I hadn't heard from Santana for a week. After our actuation to prove that we were sexy, Puck received a dressing down from the latina in the halls, in front of all the highschool. What I didn't know if he understood something because she only spoke in Spanish. When I walked next to them I only could heard something like ''no me gusta'', and I put a proud smirk in my face when she stopped talking until I was gone.

She didn't wait for me at the end of the cheerios trainings or she didn't speak with me about Mr. Sue's hair in the glee club reunions, like always. I wondered if she was going to talk to me again, or if she wouldn't fulfill her promise of helping me. What if she was angry with me for my ''sexy'' dance with Puck? Maybe she was right and I didn't stand a chance with her.

Argh, too many questions, and I was too tired of looking for a job. How could it be so difficult? I tried at the hairdresser, at the bookshop even at the library. But no-one wanted a teenager with no experience in their business.

I laid on my couch with my clothes still on. It didn't matter, anything was going okay, and I was just getting tired of that. If I couldn't find a job, I would probably have to return to London...

I needed to talk to her. Just ask if she was angry with me, or uncomfortable, but just knew it, because it was killing me. I thought that it was time that admit for sure that she totally changed my life. I waited until I saw her arriving at her locker with her cheerios uniform on and I ran next to her. I couldn't be more nervous.

-''Hey''-I said quietly, like if I was scared of waking up a big monster.

-''Hey''-She didn't even look at me, she only tried once and once again to open her locker. She didn't stop by moving the lock from one side and another.

-''It's been a lot since I haven't heard for you, are you okay?''

-''Yeah totally fine''- She was getting angry. I knew it because she always frowns her forehead and pressed her lips. I jumped when she shouted-''Fuck''

-''You don't know the combo?''

-''No, I know it, is just I can't remember it now, what do you want?''-She lifted to a side to look at me, and that scared me more.

-''I just wanted to know if you are angry or upset with me, you didn't speak to me for a week and I don't know if I did something wrong...''

-''No, no Brittany...it's not you...it's me''-It was such a classical phrase. She lifted both hands and closed her eyes while she breathed-''I'm sorry Britt, is just...I had a very difficult week okay? How are you?''

-''I'm fine''-I was lying, and I looked at the floor, scared if she noticed it.

-''Britt...''-She said. She knew I was lying, how did she know?

-''Okay, I miss you and I can't find a job''

-''I have a solution for that''-She winked and surrounded her arm with mine to start walking.-''What do you think, about me helping you to find a job? That way you won't miss me and maybe if we tried it, it will be easier''

I smiled, she still cared about me.

-''It sounds perfect Santana''

-''But I have to be next week, this one is impossible''

-''Oh, no problem, let me know when you're ready''

-''Perfect''-She left my arm-''This is my class, thanks for coming with me''-Her typical smirk appeared in her face. I'd missed it. She moved a little closer to put a soft kiss on my cheek and then she left walking quickly. I totally blushed, it was a problem that I had to control if I still wanted to be her friend.

But Santana lied to me. She forgot about me, and I spent the days, looking at her kissing Puckerman from my locker, waiting for her to come and ask me to do something together or offered her for helping me. But that didn't happen, and I was just losing my hopes.

I was mad at her. Why she didn't tell me that she was uncomfortable or angry with me? Why did she lie to me? It would hurt, but not as much at that hurt.

I needed to calm down and forget all that things for only a night. So I decided to spend my Saturday night watching ''Finding Nemo'' one of my favourites movies and eating chocolate. My mom always gave it to me when I was sad, she used to say that chocolate makes people happier. I didn't know if it was because she said that to me, but it always worked.

I put on my favourite pyjamas, and I sat down on the couch with all the lights off. I could heard the rain hitting strong the windows. I thought that the house was going to fall over me when I hear a thunder, a loud thunder. God, I really hated storms...just if Santana were here...

No, I had to accept that all our friendship ran away with that kiss, and everything wasn't going to be the same, I could feel it.

I pressed the play and watched impatient how little Nemo swam to that big boat and how his father looked for her deseperately. I also loooooved Dori, she was like me, but with a little bit less memory. I was so excited with the movie, that I totally forgot the storm and Santana.

