If only I could Chapter 9, an inuyasha fanfic

~InuYasha POV~ 3 months later~

My mate was going to kill me.

I watched, fascinated as Kagome lazed around in the shallows of the lake. The sun above was staring to set making the world look orange and purple. We have not run in to any of Naraku's demons or jewel shards making the last few weeks feel abnormally peaceful for which I was grateful.

"Do you feel better now?" I called out.

I was sitting on a boulder near the water, keeping guard over my mate, making sure she stayed safe. It had taken some time for Kagome to get used to it and the arguments resulted in a few of those damn 'sits' before she finally gave in. I didn't like it when she was out of my line of sight; it went against my instincts to have her stray from my side.

Kagome was having some horrible morning sickness and she was tired all of the time it made me worry about her constantly. Of course she tells me that it's all normal but I can't help but feel guilty that she felt so miserable at times. But damn if she doesn't look fucking gorgeous to me even while tossing her cookies in the morning. She says I'm a moron and I need to get me head check but I'm a mated demon. She could be bald and I'll still find her beautiful.

"Come on koi" I called out to her holding out her towel "Get out, it's getting dark and I don't want you getting cold"

"Alright, keep your pants on" she said with a giggle. She made her way towards the shore then paused "Hand me my towel please"

An evil thought ran through my head "No" I said getting up and held the towel out "If you want it come over here and get it"

I smirked when she glared at me. She knew how much I loved to see her new curves but her shyness over our new found intimacy made her hide from me sometimes.

"Come on Kagome" I said "Or maybe I should go in there as well"

"No…no…I'll come out" she said hurried.

Pity.

I liked taking bathes with her, though we took forever until we got out and she was usually too tired to walk but it was worth it. What can I say? The woman drove me and my demon crazy.

I watched as she rose out of the water, droplets covering her glowing pale skin capturing my eyes, making my throat dry, thirsty to taste the water covering my mate's skin.

"Come here" I all but growled low at her making her blush.

"Oh oh, I know that voice" she said "Your thinking something perverted again"

"You are my mate" I said drawing her closer to me using the towel as I wrapped it around her. I leaned down and licked the water from her neck, chest and shoulders, purring low in my chest.

"Delicious" I whispered against her ear chuckling when her scent spiked "I love how you respond to me Kagome"

"We're not leaving here anytime soon are we?" she said with a gasp when I picked her up and instead of heading in the direction of the camp I took her towards a soft patch of grass covered by trees and bushes.

"Nope" I said setting her down, then took off my red haori of the fire rat put it on the ground then lowered my mate down "Not until I make love to my mate" I looked at her, then lowed myself down and nuzzled her rounded tummy.

"Your beautiful Kagome" I said putting an ear against her stomach and listened "I love seeing how your body is changing, love smelling my pups scent on you and I love it how your skin glows from how happy you are"

I felt her hands in my hair "I am happy InuYasha. I forgave you for what you did and I'm happy that I did. I have no doubts that you are going to be a wonderful father"

I growled contently then moved up to kiss her lips and for the next few hours, showed her just how much I adored her as I made love to her slowly and passionately.

Night had fallen by the time we made our way back to camp. I walked in the circle where my pack was cooking some fish and gently lay Kagome down on her sleeping bag. She yawned and stirred awake.

"Your bath time is taking longer and longer every day lady Kagome" said Miroku with a smirk then looked at me. I was about to snarl at him but Sango beat me to it and clonked him on the head.

"Henati" she muttered "Green is not a good color for you monk"

I snorted at them going to take a fish and offered it to Kagome. She looked at it and grimaced.

"Ew"

"You need to eat koi" I said exasperated. Getting her to eat was proving to be more of a headache than finding the damn shards some days.

"Well I'm not going to eat that" she said then moved to grab her backpack and pulled out a cup of ramen.

Looking at the dried noodles she sighed "I swear these have to be your kids InuYasha" she said miserably as she filled her teakettle with water "Only your pups would make me crave ramen to the point where I would consider eating it raw"

I chuckled at how true that statement was. I have seen Kagome devour more of those noodles than I ever have. Typically I would have bit someone hand off if they tried to eat my share of the dried yummy goodness, but if it was for my pups then I had no choice but to suck it up.

Kagome was carrying more than one pup after all.

