has to crossdress as a maid and never speak. Whenever Russia gets mad, he takes his anger out on Lithuania. He only shows love when he is drunk and that is purely physical, doesn't even feel like love.

Don't let it fucking get to you… a voice in Lithuania's head spoke, one that Lithuania was actually happy to hear. Enjoying pain and getting fucking horny about it isn't that big of a deal.

"Yeah, for you it isn't…" he mumbled, already used to his vulgar language. "I never liked it before. And what is Russia finds out? He may do it even more…" his voice ended up dropping because even though it feared him, it also thrilled him.

Stop being a pyzda (pussy) and accept you like pain.

"I can't!" Lithuania hissed and he sunk more into the water. "I can't…"

What's stopping you?

Lithuania opened his mouth only to shut it again. After a few moments of silence, Lithuania sat up and sighed. "I have to get out before Russia gets home and-"

"Lithuania!" The Russian voice could be heard through the house.

Lithuania stared at the door in fear as he heard the voice get louder. He wasn't suppose to be back until another day. Unplugging the tub and grabbing a towel, he tried to make it look as if he was never was in the bath. Though the voice, Leonas, tried to calm him down it wasn't helping. Especially when the door fell open to reveal the Russian standing there.

"Russia!" Lithuania squeaked when he saw the male, dropping his shirt, staring at the male with fear. "I am sorry! I didn't- I mean- I'll go work on the house right now!"

However, when he went to go by Russia, he was stopped. Before he could say anything, he was pulled close into a hug. It was tight yet loving…

"Ru-Russia?" he wasn't sure whether to hug him or just stand there.

"Toris… please… please don't change and leave me." Russia whispered as tears fell from his eyes and onto the Lithuanian's shoulder.

Lithuania blinked in shock before softly sighing and shyly hugging him back. "Even if I wanted, I couldn't… even if I did, I would come back Ivan."

Lithuania felt a warmth in him, a warmth of happiness. It was rare when Russia actually called him by his human way. It was a sign of true love and compassion from the Russian.

Fucking lucky… Enjoy yourself and stop fucking worrying about shit while he still has you in his damn arms.

Though Lithuania knew he meant well, he couldn't fully understand why there was a sense of hurt in his voice. But he was quickly distracted when he felt a pair of cool lips softly against his. Though cool, Lithuania easily melted into the softness and tenderness of the kiss, loving the fact that he couldn't smell so much alcohol on him which he usually would smell at night. Placing his hands on Russia's cheeks, he felt the wetness and finally realizing that he was crying.

"Russia, what is wrong?" he asked, alarmed, as he pulled from the kiss and wiped the tears with his thumbs.

Russia leaned into the hands, his violet eyes locked with the other's green eyes. "Just please don't leave me. Aš tave myliu (I love you)."

Lithuania blushed softly at hearing the other say that in his mother language. However with his feeling so jumbled up, Lithuania felt confused and looked down at the ground feeling guilty. "Russia I… I can't say it back because I… I am sorry." His voice started shaking as tears began to burn his eyes.

"Shhh, Toris." Russia lifted his face to his. "It is okay, just know that I do."

For the rest of the evening, Lithuania was basically treated like a princess. Russia wouldn't let him do anything except relax peacefully. He cooked him food, he dressed him, he loved him, he cuddled him- For the first time in a long, Lithuania actually believed the Russia would actually change, that maybe he would be able to say those three words again.

"Rus- Ivan," he blushed saying his name, feeling he should since Russia was saying his own all evening. "why are you so sweet and nice? I don't mind it! But… what happened? I can tell."

The Russian sighed as he laid the Lithuanian on his bed, sitting on the edge. "When you realize how one could be lost so easily, you realize how important one is to you."

"What do you-"

"Shhhh," he placed a finger on Toris' lips. "Don't worry about it, da? You should get some sleep."

Nodding, Lithuania moved his blankets back. Before getting in, he looked up at Russia. "Do you want to rest with me tonight?" he asked nervously, with a faint blush.

Though wanting to, Russia smiled sadly and shook his head. "Not tonight." Before leaving, he gave the other a long and soft kiss. "Good night Toris."

Lithuania smiled at him. "Good night Ivan."

He watched Russia leave before leaning back onto his bed. The day had been basically perfect. For the first time in centuries, Lithuania felt like Russia- no… he felt like Ivan actually loved him and cared about him. It begun to open things that the Lithuanian had thought would never be felt again.

