YOU WOULDN'T LIKE ME
Chapter 17
Don't hate me!
I know, I know, you waited a while for this chapter but I was thinking about everything that could happen now before I decided how this story continues.
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Lindsey POV
"I….I'm…pregnant" The pain in her expression made me want to kill myself. How could I let this happen? Without saying anything she slowly turned around and made her way out of the room. As soon as she left I heard her hit the wall multiple times before there's nothing more than silence.
Tegan POV
My hand hurt but that pain couldn't compare with the one I felt in my heart. She cut it out. How could something that felt so right, punch me in the face?
I ran into the kitchen and searched for the bottle vodka I bought to celebrate our reunion. I found it, opened it and drank from the bottle.
I should kill myself. I don't see the point anymore. Fuck Michael. Fuck Lindsey. Fuck everybody. I don't need them, I don't need anything anymore. I'll fucking kill Michael!
My anger overtook me and I threw the half empty bottle against the kitchen wall. Millions tiny pieces of glass spread on the floor and I looked for the biggest piece to step on. I felt the sharp form dig into my flesh and saw the blood through my socks. I sat down on the floor and took a big part of the bottle and started stabbing myself in the arm. Blood splashed everywhere and I felt my body getting tired. Finally I stopped every movement and let the blood slowly leave my body.
"Tegan!" Lindsey screamed as she saw me lying on the floor.
Lindsey POV
My tears won't stop streaming as I sit Tegan down on the couch and take a wet towel to clean her cuts. She looks lost and emotionless. I did this to her. My life could have been perfect but I screwed up. I hate myself and my life and the child that's growing inside me. I just want to cut it out and burn it.
After a while Tegan fell asleep on the couch but as I tried to carry her o the bedroom she opened her eyes and looked at me, still emotionless.
"I'm sleeping on the couch" She whispered, her eyes slowly filling with anger and pain. I said a small 'okay' and left her to go to bed. I managed to keep my tears inside until I closed the door behind me and broke the dam that's build up in my eyes. I cried so hard I thought blood would stream down my cheeks any time. I've never felt this before, Tegan made me feel wonderful and loved and I made myself feel destroyed and like a monster.
Last night I had the worst nightmare ever. Everything I once had disappeared into a big hole in the ground. My friends, my family and Tegan just jumped into the dark space without turning back. I was alone in this world haunted by good memories and once in a while I saw Tegan standing on the other side of the road. She took the ring off her finger and threw it to my face before turning into a black cloud and flying away.
I heard the front door close and immediately jumped out of bed and ran downstairs into the living room. I started to panic as saw that Tegan wasn't there. I ran to the bathroom and into the garden but there was no sign of her. Nowhere.
I ran into the kitchen and found a letter with my name on top. I slowly opened it and found a small note inside.
It said:
I'm sorry. I can't.
-T
I noticed another object in the envelope and quickly fished it out. It was Tegan's engagement ring. No! She can't do this.
I ran onto the street and looked left and right.
"Tegan!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as my tears left my eyes. I collapsed on the pavement with my forehead leaning against the hard concrete.
This can't be happening. It's just a bad dream. I'll wake up any second in Tegan's arms. Then she'll kiss me and tell me that everything's fine.
"Lindsey" My head shot up but fell back as I saw Emy's figure staring down at me.
"Get inside now!" She demanded in a tone that scared me. I did as she said and got on my feet, slowly walking back inside.
"I'm here to get Tegan's stuff" Emy said softer now but still very angry. My tears made their way back to my eyes and were starting to slowly leave them. Emy didn't even look at me as she collected everything that belonged to Tegan and stuffed it into big boxes. She took everything, except for her guitars and keyboards.
"I'll be back for the instruments next week." She told me.
"Where is she?" I asked to ashamed to look into her eyes.
"In a very dark place, Lindsey" Emy said pissed. I simply nodded. There were no tears left to shed. At least that's what I thought until my face was wet again.
"Tell her that…" I was cut off by Emy.
"Shut up Lindsey! I thought you were different but I guess I was wrong, you're one of those fucking bitches who just want to ruin someone's life." Emy snapped.
"That's not true! I never wanted to ruin Tegan's life. I wanted to make her happy." I shouted at her.
"Then why didn't you do so?" This question was like a stab into my heart. She was right. She turned around and headed out the door.
"Goodbye Lindsey. I suggest you find another place before Sara finds out about this." She said as she got in her car and drove away.
My nightmare came true. I was alone everyone I loved was gone and I was standing on the street with every memory inside.