Sorry guys! especially you red envy since you are an awesome! well anyways I got a B over all from my science GCSEs! whoop whoop!

Love you and soooooooo soooooooo sorry *does adorable Puppy eyes and gives you a MaltEaster bunny* just telling ya shipshipshipshipshipship

warning sceens of intence stuff but no sex or liking or fingering or anything too physical athough ah just read. (will say *cough cough* and again at the end of hot sceen)

CPOV

Walking to therapy, I held my burning wrists to my stomach, basking in the glory of the pain that came from inside them.

'Clary! I couldn't see you at lunch and I figured you missed out on breakfast so I brought you a- Clary? why aren't you looking at me?!' Magnus swirled me around to face him, holding my wrist making me hiss though my teeth. He pulled up my sleeve despite my other hand grasping at his wrist. 'Clary?' his voice broke. Coughing to clear his tear logged throat, he grabbed hold of my upper arm and pulled me towards Maryse's office. 'I cannot believe that you did this again... again Clary... why?'

Reaching the office I heard voices, the voices of Jace and Maryse. 'Im sorry Maggs... Really.' And me being the pathetic weak person I am broke down and cried.
'Clary this cannot go on!' He rasped trying to be the strong one. 'I don't think I can take you doing this any longer!' it was then that I realized the voices in the office had stopped and at the door where Jace and Maryse, staring confusedly between us.

'Clary? what's wrong.' poor Jace doesn't realise how messed up I am. how broken. How pathetic.
'Noth-' r
'CLARY WHAT THE FUCK! MARYSE-' suddenly he stopped and took a calming breath.'-Maryse, she's been hurting herself again...' he trailed off tears finally rolling down his cheeks leaving trails of glimmering water behind. isn't it weird that tears are so beautiful, yet so so sad?

I felt like I kicked a puppy. Jace was that puppy. suddenly I felt so guilty, 'Ja-jace im so so-ory pl-please forgi-ve me...' I managed between gasping cries. my heart was beating fast, my head was pounding. I felt so dizzy, like I couldn't find a reason to stay awake. I didn't want to. then I passed out. head hitting the soft carpet with a thud.

JPOV

My beautiful tortured angel. I was sitting by her bed, a doctor had come in an hour ago to cheek on her and said it was stress and anxiety that made her pass out, he also ran blood tests, leaving us waiting for the results. Suddenly I felt slight pressure on my hand, like when you wake up and clutch at the quilt a bit tighter. I felt my body tugged down to be lying next to Clary, her vanilla scented hair smelling odd on her as you'd expect it to smell like strawberries. I looked into her open eyes before properly laying on the bed.
'Hey Angel. you almost tugged me off the chair you know?'
'Oh I know. it was a little bit of a disappointment not seeing you on your ass!' with the word ass she pushed me off the bed unexpectedly, leaving me stunned on the floor, her laughing her but off.

getting up I tacked her onto the bed straddling her legs and tickling her till she begged me for mercy.
'J-J-J-Jace ple-ahhhh pl-ease stahhhhhp. Nahhhhhhhhooooo.'
eventually I stopped. looking into her beautiful eyes. then I looked down to her pink-nude lips, soft and delicate.
'C-clary?' I said.
'Yes Jace?' her breathing was heavy, heaving pants making her chest gently brush mine, leaving me a shivering mess of a player.
'C-can I... can I kiss you?' her breath hitched, she stopped breathing until she reached one slender hand to the back of my neck and entangled the other in my hair before tugging me down and kissing me passionately. grinding her pulsating hips towards mine making me groan into her hungry open mouth, giving her the access she desired. that I craved. I slowly pulled away and rested my head next to hers, panting.

'Clary? will you go out with me I whispered into her ear. I felt her turning my head before say the words that made me shiver from unrestrainable hunger.'

CPOV

'Yes Jace. I am yours, everything I am. and trust me, its not something Id give lightly.' I felt him shudder as my lips lightly brushed his ear as I whispered in it. 'Im yours Jace. Make me yours.' I whispered the words that were his undoing.
'Im yours clary and I will make you mine.'

His lips ran to the corner of my eye kissing is softly before traveling slowly down leaving wet kisses in his wake. I felt his lips at the joint of my colour bone and neck as he sucked and nibbled at it possessively, making me moan.

*cough cough*

'Jace...aghh... please!' I begged. slowly I felt his arms go behind my arched back, his hands going to the hem of my top tugging it up slowly and lifting it away from my body. as he slowly kissed his way down my body his wet tong leaving shiny trails down my stomach.

'You should eat more clary' he said in between kisses. before carrying on to my waist band, I felt him grinning as my hips arched at the feel of his hot breath on me. 'Well... someone's desperate.' he said grinning up at me, pulling my jeans gently down my hips, the frigid air making me shiver more than I was already. I felt his hands undoing my bra as he worked his way up, my hands and mind too occupied with taking his top off. I ran my hands up and down his toned back and stomach before sucking and biting on his neck feeling him harden even more against my pants(panties(sorry for ruining the moment my dears)). as I ran my hands to his waist band he whisperd, 'Not tonight clary. tonight is all about you.' I could only nod.

he slipped off my bra and kneeled in front of my legs and tugged me till my legs were hanging off the bed as he slid my pants off deliciously I felt him nearing my core.

*cough cough done*

JPOV

I woke up, clary once again nestled in my arms as I replayed last night, her taste her moans, my name on her lips like a plead, begging me for more as I pleasured her, the night listening to her pants. after wards nestling her into my arms and coving her with the quilt as she slowly drifted to sleep, tired from the orgasmic night she had.

I couldn't help but grin.

Angel is not so much an angel...

CPOV

I awoke to the feeling of a face pressed against my neck as it faced away from the person. Jace.

I remembered last night as he put my needs before his own. my smile died down as I remembered that I didn't deserve him. but I was selfish I wanted him not just physically but on an emotional and spiritual level.

I wanted to live...

I wanted to feel...

I wanted to love...