Knock Knock

I freaked out and looked at the door automatically. I didn't used to anyone except her knock my door. I pressed pause and waited a little to see if whoever it was, knocked again.

-''Come on Britt, open, It's me, Santana''

I ran to the door, so quickly that I almost fall with a little pillow which was on the floor. I opened to see a really wet Santana fall into the ground because she had her hand in the door.

-''Fuck''-She jumped in only a second and stood up. I had enough time to fade my laugh for seeing her like that. She was breathtaking and for only a second I wish she dressed up like that to see me. Her red tight dress lets a few things to the imagination. I wondered if she was able to breath and walk at the same time. As she stood up I found myself looking at her since her high heels black boots to his boobs, who were just practically impossible to avoid. I stayed like this for a couple of minutes.

-''mmm...Britt?''

-''mmhmm''

-''My eyes are just here''-She pointed her face and I shook my head. Control Britt.

-''Are you okay?''-I bit my lip to try to not laugh more, but it was really hard. She had all the hair for all over her face and when she moved it to a side, I could see how red her cheeks were, maybe for embarrassment or for the alcohol. Because I bet she'd been drinking a little bit.

-''mmm...Yes, yes, I'm okay, well...to be fair no i'm not''- I titled my head a little like a puppy because I didn't understand it -''I need to talk to you''-She approached the couch walking like she was a little bit tipsy and let her butt just fall on it. Yep, she definitely had been drinking.

-''Okaay'' -I walked slowly, oh shit, where were my modals?-''Oh, do you want something ho...''

-''Just sit down please, i need to speak to you before my head explodes or something like that'' -I scared so I walked quickly till I arrive the sofa and sat next to her with my hands rested on my lap. She breathed deeply and closed her eyes. Whatever she was going to tell me, it might be important. Holly shit, I'd never seen her, that sassy girl like that before. Was she shacking? Yeah I thought so.

-''Look, let me end before saying anything okay?''-She stopped but she continued with her eyes closed, so she couldn't see how I nod my head.

-''Yes''-I said firmly. She opened her eyes and looked right into mines. God, I'd seen these eyes like a million times and they'd never seemed to be so dark. She breathed again and opened her mouth to speak, but words didn't come out in a couple of seconds-''Look...I've been thinking, a lot, if I should tell you, what I'm just going to say to you. But you have been wide open with me so I'll do the same, I just can't stand it more''-I wouldn't lie, she was freaking me a little, because I noticed how my heart started to run fast in my ribcage.

-''I've been a stupid all these days, and I've to admit that I've been avoiding you. It's something, something about me that you don't know and you have to''-She closed her eyes again, harder than before, and you surprised yourself being disappointed with that. I just wanted to lose me in her eyes once again.

-''I suppose that you have heard a lot of shit about me and Quinn's relationship, didn't you?''-She waited for my answer, but I only nod my head. What this had to do with Quinn?. Her breath started to go quick and quick. It looked like she tried to follow my heart, because it was beating so fast.-''Well, forgot them. Anything that all the people told you is true''

''I...I met Quinn when we were sixteen. She was expelled from her old school and she was kind of a bad girl. She had a fake tattoo on her back and her hair was pink...yeah, I can't even imagine it now''-She said with a try of smile on her face, seeing my reaction. Quinn with pink hair? Impossible.

''In that days, I was just what I'm now. I was in the cheerios, and everyone respected me, looked me with fear and shut up anytime I passed through the halls next to them. They said I was a bitch, well, they still do, but I know that I'm just being honest with them...''

''One day, when I entered in the high school bathroom, I saw her, in there, with a cigarette in her hand and with that cheeky smile in her face and she just left me without words, what was practically impossible. As soon as I saw her I knew that she was different from the rest of the girls, her eyes told me that''-Santana shacked her head like she was embarrassed for what she just said.

''She put out her cigarette in the sink and looked at me right in the eyes. I was just in there, on my feet without saying anything, I couldn't If I wanted. She walked until she arrived to me and then she whispered in my ear ''nice uniform'' what made me shake. I didn't know why, I couldn't stop for looking at her at all the times, and when I whenever I found her, I couldn't speak, so I looked like an idiot in front of her''-I was kind of upset and jelaous while she spoke, that's the same way I felt with her.