However, the thoughts of Belarus came to him. Didn't he love her now? That's what he thought he felt. He told everyone that he loved-

You love Ivan.

Lithuania jumped, looking around. He had forgotten all about Leonas due to his silence.

"Oh, Leonas." he said in relief before softly chuckling. "I forgotten about you."

That's normal, everyone does at some point…

Lithuania's face cringed as the voice spoke. It was softer and more emotional than usual; as if in more of an emotional pain and sorrow. "What is wrong Leonas? Usually you are never like this."

Nothing of you damn concern. You just need to fucking accept that you love Ivan already and give up on the psycho bitch.

"Don't speak of Ms. Belarus like that! She isn't-"

Yes she is. Whether you see it or not is your fucking problem. Stop avoiding what I'm telling you.

Lithuania face heated up since what Leonas said was true. He was avoiding it, but that is only because he didn't want to confront the topic with anyone or anything yet.

Stop being a pussy and accept it.

"I do not love him…"

Oh bull shit! Lithuania flinched at the sudden loudness. The voice was speaking so softly, the sudden shout scared him. You. Love. Him!

"Stop it Leonas… Don't speak of things you do not understand."

That is where you are fucking wrong Toris! I know love, and that man loves you! And you love him! Don't be like me in love with a man who is fucking in love with his damn sister and could give two shits about who else is around him!

Lithuania stared widely at the space in front of in. Love…? With his sister…? That sounded like Belarus and Russia, but reverse. He may not be able to see it or known Leonas for long, but he could hear the pain and for some reason reason feel it in his heart. "Leonas-"

"And to think big brother could be in love with someone who talks to himself."

Lithuania's head shot over to the direction of the sudden feminine voice. Fear raked through his body at the scene. It was Belarus. She was stand at his now open window. The hair and dress moved with the soft breeze, the moonlight giving her a hauntingly beautiful glow. It was a beautiful scene, but the fear came from the blade twirling in her hand that the moonlight made shine at certain angles.

"Ms. Belarus?!" He finally said, moving a little away from her. "What are you doing here?!"

"Oh don't be so surprised Lithuania, I am always wherever Big Brother is at. Usually in the shadows however." Her blue violet eyes left the blade to lock with Lithuania's green eyes.

Toris… run… Run!

Without a second thought nor hesitation, Lithuania rushed off the bed and to the door. Belarus watched unfazed as he did so because when he came to the door, it was locked. As he went to unlock it, a blade pierced into his upper arm which in turn caused a scream to come from him.

"Where do you think you are going?" She said, walking calmly over to her.

Lithuania gripped his arm below the knife as he started to back away from her. "Bel-Belarus why?!"

"Why… Do I seriously need to answer that Lithuania?" She said, her eyes filled with both pain and anger. "Maybe you did love me… but you knew my love for Big Brother and all day you have been close to him, loving him, kissing him. Why would he want you?! A man who talks to himself and is fragile?! How is it fair Lithuania, tell me! HOW IS IT FAIR?!" She then suddenly launched at him.

Lithuania went to run, but ran into the wall. Another pain filled scream escaped him as she kneed him in the back and forced him to the ground by roughly pulling his hair back.

"LITHUANIA?!" Lithuania heard Russia yelled, along with rattling with the door.

"RUSSIA, PLEA-" he started to yell out, but instead screamed when his torso stabbed.

"WHY DO YOU DESERVE HIS LOVE?! YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME BUT THEN YOU LOVE HIM! YOU NEVER TRIED TO DEFEND HIM, BUT RUNAWAY! YOU ACCUSED HIM OF THINGS HE NEVER HAS DONE! I LOVE HIM, WHY DO YOU GET HIS LOVE?!" Belarus yelled, forgetting about the knife and grabbing his shoulders to violently shake him, his head banging onto the ground.

Lithuania went to fight against her, but at the first bang and her words, his body stopped. What she said was true… it was all true… Why does he? Maybe that is what has been problem. Maybe it was never Russia, maybe it was just him. Maybe he was the one at fault.

Toris! TORIS FIGHT HER OFF DAMMIT! THE BITCH DOESN'T DESERVE IT!

However, he did nothing. He just stared at Belarus, clenching his teeth when she pulled the knife out of him. He couldn't hear what she was saying, just knew she was yelling something. He closed his eyes when she brought the knife up about to stab him. Suddenly, Toris felt as if time slowed, his heartbeat slowing even more, his breathing thinning.

