Three ''beeps''and a ''mmm'' was everything I heard before opening my eyes. I opened the left one first to see what was making that beep, it was Santana's phone. God, Santana's phone! I wide opened my eyes then and move my head a little to see how she tried to open her eyes, but she couldn't. She borrowed her eyebrows and made another ''mmm''. I dared to low a little bit my eyes to see that we are still naked and her arm was rested on my hip, strong enough to not letting me go and not too much to hurt me. I smirked, Santana Lopez wasn't a cold hearted snake after all.
-''Do you like something?''-She said smirking at me still in her place. I blushed a little bit, I hoped she didn't realize
-''mmm''-I traced my finger through her tight -''Maybe, I don't know yet''
I ended at her belly button, and then I moved to face her. She was still too sleepy, and so do I, but it didn't matter. She took some of my blonde hair and started playing with it.
-''Well...we'll have to figure it out then''-She left my hair and touch my chin with a softly with her hand and then she kissed me, softly, really really carefully. It took me a little bit to react but when I managed, I returned her the kiss. She smiled when I did it.
Then that ''beep'' again. Santana groaned and stopped the kiss, bad luck.
-''Is that my phone?''-Looking at where the beep came from
-''I think so''-I nodded. She placed her hand on my stomach and let her body slide until she reached the phone on the table.
-''Fuck''-She said, and as soon as she could she stood up and put on her underwear.
-''What happen?''- I tried so hard but I couldn't avoid my sad face.
-''I just said Puck that I was going to meet him today to prepare the campaigning to prom queen and king, and he called me like ten times, I'm an hour late!''- She managed to said while she jumped and put on the rest of her clothes -''I have to go home, change my clothes and go to his house in a record time!''
-''But...wh...''
-''See you tomorrow at class okay?''- She kissed me in the forehead and ran to the door. I couldn't even ask her what the hell was Prom Queen and why was she going to make that campaign with Puck after all that I told her last night.
I raised my head, it was Sunday and the clock said that it was lunch time. But I wasn't hungry. I looked to myself still naked on the couch, and then to a side, where I rolled and put my head on the pillow. Still smell like her, but I was too mad to smile. I felt like an idiot laid in there.
Mr Schue entered in the room with a small price that recognized that we won the contest, everyone clapped, and laughed for a little while. But then he put it on the vitrine and everybody sat down once again, quite on their places. I looked to the side of my eye to Santana. She was next to Puck and he had her arm around her shoulders. God I was freaking jealous that should be my arm.
-''So, we shouldn't relax, we have too much to do. We have regionals in one month, buuut...''-He turned around on his feet and approached the whiteboard to write ''Prom dance'' on it -''... It doesn't mean that we can't have fun meanwhile''
Everybody clapped and laughed again, but not me this time, I was still waiting if someone was going to explain what was that.
-''Director Figgins asked me if we could sing on the dance and I said yes... I guess that anyone has problems with that?''-Nobody said nothing so he continued-''Fine, so...Rachel! Would you mind to make us a list of music for tomorrow?''
-''Sure Mr Schue''-Said the brunette, correctly sat on the first line of the class-''What's the theme?''
-''Hell and heaven''- Santana let escape a loud ''Ha'' and then one of their smirks.
I couldn't be more lost, everyone looked so excited, they formed groups and started talking about it while Mr. Schue and Rachel already started to look for songs. I took my phone out, Santana called me last night but I didn't pick it up, I wanted her to notice that I wasn't happy with what she had done. Now, I had three missing calls, but for an anonymous number. I got goosebumps, shit. At the same time I deleted them, I got a message.
Santana: ''U okay?''
I looked behind me. She hadn't got Puck's arms around her anymore, and she got her phone on her hands. When she noticed me, she showed me a tiny smile. Aw, I couldn't be so mean.
Me: ''Sure, see u at your locker later''
As I promised, after the glee rehearsal, and after Puck left her, I came to her locker. She was brushing her hair and putting it on a perfect ponytail.
