I didn't sleep well, thinking about that night. Why I had this feelings? She's been nice with me, of course, but Mercedes and Tina too... it wasn't the same I didn't know how to explain it. Maybe it was only a phase, yes! maybe only a phase.

I woke up and looked at the clock, god, nine in the morning, it was too early. When I moved my head to a side I watched her, sleeping. She was huging the pillow so she didn't have anything behind his head. She looked so peaceful, breathing so slowly and when I looked her more carefully, I could see a smile, tiny, but it was a smile.

I could stay like that for hours. But what if she woke up and freaked out? I stood up and went to the kitchen to make some breakfast. I made some toast, oranje juice and bacon. I left a plate over the table to Santana, I hoped she didn't wake up late, because it would be frozen. I ate mine and then I went to the shower.

I was really good behind the warm water, but I had to leave.I heard some noise well I was drying with a big towel. The sleeping beauty was awake!Where were my clothes? oh! I forgot them in my bedroom. I couldn't let Santana looked me like that. I put the towel around my body, and opened the door carefully. She was sitting in the kitchen eating, so she couldn't see me. I walked really really slowly until I reached my bedroom door. But then she span around and I shocked.

-''Oh...mmm good morning''.-I said really really embarrassed. She was surprised too, she didn't expect to see me like that. Her eyes go wide and she opened her mouth trying to say something, but she only made a really funny and high-pitched noise. I smiled to myself. -''Sorry, I left my clothes in my bedroom, I don't take a minute''

I put on my clothes really fast and left my bedroom with my hair still wet covering part of my face. She was still in her place, but concentrated in her breakfast. I went to the living room and picked up her clothes.

-''Come on, get dressed, we need to hurry''

-''Where are we going?''.-She exclaimed.

-''Doctor''.-I pointed her hand and she looked at it.-''Someone should look that and tell you if you have something broken''

-''Oh! I almost forgot it...but it's fine Britt...I don't like hosp...''

-''Come on, do it for me, please.''-I said rolling playfully my eyes

-''Okay''.-She said angrily, because she didn't have any choice.-''But only because you made me the breakfast''

She had a shower too and dressed up. Then we went to the doctor. I knew the way like the back of my path I visited it plenty of times past week. She was really quiet that morning.

-''Is something wrong''.-I looked in her eyes.

-''No! Everything is fine...well, most of all''.-She laugh looking at her hand. It was pretty swollen. I took it carefully while we walked to watch it nearly

-''It would be fine, don't worry''.- And kissed it softly, I wondered not to scare her but she laughed

-''My mom used to do that when I was young every time I get hurt''-She said with a smile.

We kept walking. The doctor was full of people, nothing compared when I was here a few days ago. We'd been waiting for an hour more over, until we hear Santana's name.

-''Here again Brittany?''.-The doctor said half joking half worried.

-''I came with...my friend, she hit a door without intention, and it's a little swollen.''

-''Okay, let me see''

He took her to a different room, I supposed to doing X-ray or something and see if she had something broken. I was a little bit worried for her it was my fault, well, in fact it was Sam's fault...but she did it for me. Two seconds later they came out. He told us that everything was okay, what make Santana smile happily. She only had to use a pomade to her hand and clean regularly the cut. I breath in relief, thanks god, I really felt so bad for her...and very guilty. But now, she was happy, and that made me happy too. We left the doctor, but not before promise that I wasn't going to come in the next month.

She insited on going to my house with me, and she was so happy that I didn't want to argue anymore with her, so I accepted. We spent the whole way talking about how lucky she was and how tasty was the dinner yesterday. She refused to talk about Sam, so do I, It was a Little bit uncomfortable yet, so I let it go.

-"So, here we are, see you ?''.-She hugged me and she left walking slowly and leaving me her perfume. I turned around to see my house, alone. I wouldn't survive another sunday alone in there...I felt really lonely. Santana hadn't walked a few steps when I surprised her.

-''WAIT!''.-I shouted running until where she stopped. I didn't know what to say then.-''Would...would you...like to mmm... watch a movie in my house. I'm alone and I'll be a little bit bored the rest of the day and If you don't have any plan...''- She didn't say anything for a while she just smiled, and I was really nervous, once again for no reason. It was clear, she didn't want to and she was trying to find an excuse.

-''Okay, forget it, you should have any plans...''- She walked past me and went to the front door and sat down in one of the steps of the stairs.

-''Come on! I don't have the whole day!''

