"Why do you bother?" Sora asked me quietly. I knew what he meant. The brunette knows about my masochistic love and has issues with it but normally he's quiet and allows me to do what I want. I practiced my swinging and worked a bit on defense with him, and I knew that he was holding back. Normally I would have kicked his ass but today I really needed the leverage.

"Why do you bother going out with the little punk?" I asked referring to his sick and twisted relationship with Vivi. Sometimes Sora makes no sense and when he started going out with the little guy everyone put on a fake smile and nodded toward the happy couple, needless to say Roxas is not impressed. My best friend has a thing for the brunette and everyone but him knows it.

"He's cute and sweet. It's nice to be needed and dependable for once." He grinned at me not understanding that I was trying to end the conversation there. I stopped for a moment to get some water when I noticed Seifer walking past the gym room. He had glanced through the window and saw me, his lips were covered so I didn't see whatever cruel smile he gave but I did see something weird in his eyes.

It's the look that means he wants to hurt me even more. "I don't know why I bother, but I really do hope I become a masochist soon that way I'm not hating all this shit anymore." I sighed angrily and glared at the wall. Instantly Sora was in front of me with a flurry of attacks. I did my best to dodge and strike back but in the end I was on the ground panting while he just flashed me a kind smile and helped me up.

"You're okay with being in so much pain that you have problems standing your ground?" He asked me softly just as the bell rang. I quickly left and headed toward lunch. I'm lucky enough to get the first lunch of the day so that means I'm always outside on the wall outside the school looking over the grounds with whatever food I was able to grab on my way out the door this morning.

"Hayner!" Namine shouted happily and ran up to me. The blond is slow and not all that athletic but she needs points for trying. No matter what she never complains or argues because she knows better than we do how much she needs to prove to people. Her sister is a sadist with an evil laugh that can make you piss your pants, the girl's insults are good enough to kill too. Her tongue isn't a knife, it's a machine gun.

"Hey Namine." I smiled and helped her climb up the wall. It's ten feet high but sturdy and strong. I glanced back behind her and noticed Seifer and his gang hanging out not that far from us. He had a huge grin on his face as he told them some story while moving his hands around. I knew he was happy so it made me smile as well. Nami noticed this and took my hand.

"I support what you're doing as long as you confess soon." She whispered making me blink for a moment then glance back over at him. The group was laughing and Fuu was even smiling. They were close enough to let us see her smile, which is saying something. I could almost make out their conversations while being pleased they couldn't hear ours. Namine isn't loud and my voice always lowers to match hers.

I laughed at her. "Why don't you confess to Roxas?" I asked knowing the answer already. She looked down at the ground so I couldn't see her expression. We both know the blond likes girls and guys. It's not a question of whether or not he's into girls it's more of a whether or not he's into this girl. She looked up and smiled kindly at me.

"I shouldn't be pestering you about Seifer, I should know better than to do that. I can't confess to Roxas because he likes someone else, why won't you confess?" She asked me softly, and I knew I have to answer this one. When I saw the tears she was wiping away and the regret on her face I just can't stand to see this girl cry, it's the saddest thing in the world.

"I can't confess because he hates me. I'd rather see him a couple of damn times a day and fight then see him trying to get away from me and avoid my existence. Get it now, Namine?" I asked angrily but it was said in a soft tone. I hate it when she persists but I like ending these conversations quickly. She nodded and we began to eat. When I looked at Seifer again he was arguing with Fuu about something and Rai was trying to stop them. I never see those guys fight, I wonder what's up.

"Want to trade?" She asked holding up her fruity dessert. I smirked and grabbed it tossing her my brownie. Lunch with Namine is peaceful and normally uneventful too. With the rest of the gang they insist of talking about all sorts of crap the whole time but with us, we just hang out in the silence and eat. If it never works out for us maybe we could be together. It seems like an okay plan to me.

"Thank you for eating with me today." She smiled and left me alone just before the bell rang. I nodded absently and headed to my next class. Riku and Roxas are there with me along with Fuu and Rai. It seems like my schedule wants to kill me. Why can't I get a class full of strangers for once? I sighed softly and hurried to class feeling the pain in my stomach begin to subside.

I hope it heals soon.