-''Hey''
-''Hey there! I was worried! You didn't pick up the phone yesterday, and you looked like in a different place today''
-''It's just because I don't have any idea about what that prom dance is about''
She looked me like I was joking at first, laughing, but when I didn't smile, she realized that I wasn't lying.
-''Oh god, really?''-She smiled-''Oh honey, you must be so lost then! Every year we make a dance here in the mckingley and everyone goes with their date, but the best of all is that people choose the coolest couple in the school and they became prom queen and king. That why there are plenty of posters hanged on the walls! Believe me, this year is our year...we are going to win for sure bec...''
-''And you're going with Puck right?''-She stopped putting her stuff into her locker and looked me in the eye and frowning.
-''mmm...yeah''
I noticed how my cheeks started to be hotter and hotter and how the back of my palms started to sweat. I know it was stupid, and that we had an agreement but I was jealous, too jealous to stand it.I had the right to be don't I? God, I wasn't asking her to go with me, of course I wouldn't do that. Never. But going with Puck? He cheated her, and she obviously didn't like him! It wasn't fair. I noticed how tears came to my eyes without ask, but I didn't want to cry, not in front of her.
-''Britt are you okay?''-She touched my arm and then I came back to reality.
-''Yes''- I said quickly and trying to control the weak of my voice. I removed her arm with fierce and then I ran to the bathroom feeling how my tears ran wild through my cheeks. I couldn't control it anymore. When I arrived the bathroom I opened the sink and wet my face. Much better. I breathed deeply. But suddenly the door opened and Santana appeared on the frame of the door.
-''I thought you'll understand...we can't go together, you know that and Puck is one of the coolest boys in high school, he's going to give me a lot of votes and...''
-''You don't understand it San''- I said drying my face with my hand and preparing myself for what I was going to say. It wasn't easy at all express my feelings, I'd never been good at that -''How much are we going to be like that? Until we graduate? Or until we finished the university? We'll be hiding like that the whole life? Because I'm already tired and it's just the beginning'' - I noticed how my hand started to shake and how my heart started to race fast. She entered in the bathroom but stayed on her feet right in front of me, with a worried face -''I...I spent my whole life wondering how freedom would be, and...happiness. Now, I know what happiness is, when I'm with you I'm happy, you're the awesome...I just realised that it's hard but...I don't want to be happy without being free. I want to hold your hand in the halls, dance with you in the glee club, go to the park, to the disco, or to the cinema together...I don't know''- I looked at her to see how a two tears running trough her cheek. God, That was hurting a lot-''I know it's hard for you, I understand you, I'm not asking you to ask me to go with you, of course not, I'll never ask you to do something you don't want to. But time pass and It hurts... This relationship is hurting us...both of us a lot. You're messed up and I want something that you're not ready yet to give''
-''So...that's all? All we had? Really?''
-''It's the best for both, San. I love you...but I can't go on with this like that, not feeling that I'm doing something wrong when I know that it's the best I'd ever done''- I tried to reach her hand, but she removed it roughly. I cried even more and she left the bathroom running and crying, and I stayed there, asking to myself why the hell did I do that and If it was the right thing after all.
-''Britt, table six''
The music was louder than usual, so I couldn't clear hear Holly's voice. It just that my legs didn't work well, but also my brain, my arms...
-''BRITT, TABLE SIX''
After what happened in the bathroom, I went home, missing class, but it didn't matter that day. It took me a lot of effort to get up from the couch, clear my face and go to work. I'd been crying like four hours, so I still looked like crap, and Holly noticed so she didn't make me dance that day. I stayed at the bar, serving drinks and trying to be nice with people, hoping that Santana appeared from the door asking me for a second chance, or telling me that she was going to tell... when I already knew that it wasn't going to happen. I also tried to convince myself that it was the best situation, but I was still thinking why.
