Disclaimer: Magnus and Alec belongs to Cassandra Clare, and this story follow the books.
Chapter 3 : Morning Light
Magnus opened his eyes slowly, wondering what had woken him. He blinked rapidly as some grey light came into his eyes; he hadn't shut the curtains. When he felt a heavy pound resting on his stretched arm, he turned his head to the side, to gaze tenderly at the relaxed form breathing evenly beside him. Black hair ruffled by his own hands, smooth and flawless skin only marked by dark runes, claiming what Alec was... Magnus sighed. His longing for the shadowhunter hadn't diminished in the course of the night, it was even stronger now, blatantly staring back at him in the dim early morning.
The feeling of dread that had invaded him the night before was still nagging his heart restlessly, reminding him too accurately of his long years, his cynism, the heavy strain of his loneliness and the fact that he had fallen for Alec even though he had try to hold on some caution, some wariness. He had fail lamentably. Somehow caught again in human's beauty, Alec's particulary, his feeling of wonder and joy had come back from the dead, assaulting him when he had least expect it. His heart at ease was singing Alec's praise but Magnus's mind knew from 800 years of pain that this would not last... Rebellious at this thought, his heart gave a violent clench, hopeful as always and grudgingly acknowledging its own immortality.
Magnus rubbed the palm of his hand on his face, trying to shake the melancholy out of him... Faith. That's what he had promised himself and Alec last night. Maybe this would work. Giving himself a lopsided sad smile, Magnus inwardly admitted that Alec was one of the rare person he had meet that raised his spirit enough to actually make him believe that things could go well... Shutting his eyes irritably, Magnus was reminded again of his utter weakness regarding the gorgeous shadowhunter enfolded in his arms.
Because of Alec, emotions were floading him back again. His lightness and carelessness were feeling like a show more than ever. He didn't want to feel anymore... but he couldn't help himself. His conflicted thoughts were fighting through him; he would have given anything to feel loved again, alive again but he would also have given anything to stop the loss... the pain. He didn't want to bear the unbearable anymore. He was tired.
Alec's breath stirred slightly, brushing Chairman Meow's fur, who had obviously disdained his owner's concerns by cuddling into Alec's crooked arm, sharing his pillow with great satisfaction. He definitely loved Alec, his loud purring at the disturbance of his fur clear about where his affections laid. A hopeless chuckle shook in Magnus's throat... even his cat was obnoxiously refusing to face reality.
If yesterday night he had been anxious about Alec's confusion, his refusal to accept what he was and his stubborness to hide their eventual relationship; in the morning light, something much more awful was hitting him. As he had slowly discarded the plain physical attraction that had burn in him for Alec throughout the evening, depthness gradually embracing him, he had grow scared. He was getting attached, falling... and he would loose it all, yet again.
Which meant that Alec would die... and he wouldn't.
Magnus breath caught, choking him at the impending doom that was crawling in his mind. He shut his eyes tight, trying to even his exhales, to not be overwhelmed by the time, the years, that were always in ambush, waiting to crush him. His free hand was trembling on his chest, curved around his too fast beating heart.
As if he had heard his cue to come on stage, Alec moved groggily, grunting, one of the many adorable sound he could produce, awakeness claiming him. If possible, Chairman started purring louder, feeling his new love near of consciousness and inviting him to caress his soft fur with the sound of his hapiness. Magnus was in no better state as his heart stuttered, painfully longing for the shadowhunter's attention, to help him escape his mind's tortuous maze.
Magnus couldn't contain himself and he rolled on his side, sliding closer to Alec, his free hand rising to let his fingertips slowly brush Alec's spine from his neck to the hollow of his small back, delighting on the long shiver that rode Alec's skin, ending with a choked moan from his lover.
Even though Chairman meowed in the cuttest way, Alec didn't give him any attention and after a few seconds, he indignantly left the bed, walking out the door to find some plump couch who would be more worthy of his affection.
Magnus's hand was slowly traveling under the covers to reach Alec's behind while his mouth came down to featherly kiss his partner's neck. He definitely needed to change his mind if he, at least, wanted to give themselves a chance. Alec, as receptive as always, twisted in his arm to face him, a slow sensual smile playing on his lips. His sleepy blue eyes caught Magnus's cats ones and, slurring, he said :
- "God' mornin'..."
A mischevious smile spread on Magnus's features and he wishpered back, bending down :
- "Good morning, sleeping beauty..."
He didn't let Alec say anything else and he kissed him gently, no tongues involved, as morning's breath could be sometimes disturbing. Nonetheless, passion awakened and soon Alec was putting his arms around his neck, pressing his whole naked body against Magnus's one, moaning gently while his hands got lost in the silk, still covered in glitter, black hair.
Magnus resumed his previous intention and tossed the covers aside to grab Alec's bottom with obvious pleasure. Alec had the tightest, most ferm ass, he had ever laid hands upon. Somehow, training like a beast had some advantages. His hand moved down his thigh, giving it a slight tug to bring it upward around his waist. Alec, already panting, obliged graciously. When Magnus felt their crotches getting in contact, already both hard, he gasped and moved his mouth to Alec's ear, biting his lobe briefly and letting his tongue caress the side of his lover's neck, creating some impatience that expressed by Alec's rummaging hands on his back and bottom, his hips inducing a slight movement between them. Magnus chuckled a bit, happy of Alec's eagerness.
- "I thought you would never wake up" he said in a rasped voice, his breath lost in Alec's hair. "We definitely fell asleep too quickly last night, wasting all those hours, what a shame..."
