I arrived very late at Lima Bean, and lately it wasn't weird. I had been very busy studying for my exams, practising with the glee club and the cheerios...I didn't have enough time to do everything. A couple of hours more in the day wouldn't be so bad for me.

When I entered in the coffee shop I saw how Sugar was dealing with all the people at the same time. And I rolled my eyes. Another stressful day...

I was worried about Sugar, she said that it wasn't a problem if I was late some day, she understood me clearly, but it wasn't good for her to do all the work alone. She'd been looking tired lately.

When I arrived at her place, I put my apron to replace her.

-''Hey beutiful!''- She exclaimed as soon as she saw me, as usual and I answered with a smile. But something was wrong. She didn't have her big smile in her face, she looked worried...but I let it be and sat down behind the bar to do my work. I didn't last to much in my place.

-''BRITTANY!''.- Mark shouted from his officine-''Come here right now please.''

Oh god, it didn't sound good. What the hell, it sounded horrible! I was really scared and when I looked at Sugar, she automatically looked at the floor. So that was what was happening, she knew it. I walked slowly to his officine while Sugar returned to her place with a sad face.

-''Sit down please''.-Mark said pointing one of his dirty chairs. I shallow and sat down frightened, as if I saw a monster. -''Brittany, I'm so sorry...but you've been having a really bad attitude at work, you tried your best, but it isn't enough. You're arriving late and leaving all the work to Sugar...so I'm really sorry but...you...you're fired''.

What? I couldn't believe it. I needed the job and I tried it, I tried it really hard. I couldn't talk, I whispered something but it was too late, two tears ran down my cheeks and I ran away very quickly without saying anything to none. Just running, until I arrive my house breathing deeply and fighting with my tears, which didn't stop.

I stayed like that for about fifteen minutes, looking at my house...how I'm going to pay it now? Where I'm going to life? It wasn't a very difficult job, how I'm going to find another like that? It was impossible. I sat down in the first step of the stairs in the front door with my head in my knees and my hands covering it.

I only did that when I felt really really bad with myself. It felt safe, secure, like when I was young and I only had to worry about my pictures and dances. When my life wasn't a complety disaster and I had everything I wanted. When I wasn't affraid of love anyone...it was really easy and how fast did the time passed...

Two hands interrupted my thoughts and I raised my head automatically frightened. What a surprise, she always appeared when I wasn't looking for her... when I looked for her I wasn't able to find her! But there she was, looking at me with her dark worried eyes, on her knees in front of me. Face to face. I was still crying, but I wasn't ashamed, it was imposible to stop.

-''I was in the Lima bean with Puck when I saw you running out...and I left him in there''. -I smiled a little thinking in Puck, he might be really confused with one of his silly faces.

-''I...I...He...''. -God, it was amazing how I wasn't able to say a complete sentence with all the things I wanted to say

-''Shh...''. -She said drying my tears with the sleeve of her jumper. -''Come on, let's go inside and you'll explain me when you'll ready''. -She winked and both stood up. She opened the door with my keys, because I was shaking a lot and I wasn't really good opening that stupid door.

She ordered me to sit down on the couch next to her and I did it, obediently. She waited like a half of hour, next to me, brushing my hair for me to relax and stop crying. She knew that I was going to talk when I was ready for that.

-''Mark fired me''.-I finally said in the middle of the silence with a quietly voice, and she looked me impressed. What I didn't know was if it was because she didn't expected me to talk or because it was the reason I was crying.

-''What? Than fucking...''.-She said entre dientes. -''Why?''

-''Because I'd been late lately, you know with all the cheerios, glee and studies...I don't have enough time...''-I put my head between my arms again

-''Britt, but...why is this so important for you? I mean, it's fine being responsable and having a job and all this things but it isn't essential, isn't it?''. -She said trying to find my eyes.

I was really tired. Tired of all the secrets, tired of being a liar and couldn't be honest with a person who always been like that with me. I really want to tell the truth to her, and set me free for the first time in my new life. And I felt that it was the moment. I exploted.

-''YES! IT'S IMPORTANT''.-I didn't mean to, but I shouted. I continued more relaxed before breathing a couple of times. -''Look Santana,there is something I want to tell you. It's something I've hiding for a lot of time, because I didn't want anyone to know it...but I can't lie to you, you've became a really important person in my life...please don't be mad, okay?''.-I was so nervous that I started shaking again. I shaked until her hand touched mine. Her tan hand holded mine and in that moment knew that I didn't want her to left me. She nod her head to say me to continue.