LIKE HELL I WILL LET YOU BITCH! he heard Leonas yell, but it also felt like it was escaping his lips.

All Lithuania saw was blackness, or was it simply nothing? He didn't feel, he didn't breath, he was doing nothing. It felt he wasn't even thinking. Maybe it was death, but he couldn't die… so where was he? Before he could think about it much longer, he was brought back to reality like a hammer swinging down onto a nail. His head was throbbing and his body was warm yet getting cold due to the breeze. His ear were ringing and vision blurry.

"...could you?" Russia's voice sounded distant but louder as the ringing started to decrease. "How could you?! She didn't do aNytHING YOU SAID SHE DID DO! WHY DID YOU DO THIS?!"

While Russia was yelling, Lithuania looked down for his vision to come to a very bloody Belarus with multiple stab wounds, gagging for air. His hands were gripped around something which turned out to be a blade pierced into her. Horrified, Lithuania froze, realizing the warmth was from her blood.

Without any warning, he was kicked off of Belarus, screaming at the intense pain due in body sudden hypersensitivity.

"DON'T YOU DARE YELL OUT IN PAIN YOU FUCKING MONSTER! SHE DIDN'T DESERVE THIS, NO MATTER ALL SHE HAS DONE! SHE DID NOT DESERVE THIS! I HOPE YOU GO THROUGH THIS PAIN, I HOPE YOU DIE!" Russia yelled out in pure pain and confusion, holding his sister close and softly rocking her.

Through all the pain Lithuania felt, it all seemed to melt into the pain in his heart. He didn't mean to do it, he didn't even know what he did or said. But Russia hoped he died… called him a monster…

All he wanted was love… And Russia gave that to him today. He loved him all day, told him he loved him all day, yet he just stabbed Lithuania in the heart with the dagger of lies. It's venom flowed through his entire body, leaving his body in shock with tears falling from his eyes. He finally felt special, he finally felt wanted, and now he felt like a complete joke again. A doll, a toy for one to play with until they were bored. Whispering sweet deception into his ear…

Toris… Leonas' voice sounded out of breath, but Lithuania didn't care. Lithuania, please talk to me…

"I did this… Leonas, I did this…" he manage to whisper, through it was hard.

No you didn't. Toris, you did known of this it was all m-

"Make it go away… please, the pain…" he whispered with more tears falling.

There was a moment of silence, Russia ignoring the male and paying more attention to his sister.

Stand up and go to the mirror.

To Lithuania's surprise, he was capable of getting up and slowly walking to the mirror in his room by the window Belarus was at. Russia was yelling at him about something, but his mind was only paying attention to Leonas.

When coming across the mirror, he saw a man that looked like him but was paler, orange eyes and darker brown hair pulled back with the exception of a green patch of hair that hung in front of his right eye.

"Toris,' the man spoke, but still as if in his mind. "get rid of the blood on your hand and cover it with your own." he demanded.

"Leonas…?" Lithuania mumbled, receiving a nod from the man in the mirror.

Mind not capable of completely processing this, he looked down and grabbed a shirt to wipe the blood off of it before bringing it to the wound in his arm and pressing his fingers inside it, clenching his teeth at the pain.

"Good…" When Lithuania looked up, he saw a wound on Leonas, his hand also cover in blood. "Now right my name on the glass."

Nodding, Lithuania did so. L-E-O-N-A-S was written on the mirror, looking as if a young child did so.

"Now, place your hand over mine's."

Slowly, Lithuania placed his bloody hand over Leonas' bloody hand pressed on the glass. Looking at Leonas' face, he saw his soft smile before his vision seemed to blur. The same thing that happened earlier was happening again, but slower and easier. His body began to go cold and numb, surprised he was even still standing and hand still there. Before he realized it, a black mist came from the mirror where his hand was at and instantly wrapped itself around Lithuania- no, more around Toris' soul and pulling him from his body. With a slow blink, Toris saw orange eyes through a black mist. He felt nothing. No heartbeat, no air, nothing.

Toris' vision begun moving away from the orange eyes. With the eyes a mere speck, a red stone appeared and shined before taking away all sight and sending Toris' soul into a sleep like darkness, one he did not know he was in. Before going into that darkness and state, he heard one thing.

"I will make you pay for the pain you brought Toris.

TADA~! Hope you all like~ Please review and tell me what you think. And if I majorly screwed up, or there is something that is bugging you, please comment or DM me them! It would help out a lot! Hopefully it wont take me too long next time to post... lol ^^" Until next time Prussian~

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