Warning: Heavy Angst/Hurt/Comfort

[y/n] is you name

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With a heavy heart and anxious mind, you wait for Cisco just around the corner from his meeting. The Grief Counseling meeting had just gotten over, and you knew how difficult it was for him to leave the meetings alone.

It had become a habit, between the two of you, that no matter what you'd both go for coffee or an easy meal after every meeting. Something about food and the comforting feeling that it brought, always brought up both of your spirits.

It wasn't even a minute later that he finally emerged from the room, and noticed you standing in the hall. With a casual nod and pained expression, he nodded to you.

Just recently, you'd lost your sister. She was killed in a bank robbery, and you had been having trouble dealing with her passing.

That's where you met him.

Cisco had been in one of the meetings you'd attended, and in the few months you'd known him, he'd become a really close friend. But, just recently, he'd become more more distant. Instead of attending his normal meeting times, he'd gone out of his way to go to meetings that you couldn't attend. He'd also been ignoring your calls and avoiding you all together.

This was the first time you'd seen him in almost two weeks.

Cisco's bright outlook and contagious smile had grown over the months you two had spent together, but the way he looked now, right now he looked devastated.

Reluctantly, he sought after you, approaching slowly, and with his hands nestled into his pockets.

" Hey."

Cisco sighed a single word at you, not taking the time to muster up a full sentence.

" Two weeks, huh.. " You casually speak back at him, pushing yourself up and off of the wall you were just resting against.

" It's-uh.. Been a busy few weeks, " he lied.

You'd finally worked up the courage to ask him again. Bringing up Dante's death had become a touch and go type of subject. Either he wanted to completely empty his heart to you, or just the mention of Dante's name made his blood boil.

"You can talk to me about it, you know," You speak after taking in a deep breath. If there was something you knew, it was how to be persistent.

"Yeah. I know. But when I say it out loud... it feels real, and I don't want it to be real."

Cisco's voice was weak and distant, and you could tell by his body posture and demeanor, the he didn't want to even see you.

" You keep avoiding me, Cisco I-"

You try to interrupt him, stop him from saying something that maybe he'd regret later, but the point he was trying to make was so important to him, that your feelings could wait.

" I, I-don't think we should, meet.." Cisco paused, clearing his voice and shifting his eyes from yours, " anymore.."

He finally looked up and met eyes with you, and the man looking back was someone unfamiliar, someone who she hadn't met before.

" You're pushing me away.."

You speak clearly and directly at him as your brow furrowed and and your smile formed into a thin, unsure line.

" I just, I- " Cisco's beautiful bronzed skin began to pale, as he struggled to form the feeling he needed to convey. Finally, he spat a hurtful handful of words at you.

" I don't like being around you, [y/n].. I don't want to see you.. DO you get it? " Cisco's voice had gone from snide to belittling, and as he finished speaking, he flashed you an angry expression, and walked straight past you with a stiff lip.

"OH-oh! "

A frantic, excited woman's voice shot from across Jitters and at you.

Cisco's very blunt, and devastatingly honest confession had left her speechless.

You had gone to Jitters to get some coffee and reflect, maybe start looking for a new place to live.

" New place to live...what.. "

You speak allowed to yourself, a sour look passing over your face as you realized what you just said, and how ridiculous you were being. Moving over something that a close friend had said to you? You sounded ridiculous.

But still, your heart was telling you that you needed to leave.

Cisco had become more important to you then you, or maybe he, had even realized.

Caitlin waved eagerly from across Jitters, and before coming over to meet you, she quickly grabbed a coffee.

This was not what you needed right now.

Caitlin had met you through Cisco, and every week she'd find you, and try to have dinner or coffee. You'd tried to avoid her, but Caitlin was very persistent.

" So-so? "

Caitlin threw her bag down next to you and with a bright smiling face, sat down.

" I've been waiting all day, what did you say? "

Cailtin's amber eyes lit up, as she placed her coffee down on the table in front of the two of you, to give you her full, undivided attention.

" To? "

Your voice trailed off, as you looked at her with a deep confused look.

There were a few moments of silence between the two of you, followed by another confused expression and pause.