-''Sooo...this little thing is you?''.-Santana said pointing a picture of me and my mom when I was young. Maybe I had like 3 months in there. Since we came into the house, she spent all the time looking at everything who was in the living room, CDs, photograps, books...she looked really happy for the good news and I didn't want to ruin her day.

-''Yep, that's me''.-I answered sitting on the couch.

-''Oh my god! You were so cute with that dress''.-She shouted looking at another photographs. I only could smile, it was when I had only 5 years old, in my first dance contest...I would love to go back at that moment.

-''Do you like popcorn? I think I have a few, to see with the movie''.-I said walking to the kitchen.

-''mm..What?.''-She was really distracted watching that photos, she raised her head like she just had woken up.-''Oh yes of course''

I opened the fridge to see how many things did I had in there...not many. I needed to go shopping... I took the popcorn and put it in the microwave, praying for not burn them. I'd never understood how to do them right. The phone sounded and both looked at each other, but Santana returned to her work looking at every little thing which was in my living room when she saw that it was my mobile phone. I looked at it with fear in my eyes but I took it to see who it was

Sam: ''Hey blondie! It's been a long time without notices about you, everything fine''

I couldn't believe it...how could he be so stupid...I thought to reply saying ''yes, better than fine'' while I was looking at Santana excited sitting on the couch with a lot of things she took from the cupboard, but I didn't do it. I just deleted the message because I wasn't ready to have that conversation.

DING-I jumped in my place. Popcorns were ready.

When I arrived at the couch with all the popcorns in a plate, trying not to throw-out any to the floor, Santana was looking at me with a smirk on her face and hiding something behind her back.

-''What?''

-''I know what movie I want to see...''

-''Okaaaay...tell me, but you need to know that I hate horror ones...''

She showed me what she had behind her back. It was an old movie, probably she took it from a drawer. It had a sticker in the front part: ''Little Brittany''. I hadn't seen this one in my entire life, and I didn't know how it came to there. But what the hell.

-''Are you sure? I don't know what it is, maybe is a little bori...''-I stopped talking because she just took it from my hands and put it inside the video player with a very big smile in her face. Then jumped in the couch next to me and took a cushion to hug it. How could she be so sweet and look so strong at the same time?.

I pressed the play in the control remote, more expected than Santana. The screen turned into grey and black figures for a while, I wondered how old they were. And then, a little baby appeared in the shower, playing with a little gummy duck and with the water. I wasn't sure if that little thing was me, until I saw that big blue eyes, looking right at the camera. There was no doubt, it was me with...1 year old? Yeah, I think so. I looked so happy playing with the water. I took a minute to see what Santana was doing, because I didn't hear anything since I pressed play. But she wasn't doing anything, just holding the cushion in her arms, against her chest and looking at the tv without blinking, but smiling.

I returned to the screen. I guessed my mom recorded that, she loved cameras, and she used to take pictures of everything. Ten minutes later, the screen become dark, and another image started to appeared slowly. It was a girl, a little bit older, not much, two years more, dancing ballet with a tutu and a black T-shirt. I loved that ballet class, and I couldn't avoid a big smile in my face. I still remembered all I learnt in there...Now it was for sure that my mom was recording, because she used to go with me and watch me dance. I also did it better when she was there because I knew she was watching me. My smile went bigger when I saw me saying hello to the camera, but once again, the screen became black. The next scene was in my old house, and a blonde girl was sitting on the couch. But that girl wasn't me anymore, her green eyes betrayed her. She was playing with a Cubrik cube... she has always been the smart one.

-''Who is she?''.-Santana asked. But I couldn't answer...I really wanted to cry, and I was scared that If I only made a move, I couldn't stop doing it. Another girl appeared next to her, a young one.

-''Susan, give me one, I want to play too''

That was me again.

-''Britt, it's not a game, you don't know how to do it''

-''Come on Susan, give one to your sister''

As soon as I hear my mother's voice, a small tear rolled through my cheek. I couldn't avoid it. Santana took the remote control from my hands and turned off the tv.

-''Britt are you okay?''.-She looked me worried.

-''Y..Ye..Yes, I think so''.-I dry the tears with my hand.-''Is just...I didn't expect to see this''

-''I didn't know you have a sister, why isn't she here?''

-''She's...she's still in London...Is that I miss her, that's all''

I stayed looking at the black television. I would like to return to that moments once again.

-''I'm sorry Britt...I shouldn't suggest to watch it...is personal...''

-''Santana...''-I took her good hand, I really needed it.-''Don't worry, it's okay.''

She smiled and squeezed my hand.