We had found out about a month ago when Kagome's mom insisted that her brother who was a healer to check on Kagome to make sure that she and the pups where doing fine. He was told that this pregnancy would have some 'abnormities' and that he was to keep it a secret. Mrs. Higurashi's brother Dr. Sun had check out Kagome while I waited outside, out of sight. It didn't matter to me that he was a family member, my inner demon didn't like it that another male was going to be touching my mate. So to keep myself from going full demon I stayed away until the exam was complete and the doctor left.

That was when I was told by a very shocked Kagome that we were having twins.

Looking over to Kagome who was waiting for her noodles to cool I got up and walked to where she was and sat in back of her, pulling her to me.

She smelled so intoxicating to me, now more than ever because the scent of my pups surrounded her as well.

"I get the feeling that I'm going to be one of those women who end up having 8 pound babies" grumbled Kagome "Look at me! I'm only three months and I'm already showing"

I growled low and nuzzled the back of her neck "You're beautiful" I whispered to her. It was true, for only being three months she was already starting to show through her miko clothing.

I felt something land on my shoulder.

"Do you know if they are going to be boys or girls InuYasha?" asked Shippo as he then hoped on Kagome's shoulder.

"Nah, not yet. Too soon to tell" I said.

My relationship with Shippo was more stable now ever since I became mated. My temper calmed down and I felt more at ease and less snappy. It was like my demon and human part of me finally came to an understanding.

"I think they will be little boys" said Miroku giving me a smirk "Twin little boys who will be just like her father, headstrong, stubborn and loud"

"Hey!" said Kagome "Why punish me? What did I do to you Miroku?

"No…" said Sango thoughtfully "Mark my words Miroku. Those babies will be twin little girls with their mother's beauty and grace and have their father wrapped around their little fingers and when they grow to be young ladies…..woe to any man who tries to court them"

I swallowed as I broke out in a sweat.

"Boys" I said franticly "They will definably be little male pups" I said making Kagome look up at me.

"Huh? Why?"

"Because at lease with males all I have to do if they misbehave and use my alpha power on them but little girls…." I didn't finish the possibility of that outcome was too gruesome.

Kagome laughed "Your right. If we had girls they will run all over you" Miroku and Sango joined in her laugher.

My mind wondered, already imagining twin baby girls both of them with pale soft skin, their mothers raven hair and my golden eyes. My heart melted, aching for the vision my mind conjured.

Reaching over to her I rubbed her belly and purred feeling content not aware of the cold brown eyes that was observing every movement the camp did.

~Kikyo POV~

Damn her!

Damn her to hell!

I watched how InuYasha held on to Kagome so tenderly the looks of pure adoration in his golden eyes making me want gouge them out. That should have me down there in his arms.

Of course he would have been human. I looked at Kagome and sneered.

"Shameful" I muttered. The girl was going to give birth to a demon child. Didn't that stupid twit know that it went against everything taught to a miko to not engage in sexual relations with a demon and bare him his spawn? True, while alive I too fell in love with InuYasha but I never would have married him while he was still a half demon.

I watched Kagome as she rubbed her belly while looking at InuYasha. It was because of her that he broke his word to go with me to hell when the time came. He swore to protect me…and now because of that retch I was losing him.

Well….if I couldn't have him, then nether could she. I was going me make him suffer, make him wish that he never broke his promise to me and watch him wither in pain…but first.

I smirked looking at Kagome one last time before turning away.

I could think of someone who would be very interested in this new development. Naraku was a bastard but at least he had his uses and right now he could prove to be a useful ally.

~Kagome POV~

The next four days proved to be pretty uneventful…. expect for the run in with a snake demon who wanted to make a treat out of me. Apparently pregnant woman was a snake demon's rare delicacy.

I did not like having to hide in a battle but the thought of my babies getting hurt made me push aside my feminist views and hide behind a three close to InuYasha who did not take well to having his family in danger. He transformed full demon and made diced snake out of the demon before he leaped over to me and held me, sniffing to make sure I was okay.

It had freighted Miroku and Sango a bit at first thinking he was going to attack me. They had only seen InuYasha in full demon mode a few times and those times he had been a killing machine. So imagine their surprise when I giggled and hugged a fully transformed InuYasha while he nuzzled my neck.

"I'm okay mate" I murmured to him softy. I knew his demon side was a bit more primal, more in touch with his baser form so I tried to say things that his youkai could identify with "Pups and mate are safe"

He growled low in his throat as he placed a hand on my swollen belly "Mine" he growled low.