''Time passed and for no reason, I still don't know why, Quinn started to look more normal. She dyed her hair to blonde and joined the cheerios, what made me happy as hell. She never told me why, but I think that she fall in love with Puck...you know, he's only with one type of girl...''

''We started to spend time together, she was kind and nice at first, and when we were together, it was like we were the queen of the place, girls looked at us like they wanted to be like us for only a day and boys...well, they would kill their best friends to stay a night between our legs''

''We became best friends, she told me her secrets and I told her mines, I saw her more than my family, we joined together the glee club...we were inseparable, until I screw everything''

''One night we went out and we got totally drunk, so we decided to do something crazy to remember that night forever. We entered into a house of the neighbourhood and we swam in our underwear in the swimming pool. When we got tired, we laid on the grass. I don't know what happened to me, that I couldn't stop looking at her and the only thing I wanted to do was kiss her, so I did''-She raised her eyes to see my reaction, so I tried to hide my surprise and showed one of my comprehensive looks. She smiled and continue.

''She did what I was expecting. She slapped me and left as soon as she could, I stayed in there without knowing what happened. Was I lesbian? Of course I wasn't, I always liked boys...but what was happening to me then? Next day I looked for her to explain her, that there wasn't anything important, I blame it on the alcohol, even though something was changing inside me. But I didn't want to, so I lied and told her that I loved her but only as a friend and that wasn't going to happen again''-A sad smile appeared on her face-''I still remember how she took my hand and told me that it was okay and it didn't matter at all, that she understood me''

''Next day, when I walked through the halls, waiting for my fear looks, I didn't find them, instead of it, all the people started to laugh at me, and talk behind my back. Wasn't until I arrived at my locker when a boy told me about making me ''normal'' when I understood everything. Quinn told everybody, not only about the kiss, she told them that I was gay''

-''I asked her why the hell she did that, and she even couldn't answer me. So I did what I knew best. Revenge. Of course, Quinn and I were best friends and her secrets were mine. I knew that she had a little bit crush with the badass of the mckingley high school, Noa Puckerman. But she was with her sweetheart Sam. I knew that Puck and she had been together a couple of times, so I started seeing Puck more often and then I told Sam what happened between them. Quinn and I had a big fight at the halls for all that shit I was mad at her for telling everybody that I was gay and she was angry because Sam dumped on her after telling everyone her secret, I did what I thought it was best. I extended the rumor you'll probably hear, that Quinn cheated on Sam with Puck and to clear that it was my boy I started that stupid fight, but it was in real because I was in love with her and she broke my heart. Yes I said in love. I wasn't going to recognise it again, I decided to hide my feelings forever, because I couldn't stand all the looks, the rumors...''

''It was the perfect plan. Everybody forgot all Quin and I thing Everybody started admiring me. I was popular again. Everything was cool again. Yeah...it was the perfect plan''-She repeated sighting slowly like she was tired-''...except for one reason''

I waited in silence scared if she heard my heart beating that fast. Too much information in a tiny space of time.

-''You''-I raised my eyes wide open to meet hers, more calm, like she had said something like she was trying to say for a long time. She panted a little, for all the crying.

-''Me?''-I whispered in shock, louder than I expected. She extended her hand and touched mine, which was invaded for her warmth.

-''Yeah you, fucking you. You, in that fucking stage, dancing and moving like anything else happened. Singing like you can do everything perfect. You left me without words, like Quinn did. You came, near me and asked me how was I, when anyone in ages had done that. Your smile made me fight with myself once again, made me feel the anger, made me heard my heart beating fast everytime I saw you. I was sure that I didn't have to admit my feelings once again, because I wasn't going to find someone to fall in love with but...I can't stand this anymore. Seriously,when I kissed you, and you didn't slap me...that was the best feeling ever and when I saw you dancing with Puckerman like that, I almost fainted, I really wanted to punch the person I've been fucking with for just touching you a little. I just realised that I can't fight this anymore, you deserve to know the true, and I'm tired of dealing with it.''