-''Maybe you want...to stay alone? It's a little bit late, and my parents should be wondering where I am''

-''Oh, yes, don't worry I'll be okay''

She stood up and took her jacket from the kitchen chair. When she opened the door to go outside, she turned around quickly

-''Britt! Remember that tomorrow is your audition, are you sure that you're okay?''.-She pointed my leg.

-''Uh...Yes yes, I'm perfect. See you tomorrow. oh! And take care with your hand''.-She winked and she went out. When I was alone laid on the couch and breathed deeply. So many things in a little space of time. But dispate of all, I smiled. Time to dance.

I was ready for doing it, this time I was going to do it right. Not only for me and for entering into the team, I needed to do it for Santana, She got me that audition, and I didn't want to disappoint her. I was waiting outside of the gym to Couch Silvester. She was late, I wondered she didn't forget the second audition. Quin appeared first, I didn't know she was going to come. I didn't like her since all happen in the disco that day.

-''Hey Britt, are you ready?''.-She smiled, like always. I had to fight with myself to smile too and nod my head -''You're going to do it great''

We spent the time in silence, until Santana appeared crossing the corner with Sue Silvester. She was wearing the same uniform that Quinn, it was the first time I saw her with it, and she was as beautiful as always. I was sure that the red was her colour.

-''Come on, London girl, quickly, I don't have so much time''.-Sue said, opening the gym door. Quinn followed her, and Santana made me a signal to follow both of them. She entered after me. When they sat down, she took me from my arm.

-''Are you better?''

-''Yes and you?''.-I looked at her hand.

-''Yes, so much better...Hey, listen to me, don't be nervous, I know you're gonna kill it okay? Good luck honey''

I smiled, but she didn't see me, because as soon as she spoke she ran to the table where Sue and Quinn were. I gave Sue the CD, and went to the point where I started the other time.

This kicked in got your tongue tied in knots, I see
Spit it out 'cause I'm dying for company
I notice that you got it
You notice that I want it
You know that I can take it to the next level baby
If you want this good s–t
Sicker than the remix
Baby let me blow your mind tonight

Between all the dance moves I did, I took a minute to breath. I really worked hard in this coreography, and it was pretty exhausting because of the fast rhythm . I could see Quinn and Sue talking between then while Santana was resting her back in the chair, with her arms crossed in her chest, with her usual smirk in his face.

I can't take it take it take no more
Never felt like felt like felt like this before
Come on get me get me on the floor
DJ what you what you waiting for?

If I wanted to be a cheerleader I had to demostrate that I wasn't only good at dancing, I had to let them know that I knew how to do a lot of acrobatics. So I included some somersaults and cartwheels too.

Watch me move when I lose, when I lose it hard
Get you off with a touch, dancing in the dark
You know notice what I'm wearing
I'm noticing you staring
You know that I can take it to the next level baby
Hotter than the A-list
Next one on my hit list
Baby let me blow your mind tonight

When I was catching speed to make a jump, the music stopped, and so do I. Sue got her hand in the music reproductor, so it wasn't a CD fail. She stopped the music, what freaked me out...what I did wrong? Didn't she like it? I breath slowly, affraid of making noise.

I waited in my place, watching how she standed up and clapped her hands.

-''That's what I was looking for! Not all that barbie girls dancing like they're going to break an arm. You're gonna start training tomorrow, don't be late''- She moved to a side and desapeared from the gym. Quinn smiled at me and shouted congratulations. Then she looked at Santana who gave her the most frightening way of looking I've ever seen. She desapeared running from where Sue left.

-''I knew you were going to do it. You should be really proud of yourself, I've never seen Sue clapping for anything''.-She standed up.-''You'll have to learn me one day to dance as fucking good as you''-I blushed, but she didn't see it, because she was already walking to the exit. I smiled and sat down on the floor sweating and breathing fast. I did it.

First of all, I want to wish all of you a merry Christmas and a happy new year! It's been a really busy year for me, and this fic is being like a way of scape to all the stress, so thank you to all the people who read it, follows and click on favourite, you make really happy, and of course, the people who left the reviews! Enjoy this 2014, and I'll be back with another chapter at the end of January (you know, examns) but If I have a little bit of time, I'll try to publish one before then. The next one will be very exciting...maybe we will discover Brittany secrets...maybe not. We'll see ;))

Oh! and the song which Brittany dance is ''Till the world ends''. Now I'm going to put the titles of all the songs which are going to appear, in the case you wanted to listen to them later :)

Happy xmas holidays, and once again happy new year. Looove xxx