''Clarke, you should go to your sister'' Lexa said reassuring.
Clarke nodded. She stood up from where she sat and walked back to Finn and Gilly. But she turned around one more time, to face Lexa ''Stay positive. Keep fighting. Be brave. Stay ambitious. Stay focused and strong. Like you've always been because mentality is everything'' Clarke said with a smile.
Lexa smiled at Clarke and nodded ''Tell that to yourself. Soldier'' Lexa said jokingly.
Clarke laughed before turning back to Gilly. She sat down next to her little sister who was leaning against Finn. Gilly noticed Clarke and opened her eyes ''Clarke'' she whispered.
Clarke smiled at her little sister and pulled her in for hug. ''I'm scared'' Gilly whispered softly.
This made Clarke flinch. She saw the fear in her sisters eyes. ''It's okay, little one'' she said reassuring.
''Get some sleep'' Clarke said.
Gilly nodded and crawled up against her sisters side. She leaned her head against Clarkes shoulder before closing her eyes.
Clarke looked at Finn, who looked annoyed by her behavior. She knew that she hadn't been fair to him. ''I'm sorry for earlier, Finn. It's just that I'm in a lot of pain and I'm afraid that something will happen to me. Meaning that Gilly would have no one left'' Clarke said honestly.
Finn faced Clarke for a second, looking her straight in the eyes ''I'm sorry I've been such an asshole'' he admitted. ''I guess im a bit worried about that girl, Lexa'' he said, feeling envious towards her.
''Finn..You don't have the right to feel that way anymore. You're the one who broke up with me remember'' Clarke pointed out. ''Besides. She helped me with my leg. I can walk because of her help. She is a really kind person if you just give her the chance'' Clarke said.
''You've made your point, Princess. I'll back off'' he said a bit annoyed by Clarke.
''Let's just focus on getting out of her alive. It's been almost two days and no one has come to look for us'' Clarke said worried.
Lexa listened to the conversation between Finn and Clarke from a distance. She felt relieved that Clarke backed her up. This made her feel like Clarke trusted her. But Lexa knew Clarke was right. Someone should've contacted them by now. Lexa sat back, leaning against a tree, trying to get some sleep. She looked at the other 6 people sitting around the campfire. But mainly focused on Clarke and Gilly, who were sitting on the right.
Gilly opened her eyes and turned to her sister. Clarke saw her little sister waking up.
''What's wrong, little one?'' Clarke asked worried.
''I'm scared..'' Gilly said, crying softly. ''And I miss mum'' she added.
Lexa overheard the conversation and crawled back up until she was on her feet. She walked towards Clarke and Gilly and sat down next to her.
Lexa motioned for Finn to move aside, so he did. She turned Gilly and smiled at the little girl.
''Being scared is normal'' Lexa said proudly. ''Wanna hear a story?'' she asked.
Gilly nodded carefully at Lexa ''Yes''.
''Alright. Sit back and relax. It's about me being scared as well''.
''It was a sunny afternoon when me and the rest of my division went on a mission. There was a hostage situation. A few of our men were taken, by the enemy. We headed towards a little town in the middle of the desert. It was my first mission as a member of special forces. Me and Costia, a fellow soldier headed to the back of a building where the hostages were being held by some men. So Costia motioned for me to walk in, but I was to afraid at first. It wasn't until she screamed for help I got over my fear and walked in not even thinking about surviving for a second. My point is Gilly, my devotion to my mission surpassed my fear. So can you, whatever is bothering you. You can tell your sister. You look like a great soldier to me'' Lexa said winking at the little girl.
The girl stared wide eyed at Lexa and somehow felt encouraged. She smiled and hugged Lexa unexpectly ''You're the bravest'' she whispered.
Lexa smiled at the girl. She hoped that she calmed her down so she could get some sleep. But she never expected the girl to lean against her and fall asleep right between her and Clarke.
Lexa took of her partly ripped jacket and tugged Gilly in. ''Sleep tight'' she whispered.
Clarke smiled at Lexa before falling asleep as well.
The night passed fast and even Lexa got some sleep. She was used to having little sleep. Back in Afghanistan, she slept around 4 hours a night.
When the sun came up Clarke woke up. She looked scanned her surroundings and welcomed the morning sun. Clarke looked to her middle, where Gilly had been the night before. But she was gone. Clarke looked around and noticed some footprints leading towards the treeline. Until she saw Gilly lying down against a tree.