He felt warmth coming off Alec's face, telling him of the furious blush that was spreading on his cheeks. Smiling wickedly, Magnus took advantage of his partner's embarrassment to meet him with a more emphatic motion of his hips. Alec's back arched and his lips escaped a low grunt, leaving Magnus prey to his now raging desire. He felt Alec's nails dig into his back as he claimed back his mouth, their hips now moving on their own will. At this point, they didn't care anymore about morning breath and became ravenous. As the passion was building up, Magnus was blindly searching with his hand for the lubricant they had dropped somewhere close last night. Not finding anything, he had to leave Alec's mouth and gazed around, growling in frustration.
Unfortunately for Magnus, these few seconds were all that Alec needed to snap back to present and awake completely from his sleep and the haze of passion. Still searching around, Magnus felt Alec tense all of a sudden and before he could say anything, Alec cried out, painfully close to his ear, in a frantic voice:
- "What? What time did you say it is?!"
Dubious and puzzled, Magnus said in a slow voice:
- "Well, I don't know... maybe five or six, something like that."
- "WHAT! I have to go!"
Pushing Magnus rudely off of him; he was surprisingly strong, he jumped off the bed, looking for his clothes anxiously. He found them quick enough and started to dress-up, as fast as a fireman, hiding his beautiful body to Magnus's sorry eyes. Completely taken aback and now pouting, Magnus simply muttered:
- "But... there's still plenty of time. You said your family wasn't expecting you till morning. That's not before nine o'clock."
Alec stopped in his tracks, now putting his boots on, and looked at him incredulously.
- "Everybody at the institute is up at six, what are you talking about!"
It was Magnus's turn to look incredulous and he exclaimed:
- "Why? Why woud you do that? It's way too early!"
Exasperated, Alec exhaled raggedly and muttered to himself:
- "I shouldn't have fallen asleep... damnit!"
And in a stronger voice, looking at Magnus:
- "Why did you let me sleep! I told you I had to be back by morning! FUCK!"
He shouted this last word, grabbing his hair in his hands, panicking.
Magnus, somber by the minute, looked at the clock and saw that it was indeed 5h30 already, giving Alec no time to come back before eveyone would be awake. He was angry, all his doubts and frustrations about Alec's situation coming back at him, not mentioning that he was still totally turned on. What was wrong with him? He stood up, in his glorious nudity, making Alec blush, even though he was freaking out and snapped at him:
- "Don't worry! You'll be back in time, do not fear anyone's knowing about your whereabout of the night, what a shame would that be! I'll make a portal!"
Alec, struck speechless by Magnus's outburst, blushed even more. So much for courage... what a coward he was. Hating himself even more, Magnus heard Alec answer eagerly:
- "Thank you... that should give me just enough time, yes."
Snorting disdainfully, Magnus putted his pajamas pants on and walked away to the living room, not looking at Alec anymore, most definitely frustrated. He heard Alec's footstep follow him, though in a more hesitant manner.
When he turned around to glance at his lover, he saw that Alec's expression was no more anguished but ashamed. Seeing Magnus stare him down, he looked at his shoes, again. Unable to shake his anger, Magnus told him in a rough voice:
- "Here, that's where I do all of my portals" pointing a corner of the living room "this will take me five minutes, get ready."
He turned back to the wall, started the spells and within minutes, as he had say, the portal was ready, waiting for his traveller to go through. He felt Alec by his side, shy and silent. Magnus was fuming, anger breathing out of his pores so it's with a lot of suprise that he felt Alec's fingers entangling with his.
Although he felt like it, Magnus didn't take back his hand. His emotions were upside down and even if he was pissed with Alec, he was still craving for his touch and presence... and he was calling Alec the coward? He was becoming less backboned than a slug.
- "I'm sorry" Alec said. "I don't want to leave either but... I'm not ready yet. I cannot face them, even less unprepared because of my own stupid mistake... I shouldn't have shout at you, it's all my fault, I wasn't expecting that." His blush came back violently on these words."You..." he cleared his throat, uncomfortable... "really know what you're doing Magnus and you got me dropping dead like a rock, exhausted." His blush was the color of brick, eyes on the floor. "Again, I'm sorry... if you could only be patient..." Alec's voice slowly struggled, his eyes cast downside, an unhappy pout forming on his lips. "Will I see you again?"
Magnus, back stiff, but still holding Alec's hand, didn't know what to do. He looked down into Alec's eyes and the blue swirls swallowed him again. He briefly thought about what laid in front of him... multiple mornings, nights, moments, where this scenario would be repeated. Just thinking about it made him weary. Although, at this moment, Alec's face started to fell even more in front of his growing silence. His fingers slowly untangled from his and before his hand was gone, Magnus was already catching it back, his heart racing and stuttering at the idea of not seeing Alec again... he had said he would try.
Now was the moment to know if he could make this step, forget his doubts and move ahead.
As soon as Magnus had grabbed his fingers back, Alec's face had lit up, giving him a shy smile, blushing lightly. Sighing his deafeat but also accepting his leap of faith, Magnus bent down and gently brushed Alec's lips with his own, savouring what he would be deprived of for at least a whole day.
- "Call me" he said in a husky voice. "And don't you dare making this a mundane game and wait three days before doing so! Then, I would be really angry."
Alec chuckled, his smile widening and murmured against his mouth:
- "I wouldn't be able to wait that long..."
Alec still chuckling and smiling when he crossed the portal, turned around at the last moment, looking back at him, sparkles in his eyes. He waved his hand and disappeared...
Magnus felt a strange tug in his heart... as if future had shared a glimpse of his mystery with him, of his unfaltering destiny. He thought that it was probably more his fear to keep on living by himself that had allowed him to be patient with Alec and also with himself. Altought, there was still one thing remaining between them... his immortality.