Rose woke up with a start, looking around she almost forgot where she was but the familiar polka dot pajamas and flowered comforter reminded her she was back in her old bed at her parents' house.

Pete and Jackie were so worried when they saw the state Rose was in they decided to drive her to their house themselves.

Unable to go back to sleep she got out of bed and sat on the windowsill watching the zeppelins flying by.

She leaned her head against the window frame; Rose was missing John and everything about him.

She somehow managed to tell her parents in between sobs what had happened.

As expected she got the usual apologies and life will get better speech but it didn't make her feel any better.

Rose knew it was her fault and maybe he was better off without her.

She spotted her cell phone on the dresser; Rose picked it up and stared at the TARDIS phone number.

Rose sadly smiled thinking about all those times she had with the Doctor but that's all they were now fond memories.

What she had with the Doctor were special but that was the past, who she was then was not the girl she was now.

Rose swallowed she knew it was time to let go.

Her eyes began tearing as she pushed the delete button before putting her phone away.

She felt a heavy release off her shoulders but it was bittersweet.

"I wish I had done that a long time ago." Rose thought wiping her eyes.

"Too bad it won't bring John back to me." She sniffed.

John wasn't having much of a restful night either, he kept tossing and turning in bed.

Eventually he sat up and was feeling hot and sweaty, his mind was overwhelmed with dread.

Sighing, he gave up and decided to take a drive out to the bay and clear his mind.

Pulling on an old shirt and jeans he hopped into his jeep and drove off.

The cool air felt good compare to his stuffy apartment.

When he reached the bay he felt like he could breathe again.

John sat on the cool sand and stared at the ocean, he loved coming here it was the ideal place to think about things.

He still felt a lot of anxiety, John was really dreading working for U.N.I.T.

He wanted to stay at Torchwood.

He loved it there, the technology, the people and Pete Tyler was a great boss but it was too painful to stick around with Rose there.

"She really broke my heart." John thought to himself.

Deep down as much as he wanted to hate her he couldn't do it.

John still loved Rose but he saw no point in beating his head against a wall.

He sighed and began running his fingers thru the wet sand.

Then an older couple caught his eye.

They were walking hand in hand along the beach, it made John think of him and Rose.

John wiped his eyes as he watched them, they looked so happy and in love.

"We could've had that, we should've been that. He thought shaking his head.

John started tearing up. "Why couldn't she love me?' He wondered.

Then the couple waved to him.

John quickly wiped his eyes as they approached him.

They smiled at John and asked him."Excuse me young man, could you take a photo of me and my wife?"

"It's our anniversary and since this is where we first met we'd really appreciate to have a photo taken here." the woman explained further.

John smiled sadly. "Sure, I love to."

They smiled and handed him the camera before posing.

Sadness filled his eyes and his heart was breaking he as watched them lovingly embrace, reminding him Rose would never be his.

John held the camera to his face hoping they wouldn't notice the tears building in his eyes.