Hi guys!
Just so you'd know: If I have to be honest, I had a series of talks with my friends, and I just realized something. Somehow with that point of realization, it made me turn back to writing the sequel as it was before. (with the minor changes)
I guess, to summarize what I'm trying to say is, I just can't write something that I haven't experienced yet and there's something about the new sequel that I haven't experienced yet as much as I loved the fun that it has in stored though. (If I have to be honest, that inexperience in that certain area is silly but true… if you're curious I'll be willing enough to share it. It's not something to be ashamed of anyway)
But, if you have to ask regarding the part as to why I changed the sequel, its just there was just something wrong before, now that I realized what was wrong I think I know how to make it now.
So, there.
And, I'm somehow thankful for you guys who aren't really complaining with my hang ups, as some even supported me through this dilemma that I'm going through.
Anyways I would like to thank:
Anemos
Lilly321
For reviewing the last revised, and edited chapters that I've reposted.
(To the anonymous review I"ll be replying at the end of the chapter)
Anyways, just so you'd know the change of our characters fates shall start now, so please do enjoy the latest chapter of the original The Heart Of The Crimson Dragon: Autumn Tryst.
The Heart of the Crimson Dragon: Autumn Tryst
I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
Just A Dream
By: Nelly
-Chapter 05-
Yusei's azure eyes were wide as he was surprised to see the girl who just dueled him a while ago, only to find her lying in the streets unconscious with her D-Board lying very faraway from her; same with her red specs. He quickly went down on his knees as he tried to shake her—hoping that she's still alive and she would just wake up.
However, as he keep on shaking her, the hat placed securely on her head, started to fall off as it revealed her mid-length, layered-cut blond her completely surprising him. Thoughts and assumptions completely filled his mind: 'Blond Hair? No way! It can't be—Hikari!'
"Hey, wake up!" He exclaimed hoping that his voice would reach her. In a matter of minutes, the girl finally started to gain consciousness as her eyes opened carefully, revealing calm sapphire eyes.
He was definitely shocked, he just doesn't know what to do at the moment. It was plain obvious that it is her.
The girl made her hands trail off to her head, as she tried to stand up, but failed as she fell. However, before she could even touch the ground Yusei quickly caught her in his arms.
It doesn't matter how she got here…
It doesn't matter what her reason was for her disappearance…
For now, all he cares about is her, being right here, right now. Euphoria quickly filled him, he was just happy. Happy that she is still alive and well. If only he could cry, he would definitely cry tears of joy.
"Hikari? Hikari? What's wrong with you?" He asked as he tried to near his face towards her only to get a whiff of a familiar scent—alcohol. 'Was she drunk again? I wonder, what's the reason she keeps doing this to herself. Did something happen to her?'
"Who are you? How did you know my name? Let me go!" She quickly exclaimed, though weak as she is now at her state, still she squirmed between his arms. But, Yusei instead made her face him as he made sure their eyes met.
"Hikari, it's me, Yusei." With the mentioning of his name, she stopped struggling, as her flushed face now became forlorn, whilst her eyes started to fill in with tears.
"Yusei?" she asked surprisingly in an almost quiet voice, but before she could say anything further, she fell limp on his arms—unconscious.
It was finally morning as Hikari laid on the bed, with the sun shining bright on her face from the window, causing her to stir a bit from her sleep. Her sapphire eyes opened slowly as she got a view of the plain light blue room.
But, as realization hit her she quickly sat up from the bed.
'Crap, what the hell just happened to me?' she thought as she tried to look at herself, only to realize that she's not wearing her usual clothes anymore but rather a plain white shirt, over her underwear and black shorts. 'No no no! THIS IS BAD! What if these people know about me! They could sell me to whoever!' she thought definitely in panic mode as she stood up, as she quickly dug in to her pockets hoping that her stuff were still there, but much to her chagrin everything was just gone. She tried to look around from the drawer near the bed and even under the bed. Her stuff were just not there.
'No! This is bad! I don't know what happened to me, and how the hell I got in here. Damn, something must have happened. I just wish that it didn't end up like that.I still wanted to be pure!' She thought a bit terrified. She quickly went towards the window to know where she is right now, and to see if she could stealthily escape.
'Well, wherever I am right now, this place doesn't seem to be a place for hoodlums. But, then again. I can't let my guard down. I mean, they did took everything! Ugh. Clyde, I must have upset him too much last night. If I wasn't that rash, maybe he could have picked me up wherever I ended up unconscious. Sigh. I shouldn't have run away. I shouldn't have let my emotions got over me. Sigh. It was over. I ran away, thus I should have just faced the consequences. No, that wasn't it, I should have just forgotten him earlier.'
"Hikari," a low familiar voice uttered her name. Just hearing it said by the owner of the voice has totally taken her aback, as emotions started to fill her in completely. There were no words said after that as he just walked towards her, and made his arms snake around her small frame carefully.
She doesn't know whether to be happy or not, if she should cry or not.
"Yusei," she whispered, as she finally cracked, whilst tears just rolled down on her face. The raven haired lad then made his hand trail on to her face, as his sad yet happy azure eyes stared directly at hers.
She definitely doesn't know what to do right now. If Clyde was the one who orchestrated the things to happen, this definitely can't be taken as a joke.
She definitely can't be with him right now. Not now at her current state that is. Though her rational side would say that, her emotional side said otherwise, as she openly allowed his soft, tender lips to make it's way towards hers.