" Didn't you go and talk to Cisco? "

Caitlin's confused expression lifted as she began to smile again.

" Yeah, he spoke to me.."

You reply, shifting your glance from her eyes and to the ground.

" Oh my god, AND? "

Your face twisted again, and you cleared your throat, still not making eye contact with her.

" He, uh.. Said he never wanted to see me again.."

Caitlin's face was paralyzed with confusion and doubt, but her mouth opened and closes a few times, trying to form a coherent sentence.

" He, " She paused, blinking a few times and pushing her hair behind her ears, clearing her view to focus.

" DID WHAT!?"

You shifted back in your chair, as he voice grew from just above a whisper and to a full shout.

" He just, said he didn't like me, and- "

" No, " Caitlin brought up her hands, her face becoming disturbed.

" No-no-no, he-he wasn't supposed to do that.. "

Caitlin brought up a hand to her mouth, still so unsure of what was happening.

" I'm gunna, head home.. " You speak in a reluctant tone.

Caitlin brought up her hands to stop her, but couldn't quite bring herself to do it.

You weren't even a half black away when she finally caught up to you.

" He was supposed to ask you, if you wanted to go on a date.. "

Caitlin blurted out behind you without notice.

You recognized the voice and immediately stopped, not quite sure what you had just heard.

" He.. he was supposed to ask you out, [y/n]."

Caitlin was out of breath, and had to put a hand onto your shoulder to keep her balance. With a slow, struggling breath, she continued.

" You.. " She paused, looking up and letting her hopeful eyes meet your faded ones, "You need to go talk to him.."

Your shoulders slouched and a snide smile spread across your face, " Listen.. "

" No! You listen, go-please! He's having such a hard time, and he won't speak to me and Barry's been absolutely no help. "

Your lips pursed together, as your eyes lost focus in thought.

One last try.

You'd give this, one last try. Cisco meant that much to you, and if you were honest with yourself, you knew you would regret it the rest of your life if you didn't at least try.

You knew he would be at S.T.A.R Labs, and you knew, right now, he should be alone.

You took a cab, and couldn't help but feel your stomach turn in excitement, as you remembered how many late nights you'd spent together. How many conversations you'd had with him about Dante, and his childhood with Cisco. About how bad the funeral was, and how his parents were more upset about how Cisco was alive and how Dante was dead.

There had been nights that both of you had stayed up until 3 am, just talking about your favorite foods or how much you guys hated certain songs or TV shows. Any strange or trivial shit in your lives that no one else wanted to hear, you told each other.

Both of you had eaten and slept next to one another over dozens of times, each comforting the another when they'd have nightmares or sleep terrors. Just knowing that someone was next to you when you felt your weakest, your darkest, it was beyond words.

That's why you knew you needed to at least try.

The cab dropped you off just outside the entrance of S.T.A.R Labs, and you took a brief moment to yourself, knowing full well that this could go south very quickly.

You knew this feeling in your gut, but ignored it for the moment.

The chest tightening-heart pounding-unbelievably annoying feeling that you were feeling right now. The unexplainable, euphoric happiness that you could literally feel wanting to spill out of you.

This, was love.

There was a chance that the feelings wouldn't be reciprocated, but that doubt was down so deep that you hadn't even considered it.

You'd only been to the lab a few times, so navigating around took a few minutes, but when you finally found him, he was in a dimly lit, quiet room, his hands hovering over a work bench as he toyed with an electronic gadget.

Your saw him, luckily, before he saw you.

With a deep breath, you push your hair behind your ears, your shoulder shuffling involuntarily as you tried to rid your body of any anxiety.

" Cis-Cisco..."

Your anxiety shot through the roof the moment you spoke, and the moment he heard your voice, he stopped what he was doing.

Without even turning around to look at you, he spoke in a distant, cold tone, " What are you doing here [y/n].."

Your chest began to tighten as you briefly bit your bottom lip, trying to muster up some kind of excuse, but instead, only answered with silence.

Cisco was clearly very uncomfortable with having to speak to you, and reluctantly, he let his eyes flash up to meet yours.