"Yours" I said stroking his markings lovingly while I looked into his red eyes completely unafraid. Because of our bond I was able to tell what he was feeling and his demon side just wanted to hold me for a bit. Ever since he got me pregnant I have not been in contact with his full demon side and I could tell that it was not very happy about that. InuYasha kept his demon under tight control and his demon did not appreciate it at all.

He looked to our friends before picking me up "Make camp" he said gruffly before he took off with me "We'll be back"

I blushed bright red. I knew what his demon wanted and I couldn't help the rush of excitement that washed through me. Since I had been drugged and was out of it for those four days in the cave I couldn't really remember what it felt like to be taken by his demon. It's been three days since we've been intimate as well. It was hard when you're on the road and you have a group of people and a small curious kit with you.

He stopped at the mouth of a small cave and placed me on the ground before telling me to stay then left. I looked around and noted that at least it was clean inside of the cave. I sat on a boulder and waited for InuYasha to return. When he did he brought back he brought with him soft reeds and made a makeshift bed of sorts then took off his red haori and laid it down too.

"Come mate" he said holding out his hand to me.

My heart started to beat franticly as I got up and placed my much smaller hand in his large lethal clawed one. Pulling in his arms he leaned down and started to kiss my neck sending chills up my body. I smiled softy and held on to him. This was the man I loved, whether he is human or demon, I loved him unconditionally and would never fear him.

I yawned and stretched feeling sore and boneless.

InuYasha was in back of me his arms protectively around my much smaller frame while he slept one of his hands on the small swell of my stomach.

What had woken me up? Then I felt it.

Ugh. Heartburn.

Sitting up I put a hand to my chest and grimaced, damn I couldn't wait until I was done with these. My body was just so out of whack these days.

"What's wrong koi?"

I looked down to see my husband's golden eyes look at me with worry.

"It's nothing, just some heartburn again" I said then felt my body heat up again at the sight of his toned abs and golden skin.

Dear gods just remembering how he made love to me earlier today was enough of make me want to jump him again. His demon was demanding, fierce and passionate, pushing my body to its limits causing release after release.

He chucked "I think someone wants round two" he said making me blush scarlet.

"You're starting to sound like Miroku" I muttered but didn't stop when he sat up and started to kiss my shoulder.

"I think a husband is allowed to have lecherous thoughts about this wife" He said, I swear I could feel his cocky grin against my skin.

"Do you know how weird it is to hear you say that?" I said with a chuckle "Or the fact that your so…calm now?"

He growled low in his throat "Don't get too comfy wench" he said against my skin "I still have my temper; I just got a better hold of it"

I rolled my eyes "Don't call me wench or I'll say 'it'" I threaten then laughed when he pushed me on my back and gave me a little love bite on my neck.

Once we entered the camp I noticed that Miroku and Sango where talking and looking rather cozy if you asked me.

With a smile I went to go and sit by them "Anything…interesting happened while we were away?"

I looked at Sango and smiled as her cheeks turned a light shade of pink.

"No" she said looking away "Nothing happened"

"Hmmm" I said then looked at Miroku and his huge, slightly perverted, grin "You look like the cat that ate the canary" I said dryly.

"I don't have any idea what you're are talking about lady Kagome" he said the smirked "Besides….wasn't you who was whisked away by that insatiable husband of yours?"

It was my turn to blush now "Oh whatever" I muttered then glared at my said husband when he chuckled "Can it, or I'll start feeding you Alpo"

InuYasha crossed his arms "Keh, emotional wench" he muttered thinking I couldn't hear him.

"Sit"

Wham.

I smiled "Well would you look at that….I don't think I feel so emotional anymore. Fancy that, maybe I should do that more often, don't you think?" I said sweetly as I bat my lashes at my mate who lifted his head out of the dirt and glared at me.

Shippo went to stand on InuYasha's shoulder "You really need to learn when to keep that mouth of your shut"

"Stuff it runt" he growled.

"Sit" I said making him grunt as he went further down into the dirt hole he was now in.

"If you want to be a good father then you need to start acting like one to Shippo. I will not have you calling my babies runts, pest, or pipsqueaks…..understand?" I said shooting him a murderous look and held Shippo close to me.

"Learn when to submit to a pregnant female my friend" said Miroku taking a sip of his tea.