''Gilly?!'' Clarke screamed in fear. She got up and strumbled towards her little sister.
Her sister didn't move. Clarke fell down on the ground next to her sister and crawled towards her.
She held her sister in her hands and noticed how white she was. Clarke didn't understand what was going on. She noticed that Gilly opened her eyes and reached for Clarkes hand.
''Cl..aar-ke-ee'' Gilly said softly ''I'm..n-o..-t scar..ed anymore'' the girl whispered. Gilly took one last breath before everything went black.
Clarke held her sister in her arms '' '' Clarke cried out ''I can't lose you. Not you..It was supposed to be me'' while holding her sisters lifeless body in her arms.
Lexa woke up from Clarke screaming. She stood up as fast as she could and rushed towards Clarke and Gilly. She fell down on her knees next to Clarke. ''Oh my god'' Lexa said way to loud.
''PLEASE DO SOMETHING'' Clarke cried out. While still holding her sister against her.
''HELP HER. PLEASE'' Clarke begged.
Lexas face turned white before. ''Clarke..it's to late'' Lexa said with a sad voice. For the first time in forever she had to hold back her tears. Lexa looked into the lifeless eyes of Gilly, and closed her eyes.
''SAVE HER. DON'T JUST SIT THERE'' Clarke screamed out. Clearly losing it. ''LEXA DO SOMETHING''.
''Clarke..'' Lexa said, trying to calm her down. ''Let me take a look at her, please'' Lexa begged.
Clarke nodded in tears and turned away from Lexa, before laying Gilly down in the sand.
Lexa examined the little girl, she had just saved two days ago. She lifted her t-shirt up, and noticed that her stomach was bruised all over. ''Internal bleeding'' Lexa whispered softly.
She saw Clarke clearly in a lot of pain. So she didn't want to make any of this worse.
''Clarke..she had internal bleedings. There was nothing we could've done'' Lexa said, holding herself together for Clarke.
Clarke nodded, but didn't answer directly. She crawled back to her sister, holding her again.
''We need to bury her. She deserves that'' Clarke said between her tears.
Lexa nodded at Clarke. ''You say goodbye. I'll go search for a peaceful place for her to be in peace'' she said before heading into the forest.
Finn and the rest had gathered around Clarke in the meantime and were flabergasted by the sudden death of this little girl. They realised how serious this situation was.
''The soldier above all others pray for peace, for it is the soldier who must suffer and bear the deepeest wounds and scars of war'' the Luitenant said with a respectful tone in her voice.
Lexa strumbled onto the graveyard, carrying the coffin with her beloved girlfriend in it.
It had been exactly one month since Afghanistan. Lexa was sent back to America to recover from her injuries.
All the others she served with had already been burried. Lexa couldn't attend these funerals because she had been out of it for atleast three weeks.
When she arrived with the coffin at the center of the graveyard. She put it down with her other friend, Lincoln.
He had been the one who saved her back in Afghanistan. He learned her how to make a splint, how to survive in the middle of no where. He was the reason she wasn't scared anymore. He was like a brother to her. Little did she know, he would die only two months later on another mission. That was the reason why Lexa left the army, well that and her injured leg. Her leg would never fully recover and she would have to life with that the rest of her life.
''Love is gone and my heart is a bird, that has lost direction mid-flight'' Lexa said, holding herself together. ''Costia was exceptional, she never feared death once. When we were on her fatal mission, Costia saved my life. She once told me that I had to surround myself with people who move towards the sound of gunfire, because they wouldn't dissapoint me when shit got real. I never realised she was talking about herself. She didn't hesitate for a second to save me. And that's why I loved her. Her fierce, heroism, without ever thinking about herself. So that's what I want to give you. Never for a second think, her death was for nothing because I will honor her forever'' Lexa spoke to all the people attending the funeral.
''May she rest in peace'' Lexa added, before strumbling towards the coffin together with Lincoln. They put the American flag on the coffin.
Lexa reached the riverside and knew a perfect place for Gilly. She began to move aside some plants and collected rocks, so they could bury her there. Lexa headed back towards the beach as soon as she was done. When she arrived back, she saw Clarke and Finn sitting next to Gilly.
Lexa walked towards them, but remained silent. Until Clarke noticed her and looked up ''I'm ready'' she said, pulling herself together.
Lexa nodded and kneeled down to pick up Gilly. Finn helped Clarke up and they followed Lexa towards the riverside until they reached the graveside.