I was in shock, what did just happen? Did she just tell you that she likes me? Yeah, I thought so. I felt how my hands were sweating and my breath started to go fast once again. There was a really big silence, I didn't know what to say too, of course I have the same feelings about her but...I had no words. I couldn't believe that was happening, it was what I'd been dreaming about for so long, since the day I met her. She wasn't looking at me, she kept her eyes over her hands, which were tightly interlaced. One of us had to break that fucking annoying silence, but I didn't have to, didn't I? So I carefully extended my hand until I touched her. So soft and warm as I remembered. A small smile appeared in her face.

-''Look''-She said, thanks god -''I...I'd never felt like this after Quinn, I found myself smiling when you talk to me, watching you secretly from my locker, with my mouth open when you said or did something amazing...I have to acept that...I'm starting to fall in love with you...''-My mouth felt and I only could say an unheard ''Oh''

-''I...I..''-God, how could be so difficult to say that to her. I'd being waiting for it for a long.

-''But...I just can't''-I closed my mouth as soon as her words ran out of her mouth-''I can't feel that eyes on me, all that rumors about me and all that talks behind my back...I just can't, but before you and I continue with our friendship I thought that you deserve to know how I'm felling''-She refused to look at me. She moved a little closer to leave a lightly kiss on my cheek and with a sad look said me goodbye. She stood up still a little tipsy and try to leave the house. She was opening the door. God, Come on Brittany, do something! She couldn't leave the place without knowing that you were in love with her too. Wow. It couldn't sound more weird.

-''Wait, Santana''-She scared a little but she turned around and I could see her sobbing a little for all the crying -''You can't leave until I say something to you too''-I looked at the floor and left a little air scape from me, in prove that I was so tired. I was going to do that. I couldn't handle it anymore -''I...I feel the same about you'' -I raised my eyes to see her reaction, but there it was her poker face. Maybe she wasn't waiting for that. I stood up and started walking slowly to where she was.I didn't want to scare her more than she was-''I've been hiding all this feelings because I was scared that you ran away or just because I was scared too, but I know that we could try it...we could be happy together''-At the time I was saying that, I almost had her at two centimetres of distance.

-''I'm scared''-She whispered.

-''So do I''-I said holding her hand

-''Britt...I...You...We can't''-She left my hand alone and looked my right in the eyes, fuck -''You deserve someone who can hold your hand in front of people, who can kiss you whenever you are, who can make you smile and be happy, I don't deserve you. I'm not able to do that, and I won't''

-''I...I don't mind all this things, I just wanna be with you''-I left my hands resting on her hips.-''Please, don't set me apart''-I whispered in her ear, and she gulped -''We could...be together but...as a secret?''-I couldn't believe this words...was I'm going to be able to do that? To see her kissing Puckerman and then came to my house and be with me? Would I be able to see her everyday and not hug her? It was going to be fucking hard but...if it was the only way to be with her untill she was ready, I would ...She raised her eyes quickly until she found my eyes, and a little smile appeared in her beautiful face.

-''Are you sure? I don't want to hurt you...''

-''The only way you can hurt me is leaving''- That sounded cheesy, but it was totally true. I raised my hand to touch her cheek still a little wet.-''Hey, we can try it, I'm not saying that it will work out but...we can do it,didn't we?''

-''Yeah''-She whispered-''But only if you want to''

I nod my head and moved a part of her hair which was covering her face a to a side. She smiled shyly and I could feel how the blood invaded her cheeks.

-''What now?''-She said with a smirk on her face.

-''Well...you can come in and stay the night with me, or you can leave, and see me tomorrow in the high school''

-''mmmm...it's hard...but...I'll choose the first option''-She past next to me, with her smirk on her face and I closed the door with a kick. Seriously, god blessed her dress.

There I was, sitting on my couch, with a half drunk Santana between my arms, with her head rested on my shoulder and asking me all kinds of questions for the movie. ''Finding Nemo'' didn't have any secret for me, so I answered it kindly.

When the movie ended, Santana was practically asleep, so I left her lay on the couch. I didn't know if it was appropriate to sleep with her the night we both say that we were in love with each other, so I left her sleep comfortable for today, it's been a long night for her. I covered her with a blanket and tried to go to my bedroom.

-''You're not going to let me sleep alone tonight, aren't you?''- I turned around in shock. She had her usual smirk on her face, and I couldn't say no to something like that.

