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"Sam, I'm pregnant what more time do you need?"

"The time where I figure out if I'm ready for this; for us again." He walked over to the door, throwing his jacket and shoes on, he grabbed his keys, and opened the door. "You stay here, if I need to I'll crash at Ollie's, Andy I'm glad you're home, and trust me I'm crazy excited that you're pregnant but I need some time."

And just like that he was gone.

'I'm glad you're home, and trust me I'm crazy excited you're pregnant... but I need some time.' his words echoed in her mind, she replayed his facial expression as he spoke those words. 'But I need some time.' She decided that giving him time was the best thing for now, she left to think, and now he was doing the same.

'I'm glad you're home' Home? She was home, not only with Sam but home where everyone else she loved was. Tracy, she thought.

Walking over to the door that Sam had walked out of only minutes before, putting her shoes on she opened the door.

Tracy's place as only a ten minute drive, or a 20 minute walk and since Andy was car-less she opted for the walk. Thinking of how Tracy was going to react to her being home, she hoped she'd embrace her with open arms but a tiny piece of her was worried. She had ignored all Tracy's calls and messages while she was gone.

FLASHBACK

Snapping back into reality her phone rang, looking down at it Tracy's picture popped up. Her eyes filled with tears, she knew that if she answered she would be packed and driving back home in a matter of minutes but she needed this time away to focus on Andy, and being okay again.

Standing up she decided to give herself a Tracy-like talk, knowing that if Tracy was here she'd tell her to go get a pregnancy test to confirm if she really was pregnant.

She made two decisions in that moment; give him some time to process everything, and the second was to call Tracy. This was a phone call that was long over due.

After she returned back to her room from the drug store down the road, she noticed Tracy had left a message.

'Heey Andy it's me.. Listen I don't know what happened between you and Sam but whatever it is or was, you need to be home to work through it. Don't... Don't throw this all away Andy..." Andy could hear the pain in her voice, she knew Tracy would do anything to have Jerry back in her life, and the fact that Andy wasn't with Sam was a waste of the precious time they had together. 'Andy, I love you, you're my best friend, I'm here for you, and I'll be waiting for you to come home.' Andy's eyes filled with tears as she listen to her best friend plea for her to come home. "Sam's a mess, he needs you, I need you. You're our Andy McNally, we can't do this without you..." Silence took over the voicemail, and Andy heard a light sob, "Andy, please come home.."

END OF FLASHBACK

As she walked she recalled that day, it was a difficult one, after she heard Tracy's message she took the pregnancy test.
After the allotted time had passed she flipped the stick over and saw the positive sign, and all she wanted to do was go home; tell Sam he was going to be a dad, and give Tracy a hug, and just be happy. But she had already left, and there was no going back.

Turning the corner she saw Tracy's house, a part of her was nervous, she had left her best friend for 3 months without so much as a phone call.

Walking up the steps her heart was racing, 'what if she slams the door in my face?' she thought.

Placing her index finger over the doorbell, she waited for someone to answer. Stepping back from the door, Tracy opened it.

"Hi, I'm home." she said, and waited for Tracy to react, was she going to yell at her or simply close the door and go back inside.

Tracy's eyes filled with tears, she stepped out on the porch facing her best friend, and pulled her into one of the strongest hugs. "I've really missed you," Tracy whispered as she pulled away from Andy. "I've missed you too, Trac more than you know. And I know I don't deserve it but right now I really need my best friend."

The two walked inside, and headed to the living room, sitting down on the couch, Andy broke the silence. "So, I'm back..." she trailed off. "Yes, you are. And I have a million questions starting with why the hell did you leave like that? Two have you seen Sam? And what brought you back."

"I left because I lost the baby..." Andy's eyes fell to the floor, fiddling with her wedding ring. "You were pregnant." Tracy said softly moving closer to her best friend, "Ya, I was and I lost it, before I could tell anyone I had lost the one thing I never knew I wanted until I lost it." Her eyes began to fill with tears again. "Wait, Sam didn't know?" Tracy was feeling overall shock at this point, "I was going to tell him, but then I lost it and I felt I don't know, not worthy of his love because I lost him child; me. It was all my fault. I felt a pit of guilt in my stomach everyday because I never told him. And Trac, it became too much, so I left."

"Andy.. I'm so sorry," Tracy placed her arm around her best friends shoulders bringing her into a side hug. "Have you seen Sam?" She asked softly.

"Well I uhh I went to his office this morning, and he was hurt. I really broke his heart this time Trac. I wrecked him, and I don't know if he could ever forgive me..." More tears falling from her eyes, "but I need him to forgive me, because I can't do this alone."

"Can't do what alone..." Trailing off

"I can't raise this baby alone," she broke down, full tears filled with fear and regret. "You're pregnant?!" Tracy blurted out, "How?"

"Well the night... before I left.. Sam and I kind of had sex... and while I was away I found out I was pregnant. I though about staying away, but I realized that this was Sam's baby too and keeping them apart was not fair to either of them. I told him everything and he left, said he needed space. I can't do this without him Trac, I just can't." Tracy tried to collect her thoughts, as she opened her mouth there was knock at the door.

"Let me just get that and then we can continue this talk. Okay?" Andy nodded and Tracy headed for the door, opening it, she was blown away to see Sam Swarek on her front porch. "What are you doing here Sam?" She said quietly, hoping Andy didn't hear. "I'm hear to see my wife I know she's here."

Andy heard his voice and immediately knew it was him, standing up she walked over to the door.

"Andy, we need to talk." He said when he saw he walk up behind Tracy,

"You gonna walkout again?" She asked, armed crossed.

"I won't walkout if you promise not to run."

"Alright then I guess we need to have a talk then." She uncrossed her arms and gave Tracy a hug goodbye, "I'll call you later," she whispered in her ear as she walked out of the door and headed toward the passenger side of his truck.

"Hey, you guys are meant to be, don't be too much of a prideful jackass to screw this up k Swarek?" Tracy told him, as he watched Andy get in the truck.

"Nash, I love that women, I don't know if I trust her but I know I can't lose her again." He said walking over to his truck.

Now all they had to do was sit down and have a serious talk, no running no walking out. But faith had a different plan.

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