So Much for Forever
Chapter- 7
-XIII-
"Hey—" Axel began, but before he could even get another word in the door was slammed quite loudly in his face. Well that could have gone better.
"Nice chat!" he yelled sarcastically.
"Go away, Asshole!" a muffled voice shouted back.
"Actually it's, Axel. A-X-E-L, got it memorized?" Roxas rolled his eyes and kicked the bottom of the door.
"Really? Because every time I see you the first thing to pop into my head is asshole." the redhead grunted and knocked softly on the door again before leaning his ear against it.
"C'mon Rox, I wanna talk to you." he whined.
"I said go away. And don't call me that!" Roxas glared at the door as he heard the knock again.
"Do you prefer brat?" Axel asked.
"Go away!" Roxas shouted for the third time. But Roxas didn't know just how persistent the red head was and he wasn't giving up, not anytime soon.
"Please, Roxas. I really want to talk to you." Axel winced at the amount of pathetic in his voice. He really didn't want to be here, he just didn't; but the thought of losing the only person he could cling to was enough to make him put forth his best acting skills. "Roxas, I've been denying feelings I never thought I'd have for you. That's why I was pushing you away, Roxas. Please open the door." Wait, what? Roxas couldn't believe his ears; did Axel really just say he had feelings for him? Of all people? 'Okay so maybe that was a little to much bull shit…' Axel thought to himself; but with the sound of the door unlocking and the squeak of it opening he figured it worked. As Roxas opened the door to invite Axel in the older teen gasped. Was he blind a few hours ago? Because he just noticed how bad Roxas really looked… Roxas was a mess. The jeans he wore were covered in bits of blood and small rips, the knee was completely blown out and his upper leg must have been torn open from the amount of red liquid gathering there. His skin was sickly pale and his golden hair was more of dishwater blond. His ocean deep eyes held his entire story and were beginning to dull. But what really caught Axels' attention was the quarter size puddle of blood on the floor by Roxas' bare feet. The source of the blood was his arm, now completely drenched in the sticky substance and slowly dripping off his fingers.
"Ro-Roxas…?" Axel took a step back from the now confused boy; but when Roxas looked down he immediately understood and slammed the door once more. This time out of fear. Shit! They both thought. Roxas ran to the kitchen to grab a dish towel. 'I guess it was deeper than I thought.' the boy sighed and continued to run his arm under the warm water. Axel meanwhile was still in shock. Things just became serious; regardless of his feelings he refused to allow some one to be so close to death when he knew he could do something to stop it. He banged his fist against the door and shouted, "Roxas open the door!" A weak 'No.' came from inside but Axel was having none of that.
"Roxas open the fucking door!" he screamed.
"No!" Roxas shouted back.
"I swear to God kid, you don't open this door I'm burning it!" the furious pyro immediately starting searching around the door and under the mat for a spare key. When he found none and Roxas stopped responding Axel panicked. He mustered up some strength and raised his foot, violently knocking down the door. Green eyes scanned the studio and found his target in a matter of seconds. Roxas was on the floor in the kitchen whimpering and clutching his injured arm to his chest. Axel ran over and scooped the boy into his arms. "Shhhh shh shh… It's okay Rox, I'm here." But Roxas stopped moving. Shit.
-VIII-
The ambulance pulled up to Roxas' apartment about twenty minutes after the call. Axel was sitting out front with a blacked out blonde in his arms and a tourniquet wrapped tightly around his arm and leg. The paramedics ran up to them quickly taking Roxas from Axel's arms. "Are you family?" The first one asked.
"N-no. I'm not." axel answered.
"What happened?" one of the other paramedics asked Axel. The teen muttered a bit trying to come up with some lie, but his mind was drawing a blank. The man sighed and looked straight into Axel's eyes.
"Sir, I need to know honestly. Was this a suicide attempt?" he asked in a very serious tone. Axel shook his head and sighed.
"I don't know. The cuts were done before I got here."
