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She had left 3 weeks ago today, and she felt sick.

Being in a new environment, away from Sam, she felt sick all the time. Sitting up from night #21 of the world's crappiest sleeps, she rubbed her eyes and looked around her motel room. The terrible painting of some nature seen to the left of her bed made her think of the painting Sam had gotten her for their 4th wedding anniversary, the painting was of the beach where he proposed.

FLASHBACK

It was a rare occasion when Sam Swarek offered to go to the beach, but it was the Labour Day long weekend and a nice walk along the beach seemed like the perfect way to end the day.

As she got out of the truck, she walked around and met him by his door. Hands intertwined they set off on their romantic walk down the beach, "So Traci and Steven are going to have a baby." Andy said as she stepped away from Sam, freeing her feet of her flip flops.

"Yeah, Nash and Peck are having a baby, it still feels weird though." Sam following her lead taking off his shoes.

"What do you mean?"

"Well, I always pictured Nash with Jerry, you know marriage, kids, house with the white picket fence..." He trailed off, he never really talked about how Jerry's death effected him. He spoke about Jerry and their memories but the emotional stuff, he never really opened up about it. Andy knew when he was ready they would talk about it.

"I know you miss him Sam, and it's okay too." She stopped their walking pace and put her hands on his shoulders.

Leaning in he places a soft kiss on her lips, she pulled away, turning herself around, placing Sam's hand across her stomach. "I love you, you know that right?
She asked, half turning her head toward him. Minutes passed as they watched the sunset, in it's orange and pink glory.

"Actually, McNally there was something I needed to ask you," he said breaking the peaceful silence between them, turning her back around to face him.

"And what might that be exactly Sam, because if it's sex on the beach, this is a public place and..." As she babbled on about how it would be public nudity and they were police officers and all, Sam dropped down to one knee and pulled out the box her had been hiding in his leather jacket pocket.

"Andy McNally, I love you, and I kind of like waking up to your beautiful face every morning, what do you say will you marry me?" He opens the box , and to her amazement a ring that he clearly had spent an arm and leg for.

"Oh my god Sam! Of course I'll marry you, because let's face it those dimples are too sexy to say no to." Stepping back onto two feet, he placed the ring on her finger, and he pulled her into another kiss. But this time it was long, drawn out, perfect. Andy McNally had just agreed to be his wife.

END OF FLASHBACK

Deciding she probably should form some sort of routine, swinging her legs over the edge of the bed she ran her fingers through her hair as she rested her head in her palms.

She needed to find a grocery store, a laundry mat or something to clean her clothes, a path safe enough to go for her morning jog. As she got dressed ready for a run, in a new town, she felt her stomach completely flip, rushing to the bathroom she threw up in the toilet.

After what felt like hours to vomiting her brains out she grabbed her phone, looking st the calender she realized she was 18 days late; like period late.

'God damn it,' she thought, 'I just left Sam because I lost our baby, and now I'm pregnant again; damn his incredible body and sperm.'

It may have been months since she miscarried but she still felt like she wasn't worthy of having a baby, she wasn't able to protect her first, how would she protect this one? Her mind was racing in a million directions, snapping back into reality her phone rang, looking down at it Tracy's picture popped up. Her eyes filled with tears, she knew that if she answered she would be packed and driving back home in a matter of minutes but she needed this time away to focus on Andy, and being okay again.

Standing up she decided to give herself a Tracy-like talk, knowing that if Tracy was here she'd tell her to go get a pregnancy test to confirm if she really was pregnant.

"I said, I'm pregnant Sam." His mouth opened, then he really looked at her. She was wearing a baggy cardigan, and it buttoned loosely around her stomach.

"But.. uh I thought you lost the baby, and that's why you left." Was she really pregnant again, would he finally have a chance to be there for her unlike last time. He felt a smile creep up on the corner of his mouth.

"And we spent the night together before I left, and well you know who this stuff happens..." Trailing off, she unbuttons her cardigan letting her tiny baby bump show through her fitted tank top.

'She's pregnant, my wife is pregnant' Sam's mind was bouncing off the walls, he never really wanted to have kids but after they got married he kind of liked the idea of having a daughter with Andy's Bambi eyes running around the house with her older brother who had Sam's signature Swarek dimples. His thoughts of children-bliss were brought to a halt when he realized that he and Andy weren't together.

"So that's why you came back then? Because you're pregnant?" He decided he needed to be guarded to protect himself from another disaster.

"Yes, Sam I came back because of this baby, but I also came back because I love you, more then anything in this world. Being away from you was the worst time of my life. I realized that a piece of me was missing while I was away from you. Samuel Swarek I am beyond in-love with you and this baby is a product of our love," she stepped closer toward him, placing a hand on his shoulder and another on her stomach.

Sam was still unsure, yes he knew Andy loved him, and she wanted him to be there for her during her pregnancy. But, was she back because she loved him and was truly miserable without him, or simply was the pregnancy the push she needed to come home.

"Andy... I... uhh... I need some time to thing and process everything." He couldn't open himself up to getting hurt again.

"Sam, I'm pregnant what more time do you need?"

"The time where I figure out if I'm ready for this; for us again." He walked over to the door, throwing his jacket and shoes on, he grabbed his keys, and opened the door. "You stay here, if I need to I'll crash at Ollie's, Andy I'm glad you're home, and trust me I'm crazy excited that you're pregnant but I need some time."

And just like that he was gone.

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