Hey everyone. i am so sorry for the late update but I very very recently lost my 17 y/o cat and I was pretty much bed ridden for a while. RIP JennyCat. Anyway, here is the last chapter for this story. Thank you all for reading and reviewing!
Luke's POV
Everything was a bit of a blur. From getting married, finding out Rory is pregnant, getting married again, to getting to Nantucket and being pleasantly surprised at Emily's reaction.
I knew Lorelai was more than relieved that there was no tension and anger, considering her reaction when Lorelai was 16. Although similar, the situation is fairly different.
If anything, I feel...excited, happy, proud...maybe a few other things. I love Rory just as much as I love April. She's been like my daughter since way before Lorelai and I ever got together, I had a friendship with Rory first. I've been through a lot with Rory. Elementary school, Chilton, graduation, college, boyfriends, the campaign trail, all her jobs...I feel like her father.
Of course, if I told her any of that, no matter if she appreciated it or not, I'd lose my rep as gruff diner guy and they plaster me with softy, or teddy bear. Not something I'm willing to walk around with. Maybe I'll tell her kid one day.
I'm watching Lorelai sleep. She just had a meltdown about becoming a grandmother. I knew it was coming and honestly, I thought it would have been sooner. I think I'm ready, maybe not for April to be a mom, but Rory? Sure. She's done a lot in life, she's had a great life and so what, that wasn't planned? Nothing is stopping her from doing what she loves. Having a kid isn't a career death sentence.
Lorelai looks so beautiful, she's happy. I hope marrying me had some sort of helping hand in that. I was so scared that night she came home from her 'hiking trip', I felt it for weeks before she left, the distance. It was heartbreaking really, and I suppose I've never really explained to her how much I love her and how much she means to me. When we spent that year apart ten years ago, I don't think I was ever as miserable as that. Maybe when my dad died, but that was a different kind of misery. This was a physical ache and every time I saw her with Chris, it was like getting punched in the stomach over and over. I've always loved Lorelai.
That ache was present again when she took off on her trip. Not knowing when she would come back and not knowing what was going to happen after. I just knew that I had to do everything in my power to make sure she didn't leave me, it would have killed me, maybe literally. I remember the conversation we had after she told me we were going to get married, finally. She tried to joke about the things I said in the kitchen that night, but she realised how serious I was. That I would do just about anything to keep her with me. I told her, like I've told her before, I just like to see her happy, but I want to be the one who makes her happy.
'You make me happier than I've ever been, Luke'
She was sincere and that made me melt. It's not often that Lorelai is serious, which is one of the things I love most about her, but when we're alone, in bed or just hanging out on the couch, she can switch the funny off and be in the moment and talk real with me. I'm a serious man, but I don't like to talk about my feelings a lot, and if I do it's only with her. We've missed many opportunities in the past to have a child of our own and I know that's something she was worried about, of course I wanted to have a 'fresh kid', as she so weirdly put it, but I don't love my life any less because we never did. I love the home we made, I love Paul Anka, I love making dinner most nights and just sitting on the couch watching the strangest movies and shows, I love coming home to Lorelai everyday and talking about nothing and everything. I'm comfortable and happy. I hope she sees that, I hope she realises that that is all I want.
We have communication issues, we know it. We've always had those issues, I know that it took her a long time to trust me after everything that happened once April came into my life, I understood that then and I understand it now. And, to be honest, I had a hard time trusting her again after she went to Christopher, but I do trust her. You can't be with someone for as long as we have and not have trust, it doesn't work. I've never doubted her feelings since, I know she loves me, we probably don't tell each other half as much as we should but we make it known in other ways. I do things for her that I don't necessarily like doing, town meetings, cooking for Paul Anka, flowery/girly bed linens, making junk food without complaining (sometimes). I love her and I wouldn't do any of those things if I didn't, I know they're not grand gestures but considering the type of man I am, well it doesn't matter because if those things let her know that I care then I will continue to do them. She's learnt to do a few things for me that let me know that she cares about and loves me. She helps me close the diner, she occasionally will go fishing with me, she lets me watch the ball game on Sunday and will sit there and listen to me talk about it, she does eat her vegetables when I ask. But still, hearing those three words, its nice and I'm going to try and say it more.
I'm happy to be her husband now. I was happy to be her boyfriend before. Just as long as I'm with her in any way that I can be, I'm happy. I think she's happy too.
Logan's POV
I was terrified, but excited. That phone call caught me off guard and hearing the nervousness and the almost horror in Rory's voice when she told me broke my heart. It was as if she was scared that I would flip out and leave her to do everything all on her own. This was just as much my doing as hers. She had to know that I was not the flaky, scared little boy I was in college.
Coming back to the states was the best thing to do. I had my apartment in London, I had my job and...Odette, and as horrible as it sounds, letting go of Odette was probably the easiest of all of those to get out of. I kept my job of course, I will always have my job. Rory was more important, the most important. I knew she had her doubts about my commitment, she had every right to. I wasn't a great boyfriend, I spent a lot of time partying, I spent a lot of time not with her, I was never a family man except when it came to my sister. I needed her to see that I have grown up, I am a man who can be there and raise our child however she wants it raised.
Telling my father, that could have gone differently. I told Rory that I would tell him sooner rather than later so, I called him right after I spoke to her, he was furious. In his eyes all he saw was his disappointment of a son knocking 'some girl' up and then running off into the sunset with her, forgetting about his responsibilities. When in actual fact, I got the woman I love pregnant and now I'm running too my responsibilities. I want this, I want to be there for her and I want to have that perfect family life. I want to show my child what I missed out on when I was a kid, love. I want our kid to know their family, to be told that they're loved and spoiled with culture and experiences, not money. Because I know what money does to people. It makes them greedy and forget about what really matters.
The fear in Rory's eyes wasn't much of a surprise when I saw her again. I had an inkling as to how she thought I would react, comparing me to my father, which hurt because she knows me, she knows that I am nothing like him. That's why I had to say what I said, without interruption, I had to get it out before she jumped to conclusions and kicked me out of told me 'it's okay to run away' like I thought she might have.
I can tell now that she's happy, she's excited and I'm glad that I could help her in that. I'm glad that Lorelai has accepted my role in this and isn't silently angry at me for getting her only child into this predicament. A silent Lorelai is much scarier than an openly verbal angry Lorelai. I think she could tell that I had changed and that maybe I was ready for this, even if Rory wasn't. Lorelai has accepted me and so has Emily, and Luke too, I guess.
I love Rory. I have for a long time. It took me a long time to get there but that was when I was a scared little boy. I think it's a Gilmore Girl thing. Once you're in love with one, you can never get out, even if you wanted to. I consider Luke and I to be the luckiest men in the world. We each have a Gilmore Girl and we should be grateful that they even looked our ways, because these women are special, unique people that have everything they need without us. They're self sufficient, independent, strong women, they're unintentional heart breakers. They're full of life, they're effervescent, intelligent, beautiful, crazy women.
Rory is the love of my life, our child will be the love of my life. I'm excited to be a part of this family. I wanted it years ago, I want it still now. I'm ready for this, I'm excited and ecstatic. It took me too long to get here, and now that I am here, I never want to leave.
Again, thank you all for reading this. I've now come to terms with the last for words of AYITL and now I can move on to all the other JavaJunkie fic ideas I have. Please leave me a review for this final chapter :)