"Hikari, I've missed you. I've really missed you." Yusei stated emphatically, though his face may not be full of emotions, his eyes were enough to tell her how he really is feeling. "I still love you. I've always loved you, Hikari." Hikari was definitely taken aback to hear that, as she let go of him to look directly at his eyes.
"You do?" She definitely don't know what to do right now, should she follow her mind or her heart? As much as she loved him back, she just can't. But, this is what she has wished for, rather this is what she has deemed for ever since she fell in love with him.
It was impossible, it was just too nice to be a dream come true. But, now that it's in front of her, she can't.
"But, what about Aki? I know that she loves you, right? She likes you, Yusei!" Yes, that was the only alternative. Plus, she's beautiful and just about the same age as him. If it was her, Hikari was sure to accept it.
However, Yusei just kept himself silent. He was aware of the young girl's feelings. But, was that enough to hinder his love for her? Should pity be enough to hinder that? He just can't let that, he'd rather be true than hurt his friend for not truly loving her. Yes, it's a fact that he was aware of her feelings for him, but still he looks at her as a friend and her feelings alone for him wouldn't change anything about it.
"It's not that I don't care about her, but I just don't love her. I love her only as a friend, nothing more or less than that. I just love you and only you, Hikari. Even if a year has passed, I've never looked at any other girl but just you." Hikari definitely didn't know what to say, as she herself became speechless. She did nothing but cry, as she tried to get away from him.
"What's wrong, Hikari? Was there something wrong with what I've said?" He asked a bit worried, his face etched with concern.
"No, nothing's wrong. It's me who's wrong. I-I love you too, Yusei!" She exclaimed as both of her hands quickly formed a balled fist of frustration. "I do, Yusei. I badly do. But, I don't even know if I should be saying this right now. I can't be here." She said, as she tried to get away towards the door. She maybe fast, but Yusei's fast enough as he quickly got hold of her waist with his strong powerful arms.
"How can you say that?" He uttered his face plastered with a painful expression. "I've waited for a long time, Hikari. I've suffered nights, thinking about you. How can this be all wrong? Hikari, I'm here for you. Whatever you're going through I promise to protect you. I may have failed on that before, but now I'm sure that I'll definitely leave your side." With that Hikari finally stopped struggling, whilst she just continued to sob. "I'm sorry, I know that I've caused you such pain back then. I'm sorry, that I failed for being at your side."
"But, I can't, Yusei. I love you, and I can't allow you to get into what I'm going through right now. No, I definitely can't let you get involved! I've made a lot of people involved into this, and I can't risk you getting into to it, too."
"Getting involve in what?" Another male voice uttered, with that the pair stared at the door only to see two people standing in front of them.
"Jack?" Hikari gulped. 'This is bad, crap. I can't believe I allowed myself to be this vulnerable. I really need to run away.'
"It's not that I'm eavesdropping but I definitely can't turn deaf on matters like this. I don't know what the hell happened to you, but you can't keep running away anymore." Jack stated firmly as his amethyst eyes pierced directly at hers. "We don't know what you're involved at, but just so you'd know. We're your friends too, and we've been through thick and thin, and I guess that's enough for us to be involved with whatever you're involved at. Especially, him!" Jack pointed at Yusei.
"Just so you'd know, it's not just you. We suffered too. Think about that. You may not tell all of us, but I think he has enough right to at least know it. Think about it." With that Jack stormed away from Yusei's room with Crow following behind him.
Hikari definitely didn't know what to do right now. But, Jack is right. It wasn't just her, and they've been through so much already.
"I'm sorry. He's right, maybe I am just running away. I'll tell you guys."
Weeh, that's all that I can come up with right now =))
And somehow, I thought that was good enough o.O ( I hope XD)
Anyways, Please do review! Your thoughts are highly important for me! ^-^
So, TC! Happy Holidays everyone! :p
Anonymous Review Reply Section:
Anemos: If you haven't read my reply last time when I posted the latest chapter before I went berserk, here it is:
The moment I read your review I can't help but feel highly elated. I felt like wow, embarrassed and what not. I really didn't expect it =)) Though I'm really thankful that you really like the fic! But, I have to be honest, I never knew that the fic was like Romeo and Juliet type of story =))
Anyways, I hope that despite the sorta crappy chapter, you still enjoyed it! Do look forward for the upcoming updates!
And this is my reply to your current review:
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you too : ) and I'm somehow glad that you liked the reposted chapters ^^,
Well, in regards to your question, I'll be frank (since there's no use denying it since it was highly evident) No, I'm not well, nor fine in regards to writing. I'm just troubled I guess. Well, I was fine when I first wrote this, but I became to rash, and just wrote for the heck of it despite the fact that I wasn't really focused on this thing since I'm going through hell month =.= (finals in college). Then I started having doubts on myself and on the fic itself. If I'm really doing it right. As I read through my own fic, I actually realize that there is something wrong since it became heavily dramatic, or rather cliche. Then suddenly someone did point out that there is something wrong, which somehow not really the cause but rather the evoker (don't know what term to express it but just that) of the things happening right now.
So, then I thought it must have been the fic. So, I started to rewrite everything and went back to my original plan, but I guess I wasn't still appeased with that though :p
If I have to be honest, I'm still not sure if I'm feeling stable enough to make sound decisions regarding the fic, but like I said after a series of talks I came to a point of realization that its not really the fic but just me having self-doubt and less confidence. So, regardless at whatever might come up, I'll still continue this fic.
And if it wasn't for people like you and rest of those who were concerned I guess, i wouldn't be continuing this and would have just abandoned this thing. So, I highly thank you all ^^,
So, of course, I'm very thankful for your super special awesome review ^^,
TC