-''Look, I lied to all of you when I said that I lived here with my parents and they were in a work trip...you were right, I'm a liar...but I had to. I came here from London this year, but alone. I rented this house and I was paying it with the money I earned in that coffee shop''. -I stopped to look at her, and I could see how she was amazed, with her mouth open and trying to say something, but she looked me calm. I knew she wasn't going to say anything until I ended my explanation.

-''When I was sixteen years old, my mum died...she had cáncer.''- It was weird, I heard like a million times people saying that my mum wasn't here anymore, but it was the first time I said it, and It sounded really strange.- ''I've never had dad my mum said to me that he get tired of his life when I was borned and he went to another country. Of course I don't consider him like my dad, my mom did the job for both. But I had an older sister, Susan...You already know her.'' -She noded her head remembering the video we both saw days ago

-''She has three years more than me and she was legal age when my mom left us. Susan had a boyfriend, so she went to live with him and get her part of our mom's inheritance. But I didn't have any close familiar to take care of me, even when I was older enough... I knew how to life on my own. I asked my sister to took my custody and making a little bit of space in their house to me, even I offered to sleep on the floor. But she didn't want to, she wanted to be alone with her boyfriend and live the ''adult life'' or that was what she said.''-I still remembered how I cried that afternoon...it was just a memory I wanted to desapear forever.

-'' I spent the next two years in group homes. They were horrible, that people hated me, they looked me like a pet or something. I danced in the street to earn money and I went to school, but I didn't have any friends because they knew where I was living and they thought that I was dangerous. But when I get the eighteen years old, I'd been able to leave that stupid house, and life on my own with my part of the inheritance''- Santana didn't bink, she was shocked and expected at the same time

-''During this two years I dreamt on going far away, where none knew me, but it was a problem. My sister ran out the money, and she and her boyfriend wanted mine. So I ran away as soon as posible and she's looking for me now...do you remember when I jumped over you when you knowcked in my door that day?''.-I looked for her eyes, but it wasn't difficult, she was looking me right in the eyes. SHe nod her head and let me continue.-''I thought that you were my sister and I freaked out. I lied to all of you because I wanted to have friends at once...and I'm doing my last year of highschool again,because I get horrible notes last year''-She was still holding my hand, and I could feel the warmth. I looked at her and I could see a tear running from her cheek. It was crazy, I made Santana Lopez cry! My life have been a chaos since that day, and today, was the first time since a long time that I feel good. I scretched her hand and dried her tear with my sleeve like she had done before. She smiled.

-''Britt, I didn't have any idea...I'm so sorry, but you don't have to worry okay? Of course I'm not mad at you, I like you even more'' -She looked to the floor, like she said something wrong -''Look, you can sleep in my house whenever you want, my parents are in Paris this week so... and tonight I can sleep here if you want to, for not feeling alone. We'll solve it okay? And I promise you that you'll be safe...''- She realised that I was staring at her and smiling-''What?''

-''Thank you..''

-''For what?!''

-''For being still here. You're the first person who hear my secret. You know? Since I came here I've been hearing a lot of shit about you...that you're a bitch, that you don't care about anyone...but I know it isn't true. You're the best person I've ever known''- She blushed, but moved closer to hug me.

-''Thanks Britt, you're amazing...and don't worry okay? I'll be here for you''.-She clapped loudly, and I jumped in my place. She also standed up.-''Come on, let's forget all of this things, you deserve to be happy. Wait here okay, I'll be back soon''

-''What? Where are you...?''

She left the house running, and leaving me with my head moved for a side, wondering what was she doing.

She came back thirty minutes later and I couldn't see her face because she was holding a lot of bags and boxes in her arms. I opened the door for her and helped with all these things.

-''What the...what is this?''-I laughed

-''Our dinner...and some things for making a little party''.-A party? I wasn't in a good mod to see more people in my empty house.

-''A party? Who's comming?''

-''Oh, I was joking, it's not for a party, just a Little bit of alcohol...for making sex on the beach. It's the only way I know to feel better! But only a little. Promise''.- I smiled. I looooooved sex on the beach.

She started taking of all the stuff she brang. And I realised how hungry I was! There were plenty of food.

-''Where do you bought this?''

-''Breadstix. You can ordered food to take home.''-She said opening a very big box with spaguettis. Yumm.

While she prepared all the food, I started putting plates and glasses on the table.

-''Sooo...what are we exactly celebrating? Because I can see a good reason''.-I said sitting in my chair, waiting for her to end

-''It's not a celebration, it's...kind of beginning. From now, your life will be different and I'm gonna help ou okay?'' -I nod my head and raised my glass to toast, and she did the same. Then, time to eat the tasty food that Ms. Lopez brang. There were a lot, I didn't know where to start!

