YOU WOULDN'T LIKE ME
Chapter 16
I really need to thank my friend Nikola Stec for giving me an awesome idea which will be the main cause of drama in the story.
Hope you enjoy it.
Lindsey POV
I am lying in bed crying. I should be happy and excited because Tegan will be back from tour tomorrow but I wasn't. I was glad the months of torture were over and I could finally see my fiancé again but I know she will look me in the eyes and notice something's wrong. We talked on the phone almost every day but it was easier to lie to her through mobile than face-to-face. She would find out anyway and it will break her heart. Maybe I should just leave and never come back. I haven't slept in days. Whenever I close my eyes memories of that night rush trough my mind.
It was a normal day: Stacey and I were going to a bar. We had a few shots, joked around and danced, as we always did but after my maybe tenth drink I started to feel extremely light-headed and I think someone put something into my drink. I don't remember what else happened that night but I remember what I saw when I woke up the next morning. I was lying naked in a stranger's bed and as I looked to my side I saw him. Michael was lying next to me also completely naked. I felt a knot form in my gut. I quickly got up and left running as fast as possible home and pulling Tegan's pillow to my face just to smell what was still there of here. I promised her to call as soon as I woke up but I couldn't. I was too ashamed, too angry of myself and of Michael but what was worst was that I knew I broke her heart. It was a big mistake that led to an even bigger one.
I wake up to the sound of my alarm clock. In the same moment my anxiety grew even bigger than it was the day I found out. Tegan's plane will land in a couple hours and I will be there, playing loving girlfriend, even though I already feel like Tegan broke up with me.
I got into my car and headed to the airport. When I arrived Tegan's flight already landed and people were greeting each other. My eyes searched for my love. Suddenly I felt a warm body gripping around my waist. A smile spread on my face and I quickly turned around to face her. There she was the person who changed my life. Without saying anything I pressed my lips against hers passionately and she kissed me back with equal passion. Suddenly the whole world seemed perfect again. But my smile faded as I remembered my little secret.
Tegan POV
I thought every second about her. It isn't the way I am but I even started planning our wedding I wanted to surprise her with my ideas and show her that it's something I really want. I looked at her and couldn't help but notice something was different about her, she looked tired and she seemed thinner than she was before. But maybe it's because I haven't seen her in more than two months.
"I've missed you so much" I admit as I hug her tight.
"I missed you too, Tegan" She put her head in the crotch of my neck and I felt tears running down my neck.
"Don't cry Lindsey. I'm here now." She looked me in the eyes and nodded slightly
"I know" Something about her reaction seemed sad, but why would she be sad? Is she sad because I'm back?
"I love you" I whispered into her ear and she replied by pressing her lips against mine again.
"I love you too" She said after parting our lips.
The drive home was silent. She didn't ask questions about the tour and I didn't ask her about the time she was alone here. She looked like she was daydreaming I tried to tell her a funny fan- story but she just didn't seem to notice I was talking to her, so I shut up and stayed silent. As we arrived home I immediately ran up to the bedroom and threw myself onto the bed. I missed my house, I missed my pool but I missed Lindsey most. I wrapped my arms around her as I felt her weight on the bed in front of me. I missed spooning with her.
"Tegan" I heard her soft voice say.
"Yeah" She sat up and looked at me with a serious expression.
"I….I'm…" Her sobs interrupted the sentence. What will she tell me? Did she cheat on me? Did I do something wrong? Am I not enough?
"It's okay, baby you can tell me" I pulled her into a tight embrace and I felt my own tears start to fall. Whatever she wants to tell me, it will be bad.
"Michael…. I…" Was all she could says but I understood everything.
"You cheated on me with Michael" I stated and she nodded her head. I felt the anger rise in me and I pulled away from her. Her head was low and she looked at the ground.
"Look at me" I said between sobs. She didn't move a bit.
"I said LOOK AT ME!" This time I shouted. Lindsey looked up at me with a shocked expression and tears in her eyes. She opened her mouth to say something but closed it again because there was nothing she could say to make this situation better. I collected my thoughts most of them very angry, some of them suggested I should kill myself right now.
"Why?" Was all I could get out of my mouth.
"I was drunk Tegan, I swear…" My anger didn't let her finish the sentence.
"How come you get drunk with Michael?" I asked and she had no answer to that. I looked down at the ring in my hand and felt the urge to take it off and throw it in the ocean but my mind said 'no'. I couldn't throw Lindsey away because of the mistake she made. Everything in me wanted to hate her but I couldn't, instead a stream of tears started forming in my eyes. Both of us cried hysterically it took me half an hour to be able to speak again.
"Is there anything else you'd like to tell me?" I knew I could forgive Lindsey, fuck I already forgave her and whatever she had to say could just be a part of the pain I feel now so I wouldn't have to go through it again but what she said next tore me apart.
"I….I'm…pregnant"
I hope I didn't upset you too much and I can tell you most dramatic part wasn't there yet. I'll try to post a new chapter as soon as possible but it might take some time.