-''Mmmm...are you sure that you want to sleep with me? You must be tired and the couch is tiny...''

-''That's the best part''-She winked and I open my eyes wider. She stood up and walked until she arrived the place i was-''Come on, I don't bite...well not always. But I promise you that I would behave''

I gulped with that thought but I took her hand when she offered it to me and I walked obedient behind her to the couch. She laid on it and left a tiny space between her arms, where I laid too. God, she was right, it wasn't uncomfortable at all. I moved myself to see her face and fell her breath against my face. A smile appeared on her face and I rested my hand on her hips.

-''There's something I want to ask you...''-She said slowly looking me right in the eyes.

-''Shoot''

-''If I hadn't come here tonight and tell you what I feel...would you ever told me that you're probably in love with me?''

Shit, It was a hard question.

-''mmm...well, I'll probably not. At least in a long period of time. I was scared when you kissed me for two reasons, of course the first one because I didn't know if it would happen again, and the second one was that I didn't know if it was true at all, so I got more scared than I was. And then you started to avoid me...''

-''I like the first reason''-She interrupted me.-''I was scared for that too''

-''Really?''-She nod her head.-''Are you scared now?''-I said getting closer and closer

-''I'm freaked out, but I couldn't be more happy''

She tilted her head a little to a side and closed her eyes to place a gently kiss on my lips. They tasted like ''Sex on the beach'' and lipstick, soft as hell. God, I thought that I was going to explode when she put a hand in my face and then let her run down through my body until it arrived at my tight. I kissed her harder, I really wanted to taste more of her, and let her know that I was with her, that anything wrong was going to happen now. She opened her mouth a little and let a little breath scape from it, but It didn't interrupt my tongue which wanted to play with hers. She moaned when my hand ran through her hair and I moved a little to put my body over hers. I could feel her whole warm under me, and how she bring me closer to her. Her boobs were just against mines and I just blushed thinking of it. She placed her hand on my butt and moved them under my t-shirt. I moaned a little when I felt the palm of her hand stroking softly the skin of my back. She smiled into the kiss, and continue running her hand up and down...up and down...

I could die in that moment, I really wanted more. She stopped her hands for running in my back to catch the bottom of my t-shirt and took it off. I stopped kissing her and let her do it. When I was only with my shorts and my pink bra on, I returned to her lips, those ones that I didn't want to leave. She placed her hands on my boobs this time. And suddenly, she stopped kissing my lips, to go under. She licked my jaw and continued licking until she arrived my neck. As soon as her tongue touched it, I couldn't help but rolled my eyes. She moaned a little and continue kissing and licking it. I didn't know how we did it, but by few moves, I was behind her now and she was over me, running her hands for my stomach and her tongue for my neck.

-''San...Santana''

-''Mmm''-She tried to say without leaving my neck.

-''We...we...I...I don't want to be a spoilsport really...but...you...we...''

-''mmmmmmhmm''

-''If you don't stop...I wouldn't be..able to speak''-I said breathing deeply

She left my neck to look me right in the eyes with a smirk on her face, I could see her tits up and down with the rhythm of her breath. I was stupid, totally stupid.

-''We shouldn't...do this today...I mean, I don't want to be a spoilsport but you're tired...and we have class tomorrow and...I really want this to be special''-Okay, I couldn't believe my words...special? Santana was going to leave me right now. I was still looking at her boobs, I didn't want to raise my eyes to see her upset . She took my jaw with her hand and approached my lips with hers to leave a gentle kiss on them and smile into the kiss. She laid next to me, with the head on my chest and her arm around my stomach. We were still breathing fast.

-'' You're so sweet did you know that''

I blushed automatically.

-''Good night blondie''

I kissed her forehead

-''Good night San''

She raised a little her head surprised.

-''What?''

-''I like how it sounds...''-She said returning her head to the place it was rested.

I realised that it was the first time I called her San. I smiled to myself, proud of me today.

-''I like it too''

We both fall sleep. One of the best nights of my life

Hey everybody!

Seriously, I'm so sorry, but I had some problems with this website, and I couldn't update before, so I'm really really sorry! First of all, thanks for reading and reviewing, you're amazing. Here is a long chapter to compensate for the delay, hope you like, things are starting to become interesting, you'll see ;)

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