We spent a little time in silence without saying nothing, and I started to feel uncomfortable, so I asked the first thing I thought.

-''And...why are your parents at rome? They left you on your own?''

-''Yep, They are working but it always been like this. When I was young they used to left me with mi abuelita'' - Abuelita? That was spanish, I used to study it in my old school...it meant...grandmother? Yes, I thought so. So santana spoke spanish...sexy.

-''But now, they trust on me''.-She didn't look so happy for that, I imagined how Santana felt thinking that their parent's jobs are more important than their own daughter. My family wasn't so bad until that mess happened, I got on well with my sister when we were young and my mom used to take care of us the whole time.

-''Tell me, how is living on your own? As good as it look like?'' -She interrupted my thoughts. I stayed a second thinking the answer because I really don't know how to answer that.

-''mmm...I really don't know. I mean, is 10 times better than where I lived in this two years, but I feel pretty lonely sometimes. And it's also hard study and work at the same time.''

-''Yeah, I suposed it'' - she extended her hand until it touched mine-''but I'm here now, okay?''- She said smiling.

God, things changed very quickly. I wasn't so scare of Santana now, than before. She was still that sassy tan girl I met at first,of course, but now I could call her friend and that was a very big step. I felt so safe.

I came to reality when she left my hand to take her glass. I was something I was waiting to ask her since I met her, I thought that it was the moment.

-''Santana...what are you going to do next year?''- She never told me about her dreams or what she was going to do when the highschool is over and she had to hang out her cheerleader uniform. And I relly want to know as much as possible of her, she was always so misterious...

-''Well, my dad want me to do medicin as him...''

-''But you hate hospitals''.-I interrupted, and she smiled at me.

-''He doesn't know that...aaaand my mom want me to do economics as her''-She took her glass once again and this time she drank a very long sip. She wasn't answering what i really want to know about her, maybe I didn't say the question in a correct way.

-''And you? what do you want to do?''-She looked me a little bit scared and surprised.

-''I...I don't know yet...''.-I knew shewas lying for the way she said I let her, when she truste me enough she will tell me.-''What about you?''

-''Well, I really want to end this year at the highschool...and then the only thing I want to do is dance. I don't know if I should go to a dance academy or looking for something individual...but dance. That's what I always want to do''

-''That's great Britt, I'm sure that you'll do it''.- She said, picking up all the stuff and puting it under the sink.

-''Oh, you don't have to do that now, I'll do it tomorrow, seriously, don't worry''.-She rested her left arm in her waist and shighted.

-''Okaay... and now what?''.-She looked at me waiting to say something, but I didn't know what. It was thrusday, so every disco was closed, so...the most interesting thing that I know to do in that kind of days was...

-''A movie? I don't see any better plan...''

-''Cool. But now, you choose the movie, last time I'm not good at it''.-She smiled passing in front of me and sitting on the couch. I followed her, and started looking my movies, where the hell I put them?

Santana stand up and said me something I didn't listen because I was really concentrated looking for the movies. I saw them just a few days ago and I just couldn't remember where I put them...

5 minutes ago, I only could find two of them, ''Westside story'' and ''Chicago''. I wish Santana liked at least one of them. I loved musicals, I saw them like a million was behind me, on her feet when I turned around. She had been like this in silence for a long time? It was difficult but she seemed a little bit white. She was impressed for something.

-''Britt...''.-She said looking me in the eyes.-''Where the fuck you've been sleeping this days?''.

That question took me by surprise. At first I was going to answer quickly, because I've been sleeping here, in my house, of course. But then I realised that she was talking about in what part of the house. Fuck, she might see that I haven't got bed. I blushed. I couldn't be more ashamed.

As usual in front of Santana words, didn't want to come out. But in this situation it was even worst so I only pointed the couch. She crossed her arms in her chest.

-''Do you want to explain me why don't you have a bed?''

-''Well...when I rented the house...I didn't understand the contract''. -I wasn't fixing it...now I looked stupid -''...And I didn't checked it so when the man left I realised that I didn't have one. I was earning money to buy one. The couch is comfortable enough''-She looked at the floor with a sad face and her eyes wide open.-''What?''

-''You let me sleep in the couch twice, when you didn't have any place to sleep and you slept on the floor...Britt I'm so sorry...I didn't have any idea of all this...''-I ran to take her hand

-''Hey, don't worry okay, It's not the first time I slept on the floor and it isn't going to be the last...''-I said thinking in that night. I wasn't going to let Santana sleep on the floor, she was there for me, at least she deserved a good place to sleep.