"I see." the man started to walk off but Axel stopped him and looked genuinely worried at the time. He looked to the ground and scratched his neck.
"What's going to happen to him, now? He asked as Roxas was placed inside the vehicle and the door closed.
"We'll see what the doctor's think." with that the paramedic wrote down the address of the hospital, handed it to Axel, and left. As the ambulance started their sirens and began to pull away it took axel all of five minutes to jump on his Motorcycle and follow right behind the speeding van. The 10 miles they drove to the nearest hospital was agonizing for Axel. He really wished he brought his car instead of the bike to start with; less thinking when driving. However, what was really nagging at the fore front of his head was how this entire thing was his fault. "How could I have been so stupid?" he shouted at himself trying to keep up with the van.
"If I hadn't said anything he wouldn't have cut himself again… we might have actually talked like planned." The ambulance pulled into the emergency lane at the hospital and Axel quickly sped off to the parking lot. But as he was running through the hospital doors a small voice asked him, 'Why are you doing this for the brat who broke up you and Saix?' this made him stop. Why is he doing this?
'Because it's your fault!' his better judgment told him.
"Excuse me sir, can I help you?" Axel looked up at the woman behind the desk who was trying to talk to him. "Huh? Oh! Uh, yeah you can actually. My friend just got brought in but I'm not family so they wouldn't let me go in the ambulance. Do you know what room he's in?"
"Name please?"
"Roxas…uhm…" Axel began but he couldn't finish. What was his last name? Guess he really didn't know Roxas much at all. "I'm sorry." Axel said, "I don't know his last name." The woman began typing some things in the system before she smiled.
"You are lucky your friend has a unique name. Roxas Strife, floor eight room thirteen. But because you're not remedial family I can't let you in." she said with a frown. Axel's face dropped, he wanted to see Roxas. The woman continued, "You can visit him tomorrow during visiting hours though." Axel nodded weakly. "Thanks Miss. Do you mind telling me when those are exactly?" She nodded, "Eleven to six."
"Thank you." Axel mumbled out as he turned and headed out the door. He walked to his bike and rode home his mind only focused on Roxas. By the time he reached his apartment he had actually been reduced to tears he hadn't shed since his brothers' funeral.
"Shit!" he screamed into the empty place. Axel was pissed off at everything. At Roxas, for being so stupid, at Demyx for being a bitch, at Saix for everything, and above all himself. He sighed and looked at the ground his hands clenching and unclenching into fist.
"Damn it… This is entirely my fault." Another few minutes of standing in an open door way he realized he needed to see Roxas, he needed to set things straight. With little time to actually let his actions sink in he was out the door again, down to his car this time and off to the hospital.
Axel walked in through the hospital's sliding doors and there was a new woman at the counter. He smiled at her and sat down in the chairs. She gave him a curious look and got up to walk over to him.
"Excuse me, sir. I'm Aqua, can I help you?" Axel smiled weakly and nodded.
"Yeah, but not right now. Not visiting hours, ya know."
"Who are you here for?" she asked sweetly.
"Roxas Strife."
"Oh! That poor boy." Axel looked up at the blue hair woman and asked, "You know him?" She nodded and frowned at him.
"I had to help restrain him; he wanted to know what happened to an Axel." Said red head looked away and glared at the wall. "Thanks." he told Aqua. "I think I'm just going to stay out here 'til visiting hours start." She frowned again and just walked away. Axel pulled out his phone and sent a quick text to Demyx.
To: Demyx Sender: Axel
11:32pm
Roxas is in the hospital- I guess
things didn't go according to plan…
I won't be there tomorrow for school.
He sighed when he realized the time. He had at least another eleven hours until visiting hours began. That's when he began to realize that maybe there was more to this Roxas ordeal than he knew. Those were his last thoughts before he fell asleep.
-XIII-
Roxas woke up again to the white room dazed and confused. He groaned and tried to sit up but found his wrist tied to something. "Hello?" he called out to the empty room.