-''What's going on with you today?''- Someone said behind me. I turned around and shake my head a little bit. I had to react. It was Dani. She had her messy long hair on a ponytail, and she was wearing a simple black t-shirt with skinny black jeans. She smiled at me softly.
-''God, sorry Dani, bad day''
-''It's okay, don't worry, but be careful, because Holly isn't in a good mood. I came to table six for you, go to two when you have time. Two vodkas with soda''
-''Thanks really''-I said with a tiny smile. It was for sure Holly's favorite, and it was evident why. She was always on her feet, serving and being nice with all the people, and when she was on the stage...wow. Not only she could dance, she also knew how to sing.
I went to table two and attended a couple of young boys. I served them alcohol, just because it didn't matter to me that day. They looked impressed for me not to ask them for they ID. When I was coming back to the bar I heard a loud ''Schst'' behind me. Dani was laughing, with almost tears on her face, pointing at the bar. When I followed where she was pointing I discovered Kitty, fighting with ten people, trying to put the bottles on their places, counting the money and trying to fix her hair at the same time. I laughed hard, it was way too funny to see her. I looked once again to Dani and she winked at me, and I smiled her back.
The night was over, only a few people stayed at the bar, but Holly was trying to kick them out this time. I rested my arms on the bar, breathing heavily after all the work. I just wanted to return home, sleep and forget everything.
-''Seeing Kitty improved your mood a little?''-Dani said behind me with a half smile on her face.
-''Kind of! She was too funny''
-''Good hearing that''- She put a piece of her hair that escaped from her ponytail behind her ear.
-''Thanks''-I said shyly
-''Why?''
-''For helping me and making me feel better! It's nice to work with you''
-''That's why we are here for right?''- She looked me right in the eye. She had pretty big eyes
-''Here''- She said extending me a piece of paper. I unfolded it -''It's my number, if you need something or you have another...bad day you can call me and maybe we can...''-She stopped for a minute-''...talk''
She smiled at me and then she left. I kept it in the back of my trousers. It was good to have another friend.
I woke up in the middle of the night. It was too dark and the wind blew with fierce on the window. A little bit of sweat goes down my face, and I couldn't stop of breathing fast. Looking at that couch made me feel a lot once again, and even more laid on it. I turned around and tried to sleep again, but thoughts hit me.
I took my phone from the table, but there were no text or any calls. I started writing a text for her, but I deleted it, no way. I couldn't stand being in there so I woke up and laid on the floor of my ''bedroom''.
The next day, my circles were more than evident, and my face was still looking like crap, but I didn't mind, probably, Santana wouldn't look at me or whatever.
When I opened the front door of the high school, I almost cry with the first thing I saw. It was a poster, a red one, with Santana and Puckerman kissing on it, and with a big ''vote us for queen and king''. So, I broke up with her, and I had to see her in every corner at the school kissing Puck? Nice.
-''Hey Britt, how are you?''-Kurt said still breathing fast. He probably came running to school, because as me, he used to arrive late. But after watching me closer he realised-''Uhh...what happened?''
-''We broke up, and I don't want to talk about it''
-''Oh...I'm so sorry Britt! Okay, I'm not going to ask anything just...are you going to the dance?''
-''mmm...yeah, I guess!''
-''Great! We have to decide your dress, so we have to go shopping this afternoon and oh! Does anyone ask you to go with now that you're...like...single?''
-''You can say that Kurt, it's okay...well it's not, but I'll be I guess''
-''So?''
-''Oh...no. I can't even think about going with someone else... I don't think I should...''- But then, I had an idea. If I had to see Santana being someone else girlfriend, why shouldn't I take someone? And best of all, I had the perfect person to have a great night-''..actually...you know what? Yeah, I have a date''- I said reaching a paper on the back of the trousers that I was wearing last night
First of all, sorry for being too disapeared! I just don't have any excuse, but here is a new chapter! And I have the next ready for when I have a little time...you don't want to miss prom dance don't you? Love to all! :)