You Shouldn't Have Left.
Chapter 10
Hi guys! Sorry about the long wait! I'm back with a new chapter, Sorry if any of my newer chapters aren't that good cause I will be writing them at night cause I will be helping my Mum in the mornings.
"Okay that movie was…Not that bad" Jack says as he stuffs some popcorn in his mouth and laughs
"I loved it!" Sadie yells
We walk around the parking lot and to my black jeep; I toss Jack the keys and open the side door to let Sadie in, I sit her in her car seat and buckle her up, Jacks already in the driver's seat so I sit next to him and he pulls the car into drive
Jack backs the car out of the parking lot and we tune onto the main street.
"Mom can we go to Denny's!" Sadie yells from the backseat; I look at Jack and he pulls into Denny's.
(A/N: Denny's is a pancake (sorta) house, its super amazing and I recommend it!)
We get seated in a small booth and within a couple minutes the waiter is asking what we want,
Sadie orders blueberry smiley pancakes, Jack and I order the never ending pancake stack and two cherry cokes, we make small talk until our food is brought
"Hey Sadie?" Jack says as he swallows a forkful of pancakes
"Want to go to the mall?"
"Can I?!" Sadie asks and Jack looks at me for approval
"Yes, but be back by 7" I say as look at the time; its 2:24
"Which means you don't have much time, drop me off on the way; I don't feel to good" I said, I bite my lower lip and lean back on the red velvet seat,
"Can we get a to go box?" Jack asks a waitress passing by; she gives him a flirty smile and he gives her one back, a pain tugs in my heart and I frown, same ol' Jack, I think
The same waitress comes back and gives us a couple to go boxes and gives Sadie some crayons oh look she even good with kids, I mumble to my self
"Huh?" Jack asks
"Nothing" I reply with such a fake smile
Jack packs the food and the waitress leaves; I smile and pull Sadie into a hug, a couple minutes later the Waitress comes back and gives us the check, I look and underneath is a note; all I can see is a smiley face and a couple numbers, I look over at the waitress and she gives Jack a wink and leaves, I feel tears bud in my eyes and my cheek starts to burn as I give in and let a tear slide down it
"Alright lets go, I really don't feel good" I turn my face and grab my purse with one hand and use my other arm to pick up Sadie and rest her gently on my hip
"Babe what's wrong?" Jack asks and grabs the food and follows me out the door, all the sudden he cares? Now that the pretty blue eyed blonde haired waitress is gone? Give me a break Jack I mumble and sit Sadie in her car seat
"Nothing, my stomach hurts" I lie and start chewing on my bottom lip like I do when I'm sad or nervous
"No something's wrong, your chewing your lip" Jack asks as he sets the car into drive and pulls out of the parking space
"Nothing is wrong! My stomach hurts and I am in a lot of pain! I want to go home!" I yell through tears, I look back at Sadie who is on the verge of tears
"I'm sorry Sadie I-"I say but am cut off by Sadie
"Can you hand me my iPod and headphones?" she says sternly, I know I have pissed her off because she is just like me, when she is mad she runs to music and shuts everybody out; bad habits
I hand her; her purple iPod and her black headphones, she puts the ear buds in her ears and turns on her iPod, and she looks out the window and silently cries
I feel horrible for making her cry; I didn't know she was that sensitive
The rest of the car ride was filled with silence, we got home and I jump out of the car and they drive away, I feel the wind start to pick up and it pulls my black jacket up and I start shivering, I cry and the tears fall down like icy cold rain drops; making me shiver even more, I unlock the door and step inside, I take off my jacket and throw it on the couch, I quickly put the food in the refrigerator and run to the bathroom, I lock the door just in case and sit on the ground with my back against the wall, I grab my purse and search through it until I find what I am looking for, I grab it and twiddle it in-between my fingers making cuts along my fingertips, I quietly repeat to my self
"Worthless, unloved, ugly, fat, disgusting, alone"
I say it to myself until I am shaking violently and crying so hard my eyes sting
"Old habits die hard"
I say as I bring the blade up to my wrist and slide it across my skin, leaving beads of blood as it goes.
~End of Chapter~
Again sorry it's so short! I am having writers block and needed a chapter up, sorry if its crap; leave your review in the comments! Be honest :* Love you!