-''Oh no way, tonight I sleep on the floor''.- Was she in my mind? or what?

-''No you're not, you're here for me, I'm not going to let you''

-''In that case, we both are going to sleep on the couch''.-I looked at her with my head moved to a side. The couch wasn't big enough for both.

-''We can't it's really tiny!''

-''So we're gonna tight, and it's my last word''.-I smiled at her. Oh my god, I don't know if I'm going to resist a night with Santana in that tiny couch.-''What are the movies them?''

-''mmmm...Westside story or chicago. Do you like musicals?''

-''I love them! But I preffer Westside story. A classic.' '-She said sitting on the couch with her legs in her arms, like a little girl when she had pressent for christmas.-''We made this musical on the highschool! I played anita''

I could perfectly imagine her singing America...she might have kill it. She totally fixed for the roll. I put the video on, press play, and sat down next to Santana.

We only saw the middle of the movie when I realised that I was really tired, I had to make a big effort to keep my eyes open. Santana might realised too, because she turned off the television. I looked at her surprised.

-''Hey! What are u doing?''

-''You need to rest, tomorrow there is school and you're going to sleep like that''.-She pointed me and I realised that I had my clothes on.-''It's been a long and hard day for you...let's sleep okay?''

I nod my head and stand up to go to my bedroom and pick all the things. I gave Santana a t-shirt and shorts and I put on my pyjamas. It was really really cute, I loved that little elephants dancing on it. When Santana saw it, she rolled her eyes and laugh so hard.

-''What? Don't you like it?''.-I extended my arms letting her see the big elephant in the t-shirt

-''No! It's cool...so...so yours''.-That was totally true, I couldn't imagine someone like santana wearing it. It was an hilarious thought.

I laid on the couch,and waited for Santana to dressed up. It was little bit uncomfortable because I really want to see her, but I didn't want her to feel unconfortable so I looked at the ceiling. When did this spot appear?

-''Hey, this t-shirt is great! I love rolling stones''

I didn't know was she was talking about. I looked at her, and she was looking at the t-shirt amazed, as amazed as me looking at her tan abs, and her black bra. Come on Britt, was going on? You like boys. I didn't realised what t-shirt I gave her. Ohh, it was one of my old dancing t-shirts. I cut her sleeves and the sides until I arrive at the belly button, it was the best to dance with it.

-''You can keep it if you want to, I've plenty of them''

-''Really? Thanks!''.-She put it on, and jumped on the couch, what scared me at first. She was really really close, and I could feel her warm arm next to mine.

-''Are you sure that you're no going to fall?''

-''I got it, if i laid like this...''-She turned and looked at me, then she put her arm over my waist and push until she was close, so close to me.-''See? no problem. Uh, are you uncomfortable?''

Nop, I'm fucking fine I thought.

-''No, it's okay''.-I said smiling and yawning.

-''Britt...one last question''

-''mmm?''-I had my eyes closed

-''So...you're a year older than me?''-I opened it. Yeah, I didn't realised. She always looks older than me.

-''Yep''

-''Cool''.-I still feel younger.-''Good night beauty''

-''Good night Santana''.

I woke up with the pillow in my arms and a smile in my face. It probably was the best night ever. I didn't move and Santana neither, she was really quiet. Hey! Santana. I opened my eyes quickly to see if I still could stare at her in the morning. But she wasn't in there.

I raised my head for over the couch, but she seemed no to be in the place. Shit, she might freaked out, did I do something wrong last night? Maybe I spoke in my dreams! I used to do it a lot of times.

I got up and went to the kitchen, something smelled really really good. I still have time to arrive at school and have breakfast.

A plate with eggs and bacon was on the table, and I couldn't help but smile. How could she be so cute when she wanted it? She might love cooking. A note was on the table too.

Good morning sunshine.

I left you the breakfast here, enjoy ;)

I had to do some things with Puck this morning

but I had an idea while I was sleeping, I'll look for you

today at the highschool to see if you like it too!

xoxo

Pd: you're so cute sleeping, look like a little girl :) prepare your things

today you sleep in my house (I've got a bed yayyy)

I complety blushed. She stared at me while I slept?..

I ate all really quickly, I was dying to arrive at school and hear her idea.

Helloooo beauties! How's everything! I'm back, but not for a long time, I had a little bit of free time, so I write a little bit more. What do you think? Lovee :) xoxo