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"Does she know?" I recognized the voice as Edwards father. I was extremely groggy and I couldn't open my eye's so I listened hoping it would end my confusion.

"I don't know, if she did she hadn't told me yet." that was Edward. When I heard the pain in his voice I tried to force myself awake but I couldn't no matter how much I wanted to wake up I would just have to lay here until my body would listen.

"Edward, she ran herself ragged she is malnourished and slightly dehydrated if she had continued how she was going she could have lost the baby." Wait what baby. I was so confused and then it clicked, the nausea, the exhaustion, and I had been more irritable then I normally, I was pregnant. How had I not seen it, admittedly Edward would have had I told him how I had been feeling but I hadn't wanted him to worry so I hadn't told him.

"I knew she was keeping something from me but I think with everything going on she hadn't wanted to worry me. I could see that she was overworking herself but I didn't know it was this bad." He seemed so pained I wish I could just wake up and ease that pain.

"I'm sure that once she knows she will be more careful with her body and everything else." Carlisle paused I could picture him placing his hand on Edwards shoulder, "You love her Edward and she loves you will work this out."

I heard a door open and then close again and I knew we were alone. I could feel Edward holding my hand in his and I could hear his breathing and slowly I could feel the heaviness lift away from my mind. Slowly I opened my eyes and saw that I was no longer in our bedroom but in a hospital room. It made sense since apparently I was malnourished and slightly dehydrated and considering I was also pregnant being in the hospital wasn't surprising to me at all.

I shifted which signaled to Edward that I was awake he looked up quickly and I gave him a small smile, "Hi," I whispered

"Hey, Love how are you feeling?" He asked returning my smile but I could see the worry in his eyes.

"Okay, I think," I paused and did a silent assessment of my body. Right now I was just thirsty so I asked, "Can I get some water?"

He instantly reached over to the bedside table to grab the pitcher of water and cup that sat there, he poured me some water then handed me the cup.

I drank it down in one shot and motioned for more, after downing about three cups I looked at Edward and asked, "Where are the kids?"

He gave me a small smile and shook his head in awe, "Rose and Emmett are with them right now, then my mother will be with them tomorrow and as long as she feels we need her which might just be until the school year is over for you."

"Knowing Esme she'll be there forever if she could get away with it," I paused and looked down at my hands then looked back at him, "Edward I didn't know, about the baby I mean. I swear if I had known I wou..." He held a finger to my lips to stop me then.

"Bella I'm sure you would have and I'm sure it goes without saying that baby or no baby you should have been taking care of yourself." He brought his other hand up to hold mine and removed the finger from my lips, "We can't go back but we can go forward, from now on promise me you will take it easy. Please for me and the baby?"

I looked into his beautiful green eyes and I already promised myself that I would take better care of myself but I felt this overbearing need to promise him as well, "I promise, I will take better care of myself and the baby."

I got out of the hospital a few days later on Wednesday. Edward had told me that he had gotten home with the kids and went to find me. He had found me on the bed pale he had tried to wake me and when I didn't wake up he had called Rose and then as soon as she got there rushed me to the hospital here in Forks. I had been a bit shocked to hear that considering his history with the hospital but he had explained that he was too shook up and worried about me to care where he was and he didn't trust anyone but Carlisle to care for me. And since Carlisle was head of the hospital here he brought me here putting aside his anger and pain that came with being anywhere near the hospital. I had been out for two days I had woken up Sunday night. Edward had also told me that I was about two months pregnant and knowing that we had only not used protection once, I knew exactly when we had conceived, our first time.

Rose ever the best friend brought me all the work I missed and spent all of Wednesday night helping me finish it so I wasn't behind in anything. I didn't need her help really but if I told her that she wasn't needed she would have been hurt and me ever the people pleaser didn't want her to put her through that so I had let her stay.

The rest of the week flew by with Edward keeping a constant eye on my habits and making sure I ate. It was rather annoying but I let him do it because I knew it made him feel better.

I took to sitting back and watching Edward and the kids every night as they did their nightly routine and just reveled in awe at the life I was making with them.

I did this and I didn't need to hurt anyone to make my life happy or live it the way I wanted to. I promised myself long ago that I would not be Renee and I know now that I never will be. Looking at Edward and his kids and our lives together I don't see how she could ever leave what she had but it's her loss and I won't ever make that mistake.