"'Ve you ever thought about getting married?" James asked. He sat on a picnic blanket in their favorite little spot in Lucy's park next to his girlfriend later in the afternoon.

"You-you're not asking, are you?" Lucy's eyes widened.

"No, no, no, of course not! Dude! No! Not that I wouldn't want to marry you, it's just, you know, I'm 19, and you know…"

"It's okay," Lucy laughed. "I know what you mean."

"With Kendall proposing to Jo and her saying no I just wondered if you ever thought about it. N-not with me. Just in general."

"Oh, well, yeah, I think every girl has at some point or another."

Lucy straightened her legs and leaned against James.

"Have you ever thought about getting married?"

"Well," he paused and wrapped his arms around her, "you're cold. Want to borrow my coat?"

"I'm good, thanks."

"Anyway, I've always thought in the future I'd probably have kids and a wife, but I've never thought about actually getting married. I do remember one time I almost did get married!"

"Was it some drunken escapade in Las Vegas or something like that?"

"No, I accidentally proposed to the princess of Kerplankistan."

"How do you accidentally propose to someone?"

"I didn't accidentally get down on one knee and ask her to marry me, if that's what you're thinking. Their rituals are weird and when I gave her a white rose it basically meant I'd asked her. I'd make a great prince, but I couldn't marry her!"

"I'm glad you didn't." Lucy pressed her body further into James's embrace as they sat in silence for a few minutes. "What's bothering you?"

"Nothing."

"It's not nothing."

James removed his arms from around Lucy.

"Maybe I'm living my life all wrong."

"What?!" Lucy turned to look at him.

"This fame thing. Maybe it's pointless. Maybe my life is pointless."

"No. Your life's not pointless."

"Then tell me…what does it mean?"

"Did Fallon put these ideas in your head? I'll kill her!"

"It's not her. One night at church the preacher was talking about our place in the world. He said we aren't to follow the rich and the famous. Our lives aren't supposed to be built around them. My whole life has been about that. Ever since I was little it's been my dream to be famous. All I've ever cared about aside from hockey and girls was how I looked and becoming famous. To follow God maybe I need to let this go."

"No."

"I don't know, Luce. According to the Bible a camel will be able to fit through the eye of a needle before a rich man can get into heaven."

"What does that even mean?"

"Rich people don't go to heaven."

"But, you love singing…and performing."

"I'm just throwing my life away."

"Do you think I'm throwing my life away?"

"Well," James paused. "No."

"So what makes you think you are?"

"I just told you!" James threw his hands up. "Sorry, I'm not mad at you. I'm just confused."

Lucy rubbed his cheek.

"I know. I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault."

"Yes, it is. I shouldn't have yelled at you about that cut on your face."

"Cut on my—oh, that?" James absentmindedly rubbed his chin. "No big deal."

"No big deal, seriously?! It's sent you spiraling into this depressed monster!"

"What? No, the cut has nothing to do with this."

"It's why you won't shave!"

"No, it's not! It's really not!"

Lucy sighed and planted a kiss on James's lips. She wanted to comfort him. She wanted to make him see what she saw, what he had been showing her ever since she moved back into the Palm Woods.

"I think I may just quit BTR."

I do support Christianity (I am Christian), but I don't quite support James's misinterpretation. Also, do not hate me. This is drama. Drama, people!

Saw the premiere of the new season of Survivor Wednesday night. I've decided James would be on the Beauty team, Logan the Brains, Kendall could fit for either Brawns (because he doesn't mind getting dirty and helping out) or Brain but I'd put him in Brains with Logan, and Carlos would go on the Brawns simply because there's no Happy Go Lucky tribe (and even though James can bench press more he's the muscle). Kendall's a natural leader so everyone on the Brains would look up to him whether they want to or not. It would just happen. So, he'd make it to the merge. James would be the only guy on the Beauty team willing to do hard work (one of the guys laughed at manual labor) so they'd keep him around so they wouldn't have to break a nail (and he'd still have the face but he'd complain an awful lot about his hair—oh my gosh his talking heads/confessionals would be so funny) so he'd make it to the merge. Carlos would make it to merge because he's a people person and everyone would just love him. Logan? Well, he's a nice guy, but well, we've seen him in the prank wars, so… I think the end it would come down to Carlos and Kendall. Sorry, James! Kendall would win, though, because everyone looks up to him.

Oh and the meltdown of the Brains tribe? Kendall would totally take over and make everyone feel better by giving them a speech. Then rally on to victory.

Let's make this Author's Note even longer! I attached to this to my other BTR story but I'm adding it here because I cannot contain myself (and since this chapter is posting before that one it will be seen here first).

I'm so happy! James is going to be on Dancing With the Stars. This is something I've wanted ever since the show ended last summer. I thought about it all the time. I'll even say I prayed for it because I wanted more James (honestly, I think he's the best dancer of BTR). I can't believe it's actually happening. I can't stop thinking about it. This is great for him and great for all of us fans. If you don't watch the show you better start (Mondays at 8PM —starting March 17 which is also known as St. Patrick's Day). He's going up against Meryl Davis and Charlie White. I really like them, too, and want to support them, but I've been really wanting James (yes, James, not just any BTR guy, but James specifically) on the show since last summer so I have to go with him.