WARNING: CONTROVERSIAL TOPIC DEALING WITH PREGNANCY WILL BE TOUCHED ON AND FURTHER DISCUSSED IN LATER CHAPTERS, DO RESPECT IS INTENDED IN ANYWAY THIS IS A WARNING!

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There was just silence between the two of them.

They just looked at each other, soaking up all the appearance the mind would allow, it had been 3 months since they had last laid eyes on each other.

She looked at his body, it looked amazing, he wore a cotton red tee, and a pair of nicely fitting dark wash jeans. He used his desk to support his amazing body. His face seemed tense, and it looked like it was lacking a good night of sleep.

He looked at her, her eyes were darker than her remembered, 'has she not been sleeping?' he thought, he noticed that her hair had gone a few shades darker, her skin had lost it's summer-tan glow, and had flawlessly faded into an olivey tone.

Their eyes wondered each other, both of their minds racing in thought.

Andy was the first one to break the silence, "Sam, I've missed you so much.." she started and trailed off, slowly moving her eyes to met his again. Sam was half sitting, half leaning on his desk facing her seated body, "Andy, I- uh, I've missed you too, but where the hell have you been?" He asked, terrified of what her answer would be, he crossed him arms.

"I needed to get away for a while..." Breaking eye contact and looking down at her hands. "Why? What was so terrible here you had to get away from?"

Andy had her reasons for leaving, but leaving Sam was her biggest regret, sure she had time to heal, and work on herself but she knew she had left Sam; and broken his heart. "I just had too.." trailing off, using her thumb to twirl her wedding ringer around her finger.

"Andy, why? I need to know why.. Why you would just leave, and not even contact me to let me know you're okay.. How do you expect our marriage to work if one, you're not here and two, you're not willing to talk to me about whatever you're going through." Pinching his nose, he needed answers.

"I just needed to fix myself, so I could fix us..." She couldn't give him what he needed, "Okay and while you were away fixing yourself, I was here; broken."

"After you left I was a mess, I blamed myself for everything, I over analysed every fight we had seeing if one of those fights lead to you leaving. I had to cover for you just leaving because you didn't just leave me Andy you left everybody, your dad, Tracy, all the other Rookies... You just left us all with no explanation or reasoning you were go gone, like magic, really mean magic." She could tell Sam was hurt, and so was she.

"And I'm sorry for that but I just couldn't be here, anymore" Sam was beginning to get frustrated that she wasn't giving him any answers about why she left.

"You couldn't be here anymore with me? Is that what you're saying?" His heartbreaking as he said those words.

"In a way yes, being here with you; hurt." Her eyes began to pool with tears, "I love you so much Sam, and it kills me to know that I hurt you.. but I couldn't be here anymore." She reached out and grabbed his hands. "I loved you enough to walk away before I did something that would ruin us."

"Andy, you left; you did ruin us." He told he, pulling his hands away from hers. "You just left me, and I was nothing, I didn't know what to do... I debated on going after finding you and begging you to come home. I thought of just ending us, filing for divorce. And I had another option, I had the option of letting you go, and I did. It broke my heart everyday and it still does, but you needed to leave and I let you because I love you that much." Sam was never one to get overly emotional but this was Andy McNally she was it for him, there was no one else.

"Are you saying it's over?" Her voice shaky, tears escaping from her eyes.

Silence took a hold of the room.

"I'm saying you left me" He looked at her; his wife; his forever. He hadn't laid eyes on her in months and all he wanted to do was pick her up and take her home, but he couldn't do that because what if she left again; his heart couldn't bare to wake up in an empty bed again.

"She would of been 6 months old" Andy responded. "Who?" Sam asked confused, and worried at the same time.

"Our daughter."

To address the controversial topic, I do not mean any disrespect or spiteful intentions when writing about this difficult issue, if I offended you in anyway I am truly sorry!

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