YOU WOULDN'T LIKE ME
Chapter 20
Lindsey POV
I haven't felt this comfortable in years. This woman makes me go crazy. I want to tell her that I love her, but should I?
Our moment's interrupted by Sara's voice.
"Guys we have to finish!" She doesn't sound happy about what just happened. What did just happen? She jumped off stage and we hugged. Quickly Tegan lets go of me and hops back on stage. The crowd goes crazy and some of them seem happy but the majority gives me angry glares. Suddenly they start shouting question and calling me names.
Bitch! Tegan don't do it, she ruined your life. Go away Lindsey! You don't deserve her. Why did you do it? How's the baby? How can you even look at yourself in the mirror? Die! You don't deserve to be treated like a human being.
All those comment made Lindsey feel nauseas; her head feels light, her eyelids feels heavy and her stomach feels like someone turned everything upside down. She understands why everybody hates her but she never expected them to be so open about it. All of the sudden her legs weren't able to hold her body and she collapsed on the floor. Everything around her seems like a white room filled with fog. She feels hands grab her body and hears voices but doesn't understand a word.
I open my eyes and find myself in an unfamiliar room. The walls are white and there's a little bathroom and cupboards in here. I'm lying on a couch in a corner and on the opposite corner I can see Tegan's figure, head in her hands, sitting on the floor. Her head shoots up as I get up from the couch and make my way over to her, but my legs are too weak and I almost fall on the floor. Tegan catches my body before it hit the floor. She slowly lifts me up and carries me back to the couch and lays me down. Then she sits down on the floor next to me, our heads just inches apart. Her eyes are red from crying but they still are the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
After a moment of silence she finally speaks. "I'm sorry" She says through sobs.
"What?" I ask confuse, shouldn't I be the one to be sorry?
"I shouldn't have left you. You were pregnant and you were alone. I can't even imagine how hard it must have been for you" It is true I was alone but it was my entire fault.
"It's my fault Tegan…I ruined what we had, I deserved it" A single tear runs down my face.
"Nobody deserves that… to be left by their fiancé. I'm an asshole Lindsey I should've…" Before she could finish the sentence I interrupted.
"No Tegan! I am the asshole, I cheated on you, I got pregnant, I haven't even tried to get you back, I am a horrible mother and now after two years I finally have enough courage to talk to you. I don't even know why I'm still alive"
Tegan POV
The last thing she said totally broke my heart. I don't know what I would do if she died. Even the thought of that makes my heart ache and I say the first thing that comes to my mind.
"Because if you were dead I would be too" I mean it and she knows it. She turns her head to look at me. Her expression is pained, sad and heartbroken, just like mine. Sara told me that if I saw Lindsey again I should slap her and call her names and tell her that I hate her but I can't, because I love her too much to hurt her.
"I love you" These word have been arrested in me for so many years and now they escaped and there's no chance for me to capture them and put them behind bars again. Before her tears start to fall freely she wraps her arms around my neck and buries her face into my neck.
"I'm so sorry Tegan" She cries into my neck "I love you too" These words made my tears stream down my face like a waterfall. I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her as close into me as I can.
"I missed you so much" She mumbles into me and I hold her even tighter.
"Can you forgive me?"
"I already did" I answer without hesitation. I pull away from the embrace to look into her eyes. After all this time I finally feel like a human again and the spark in her eyes make me smile. She smiles back and I finally see how beautiful she really is.
"You're beautiful" My words make her smile.
"It's been two years since the last time you said that" her tone is half excited and half sad.
"If you're my girlfriend, I will tell you everyday" Her eyes grow wider and she stutters "You mean…You want…" I nod "Do you want to be my girlfriend again?" I have never been so sure in my entire life.
Instead of answering she pressed her lips against mine and a weird and beautiful feeling that I had a few years ago suddenly comes back to me. My heart beats unbelievable fast. I kiss back and our lips part at the same time allowing each other to explore what's ours. Our tongues dance in harmony. I don't want this moment to end. She takes my hand and places it over her heart. It beats with the same intensity as mine. I know that's love, when she told me that she loved me she meant it with her whole heart.