Things quieted down after that and I was nibbling on a grilled fish rather unenthusiastically when InuYasha tensed next to me and started to snarl.

"What is it?" asked Sango on alert already.

"Naraku" growled InuYasha "Kagome hide and don't come out until this is over do you understand?"

"But…"

"No buts Kagome…I won't risk your life or the pups, now hide"

I didn't like hiding from our enemy but I knew that if I was exposed it would only distract him and he could get hurt.

I hid behind a tree just in time before a gust of wind blew and Kagura appeared before our little group. I didn't like it when InuYasha placed himself in danger for me. If I were to ever lose him….I wouldn't be able to survive. I thought of all the women throughout time who had to say goodbye to their husbands when they went out to war and felt like I now knew what that felt like, if only just a fraction.

"What the hell do you want?" asked InuYasha with a growl taking Tetsusaiga out. He was standing in front of the tree blocking me from her sight.

"Can it half-breed. I only came to confirm what the dead priestess said to Naraku" she said.

~InuYasha POV~

My blood ran cold.

What did she mean? What did Kikyo say to Naraku…and what was she doing giving information to the likes of him?

"What are looking for?" I snarled out trying hard to keep my demon in check.

Kagura looked at Sango and Miroku then to Shippo, narrowing her blood red eyes.

"I see you hid the little priestess…but I can smell her, and from what I smell, Kikyo was telling the truth. Her reincarnation is with child, and if her information is true, you are the father InuYasha" said Kagura flashing me with an evil grin "Tell me, why do you think Kikyo went to all the trouble to letting Naraku know this?"

I did not want to believe that Kikyo would just let Naraku have this information. How could she do this to me? If Naraku got a hold of Kagome and killed her, she had to know that this would destroy me. I knew I had made up my mind on who I wanted in my life, but I never would have thought Kikyo would betray me like this.

"Well it doesn't matter what you know cuz you're not going to live long enough to confirm it to Naraku" I snarled out before I let out a wind scar straight at the wind bitch.

I would never let anything hurt Kagome. I refused to lose her or my pups; they were my whole world and my reason for living.

~Kagome POV~

I swallowed as I watch Kagura dodged the wind scar and let out a 'dance of blades' at my mate. Some of those attacks missed my tree by mare inches. Looking around me I moved from my spot to go back a bit further away from the fighting when I heard InuYasha call out my name.

"KAGOME!"

Kagura had managed to get around him and was heading straight towards me. I felt my powers surge up in my panic when I saw her lift her fan and unleashed an attack sending thousands of air knives racing at me. Time seemed to have slowed down. I looked beyond Kagura and look at the frantic eyes of my mate and husband. My hands went to caress my swollen tummy.

No.

I was not going to let this woman touch my babies; I will not leave InuYasha without a fight.

I felt a tugging sensation leave from my body just in time to see a pink barrier from around me and deflect Kagrua's 'dance of blades'. I looked around me startled for a moment before I glanced down at my hands which where hold my belly gently as if reassuring my little ones.

I looked up and saw InuYasha's confused yet relived expression.

"Interesting" said Kagura looking at me with new interest "Your miko powers and your mates demonic powers mixed together with your pups to make one very powerful aura…Naraku will be most pleased with this information" with that she unclipped her head feather and was up in the air in the blink of an eye.

"Fuck!" cursed InuYasha making me jump slightly. What's going to happen now that Naraku knew about me? Would InuYasha send me home now?

I watched InuYasha's face; he was pissed and worried at the same time. I realized the stakes just went up in our mission to defeat him.

I was so afraid, my body still shaking from the aftermath that I didn't realize that I still had the barrier up.

I heard InuYasha's low growls, looking up at him I watched as he eyed the barrier hesitantly before stepping inside.

"Huh? It didn't block me" he said quietly then pulled me into his arms. I breathed in his scent finding comfort in it "Shippo see if you can pass" I heard him say.

I looked to see the barrier deflect Shippo from passing, it didn't work for Sango or Miroku either.

"Your pups know who their father is" I said softy against his chest.

InuYasha held me in his arms and waited for my body to stop shaking. I had come so close to dying and or losing my babies that I couldn't help the tears that flowed down my cheeks.

"It's okay…your safe" he whispered to me "I will never let anything hurt you"

I held on to him and let those words comfort me until I fell asleep against him.