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Teddy

"It's time to cut ties that won't ever free our minds

From the chains and shackles that they're in"

- Life is a Song, Patrick Park

Callie

It feels like time is standing still as I am transported to our old life. I miss the way she feels, the way she smells. I miss her laugh, getting lost in those cerulean irises. I miss the dimples and her girly hands. I can't help but remember the better times, the happier times. I genuinely used to believe we were going to be together for the long haul. That there was nothing we couldn't weather. Our love was that magical. God, that super magic smile that could stop the whole world from spinning if she wanted it to. In this moment, I struggle to remember why we parted. Why I felt I needed to walk away. I always wondered if I had made a mistake. Could I not have worked on making me happy with her? Could we really not fix us and each other?

I try to remember the decision I made. It was right for me at the time and I stand behind it… most days. Today, I wish she were mine. Today, I wish I didn't feel like I wasn't allowed to have her this close to me. Today, I wish I was hers. Today, I wish the person standing in the doorway wasn't my red-headed girlfriend. I feel the heat rise to my face as I sit up straight and pull away from the soft warmth of my ex-wife.

"Penny!"

She looks back and forth between me and Arizona, who looks unfazed and begins to stand.

"Dr. Torres. Dr. Robbins, I have the labs for the boy in room 1805 for you," Penny speaks calmly and walks past me to hand Arizona the folder.

"Great, thanks, Blake. I'll meet you there in twenty," Arizona replies as she begins to look through her patient's labs. Penny nods and backs out of the room, barely looking at me in the process. Well, shit. I'm in trouble now.

I feel nervous for a second, almost guilty about the nothing that transpired between Arizona and I. If I am truly honest with myself, I miss Arizona more, feeling her like I just had, sitting with her, enjoying her company. That, to me, is even worse.

Arizona

I'm staring at these labs like I mean it but I my mind is elsewhere. Penny walked in on nothing, right?

It's just Calliope and I now and the air feels heavy and it weighs on my heart. I can feel myself screaming out for her but the labs in my hand remind me that I lost her a long time ago. She is happy now. Her girlfriend handed me her labs. Her wonderful, perfect Penny. I can remember, all too vividly, her telling Maggie and Amelia all about her…

"I can't stop thinking about her. You know when you meet someone and you get that flutter? That rush?" Callie giggled as she twirled the dark brown tendril framing her face, "And it feels like you know them and they know you and you think to yourself 'I could stare at this person's face forever."

Forever. Two dates in and Callie was already talking about forever. It's been months now and Callie jumps all in in everything she does and relationships are no exception. They're probably madly in love now and I'm standing here thinking about how much I want her. My beautiful, breathtakingly stunning, wonderful, miraculous Calliope isn't mine to have and to hold. It's time I accepted that. It's been over a year.

I clear my throat and walk toward the door, pausing for a second to look back at her, "Thanks, Calliope."

Callie

"Thanks, Calliope."

Those beautiful baby blues lock with mine for second and I can feel my heart sink. Why does this feel like goodbye?