"Ah, you're awake. It's about time." A black haired male with spiky hair walked up to Roxas and scribbled some things down. "How ya feelin' Roxas?" the man asked him.
"I'm restrained…" The dark haired man nodded and pulled a small flash light out of his scrub pocket.
"Before I release you I need to make sure you're not going to do anything stupid." He stared at Roxas for a moment then continued, "Do you want to hurt yourself?" Roxas shook his head.
"Do you want to hurt someone else?" Another 'no' gesture.
"Are you going to try and escape the hospital again?"
"No…" he answered honestly. The nurse smiled and waved the lights across his eyes. When the blue orbs followed he grinned and unlocked the restraints. "Sorry 'bout that; but protocols and all that. My name is Zack Fair and I'm your nurse." Roxas only nodded and laid back down rubbing his sore wrist. Zack smiled and wrote a few things down on the clip board at the end of the bed. The air was tense so he decided to try and lighten the mood a bit.
"That red head of yours is pretty good lookin' guy. Got good hair taste too."
"What?" Roxas asked.
"Oh sorry, thought you guys were dating." Zack scratched his head and looked away. Roxas sat up and looked at him with a curious look. "What red head?" Axel? No, it couldn't be. Roxas shook his head and looked up at Zack waiting for his answer.
"Uh, I don't remember his name. But he's been out in that lobby doing random things to keep him occupied when visiting hours are up."
"You make it sound like it's been a while."
"Uhm, I hate to tell you kid but you've been out for 3 days."
"What?!" the blonde shouted. Zack immediately stepped up. "Hey, hey, calm down Roxas." Zack told him. Roxas sighed and looked at his hands, "For three days?" he asked. Zack nodded. "You want any food? You could use some. And if you want I can send in that red head."
"Oh, uh yes please. And just a salad." Zack nodded and left the room. Roxas sighed and lay back down. Who was the red head? But he got his answer when none other than Axel Lea Flynn walked through the grey door.
"Axel?!" shouted the child. The teen in question winced a bit and started to close the door.
"Sorry, I didn't know you were awake. I'm glad you're okay I'll…uh… I'll just go…"
"Wait! Axel please don't leave…" Roxas looked back down at his hands slightly ashamed at the amount of desperate whines in his voice. Axel simply nodded and sat down in the chair next to his bed same as the past visits. Roxas was the first to break the silence after about twenty minutes.
"The nurse guy told me you've been visiting me." Axel winced a bit and scratched the back of his neck.
"Uh yeah I guess." the red head mumbled out.
"No." Roxas shook his head and looked up at Axel's face. He looked as though he had little to no sleep at all. Then the boy smiled weakly and continued, "He said you've only left once for a shower and food. Even when you couldn't stay you waited in the hall till you could come back in…" Axel groaned and buried his face in his hands.
"Roxas, I-"
"No. Let me continue." the blond cut him off and tried to smile. "Axel I'm sorry if I've ever done anything to make you hate me as much as you do, or I guess did." Roxas sighed and began to fiddle with the blankets. "I don't know what you want from me Axel. I don't know what I did wrong, and even now, I have no idea where we stand. I just…" but his voice faded. He couldn't continue without crying and he refused to be so weak in front of Axel. The older teen was on the verge of tears himself as he looked up at the poor boy nervously playing with his blanket.
"I don't hate you." Axel began, "I never truly did. I just hated that you turned weak when you could have searched for strength. You looked for the easiest way out instead of the best." Roxas winced and bite his lip to distract himself. Axel continued.
"As for where we stand… I don't know. I- uh… Roxas I…"
"Axel?" Said man sighed and looked up, straight into the blonds' eyes.
"Roxas, I've had a while to think. Especially with little more to do in a hospital. And… well Roxas I think I-"
A/N: Muhahahahahahahahahaha! Another chapter up! Having no life kinda helps with this. Anyway I've seen a lot of people thank their reviewers through an a/n so I'm going to start that with my fics.
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