Not to sound completely corny, but under that hood was the face of the most attractive man I'd ever seen.
He was in his early to mid 20's, just like myself. Long, shaggy brown hair and the most beautiful blue eyes imaginable. He had the face of someone who had seen and endured a lot of pain and suffering. Sad yet kind eyes looked up at me, though the rest of his expression was that of almost, dare I say, boredom? I suppose the "bad boy" vibe he emitted had always held some sort of charm for me. I felt something very powerful radiate off this man who referred to himself as Skywalker and took it upon myself to get to know him better as he thoroughly intrigued me. Only one other gentleman was in the bar that evening and we had plenty of people working the bar so I thought, "What's the harm?" Besides, I had a duty to my Father. I sat down across from "Skywalker" and folded my hands on the table.
"You seem a bit upset. You wouldn't want to...I don't know...vent would you?"
He pursed his lips and looked back up at me.
"I wouldn't want to trouble you."
"Don't worry about it." I objected. "Hey, listen. Serving up drinks is only half of my job here. The other half is to listen to the customer's tales of woe." I smiled. "Go on. No judgement here, Skywalker."
He sighed and a small smile played on his lips.
"Anakin, please."
Even the name was breathtaking. The way it just effortlessly rolled off his tongue-Anakin.
"Anakin," I repeated. "I'm Tyla. Nice to meet you."
"Likewise."
"Why don't you tell me what's troubling you, Anakin?"
I just loved to say his name.
Anakin looked around the room the slightest bit nervously before continuing.
"Well, you see, I'm a Jedi and I-"
"A Jedi!" I interrupted loudly, causing a disturbance among the people at the bar. I didn't really know how to play the ignorant barmaiden, so I just went with how I felt a typical awe struck girl would act in the presence of someone such as him.
Anakin quickly put his finger up to his mouth and furrowed his brows.
"A Jedi?" I repeated more quietly. Anakin folded his arms and nodded.
"That's amazing! I've never really spoke with one before!" I exclaimed, lying through my teeth. "What's it like? Oh, it must be spectacular getting to travel the galaxy all the time. And getting a lightsaber! I've never seen one up close!" I said as I nonchalantly touched my own lightsaber hidden beneath my dress's folds. "Are they as dangerous as people say? What causes them to be different colors? What color is yours?"
Anakin quietly laughed and smiled shyly. He was stunning.
"You're very inquisitive."
I scratched my head. "It's just no one of your caliber ever comes into this bar, Master Jedi."
As I said this, Anakin's calm eyes filled with envious anger.
"Actually," he said. "I'm not a Jedi Master. I should be, but I'm not. I was appointed by Chancellor Palpatine to sit on the Jedi Counsel, however the Jedi Masters on the counsel would not grant me the rank of Master. It's insulting! And my own Master doesn't understand my resentment towards them for it. No one has been on the counsel before and not been a Jedi Master. I'm so much more stronger and more powerful than any of the Jedi Masters. The Chancellor has said so himself. I just don't understand their decision. My Master says to have patience, that this is a great honor because no one at my age has ever even been considered to be on the Jedi Counsel. But then if I'm good enough to be apart of the Counsel, why am I not good enough to be a Master? I feel as if I've been at Master level as far as my skills with a saber and the Force goes for so long, it's completely unfair for them to do this to me. They are afraid of my power. I know it. I know there are things about the Force they aren't telling me in an effort to keep my powers subdued."
"When did all this happen?" I asked.
"Only just. That's why I'm here. To get some air. I felt so much hatred and envy-I needed to recollect myself. These emotions I feel-they aren't the Jedi way."
"And what is the Jedi way?"
"There is no Emotion, there is Peace. There is no Ignorance, there is Knowledge. There is no Passion, there is Serenity. There is no Chaos, there is Harmony. There is no Death, there is the Force." he recited.
I was taken aback by this so called "code" of theirs and I let Anakin know.
"Forgive me for saying so and for being so forward about your way of life, but that sounds a bit ridiculous from an outsider's point of view. Admirable, I suppose. But ridiculous all the same."
Anakin looked very interested in what I had to say.
"How do you mean?" he asked.
"Well, to have emotion, to be ignorant, to feel passion, to be chaotic...to die...that is only human. They can't expect you to be able to detach from all that makes you human, can they?"
"But there's the thing, Tyla. We as Jedi are supposed to transcend, with the grace of the Force, all those humanistic flaws and be celestial and all wise beings of the Universe."
"How is that even possible to transcend all human emotion and passion? It seems so engrained into my very being I couldn't imagine living without them."
"I'm not saying I understand it or agree with it. I'm saying it's possible, I suppose." replied Anakin slowly. "I've seen it. I guess that's why the Jedi rob the cradle in order to override all those innate human flaws and instill the Jedi code at the youngest age possible."
"For a self proclaimed Jedi, you seem to share a lot of ideologies of the Sith. Why are you so seemingly full of these, what you call, 'humanistic flaws?'"
I could tell Anakin was holding back some very strong feelings about the subject of him embracing the ideas of the Dark Side.
"Because," he answered. "I lived with those flaws until I was ten years old. I wasn't brainwashed like most Jedi at a very young age to believe that emotion is wrong. I was picked up late." He sighed and shook his head. "Listen to me. If my Master only heard me talking in such a way, I couldn't imagine how he would-"
"But he's not here." I interjected. "It's just me. And I think having emotion and passion isn't a flaw like you say. Rather, it's a beautiful part of being human. It gives us power."
Anakin laughed.
"Unfortunately, that simply isn't the Jedi way. In fact, quite the opposite."
"The opposite?"
"To have these emotions that I feel, that is the way of the Sith."