A look of mild devastation was across your face, as you couldn't bring yourself to look at him.

He was right, what were you doing here?

" N-Nothing, nothing, I'm, uh. " You pause, a wide smile passing over your face, your eyes still unable to meet with his, as they filled to the brim with tears.

" I don't know why I'm here actually, I'm-going-to go! " Your voice was low but very clear, and your frantic voice spoke so quickly that the words were barely recognizable.

You could feel a hard, uncomfortable lump in your throat form as you tried to speak, and the tears that had flooded your eyes were about to spill down your face.

He was so nice, and cute.. and funny. Why would he want to be with anyone less that that.

You cleared your throat and gave an uncomfortable, awkward, and quick wave to him before turning and practically running from the room that you had just found him in.

Your face began to dampen as the full well of tears in your eyes gave way, and silently, you screamed at yourself for letting your mind go too far.

You called the cab that had dropped you off just ten minutes ago, having them turn around and pick you up from the same spot they had dropped you off. Only now, there was a completely different woman waiting for them.

You hastily stuffed your phone into your pocket and used the palms of your hands to quickly wipe away the wetness on your cheeks, and try to compose yourself before the cab driver arrived.

" [y/n].."

Cisco's voice caught you off guard, and instinctively you turn to face him, only to quickly look away. The cab you called for would be here any minute, and without thinking you left the curb you're standing on, and begin to walk along the quiet street outside the City.

His voice rang again right behind you again, calling for you to stop, but his voice only caused your pace to quicken. With each step, and with every call from him, your could feel that familiar feeling form in your throat, as your eyes began to water again.

Your quick pace wasn't enough, and within seconds of calling to you again, a strong hand reached out and firmly latched onto yours.

" Just STOP, okay, " You snap at him, not sure what kind of game he was playing, but you were done being toyed with.

Cisco's grip was strong, and your fast pace combined with the abrupt halt had caused you to nearly fall over. Without missing a beat he pulled you into his arms before you could fall onto the hard pavement.

You resisted and your temper immediately flared as Cisco let his arms embrace around you. You tried to push away, squirming and mumbling loudly to yourself as hot-hate filled tears flooded your eye sight and stung your face. You flailed and eventually ended up angrily sobbing, not even wanting to let him see you like this ever again.

He didn't deserve to.

Cisco's hands briefly fell from your shoulder and to your lower back, as your cries quieted into his shoulder.

Cisco's fingertips pressed tightly against your body, holding you tighter against him as your cries continued, and your body finally relaxed against him, your arms reaching around his back for strength.

" I know-I know, it's.. okay."

His voice was low and cracked as he spoke, but the more he spoke the more you shook your head, knowing he didn't understand how you felt.

" I was so scared. "

Cisco's voice trailed off as he pressed a cheek against your wet forehead and for a few moments, there was a shared silence between the two of you. You almost missed his quiet sobs against your already wet face.

Your grip tightened around his back, and slowly, methodically, your hands rubbed small circles on his back, trying to comfort him.

" Me too.. "

Your voice sounded alien to you, as the crying and anxiety had put a strain on your throat.

Cisco's cheek briefly parted from yours as his lips pressed tightly against your cheek before his shoulders slouched, and he comforted himself by burying his face into your neck.

One of your hands left his back to try and comfort him, only managing to grab a handful of hair.

" I'm not going to leave you, Cisco.."

Your voice shook slightly as the words left it, and Cisco's grip on you tightened.

" I promise-I promise-" Your voice was low and almost incoherent as you mumbled into his body.

Minutes passed before he abruptly pulled away, and brought up both hands to wipe away the wetness from your eyes before cupping each side of your jaw.

"[y/n], will you.. " Cisco's voice paused in exhaustion and excitement.

" Of course I will.." You spoke to him in a horse, happy tone.

A wide toothy smile crested upon your face as you shook your head yes, still not believing what was happening to the two of you.

A look of complete relief passed over Cisco's face, as his watery, red eyes closed and he lunged forward again, this time wrapping her arms around you, as the two of you stood in the dimly lit street, outside S.T.A.R Labs